Thursday, June 15, 2000-2
© 2001 (Private/London)
Participants:  Mary (Michael) and two new participants, Bonnie (Acacia) and David.
Elias arrives at 8:16 PM. (Arrival time is 23 seconds)

ELIAS:  Good evening. (Smiling)

BONNIE:  Good evening, Elias.  Welcome!

ELIAS:  Welcome to you also! (Grinning)

BONNIE:  Thank you.  Thank you so much for coming to see me!  I want to ask you some questions, and I hope you can help me with them.

First of all, I’ve spoken to Mylo many times about this, and I have some understanding; not complete understanding, but I’m trying very hard to understand.  I’d very much like to know my essence name and family and alignment, please.

ELIAS:  Essence name, Acacia; A-C-A-C-I-A. (ah-kay’cee-ah)

BONNIE:  Thank you.

ELIAS:  Essence family, Borledim; alignment, Sumari.

BONNIE:  Thank you.

ELIAS:  You are quite welcome.

BONNIE:  I want to ask you, in this focus, I’ve always felt that I must be better, I must be better, I must be better!  I feel at the moment I have achieved a lot of that, but I’ve wondered why I have this urge to always push and never be quite satisfied. (Pause)

ELIAS:  I express to you, partially this urging, so to speak, may be associated with the essence family that you are belonging to — partially.  Partially, this is also what you have created within this particular focus as a translation of drive.

You are translating, into objective terms, an identification with drive and motivation, so to speak.  You identify within your beliefs that as you strive in this expression of “better” continuously, that you shall motivate yourself and you shall push within your energy, creating a force and a drive, so to speak, to be accomplishing.

Now; within your underlying belief systems, which are quite influencing of your perception and therefore quite influencing of what and how you create within your reality, you move your translation of this motivation and drive into the thought and the emotion of striving and creating more, or in a capacity of production, producing many expressions within your energy outwardly, and you identify that if you are not creating this striving, that you shall not motivate yourself, that you shall become complacent and therefore stagnate.  You have chosen within this particular focus to be exhibiting a tremendous output of movement of energy expression.

Now; I shall express to you also, this is another quality associated with this particular essence family.  This particular essence family expresses energy in a manner of creating what you identify in physical terms as life.  They are associated with what we may term to be earth stock.

Now; many individuals interpret within their thought process that this may be defined as the production of children or associated with bearing children.  This is not necessarily the expression of this particular essence family, although there are many individuals that are belonging to or aligning with — more so aligning with — this Borledim family that are producing of many manifestations of entering focuses, so to speak, facilitating that action and participating in this birth process, so to speak, creating a contribution to what may be identified as the earth stock, so to speak.

But this is merely one aspect of the expression of that particular essence family.  There are other qualities and expressions of that essence family that are exhibited within your physical dimension that are less extreme, so to speak, or objectively obvious in physical production, so to speak.  There is a concentration upon movement with this particular essence family — motivation, direction, urgings of movement.

Individuals that are belonging to this essence family direct their attention slightly differently than those individuals that may be aligned with this essence family, for their focus may not necessarily be upon the producing of small ones, but rather the directing of energy of themselves as an example, so to speak, and of other individuals in encouragement — encouragement to be exhibiting their potential, in a manner of speaking.

Each individual enters into this physical manifestation with a pool of probabilities, so to speak.  Now; this is not to say that there are probabilities that exist, in a manner of speaking, before these individuals — any individuals — but that there is a potentiality, in a manner of speaking, for certain lines of probabilities, certain directions of energy, in a manner of speaking.

There is an intrinsic knowing of that quality of essence that is held by individuals belonging to this particular essence family which creates a tremendous motivating force within themselves.  This creates a type of stir of energy.

Now; many individuals translate that force of energy in the movement of striving.  This is associated with your societies, mass belief systems, individual belief systems, in your association with achievement.  Now you may begin the recognition, in objective terms, in the terminology of achievements and potentiality.

The potentiality in actuality needs no achievement, so to speak, for all that you create, in a manner of speaking, is achievement, and there is no necessity for striving and “better,” for you are already creating “best” within every moment.  But you have created and developed belief systems that express, certain actions and certain productions and certain movements may be exhibited, and other movements may be “better.”

This is a push in exploration; what you may term to be the motivation to move beyond.  As you explore, your desire is to explore further, beyond what you have created; moving your energy continuously to be creating different expressions, new expressions; exploring aspects of your creativity, exploring what you hold in intrinsic potentiality.

This is a tremendous driving force within individuals of this particular family.  Therefore, there is a continuous movement to be accomplishing.

BONNIE:  My mum, my mother, disengaged about four or five years ago.  I very much want to ask you ... I was born on her birthday in this focus, the same day she was born.  I’ve studied a little astrology, and I’m Libra and she’s Libra.  I was born on the same day as her, and I feel very, very close to her.  I sometimes feel that she kind of pops inside me, and I very much want to know if we have had other focuses together.  When I was a little girl, she always wanted so much for me.  I think that’s maybe one of my ... again, maybe it’s because she’s from the same essence family, and so I have inherited that striving.  She always wanted so much for me.  I would so much like to know if she is aware of achievements in this focus that I have achieved, even though I feel it’s never enough.  I would very much like to know if she’s aware now of me now, as I am sometimes aware of her. (Pause)

ELIAS:  In response to your first question, yes, you do engage other focuses together in different expressions or roles of relationships.  As to the focus of attention that you identify as your mother within this particular focus, that attention presently occupies itself in the action of transition.

Now; I may also express to you, the reason that you experience this exchange, so to speak, of energy is that this individual has created energy deposits within this physical dimension that — in your terms — remain.

Now; an expression of energy deposit which continues within this physical dimension associates itself with you, and you draw it to you in allowing yourself to continue an interaction with that individual’s energy.  This is what you interact with and experience, regardless that the individual has disengaged and is participating in the action of transition.

I may also express to you, in a manner of speaking, there is an awareness in that individual’s energy of your energy, although it is not translated in that area of consciousness in the same manner that you recognize in this area of consciousness.

You view reality quite singularly.  Therefore, you identify other individuals as individuals singularly, and you hold your attention to that one particular personality expression.  Within the action of transition, there is the presentment of much more of the individual essence.  Therefore, one individual focus is not viewed so very singularly.

Now; as to her awareness of you, it is the awareness of you as you, as you both participate together in many focuses.  This is one aspect of your participation with her, so to speak.  Therefore, she is aware of that participation, but she is also aware of all of the other participations and the other aspects of you.

In a manner of speaking, quite physically expressed, her viewing of you, so to speak, is broader than your viewing of her, for she views many more aspects of you and your interaction in relation to herself than you view, for you recognize merely one.

BONNIE:  (After some background noise)  I’m just going to introduce my partner.  He’s just coming in now.

DAVID:  Hello.

ELIAS:  Greetings!

BONNIE:  Elias, this is David.  He’s coming from work.  This actually would be a very good time, if I may, to ask, I feel that David and I share other focuses.  Possibly we feel an alignment in the Napoleonic era, and we wondered whether you felt that for either of us.

ELIAS:  (Chuckling)  This may be identified as a question of “feeling” that you identify, but not quite “feeling” as I identify!

Yes, you are correct.  Now acknowledge yourselves in your ability to be interpreting your impressions and your knowings inwardly.

Many times within physical focus, individuals are discounting of their impressions and their “feelings,” so to speak, for they attribute this to imagination.  I express to you that you quite purposefully draw yourselves to each other, and you offer yourselves these sensings and feelings and knowings of each other — of time frameworks, of cultures, of places, so to speak — for you allow yourselves an objective remembrance or memory, in a manner of speaking, of other aspects of yourself.

In actuality, you are not as singular as you view yourselves to be!

All of your focuses are occurring now.  They all occur simultaneously.  What you view to be past and future is an illusion of your perception.  It is quite real within the confines of the reality of your linear time framework, which you have designed in this physical dimension, but it is relative merely to the physical dimension — this particular physical dimension.  Within other areas of consciousness, it holds little or no meaning, so to speak.

As all of your focuses are occurring simultaneously, you do hold recognition of those experiences.  This be the reason that many individuals draw themselves to certain experiences [and] that they hold an affinity for certain cultures or certain expressions of groups of individuals, certain time frameworks, so to speak, certain races, for they participate in experiences in those expressions [of] other time frameworks, other expressions of cultures, other experiences of relationships.

You participate in several other focuses together in different capacity of relationships.  But let me also express to you, as I have expressed previously with other individuals within this dimension, although that may lend energy to your experience within this focus, it is your choice how you configure the energy which is offered to you through the other focuses that you participate in.

This focus that you are experiencing now, this attention that you hold presently, creates its direction.  It is not dictated to by other focuses that you hold.

Therefore, you may be creating what you identify within your beliefs as positive experiences in other focuses, and you may delude yourself into the thought process that this is what creates the positive aspect, so to speak, of your relationship within this focus, and this is not necessarily the situation.  You may be creating quite a pleasurable relationship with an individual within one focus, and within another focus, you may be creating much conflict.

You reconfigure the energy which is offered to you by other focuses to be the most beneficial to you within this focus in whichever manner shall obtain your attention the most efficiently, be that in the configuration of pleasure or conflict.

Therefore, do not discount your expression and power within this focus.  Do not attribute your relationship that you create now to another focus, for what you create now is your creation and your choice.

BONNIE:  Please, I want to ask you, I have spoken with David/Mylo, and I have always felt that we have been affiliated many times.  I would love to know if you ... I have always called him my son, and he’s always called me Mum, (laughing) and I would very much like to know if we have a connection.

ELIAS:  Yes, and you have in actuality participated in these roles within another focus.  You also have participated in another focus in which you create a type of role associated with a mother, but as an aunt, and he participates as a niece.

BONNIE:  Mmm!  I’ve felt this!

I want to ask you, please ... my father is Polish.  He’s elderly in this focus now.  It’s difficult in this focus, and although I know one doesn’t end, one goes on, it’s difficult to deal with it in this particular time.  He’s 80 years old, in these years, and I have a sister, an older sister who finds this very, very difficult to deal with.  Is there anything that I can say to her?

I find it easier to accept his disengaging.  He has not disengaged yet, but he is leaving us a little, and in these times, in this now, it’s sad.  I know it isn’t really sad because of what we know, what I am learning through your teachings, but is there anything I can help with, with my sister Angela?  She’s very, very sad.  I want very much to help her, and I’m not sure how to.

My mother died in this focus five years ago, and she has taken on the mantle, really, to keep the family, and feels responsible, and I feel it is so draining for her.  I would very much like to help her deal with the losing of Mother and the losing of Father. (Pause)

ELIAS:  I shall express to you that your most helpful expression, so to speak, shall be to hold your attention with you.

In this, as you allow yourself to hold your attention with self, and you allow yourself to be accepting of you yourself, you shall also create an expression of acceptance in relation to her, and this shall be the most affecting.

What I am expressing is, your want to be helpful to your sibling is expressed through a lack of acceptance first of all within yourself, for there is a discounting of your ability to be “fixing” for your sibling, creating some expression that shall be “better” (grinning, and Bonnie chuckles) for HER experience.

In this, you exhibit with her a discounting of yourself in your inability, so to speak, to be offering that type of expression to her.  That discounting of self creates an automatic byproduct, and the byproduct is the expression of a lack of acceptance of her also, in that her experience and her choices are unacceptable.  They “should” be different.  They “should” be “better!”

BONNIE:  Oh, that is such a truth!  Ha!

ELIAS:  Therefore, if you are allowing yourself to hold your attention with self, and offer yourself an acceptance within you that your expression within the now is acceptable and needs not be better and needs not be altered, you also shall begin the allowance in your expression with your sibling that her expression is also acceptable — in whichever manner she is choosing to be designing and exhibiting and creating her reality, this is acceptable.

The more you project energy of wishing to be altering her experience, the more you lend energy to the very expression you wish not to be perpetuating.  But in the acceptance of what she chooses to be creating and experiencing, you also discontinue lending energy to the perpetuation of painfulness, for you offer energy to her acceptance.

BONNIE:  Yes, yes.  One last question, if I may?

ELIAS:  You may.

BONNIE:  Thank you.  In this focus, I have been very, very what we term lucky.  I feel that I’ve had a very charmed life.  I’ve done things I really love to do.  I was a ballerina.  I’ve done things, I’ve changed, but at the moment in this focus, I feel thwarted.  I feel that I made a leap from somewhere and was changing my career, which I love.  I’m so lucky to do something every day that I love!  But at the moment, I feel that I’m stuck.  I can’t move on.  I feel like I’m going backwards, and I’m unhappy in that, and all my life, I’ve been so happy.  I wake up, and I’m happy!  I’m a happy person, but at the moment I feel ... I have so much.  In this focus, I love my partner so very much.  I have a beautiful place to live.  In this focus, I have nearly everything that anybody could want.  But in my career, which I value very much, and we spoke before about bettering, and I want to be the best, but I just feel ... I’ve always been able to leap forward and I like that very much, but at the moment, I just don’t know what to do to move.  I’m stuck.  Can you help me?

ELIAS:  First of all, I shall express to you that you are experiencing within yourself affectingnesses in relation to this wave in consciousness which addresses to the belief system of duplicity, and in this time framework, you are the tossing turning ship also, within the waves of duplicity, moving back and forth between the good and the bad and the doubt, and the expression of better and worse.

In this, you are also creating a movement of widening your awareness.  Therefore, you are turning your attention in this now, in relation to this wave in consciousness, to be manipulating your energy individually — in turning your attention to self and holding your attention within self, allowing yourself to familiarize yourself with different aspects of yourself inwardly more fully and more clearly, allowing yourself to be creating an emergence into more of a fullness of your own expressions.

This also moves quite in conjunction with the manner in which you have translated and configured your expressions of energy throughout your focus, in what you term to be your “leaping forward” or your striving for better, and your push and drive within your motivation.  You have already created many outward expressions within this focus.  Therefore, the challenge turns to the familiarizing yourself more with self and widening your awareness within your reality more fully, to offer you new challenges of what you may be producing and creating in your expressions.

Therefore, I express to you, allow yourself the permission not to be worrying.  Recognize that worry is almost a waste of energy.  Do not concern yourself in the tossing of the ship.  Allow yourself a time framework to relax and to familiarize yourself with you, and to be absorbing, so to speak, in your objective awareness, all of YOU — not merely all that you DO, but who and what you ARE.

BONNIE:  I’m just going to slip in a little tiny one, and then I’m going to let you go.  I just wonder if you see my color. (Pause)

ELIAS:  I express to you, the energy that you express, in what we may identify as your signature color, may be translated into the identification of fuchsia, which incorporates tones of the pinks and the purples.

BONNIE:  Thank you so much.  I want you to come visit again!

ELIAS:  And I shall!

BONNIE:  Thank you! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  (Chuckling)  And we may be interacting whenever you are so choosing!

BONNIE:  Thank you so much.

ELIAS:  And I shall express my energy to you, and we may be playful together!

BONNIE:  Oh, I want to! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!  And I may express to you the challenge, in your identification now of your signature color, that I shall project the blue to you, and you may project this fuchsia to myself!  Ha ha!  And we shall play with color!

BONNIE:  Thank you, Elias, so very much.

ELIAS:  You are very welcome.

BONNIE:  I hope to see you soon.

ELIAS:  To you in great expression of love, I express au revoir, my friend.

BONNIE:  Au revoir, Elias.

Elias departs at 9:05 PM.

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