Fear/The Aspect of Control
Topics:
“Fear/The Aspect of Control”
“Physical Elements Matter Not”
Tuesday, February 8, 2000
© 2000 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Lynda (Ruther).
Elias arrives at 12:51 PM. (Arrival time is 20 seconds)
ELIAS: Good morning!
LYNDA: Wow. Good morning! Boy, this has been the most
intense two-and-a-half weeks I’ve maybe ever spent. Can I talk to
you about it?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Okay. Okie dokie. The last time we spoke, you
talked to me a lot about experiences and being wary of moving in the direction
of making them absolute, especially in regard to past experiences I have
had, and I have been doing a lot of assimilating of that information, I
feel, in ways I don’t even know I can objectively express to you.
But I feel that I am wanting to tell you about a couple of things I spontaneously
did, and some interaction I had with a future focus of mine, Jasper, and
how I reacted to that, and you can tell me if I’m on the identifying trail,
okay?
ELIAS: Very well.
LYNDA: Okay. Every time I talk to you, Elias, you talk to
me about the choices I have and how I have limited my choices, and it has,
as I’ve told you, amazed me, because whenever something like a feeling,
like when I connected with Jasper in this dialog, it was so fun, it was
so free, it was so much in the feeling that I call acceptance of myself,
and also, of course, the peripheral information I was getting from that
other dimension. But what I did was, I immediately turned around
and reached out to a couple of people, and they sort of bit my hand off,
because what I think I did with that is, first of all, I didn’t trust what
happened with Jasper in the same way I didn’t trust what happened in my
lucid dream with you. I went from the safety of that feeling, and
I moved to my past experiences with other people, where I wanted their
approval and I wanted them to know, “Now I am safe, and I can interact
with you and prove to you that I am not an insecure, nephilim spirit from
hell.” That’s sort of a dramatic way of saying what I did.
The really good thing and the really fun thing about it is that I am detached
from the automatic condemnation thing, and I want you to tell me what the
hell happened this last two-and-a-half weeks in that regard, because I
feel like I’m touching something that I’ve never allowed myself to touch
before, especially in trying to prove myself to other people specifically.
Also, I honestly do feel Jasper is trying to get ahold of me, and I
am wanting to be open to that communication because it is opening up a
world of understanding that is very special to me, in bridging my subjective
and right now objective reality. (Breathing deeply)
Okie dokie, dad! (Laughing) Is that okay?
ELIAS: Identify to myself wherein lies your confusion, in singularity
and in clarity.
LYNDA: That’s what I just did, you’re saying?
ELIAS: I am expressing to you presently that you identify now,
in clarity, your direction of confusion, for what you have offered in this
explanation is a scattering of energy in many directions.
Therefore, I am expressing to you to be focusing your attention in this
now and expressing to me an identification of what you hold in your perception
as the most affecting element of confusion that you are requesting clarity
for.
LYNDA: Well said. I think it’s lack of trust of me, which
is duplicity. I think it’s a strong element of control, and I think,
bottom line, it’s fear of this intimacy which is so wondrous, and being
able to hold that.
ELIAS: Now; allow yourself to view how you yourself have offered
the response to yourself, and you have accomplished this by focusing your
attention in a particular direction, allowing yourself an element of clarity
rather than moving randomly through your energy and expressing in a scattered
manner, focusing briefly upon many different experiences and not upon what
ties these experiences together. Are you understanding?
LYNDA: Yeah, I think I’m understanding that.
ELIAS: In this, you are correct in your assessment of what is
occurring in your energy, and why you are presenting yourself with certain
elements of imagery objectively, and why you are blocking some other elements
of imagery and interaction.
Now; let me also contribute to your focusing upon this direction within
your attention, and let me express to you to view this one element that
you have identified as control, for allow yourself to recognize that as
you express that one term, you also immediately and automatically associate
this quite strongly in negativity.
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: You may look to the element of fear, and you may not necessarily
identify this in a thrust of negativity, for there is an element within
you that you allow to be nurturing of self in your identification of fear.
But in your identification of control, you automatically create a thrust
of energy which is an expression in association with judgment and negativity.
As to this element of control, recognize that you express what YOU perceive
to be control in response to fear and unfamiliarity. This is an element
of protection, and although it may be — theoretically or conceptually,
within your reality presently — unnecessary, it is expressed as an expression
of self in response to the recognition of fear or hurtfulness. Therefore,
in part, it is a turning of your attention to self.
The reason that I am expressing this to you is that you may allow yourself
to turn your perception and allow yourself to view that this term of control
may be perceived in a different manner. It is not an absolute either,
and therefore, as not being an absolute, it is an expression that you create
and may be perceived in different manners, not necessarily only in the
identification of negative.
I am not encouraging you to move into an expression of perpetuating
what you identify as control, for this is merely reinforcing an aspect
of belief systems.
What I AM expressing to you is that this expression, as with any expression,
may be perceived differently, and this allows you a greater expression
of freedom.
Within your movement, at times it may be beneficial to you to be approaching
subject matters in sections rather than the entirety of the subject matter.
This would be an element of process, but as I have stated previously, process
is merely an action that you create within physical focus. It is
in itself neutral. It is not good or bad. It may be unnecessary,
but it also is what you create, and it is a reality within your physical
focus in how you accomplish your movements in many situations.
Therefore, in not placing a judgment upon the creation of process, you
may look to your action in your process or your method of addressing to
certain creations, certain actions, certain interactions, certain elements
of your reality — as such, that of fear — and rather than overwhelm yourself
with your attempt to be tackling, in a manner of speaking, this immense
giant, it may be more efficient, within your reality, to be dismembering
the giant in sections, to the point that it is no longer.
One of the elements of the giant is the aspect of control, and how you
may begin approaching the aspect of control is that you allow yourself
to recognize that it is not an absolute in association with negativity,
and that in this, it is a construct of your perception, and that your perception
is mobile.
Therefore, you may move your perception, and you may approach this particular
aspect in a different angle of your perception, and you may allow yourself
to view this aspect in a different manner.
In this, you may allow yourself to view the beneficial element of this
aspect. This offers you the opportunity to view that there are more
than one avenue of approaching each aspect of your beliefs, and each avenue
that you approach through offers a difference in perception.
LYNDA: Would the term “getting a red flag” and allowing myself
to look at the red flag before I take action have anything to do with what
you just said?
ELIAS: Partially. Let me express to you also, this particular
expression of what you identify as “red flags” is quite common within your
physical expressions in this particular dimension, and in this, many individuals
identify what they perceive to be a warning as they allow themselves to
be expressing this type of element of red flags.
You present this to yourself to offer yourself a stop point. This
is not necessarily a warning. It is not necessarily an expression
of your intuition, or of yourself speaking to yourself in the capacity
of warning yourself against danger or wrong or harmfulness.
In actuality, what you are presenting to yourself in these types of
expressions is merely a communication that you offer to yourself as a stop
point, that you may allow yourself the freedom to evaluate and to recognize
that you have approached an intersection, and that at that intersection,
there are many different avenues that you may view from that point, and
you need not be focusing upon merely one. But you are presenting
yourself in that moment with the opportunity to view many different avenues,
many different choices.
LYNDA: Can I interject something right here?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: The feeling I experience that is familiar to me of essence
is simply a place that I automatically reach in specific directions, and
what I’m feeling you’re saying is, when I experience that and I get my
point of experiencing that, the direction I go in that feeling is, there
are more choices there.
ELIAS: Correct.
LYNDA: Okay. That’s what you’re saying, right?
ELIAS: Correct, and in this, that the familiar and automatic movement
is being expressed to you.
You are offering yourself a stop point to be recognizing that you are
moving in the direction of the familiar and automatic expressions, but
that this is not absolute. You are not locked to this action.
LYNDA: Right. Okay, I get it, and that pretty much explains
a lot of the activity that went on for me in this time since we last spoke.
Can I, along these lines, look at those power surge type experiences that
I’ve had within this time framework with you?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Okay. Because I have locked myself into a familiar
pattern of fear for so long, I genuinely, Elias, don’t ... okay, I’ll just
say this. I don’t feel like I have a frame of reference objectively,
except I’m starting to feel it more in what I just discussed with you,
in terms of feeling this acceptance.
I have taken that and had a power surge experience, and created a probability
or an imagination in my mind of what I want to do with this feeling, and
it is so far beyond and so extreme of what I am experiencing objectively
now that I tweak myself out, and that’s what I’ve done a lot, and even
more intensely during this time.
So what I’m hearing you say is, and you’ve said this before and I’m
hitting it from another angle, I think, is to be looking at what I do in
creating these power surges as not making a comparison to the life I’m
living now objectively, and the life objectively that I think I should
or I want to be living. Do you understand what I’m saying?
ELIAS: Quite.
LYNDA: Okay. So I think the power surges, in and of themselves,
standing alone, are quite valid feelings that I am wanting to understand
more so that I can channel them in a way that is not so extreme to me.
ELIAS: I am understanding.
Now; let me also offer this to you, that may allow you another element
of clarity.
LYNDA: Okay.
ELIAS: As you present yourself with
these moments, as I have stated, you are not presenting yourself with an
expression of warning. You are presenting to yourself an opportunity
to be altering perception. This is a key point.
We speak many times of the direction of movement in the now, and the
turning of perception and the turning of attention, and not looking futurely
to be creating better.
Now; in this, let me offer to you that in the presentment of what you
identify as a red flag or a power surge or an energy surge or however you
choose to be expressing of your communications in their intensity with
yourself, what you are offering to yourself is the opportunity in that
moment to be altering your perception, not necessarily the physical actions.
LYNDA: Oh! Right. I get that.
ELIAS: Not the altering or the changing of the physical actions
or the physical responses or the physical interactions or the physical
situations or circumstances or objective imagery. These are physical
elements, and these are NOT the elements of mattering. These are
the elements that matter not.
In this, we return to the identification of the now and the turning
of your perception — the acceptance of self — and how this action IS affecting
of your reality and IS altering of your reality.
(Intently) For the objective, physical action matters not.
The perception is the element of mattering, for the perception is that
element that IS your reality. The physical aspects are NOT the reality.
The PERCEPTION is the reality.
LYNDA: Wow. That’s the elusive pimpernel of the point! (Laughing)
That IS the point.
ELIAS: Quite!
Therefore, in this, in the moment of the power surge, the energy surge,
the red flags, remind yourself, you are not offering yourself a warning
and you are not offering yourself the presentment of another avenue in
physical action.
You may create that also, but this is not the point, for it matters
not that you create a different action. You may create a difference
in your reality regardless that the action remains the same, and the entirety
of your reality shall alter regardless that the objective expression or
imagery be the same, for your reality shall be different as your perception
is altered.
LYNDA: Whew! You know, you have said that in many, many
different ways to me, and each time you say it, I receive it and receive
it and receive it, and this time the way you’re saying it makes a lot of
sense to me, and that explains to me why I’ve had such a hell of a time
staying in my now.
ELIAS: And this is, I shall express to you, quite common within
physical focus, for your identification and your thought process moves
in the direction of altering ...
LYNDA: Circumstances.
ELIAS: ... your physical reality. You are attempting to
be altering the imagery — yes, the circumstances, the situation, the physical
elements of your reality — but you are not altering your perception.
LYNDA: Okay, and then I automatically think, well, that means
my physical circumstances will not ever change, and because I perceive
them as being bad, I distract myself and go off in that direction.
Do you understand what I mean?
ELIAS: Quite.
LYNDA: Okay, and so this ties back into what it always ties back
into, which is leaning back into me and trusting myself.
ELIAS: Quite.
LYNDA: And thank you for saying that to me a million different
ways, and I am hearing it again in this way.
ELIAS: I shall express to you, many times an individual within
your reality shall alter the physical imagery and expressions of their
reality in the action of altering the perception. But as I have stated,
this element matters not, for the reality itself shall be altered, regardless
of the physical imagery, once the perception is altered.
LYNDA: Whew. It’s putting the cart before the horse, right?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking....
LYNDA: Those are my terms for what you’re saying. It’s putting
the cart before the horse, because location, location, location.
Well, it’s a very strong mass belief that physical location is everything,
including San Francisco. I know I’m not going to San Francisco ...
not that I’m not going to San Francisco. I don’t WANT to go to San
Francisco. I don’t want to do nothing! What I want to do is
lean into my perception and rest in that, and allow me to trust me.
ELIAS: And THIS shall be profoundly affecting and altering of
your reality.
LYNDA: God, you’re so concise and deep. I just love talking
to you when I finally relax and listen! (Elias chuckles)
That whole Jasper thing is funny. That
Jasper thing was real, right?
ELIAS: Quite.
LYNDA: And my whole dialog touched on bridging the gap between
time zones in a very real way, right?
ELIAS: There is no gap.
LYNDA: Yeah, right, because there is no gap. I knew that!
(Elias chuckles) Yeah, you could’ve fooled me! (Laughing) But
the point is, I guess I’m coming into the knowing that there is no gap.
It’s really a fun trip to me, Elias. Do you know what I mean?
ELIAS: Quite. In this, allow yourself the recognition that
these are not separate entities. There is no gap within what you
identify as time. It — once again — is a construct of perception.
LYNDA: Wow. Well, to be honest with you, I’d rather hang
with Jasper than a lot of guys I know! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)
You’re understanding what I mean, right?
ELIAS: Quite.
LYNDA: Can I ask, is he Zuli aligned? (Pause)
ELIAS: No.
LYNDA: Oh. You understand why I say that, because of the
Zuli aligned guys I have drawn myself to that I have consistently allowed
to mirror my own belief system thing with image and liking myself, and
I guess what I confuse that with is, this guy is physically very ... he’s
beautiful-looking physically. I kept thinking, maybe this is how
Zulis are supposed to be, and I just haven’t bumped into any.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha!
LYNDA: I mean, do you understand why I went in that direction?
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: I don’t think it’s bad. I just think it’s very much
affected by the mass belief of sexuality, right?
ELIAS: Quite, and also, within what you perceive to be your time
framework and your reality en masse, you place much more of an emphasis
upon judgment of physical expression than do the focuses which are manifest
in what you perceive to be futurely.
LYNDA: Because of where the shift has shifted, right?
ELIAS: Correct. There is not an expression of attention
in the direction of physical form, and therefore, there is an allowance
for the natural choice and manifestation, in the expression of its purity.
LYNDA: Whew. Big word — purity — in the religious world.
Big, big, misunderstood word. (Elias chuckles) Huge. Whew.
Do you understand what I mean about that?
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: God, I love talking to you! Okay. Well, this
certainly validates a lot of me to me today, and I will continue on ...
and will you say hi to Jasper for me? (Cracking up)
ELIAS: I shall leave this action to you! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: This is so fascinating. I love this! I know
why I love this — I was born for this! This is my intent; not my
destiny, although I may just create it as such physically. (Elias chuckles)
Do you know what I mean by that?
ELIAS: Quite, and you are quite correct! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: Yeah, and I love it! May I ask you a couple more
questions — then I have to go back to my chores and my job — which are
questions you’ve already answered, but can I ask you a couple of questions?
ELIAS: You may.
LYNDA: Is Millie intermediate? (Brief
pause)
ELIAS: No.
LYNDA: What’s Millie? (Brief pause)
ELIAS: Common.
LYNDA: So, it is her intense alignment with fear and her beliefs,
and because she also doesn’t give a shit what anybody thinks of her because
she’s transitioning into leaving physical focus, that she is like she is?
ELIAS: There are many....
LYNDA: Contributing things there?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct, but this is not the expression of
orientation.
LYNDA: Okay. You know, frankly I kept thinking underneath
that she was intermediate because everything is so immediate in her life,
like worrying about when she’s going to go to the bathroom, what her next
meal is going to be, and the fear of ... you know, all the fears that she
goes through. I understand why I thought she was intermediate, but
I honestly didn’t feel like she was, so that validates what I was thinking
about her.
And the whole thing — you know, she’s in diapers, and I change her bedpan,
and she’s very much like a baby, only it’s not fun to see Millie as a baby
because she’s 90 years old, and it is dehumanizing, in her eyes, and yet
I conceptualize that she’s chosen this, Elias, but it’s very hard to observe
it because I feel ... here’s what it is: I feel helpless to change
it. Which I’m saying that to you as an identification of the whole
wave of my generation that’s facing this thing, and I am just going to
continue on and observe it. Do you understand what I’m saying?
It’s very sad to me, and I don’t want to make those choices. The
whole dynamic between ... are Lee and Susan also common?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
LYNDA: Okay, so I’m understanding that too. Will you comment
or do you want to comment on what I just said?
ELIAS: I shall comment in relation to your assessment of this
situation in its entirety of its expressions, and how they interplay with
each other, and all of the players that involve themselves.
In this, there is a tremendous expression of alignment with mass belief
systems which is very influencing of all of your perceptions, and this
be the reason that you all move quite similarly in the expression of judgment
of sadness and unfortunate, and that you wish to be creating helpfulness
to yourselves and to each other.
But I shall express to you once again, this offers you the opportunity
to be altering your perception and widening your awareness.
I am not expressing to you that you shall not be expressing what you
term to be caring or even compassion in this situation, but not the judgment
that is being expressed presently by any of the players.
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: You, as the player that you are, may be choosing to be
viewing this situation and altering your perception, recognizing that there
is no dehumanization, for how shall you be dehumanizing yourself or any
other individual? This is to be creating the action of making yourself
less human. How may you be less human?
LYNDA: Talk about mirror, mirror, on the wall! I’m saying
that, and I don’t even feel that condemned! (Laughing) Wow.
Whew!
It’s true, Elias, what you’re saying. I have drawn this to myself,
and that would explain the rage and frustration I went through in wanting
to run out of here and not having the knowing or the way to do it, and
this ties back into what you were saying before, right?
ELIAS: Correct.
LYNDA: Well, back to the now! (Elias chuckles) On to the
now and back to the now! Wow. Another thing it shows me is
how I observe my own interaction with them, and delude myself into thinking
I am the more spiritually evolved, and judging them, and then automatically
placing a good judgment on myself, and I’m just saying that because that’s
what I’m doing, and yet I’m also aware at the same time that I am choosing
to widen, and I’m quite aware of the extreme differences even in the four
of us’ perception, which is definitely valid. Do you know what I
mean?
ELIAS: Quite. Now; I shall offer you one final statement
that you may ponder.
LYNDA: Okay.
ELIAS: Widening of awareness is not the creation of comparison.
LYNDA: Right. (Laughing) Well, I’ll just be pondering that
puppy until we speak again!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha!
LYNDA: Busted, busted, busted! What a world. Onward
and sideways!
ELIAS: Very good! (Chuckling)
LYNDA: I love you very much, and we will speak again.
ELIAS: Very well, and we shall! I shall continue to be expressing
energy in encouragement to you, and we shall continue in this sojourn of
discovery.
LYNDA: Thank you. I look forward to it, as always.
ELIAS: As always! (Chuckling) To you....
LYNDA: Alright, my friend. I love you and I’ll let you go,
although I don’t intend to ever let you go, in a manner of speaking.
ELIAS: In acknowledgment and in affection to you, au revoir.
LYNDA: Au revoir, my friend.
Elias departs at 1:41 PM.
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