Session 682

Guilt and Worry


"Duplicity: Guilt and Worry"
"Physical: Asthma and Itching"
"Milumet: Individual Exploration"

Friday, August 18, 2000-2
© 2001 (Private/Phone)
Participants:  Mary (Michael) and a new participant, Bill (Khalil).
Elias arrives at 1:35 p.m. (Arrival time is 23 seconds)

ELIAS:  Good afternoon!

BILL:  Good afternoon, Elias.  How are you?

ELIAS:  As always! (Chuckling)

BILL:  I love your voice!

ELIAS:  And shall we proceed?

BILL:  By all means.  My name is Bill, and I have like a whole list of questions for you, I guess as most people do.  I thought I’d start with something just fairly basic, like what family of consciousness I might be from and what my entity name might be, that sort of thing.

ELIAS:  Very well.  Essence name, Khalil; K-H-A-L-I-L. (kah-leel’)

BILL:  Khalil — that’s interesting.  What family of consciousness would he be from?  Is that my entity name?

ELIAS:  Yes.  Essence family, Milumet; alignment in this focus, Tumold; orientation, common.

BILL:  Common orientation ... yes.  It’ll take a little bit to make all those connections. (Elias chuckles)  I was wondering, my thought processes, my awareness processes, seem to be slower than most.  How can I take advantage of what I have to a greater degree, and proceed more in a natural path?

ELIAS:  Quite simply, you may be accomplishing of what you are expressing by allowing yourself to relax and be accepting of your natural flow of energy, and not battling with your expression, and not creating expectations upon self that you may be expressing yourself “better” if you are expressing yourself differently.

Let me say to you, you are belonging to this essence family of Milumet, which creates an influence within your individual focus in relation to your expressions, your movement, and also, in part, in relation to your intent in this focus.

Now; this particular essence family does not express energy in what you objectively view as a rapid pace, so to speak.  This particular essence family expresses an energy which manifests not in compliance, so to speak, with the expressed pressures of your societies.

Are you understanding thus far?

BILL:  Yes, I believe so.

ELIAS:  Therefore, this is a natural expression within yourself.

Recognize that it is not the ONLY influence or expression within your focus, for you also create an individual personality and your own individual design of how you shall be creating your reality and expressing of yourself and of your individual intent and direction within this focus, but there are influences of the essence families that are incorporated in the design of your individual focus.

Now; this essence family of Milumet focuses attention more so in expressions of the individual, and not in alignment, so to speak, with groups or group movements.

Many times, within many societies throughout your world, there are mass expressions in the design of competition.  Competition creates a type of movement which is designed, in a manner of speaking, to be moving more rapidly.  There is an expression that is to be “moving ahead,” so to speak, of other individuals.  This type of expression is accepted in the mass beliefs in the societies in which competition is incorporated.

Now; there are some cultures within your reality, upon your planet, that do not incorporate this action of competition, but you participate within a society and a culture that does incorporate competition into the mass expression.

This particular essence family does not focus its attention or concern its movement with the expression of competition, for the attention is focused — or the energy is focused — more so upon the individual creativity and exploration of the individual, in relation to all of consciousness and its interconnectedness.

Therefore, your manifestation moves quite naturally in conjunction with that expression.

I may express to you that in familiarizing yourself with you and your energy and your natural expression of energy, and in allowing yourself to be accepting of the design of your pace, so to speak, within this focus, and not engaging the action of competition, you may be experiencing much more of an ease in your movement.

As you push yourself to be fitting into the expression of mass beliefs that is, in a manner of speaking, contrary to your natural expression, you create frustrations and you also create an automatic discounting of self, for you are striving to be achieving a type of expression that is not a natural movement to yourself.

Therefore, simply put, as you allow yourself to discontinue fighting with yourself, placing expectations upon yourself that are contrary to your natural flow of energy, and you allow yourself to relax and be accepting of your natural expression, you shall also automatically create much more of an ease within your focus and your movement.

BILL:  Would that also help with my breathing difficulties, and with the skin itches and eruptions that I’ve had?

ELIAS:  Yes.

BILL:  Can you tell me a little bit about my breathing difficulties and my asthma, and how I might be able to get some relief from that?

ELIAS:  Very well.

I shall express to you that you are creating this physical manifestation as a responsiveness to inward frustration.  You create a physical tensing of your physical body consciousness in relation to an expression of frustration.

As you view a limitation in the expressions of choices that you hold within your physical focus, you create a constricting of yourself.  You are mirroring physically what you are expressing inwardly.

Inwardly ... which is not entirely subjective, for there is some objective recognition of this action that you are creating inwardly.

In this, you create a frustration in your assessment that you are lacking in availability of choices or the presentment of choices to yourself, and as you create this frustration concerning your choices or the lack of choices that you view to be available to you, you create a tension within your physical body, which is a responsiveness in mirror action to this inner frustration.  This tension directs itself in the form of a constriction in your breath.

Now; I may express to you that you may be physically affecting of this action by allowing yourself a relaxation.

BILL:  Alright, and does this also tie in with the skin conditions?

ELIAS:  Yes, in a manner of speaking.  Now; this you create to be noticing of self.

Let me express to you, in relation to your breathing, you view this as the affectingness of outside influences.  Outside elements are affecting of you, and therefore affecting of your breathing.  This is the belief that has been held within your focus.

Now; as this is the belief, but as you are creating movement — in like manner to every other individual upon your planet within this time framework in relation to this shift in consciousness — you are attempting to be turning your attention to self, in the innate knowing that this movement shall be facilitating of the types of creations that you wish to be engaging.  Therefore, you create this stimulus or irritation within your skin, that you shall create a type of force of energy to be turning your attention to self.

Now; as you experience the physical manifestation and affectingness of the irritation in relation to your skin, does this not turn your attention to self?

BILL:  It must, yes.

ELIAS:  It does.  Now; it does not create a situation in which you allow yourself to entirely turn your attention within, but it does create a physical situation in which you shall turn your attention, even in part, to yourself.

In this, you have created this action, in relation to the other physical manifestation, to be allowing yourself to alter your perception by turning your attention to self, recognizing that outside elements are not creating these manifestations, but that YOU are creating these manifestations, and you are creating them quite purposefully.

The irritation of the skin is purposefully created to draw your attention to self.  Drawing your attention to self is purposefully created, that you may be allowing yourself to notice what you are creating in your manifestation, which your breathing mirrors.

It allows you the opportunity to familiarize yourself with you, and view how you are physically creating tension and constriction within your physical body expression as a mirror action to the frustration that is being experienced in the perception that you hold limited choices.

BILL:  Okay.  That really fits.

Well, I think I’m going to go ahead with a couple of my other questions then.  I’m wondering about my relationships with my wife and my daughter, and especially my friends here in Nashville, Elena and Carter.

ELIAS:  And express to me, what is your wondering in relation to these individuals? (Laughing)

BILL:  That was a pretty broad question!  My daughter is so similar to me, it seems, in style of awareness.  She’s had a little trouble socially in school, and she’s changing to a new school.  She’s bright enough, but she is, again, a little bit slower in awareness than her fellow students, and I’m wondering if she is of the same family, and perhaps is needing some of the same consideration for herself that you prescribe for me.

ELIAS:  In actuality, yes, you are correct.  This individual also is belonging to the essence family of Milumet — although the alignment is different within this focus — and in this, there is an influence in similar manner of mass belief systems, which she incorporates in comparison, to herself and her expressions.

Now; this individual, in creating these comparisons of herself to other individuals outside of herself, creates a movement in judgment upon self.

You may be offering an expression of influence in reinforcement with this individual by focusing your attention upon self and expressing the acceptance of yourself, which may be viewed by this individual as an example, and in that action, she may also be allowing herself to be expressing less judgment, and less of this action of comparison of self to other individuals as a gauge of acceptability and worth.

BILL:  I think you really nailed that.  That seems to fit real well.

How about my relationship with my friend Elena here in Nashville?  Are we related by family, by essence family?  We are so connected mentally.  Can you tell me a little bit about this relationship?  Have we been together before, or something of that nature?

ELIAS:  I may express to you, you do participate in other focuses together, and in this, you have become quite familiar with each other’s energy expressions.  You have chosen to be manifest in this focus also, in a sharing of energy and expressions to be reinforcing to each other within your individual movements.

You offer to each other certain expressions of validation that you may not offer to yourselves.  Therefore, you have engaged in this relationship, that you may be expressing this type of energy with each other; in a manner of speaking, as an expression of helpfulness to each other as you move into acceptance of yourselves, and allow yourselves this same type of validation and reinforcement that presently you are not offering as much to yourselves as you do to each other. (Chuckling)

BILL:  (Laughing)  I believe you got that one too! (Elias chuckles)

Where do I go from here?  I want to ask about the nature of my initial transcendental meditation initiation, and also about the incident with the Toltec warrior in Acapulco.  I would give you a choice on those — what you want to start with there.

ELIAS:  Choose a direction of information that you are seeking in relation to these subjects. (12-second pause)  What is the direction of your concern with your warrior?

BILL:  The experience where the ... I did not notice a painting on the wall until I had finished the final Castaneda book, and it said that he went off into the distance ... and the torches going through the mountain looked like the Toltec warrior holding the serpent, and that jolt he made at the base of my spine, and it ran up my spine to my crown center, to the top of my head, and it was such a pronounced physical energy.  I just wondered about the nature of that, whether it was a kundalini energy or was it a beneficial energy?  What ended at that point?

ELIAS:  (Chuckling)  I shall express to you that all of your expressions and all of your creations are beneficial!

In this, you have allowed yourself a momentary expression or surge of energy.  This is YOUR creation.  This is an experience you have offered to yourself in relation to your own energy and its movement.  You have allowed yourself a momentary experience, that you may recognize one small expression of the power of your own energy, and how it may surge instantaneously.

Now; this is significant, for it allows you — if you are paying attention — to be recognizing that you do incorporate a tremendously powerful energy within your physical manifestation.  You hold the ability to be manipulating energy in whatever direction you are so choosing, and you may be accomplishing in all that you choose to be.

The energy that you incorporate within your physical focus holds all of the power, in a manner of speaking, of essence, and you individually hold the ability to be manipulating of all of that energy.

This was merely a display, momentarily, that you have allowed yourself to experience and feel, of a surge of energy.  This is a very small expression that you have offered to yourself, in relation to the capability of the powerfulness of your individual energy.

BILL:  Okay.  Elias, I was wondering if you could tell me how many lives I have in this dimension now?

ELIAS:  Very well.  Total numbering of focuses in this physical dimension, 902.

BILL:  Nine hundred two — that seems like a lot!

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!  Not quite so very many, my friend! (Laughing)  I may express to you, an intermediate numbering! (They both laugh)

BILL:  I’m a little bit curious about my job and my employment, about whether my life would open more if I were to choose to find something else, and whether maybe this is time to close this down.

ELIAS:  And I shall express the questioning to you, what is your impression concerning this type of action, and what is your desire?

BILL:  (Whispering)  Damn!

ELIAS:  Ha ha!

BILL:  (Laughing)  And I think I expected your answer!


BILL:  (Laughing)  Okay.  I’m a little bit curious about why I would continue to hold guilt and punish myself, when for 25 years I’ve been pretty much trying to teach myself not to do that, you know, and why I still seem to fall back into old religious beliefs and structures, and find remnants of those around.

ELIAS:  This is an influence of religious beliefs.  I shall also express to you that there is an influence in this expression, in your continuing to be turning your attention outside of self.

Let me express to you, you may offer to yourself quite clear objective examples of how you may be expressing compassion and allowance in the choices and the expressions of other individuals, and even some expressions of acceptance of the choices of other individuals, and you may be expressing very similar choices or actions, and you shall not afford the same expression of allowance to self that you shall offer to other individuals.

This is a key element of duplicity which you have incorporated within your focus, and this be another reason that I express to you that you allow yourself to be familiarizing yourself with you — with your energy and with your natural flow.  You have allowed the expressions of mass belief systems and of other individuals, within your individual interaction throughout your focus, to be incorporated into your beliefs, and in this, your beliefs influence your perception, and your perception turns to self in judgment.

Now; look to the individual that you express in the role of your daughter.  As this individual creates judgments upon self, what is your experience?  Are you in agreement with those judgments?

BILL:  No.  I think she misjudges herself.

ELIAS:  Quite.  Now; therefore, you are not in agreement with the judgments that she places upon herself, correct?

BILL:  Correct.

ELIAS:  And do you not incorporate the expression of compassion to this individual?

BILL:  Yes.

ELIAS:  And do you not express to yourself the wishing that this individual would be discontinuing in the discounting of self, the judgment of self, and the incorporation of guilt within her focus?

BILL:  Very much so, yes.

ELIAS:  Why shall you not afford that expression to self?

BILL:  There’s no reason.

ELIAS:  Let me express to you the question, are you less of an individual and a glorious expression of consciousness than this individual that you view as your daughter?

BILL:  No.  You’re exactly right.

ELIAS:  Now; as you afford this expression and desire to your daughter, allow yourself also to express this to self.

I shall express to you, as I have expressed many times previously with other individuals, guilt and worry are the two expressions in energy that may be viewed as the closest possible expression to a waste of energy that you may manifest.  No energy that is expressed is wasted, but these two expressions of energy may be the closest as an expression of a waste of energy, for the only purpose that these two expression of energy serve is to be perpetuating the expressions of duplicity in the design of discounting of self.

One expresses the discounting of self in acceptance; one expresses the discounting of self in trust.  Guilt expresses the discounting of self in acceptance; worry expresses the discounting of self in trust.

BILL:  That is beautiful!  That really helps me understand that.

ELIAS:  And I express to you the question of why you shall express this to yourself?  Why shall you create a manifestation of energy, and hold yourself locked in this trap of discounting?  For you are undeserving of that expression, for no expression of consciousness, in any manifestation, is deserving of the expression of discounting of its own trust or acceptance. (Very deliberately)

BILL:  That is powerful, Elias.

ELIAS:  Therefore, my friend, offer to yourself the gift of permission to be expressing to yourself the same compassion and acceptance that you offer to other individuals that you engage relationships with, and that you offer to this individual that you hold great affection for, in your daughter, and in this, you shall also offer to her the greatest gift that you may present, that of yourself as an example in energy of herself and what she is.

BILL:  I think I’m seeing that the example I present, she will be able to follow more easily as she sees it in me.  I’m wondering how we present that, for instance, to her mother, to my wife, because my wife’s energy is very high and very, very much extroverted.

ELIAS:  Your concern is you, for this is your responsibility.  The expression of other individuals — your daughter also — is NOT your responsibility.  Do not assume personal responsibility for her or for your wife, but rather, allow yourself to hold your attention to self and to be expressing the acceptance and trust of self, for this energy automatically radiates from you and IS influencing of those individuals that you participate with, for they are allowing an influence of your energy already.

And in this, as they continue to be allowing of an influence of your energy, you may be more affecting in relation to these individuals by turning your attention to self than you may be in the ATTEMPT to be affecting, for the duration of your focus, in holding your attention upon them.  You may continue to attempt throughout your focus, and as you hold your attention upon them, you shall be much less beneficial or affecting than you shall be in focusing your attention upon YOU. (16-second pause)

BILL:  I’ve been wondering, Elias ... and that really seems to fit.  I’ve been wondering, though, if you know of the entity or the energy essence personality known as Seth.

ELIAS:  I am aware of this essence. (Pause)

BILL:  I wonder too ... some time back I had a motorcycle accident where I broke my collar bone and some ribs, and I was wondering if you could tell me how and why I set that up. (Pause)

ELIAS:  Within that time framework, the action that you engaged was not merely to be drawing your attention to yourself in concentrating your attention to self, and not incorporating some objective outside activity that you chose to be temporarily interrupting, but also to draw to yourself certain expressions of other individuals.

Now; let me express to you that you have created certain expressions within your focus quite purposefully, to be drawing to yourself at different time frameworks the expressions of other individuals that you feel lacking within self, or an inability to be offering to self.

This may be expressed in attention.  It may be expressed in an offering of compassion, an offering of understanding, in your terms, and an offering of allowance.  For you have allowed yourself to receive these types of expressions from other individuals within certain time frameworks through the action of affectingness within yourself, in moments in which you are creating more of an extreme in your lack of expression of these types to yourself.

Are you understanding?

BILL:  Yes, very much.  That was five years ago, and I’ve sorted it out partially, but I hadn’t come all the way to an understanding as you have given to me, and that really does fill in some of the gaps.

ELIAS:  You may have allowed yourself to view some aspects of the surface expressions that you have created in imagery and allowed as an involvement in that particular design of physical action and affectingness.  But I shall express to you that the underlying expression in reason, of why you have created this type of extreme of physical affectingness, is that you may be offering to yourself the expressions of other individuals that you draw to yourself to be, in a manner of speaking, replacing those that you are not offering to yourself.

BILL:  Hmm.  That really fits.

ELIAS:  In a manner of speaking, it is an action of a type of surrogate.  You shall accept the expressions of other individuals temporarily, to be compensating for that which you are not offering to yourself.

BILL:  Yes.  Thank you.

ELIAS:  You are quite welcome.

BILL:  Elias, we’re approaching the hour, and I want to thank you, and tell you that Cynthia said hello, Cynthia/Carter.  I hope to be able to speak with you again at another time.  Thank you very much.

ELIAS:  You are quite welcome, my friend.  You may extend my greetings to Cynthia.

I shall express to you, I shall continue to be interactive with you in energy, and offer an expression of helpfulness to you within this time framework of your own exploration.  In this, be encouraged, my friend, for you are creating valuable movement within yourself.  I offer to you tremendous affection, and to you this day, au revoir.

BILL:  Thank you so much.

Elias departs at 2:34 p.m.

© 2001  Vicki Pendley/Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved

Copyright 2000 Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved.