Session 534

The Dragon of Fear


“The Dragon of Fear”

Sunday, January 2, 2000   © 2000 (Private/Phone)
Participants:  Mary (Michael) and Anony (Mous).
Elias arrives at 12:21 PM. (Arrival time is 28 seconds)

ELIAS:  Good morning!

ANONY:  Good morning, Elias!

ELIAS:  (Chuckling)  We meet again!

ANONY:  Yes.  I think I just felt you arrive.  I was sitting here, and all of a sudden, I felt this strange energy feeling in my body.

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha!  Interesting description of strange!

ANONY:  Well, it was just a different feeling. (Elias chuckles)

I wanted to talk to you because the last time we talked, I was on the hamster wheel! (Laughing)  I think I have spent a lot of time on the hamster wheel since then too, and the problem that I was anticipating at that point is just about to occur.  My attorney called me last week and told me that he found out that the district attorney had filed a felony complaint, and that we’re gonna go in Tuesday morning, and I have to enter a plea.  They’ve set bail for $10,000.00, but he’s gonna ask for O.R., which is “own recognizance.”

Anyway, it’s starting, you know, the process, and I’m trying not to be absolutely terrified.  I’ve listened to my tape so many times, and it’s been very, very helpful.  I’m concentrating very hard on self-acceptance and not allowing others’ opinions — or what I think their opinions are — to affect my feeling of self-worth.  That’s what I’ve been working on, but I don’t know how successful I’ve been at it yet! (Laughing)  I guess Tuesday will be my first real-life test.

ELIAS:  I shall express to you, we shall move in the direction in this discussion [of] addressing to acceptance of self in relation to what you create within your reality and how you interact with those creations, and the automatic responses that you also engage in your interactions with your creations.

And in this, I shall express to you that this may be instructive to other individuals also, for within physical focus, you all create certain situations and movements within your focus, to one degree or another, in your assessments of your scale of what may be viewed as negative ... or MORE negative!  Ha ha ha ha!

In this, as you each create this type of movement within any time framework, the questions that you pose to yourselves are not merely how may you uncreate this situation, but also, many times there is the realization within you that you have created a movement in conjunction with mass belief systems and in conjunction with other individuals, and that you recognize your movement into playing through certain scenarios.

For as you are aware, you do hold the choice to be playing through any scenario or not to be playing through that particular scenario.  But many times, individuals within physical focus view that they do not hold this choice, that they are subject to playing through a scenario, for they are victim to what they have created, or more often, to what another individual has created.

In this, I shall also express to you that regardless of the identification of how an individual may have begun participating in certain scenarios that you view to be uncomfortable, if the individual is not turning their attention in the direction of questioning themself as to how they may be uncreating the situation, they shall then move in the direction of questioning themselves of how they shall “deal” with the situation, in your terms.

This is the direction that YOU are experiencing.

ANONY:  Yes.  I’m really clear that I create my own reality, and actually yesterday I was kinda watching it.  I woke up yesterday morning and decided that I would feel wonderful yesterday.  I just made a choice, and I felt that emotion of feeling really good.  I felt joyful and I was able to maintain it much of the day, although then I would see a thought come in about the situation, and then after I had the thought, it would be like I’d form a mental picture, immediately followed by the emotion of fear.  And I looked at that, and I would go back and forth between the two, and I was seeing, gee, this is how you create reality!  You have the thought, you get this mental image, you accompany it with emotion, and boom!  Next thing you know, there it is!

ELIAS:  You are correct....

ANONY:  It was interesting watching that yesterday.  I would like to be able to create consciously ... maybe that doesn’t make sense.

ELIAS:  I am understanding of what you are expressing.

In this, let me also acknowledge to you that you have offered to yourself, in this experimentation that you created, the opportunity to view in actuality one method, so to speak, of how you may be creating your reality.

But farther than this generalization, so to speak — in the identification of “you have created a thought and thusly you have created a method for creating your reality” — you have also offered yourself the opportunity to view how you turn your perception and how you turn your perception in conjunction with the now, and you have offered yourself a noticing and a viewing of how influencing your perception may be in creating your reality in actuality if you are turning your attention away from the now.

Each time you allowed yourself to turn your attention away from the now and project your attention into a different time framework and experience, what you created was an actual movement of energy to be creating another scenario — another reality — which creates the conflict, and this allows you the opportunity to view elements of the conflict, and one of the elements of the conflict that you experience which is strong is the fear.

ANONY:  Yes.

ELIAS:  Now; this holds significance, for in this, in questioning yourself of how you may be interactive and not be allowing the fearfulness and not incorporating the conflict, you may accomplish this quite simply in holding your attention within the now, recognizing that within the now, no harmfulness is occurring.

ANONY:  Right.

ELIAS:  Now; be mindful also of what you create within the now, for your perception is that instrument which creates your reality.  Therefore, if you are allowing your perception in the now to be triggered by elements of duplicity and a lack of acceptance of self, which creates a judgment, you shall be experiencing conflict within the now also, but you may alter your perception by recognizing what you are creating and turning your attention.

Example:  You may be creating of your scenario as you did yesterday.  You may create a choice to be experiencing in the now joyfulness, and you may offer yourself permission and allow yourself to be creating that and experiencing that in the now, and you may even be dispelling thought processes that turn your attention to anticipation outside of the now, which move in future directions or in past directions, and you may allow yourself to continue to pull your attention back to the now as you notice that it drifts in any other projection.

But hypothetically, within the now, you individually — for we are addressing to your individual situation — may experience the sound, outside your window, in the now, of a siren.

ANONY:  You’re reading my mind! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  And what shall you create within that moment in the now?  Fearfulness, for you shall trigger your own responses in the now, which is an immediate, automatic movement into your expression of duplicity in discounting of self, and your immediate identification of self that you are bad and that you are wrong.

ANONY:  That’s funny, because in the last couple of days, when I’ve heard a siren, I jump!

ELIAS:  Quite, and this occurs even within the now.  Therefore, it is not merely the projection outside of the now that may be triggering conflict.

In this, you may turn your attention once again, and how you turn your attention is to hold within your energy — not hold to your energy, but hold within your energy — in the knowing and the comfort of your energy, recognizing that within the now, in your physical reality, what is occurring is your discounting of self and your assault upon self, not that a physical assault is occurring to you.  In physical terms, no harmfulness is befalling you....

ANONY:  Right.  I’m just attacking myself psychologically.

ELIAS:  But this is quite real!

ANONY:  Oh, I know!  It feels real, and it is, in the moment!

ELIAS:  And this is an actual assault, which is just as hurtful and just as real within your reality as the action of another individual physically striking you.

(Intently)  Therefore, recognize in the now how you are creating an assault upon yourself in your judgment of self, which IS hurtful, which IS the perpetuation of your lack of acceptance of self, which IS the expression of duplicity in a lack of trust, and which also MAY BE ALTERED.  You hold the ability within your energy to turn your attention merely by recognizing what you are creating and that you are devaluing self, and in that devaluation of self, you are creating the de-measuring, in value, of self, and in these moments, you may reinforce your movement into your acceptance of self in many different manners.

One manner that you may engage is that you may momentarily turn your attention outside of yourself, and in the moment that you recognize the automatic feeling of fear, you may allow yourself the noticing of that and express to yourself within your thoughts — which are a movement of energy and a physical creation — the questioning of whether you would engage the devaluation of another individual in the manner that you are creating it with self in that moment.

ANONY:  Ah, that’s very good, because I would never do to anyone else what I do to myself! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  Quite!

ANONY:  I certainly deserve as much consideration as I would give to another.

ELIAS:  Very good, and I am acknowledging of this, for you are correct — you do.  And in this, offering that same expression of devaluation to another individual would be viewed by yourself as cruelty, and you would be viewing this in the expression of duplicity as quite negative.  But you do not allow your attention to move to self in this manner, for you assess that you are deserving of this.

Now; shall you look to another individual in the identical same scenario and situation, and shall you express to yourself or to me or to any other individual that they are deserving of this cruelty?

ANONY:  No, absolutely I wouldn’t.

ELIAS:  No.  So then, why shall you attack yourself and assault yourself with this expression?

ANONY:  I was sort of looking for ... see, I have been noticing, particularly yesterday, how I do that, and yesterday when I was noticing it, I would shift, and I would just sort of say, c’mon, that’s not happening now, and I would just sort of shift gears; I would distract myself.  But I think the method — I’ll use the word method — that you just gave me would be very helpful.  When those thoughts come, if I would just stop and acknowledge that ... give myself the same courtesy and kindness that I would give another.

ELIAS:  Yes.

ANONY:  That would be helpful for me.

ELIAS:  Now also, let us continue in this subject matter, for what you have created in this recent exploration has been quite purposeful to your experience, to offer you information in several different aspects.  Therefore, let us also examine another element of the information that you have presented with yourself.

In this, what have you engaged recently in your literature?

ANONY:  Pardon me?

ELIAS:  What have you engaged recently?

ANONY:  Oh! (Laughing)  This morning when I got up, I read The Ballad of Reading Gaol.

ELIAS:  Quite.  And what is the offering of information in this but to look to creations that you insert into your reality — scenarios that you participate within — and to be recognizing that it is your perception that creates your reality.

It is not your physical circumstances.  It is not your mental circumstances.  It is not your emotional expression which dictates to you your reality, but rather your perception of all that you engage which DOES in actuality create your reality.

Therefore, regardless of what you choose to engage in any manner or regardless of the assessment of any other individual of what you create, you may allow yourself a difference in perception.

In this, you may look to the very thoughts and words that you have engaged quite recently, in your fearfulness of how other individuals perceive you, your fearfulness in how other individuals perceive situations and actions, of the mass belief systems and opinions and assessments of certain actions within your reality, not merely those you have already participated within, but those that you project to and anticipate in fearfulness — the identification of the very element of which you have read — in confinement or in that which may be identified as legal processes, judicial systems, and prisons.  These all hold negative connotations.  These all generate, through mass belief systems, negative energy.

ANONY:  Yes.  I was just talking about this with Vicki the other day.  We were discussing that almost any situation which we view as being negative or bad or unpleasant or in conflict just about always, at the heart of it, has to do with what others think, almost every one!  The thing I’m going through now — if there was not another human being on the earth to witness it, it wouldn’t hurt at all.  It wouldn’t matter.  It really would not matter!  It all has to do with, what will they think?  In my focus, that’s the part that brings the fear, and if it were not for that, it would not matter at all.

ELIAS:  For this is a tremendous measure of your worth — how other individuals perceive you.  And in this, you are quite in alignment with mass belief systems.

And this is the point of this shift in consciousness, that you are offering yourselves the opportunity to alter your reality through the acceptance of self and the acceptance of beliefs — the recognition that you are not measured by the perception of other individuals.  You are not even measured by your own perception, for it is influenced through your beliefs.

ANONY:  I know that intellectually.  It’s just ... I really do know that intellectually.  I’ve got a grasp on it in that respect, and I keep telling myself that, but ... I’m working on it! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  But the translation has not entirely been incorporated into your reality, but you ARE moving in this direction, and this is what I am acknowledging of you in, for you are allowing yourself the recognition of key points of how you may implement this, and how you may implement this is by noticing and recognizing what you are creating in the now, what you are allowing in your beliefs to be influencing of you, and how you are allowing your fearfulness to be influencing your choices and also your perception, which IS your reality.

And in this, you are also allowing yourself the opportunity to view that you are NOT stuck, that you are NOT victim, that you are NOT trapped!  For you do hold choices and you do hold the ability to be altering of that.

ANONY:  I know I have that ability.  I just haven’t quite figured out how to ... make it work.

ELIAS:  Yes, you have!

ANONY:  Yes, I have?  Yes, I have — you’re right!  Perception is everything.  I saw that yesterday.

ELIAS:  Quite!

ANONY:  Two people can look, for instance, at a picture.  One thinks it’s beautiful and one thinks it’s ugly.  It’s merely perception, and it’s everything.  It makes it what it is.

ELIAS:  You are correct.

ANONY:  Whether it’s beautiful or whether it’s ugly, it’s perception.  So I can choose to view a situation I’m in as being awful or painful, or I can say, “Gee, I’ve never done this before.  What an adventure this is!”  I could actually choose to do that.

ELIAS:  Yes, you may.  But you need not be expressing to yourself in such extremes, for you may allow yourself merely the recognition, in this now, of the now.

It is unnecessary for you to be attempting to delude yourself or create another aspect of camouflage by expressing to yourself objectively, “I may engage this action, and I shall perceive this as joyful and fun and good, and I shall perceive this as a new adventure and shall proceed in excitement!”

No, you shall not, for underlyingly, you do not hold this in your belief.  Underlyingly, and even surfacely, you are recognizing that this is merely an affirmation of that which you may think of that you WISH you believe but that you do NOT believe, and you KNOW this within you.

Therefore, it is pointless to be moving yourself beyond merely the concept and the recognition — in the extreme — that offers you the information that your perception is your reality, and this is helpful.  Beyond that expression, I am suggesting to you that you do not attempt to be camouflaging yourself, for in actuality, this shall not be tremendously affecting of what you are creating within your emotions and within your expression of fear.

What SHALL be affecting of your expression of fear is the holding of your attention within the now, and your recognition of self, and your recognition that each moment that you are allowing the expression of fear, what you are in actuality expressing to yourself is a devaluation of worth.

And in this, as you recognize that translation in the now, in the moment, you may allow yourself to affirm to yourself quite strongly, objectively, “No, I shall not be discounting of myself in this manner.”

ANONY:  Okay.  Yes, that’s realistic.  My other idea of trying to talk myself into the idea that this is really a lot of fun ... I guess there’s no way I’m gonna convince myself of that! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!  Quite!  This is an expression which is not quite realistic! (Chuckling)

ANONY:  No.  I do like The Ballad of Reading Gaol, though.  I read it when I was a child — I used to really like poetry — and the part that I always remember is, “Yet each man kills the thing he loves, by all let this be heard.”  I read that when I was about 7 or 8 years old.

ELIAS:  And what is your assessment of these words?

ANONY:  Yet each man kills the thing he loves ... well, I think that the thing that we’re killing that we love is ourselves, frankly.

ELIAS:  In a manner of speaking, yes.

What you are killing, so to speak, is your trust and your acceptance and your recognition of your worth; not that you shall in actuality kill yourself, so to speak, but that you shall kill that wondrous element of self which is the expression of acceptance, which is your natural movement, and this is the objectification of separation.

ANONY:  Yes.  I finally saw a focus about a month ago.

ELIAS:  Aha!

ANONY:  I was sleeping, and in my dream, I looked into a mirror and saw myself, except the mirror reflection wasn’t what I look like.  It was a woman.  She had golden blond hair, and she had these incredible icy, silvery-turquoise eyes, and I looked into her eyes.  I knew it was me, but I also knew that she was not in this physical dimension.  It was her eyes — she was different.  Later, I was walking down the street and I thought about it, and then the name Gwen came, and then I could see her face again.

ELIAS:  I shall express to you that this focus IS in actuality within this physical dimension, but is also what you would identify as a future focus.

ANONY:  Oh!  Hmm.  And is her name Gwen?

ELIAS:  Yes, you are correct.

ANONY:  Ah, ‘cause I’ve thought of her since then.  I think that she lends me energy.

ELIAS:  You are correct.  I am expressing to you quite literally as I offer to you that this shift in consciousness shall be altering of ALL of your reality, and in this, what you view to be future shall be quite differently expressed than how you view your reality presently, in many, many different manners.

Therefore, although I shall not express to you that your physical form in its appearance, so to speak, objectively, outwardly, may be changed so very dramatically, it may appear in some manners different, for you incorporate many, many different types of expressions in what you identify as future focuses that you view presently, as I have stated, as science fiction. (Chuckling)

ANONY:  Another question — I think this was probably a focus I viewed many, many years ago.  I was trying astral projection because I seem to do it when I sleep.  When I’m sleeping, if I hear a noise in the house, I fly around the ceiling — I’ve always done that! (Laughing)  For some reason, it seems safe to be around the ceiling.  In any event, I’d been doing this in my sleep for many years, and so one time I read a book on it and I said, okay, I’m gonna try it.  So I consciously was trying to get out of my body, and I knew that if I put my arm outside the bed, my right hand, that something would come and take my hand and help me out of my body.  So I put my arm out and I felt something take my hand, and then I panicked and I thought, “Oh my god!  What is this?”

I was afraid to look at it, so I sort of glanced sideways, and it was a man ... well, it was male.  I knew it was male; I didn’t see it was male, I knew it was, and he had a long cape on, and he had a hat that looked like a Viking hat with horns.  Scared me to death!  I’ve never tried to do that since!  I didn’t know what it was, and just recently I was thinking about it and I thought, I wonder if that was a focus?  Or not?

ELIAS:  Yes, you are correct.

ANONY:  Hmm!

ELIAS:  This is an allowance of yourself to be engaging the energy of your essence in this type of manner to be helpful to you presently in this focus in your manipulation of energy, allowing yourself to access another focus that holds the recognition objectively of this type of action.  Your desire is to be projecting, and therefore you allow yourself to access another focus of essence that engages this action and holds an objective awareness of it.

ANONY:  Oh.  This was about 20 years ago, and I didn’t really know what I was doing, and the experience scared me.  There was actually someone there!  I wasn’t expecting that, and it really startled me!  I slept with the lights on in the front room for about three years after that.  I mean, it just really ... I wasn’t ready for it, I guess.  Maybe I’ll experiment now ...

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!

ANONY:  ... now that I know it’s safe! (Laughing)

ELIAS:  And this type of experience in actuality is what precipitates your clichés such as, engage carefulness of what you ask for!

ANONY:  Yes!

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha!  For you may offer it to yourself!

ANONY:  Yes! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)  One last question about a friend of mine named Judy.  Does she have ... I know this is gonna sound ... anyway, I’m just gonna ask it.  Does she have a focus named Lillie Langtry? (Short pause)

ELIAS:  No, but participates in that time framework and participates in a focus with this individual.

ANONY:  Oh, okay.  I guess that’s all the questions I have for today.

ELIAS:  Very well.  I shall be encouraging of you.

Be remembering, I shall continue to offer my energy with you throughout this time framework and beyond, and in this, I shall express to you, in the moments that you experience the feeling that you are incapable, so to speak, of turning your attention and moving your perception away from your fear ... for I recognize that you experience moments of this action, and in those moments, you may inhale deeply and offer yourself a momentary intentional relaxation, and knowing that my energy is present with you.

ANONY:  Thank you.

ELIAS:  And I shall be “filling” in that breath.

ANONY:  Thank you.  I love you, Elias.

ELIAS:  And I offer lovingness to you also, and great encouragement, for I am acknowledging of the movement that you have created and the willingness within your focus to continue in your movement.

In this, in your experience within your day after the morrow, I shall be with you.

ANONY:  Thank you, thank you!

ELIAS:  And we shall engage the dispelling of fearfulness together!

ANONY:  Oh, thank you! (Elias chuckles)

ELIAS:  And to that day, you shall continue within the now, and not be allowing your attention to be consumed by the dragon of fear.

ANONY:  Thank you.

ELIAS:  To you this day I offer tremendous affection, and express to you, au revoir.

ANONY:  Au revoir.

Elias departs at 1:11 PM.

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