Saturday, December 30, 1995
Private Session #18
Regular Session #63
Participants: Mary, Vicki, Ron, and Cathy.
Note: This conversation was held in response to Ron’s request.
Elias arrives at 9:12 PM
ELIAS: Good evening.
RON: Good evening.
ELIAS: So, we incorporate our pyramid! (Grinning, and then to Vicki) And, you are wishing to speak with Elias? (Long pause)
VICKI: Well, if you have any information that will be helpful to me in figuring out why I’ve been so weird lately, I would listen to it.
ELIAS: Ah, we incorporate Sophia’s word of “weird”!
VICKI: Well, it’s unusual, because it’s only been in our group.
ELIAS: I shall ask Lawrence a question: How long are you intending to be denying viewing your own feelings?
VICKI: Well, I’m not aware that I’m denying them, so I don’t know how long that would be.
ELIAS: You have built quite a wall, quite efficiently, recently. This is not Michael’s wall, although he may view this to be his responsibility, once again! This is Lawrence’s incorporation of “closing down”.
VICKI: Well, I kind of started to get a pretty strong sense of that, because it just keeps being there.
ELIAS: (Smiling) Lawrence incorporates an openness for Elias, but not otherwise.
VICKI: I don’t understand.
ELIAS: I allow you a distraction. My presence and my energy distracts your attention. You allow yourself to be occupied with my information, and also with comforting within energy. When Elias is not distracting, Lawrence must focus upon his own reality and feelings. You incorporate angriness. Your sadness is stemming from an unwillingness to be dealing with this angriness. Therefore, you convert this into unhappiness.
VICKI: How come I don’t know what I’m angry about? The wall?
ELIAS: The wall is present for your protection. This allows you to close off from the elements that create this anger within you.
VICKI: So the individuals involved in our group are what is creating anger in me?
ELIAS: (To Cathy) Respond! (Poor Cathy!)
CATHY: Part of it is because we haven’t been incorporating Elias, and the other part of it is because I am leaving, physically.
ELIAS: (To Vicki) And why are you angry?
VICKI: I don’t feel angry, so that’s a hard question for me to answer! (She’s getting frustrated!)
ELIAS: You do not feel angry for you are blocking this anger; just as you did not feel frustration in challenging Elias, but you incorporated frustration which you became aware of later. Shynla has created a reality and has made a choice, to which you do not agree. You also do not understand. Therefore, this creates frustration. You seek a viable answer, which you receive none. Therefore, you incorporate angriness.
You also recognize your powerlessness, as you view this, to be affecting of the situation. Another element of yourself expresses to you that you possess the ability to be affecting; frustration results at not knowing how to be affecting. What you are losing sight of, for you wish not to view, is that each individual may choose, and may also block, your affectingness. Frustration is incorporated through lack of understanding.
In this, you view Paul and myself expressing choices and truthfulness to Shynla. You view Shynla reject this. You do not understand. This creates frustration. This is compounded in that others within our group do not share this intensity of focus upon one direction, to be changing a probability; for others accept this. Therefore, this also creates frustration and angriness at their lack of cooperation and focused direction in changing probabilities.
VICKI: So are you saying that this feeling that I’ve had for a few weeks that I need to accomplish something, that what I feel I need to accomplish is the changing of Shynla’s probabilities?
ELIAS: Partially.
VICKI: Oh. I had not identified that at all.
ELIAS: This is for the reason that you have built your wall! You have chosen not to be looking at this element, for within your rational logic, these are Shynla’s probabilities.
VICKI: Right! (That’s the first correct thing he’s said so far!)
ELIAS: These are Shynla’s choices, therefore having not to do with Lawrence! Within feeling, these have to do with affectingness, of Lawrence not wishing to be examining the emotional element connected. The wall is built, therefore blocking your sight. You have realized and remembered very strong connections. You continue to move in this direction of these connections, which also intensifies your feelings. Therefore, within your “now”, this creates a more difficult situation of physical separation. Therefore, the more you are connecting, the more you are incorporating this irritation, for the more you are blocking of this emotion. You present here are all thought-focused individuals. Therefore, you are very proficient at blocking your emotional element. This is not to say that you do not possess emotional elements! You are only efficient at disguising them.
VICKI: Well, that explains why it gets worse instead of better.
ELIAS: Also, connect now; within your recent time period, Lawrence has connected within emotional elements much more, therefore opening to allowing this experience; and as you have opened to incorporate the emotional element, which you view as a growth, you also open to what you now view as being hurtful, and not wishing to be experiencing this. It is much easier for thought-focused individuals to have temper tantrums, (grinning at Cathy) and to incorporate irritation and frustration, than to incorporate other emotions. (Laughter, and a long pause)
And now, you may move your physical body to Shynla and be choking her, (Elias gestures as if choking somebody) expressing “Don’t go!”; (laughter) and then you may be incorporating embracing, and wishing well. (Another pause; emotions are running rampant!)
VICKI: I don’t feel the anger at all though. I do feel sad. But I accept what you said.
ELIAS: Angriness would be inappropriate! We must temper ourselves to be exhibiting appropriate behavior! (Laughter, and a pause)
The connections are quite strong. You have begun, this evening, to experience your connections. You are correct that these connections involve Seers, as you are Seers. You are also correct in incorporating the pyramid. You are the core; this being our New Agenda, within its original focus. (Smiling) These connections are quite strong enough to weather physical distance!
It is no coincidence that you four have incorporated your new book, old book, which you each, and Olivia too, have incorporated fully within this time period, for you may be connecting irregardless of distance; and also, Shynla continues to incorporate an open door. You may move upon your flying carriage, and you may also reverse your choice, even after it has been made. There are no closed frameworks! The Changer of Probabilities may change probabilities at any moment! You may allow yourselves the opportunity to view connections outside of the realm of physical presence, for you are greater than physical presence! (Pause, smiling at Vicki) Once again, I do not say to Lawrence, “I am sorry”!
I will also express to you that part of your irritation lies with Michael. This irritation you would not be identifying presently, for information is withheld; which, of course, Elias will be revealing! (Grinning widely, and we all crack up) Michael incorporates the same experience and feeling as did Lawrence at our last encounter privately; which Lawrence has, within consciousness, connected with also in not being identified, but an awareness is known. He has unincorporated his accomplishment. Therefore, he is incorporating the same “failure feeling”, which Lawrence is recognizing of and identifying with; this being also, partially, Michael’s block from the twin. You may express to him that Elias has “spilled the beans”! Therefore, it is unnecessary for him to be hiding!
There is no failure! A great accomplishment has been made within a reasonable time period. Affecting has occurred, and he is moving closer to his remembrance; and with the incorporation of the remembrance will be the completion of the affectingness. (Pause)
(Grinning at Vicki) Energy change! Much more acceptable!
(Smiling at Cathy) Shall I also offer: “There are no good-byes”. (Cathy is crying in the background, and I am crying as I type this)
I extend much loving affection to this company. (Pause)
CATHY: I extend it back. (What a bunch of geeks!)
ELIAS: Accepted. (Smiling) Are you wishing more information?
VICKI: Yes. This sense of accomplishment, or whatever you want to call it, that I’ve been feeling, you said was only partially related to wanting to change Shynla’s probabilities. What else is it?
ELIAS: Your irritation.
VICKI: With Michael? (Elias nods) Okay.
ELIAS: You will discover also, there are other incidental elements which are not important that you may connect on your own, for you will allow yourself to be figuring these, for they are not important.
VICKI: Okey dokey.
ELIAS: (To Ron) Thank you!
RON: Thank you.
ELIAS: For if we are waiting for Lawrence and Shynla to be calling upon the “yellowphone,” we will be waiting for another century! (Laughter) Fortunately, your century is changing soon! (Pause)
CATHY: Well, I don’t know what to say. I’ve made my decision, and I’m too chicken to change it. I’m too worried about everybody else besides me!
ELIAS: This, also, is not a failure! (Pause)
CATHY: What do you mean, it’s not a failure? I mean, I know I’m not trusting myself, yet I just can’t say “No” to Carl. Bottom line. I just can’t do it!
ELIAS: Therefore, you are viewing this as negative and as a failure, incorporating conflict. Your sights, so to speak, are aware of yourself, but not quite connected within the direction that you set them; as with Lawrence with his other focuses, as with Michael with his physical ailment, as with many individuals. This does not incorporate a failure!
CATHY: It incorporates conflict, though. (Laughing and crying at the same time)
ELIAS: Ah, true, but you will move through the conflict. You have sidestepped yourself temporarily, but you have also offered yourself the opportunity to be noticing. You are understanding of your conflict.
CATHY: That’s what makes it worse!
VICKI: Maybe you’ll feel better if I do choke you! (We all laugh, including Elias)
RON: I’d get a kick out of it!
CATHY: I bet you would! (Elias’ laughter is cracking us up)
ELIAS: I shall view! (Pause, and to Cathy) You must first identify, before you may affect.
CATHY: You mean I still haven’t identified?
ELIAS: Ah, you have identified!
CATHY: I thought so!
ELIAS: But this also, within itself, is a forward motion, in your terms. (Long pause)
CATHY: You timing this pause, Ron? (Laughter)
ELIAS: I shall adjourn. If you are wishing continued audience, you may call upon me. (to Vicki) You may be left to be engaging in your choking, or embracing; and I, within energy, shall embrace you all. Au revoir.
Elias departs at 9:54 PM
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