Thursday, October 14, 1999-2
© 2000 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael), and Daryl (Ashrah).
Elias arrives at 3:50 PM. (Arrival time is 14 seconds)
ELIAS: Good afternoon! (Smiling)
DARYL: Hello, Elias. I’m not exactly sure how to approach
what I want to talk about today. Part of it has to do with my frustration
and feeling like something is blocking my movement. I have been addressing
to my duplicity and fear and shrines, and I can feel the movement, as a
train, and especially in the last week, I know I’ve been working with the
shrine about how others view me and how I’m outside of myself, and join
with them instead of being with me.
I’ve also had periods where I feel
really stuck. When I’m battling this energy entity — which is myself
that I’m battling, I know that — I tend to alternate between two states.
In one state, the entity is in charge, more or less, and I always feel
a great deal of tension and pressure in my head that is centered over my
eyes and my jaw and my right ear, and when I feel in the grip of this,
it’s like it has this physical grip on me that makes it very hard to even
maintain the small shred of self that I have within the box of fear.
I also feel very cut off from essence and myself, and from interaction
with you.
Now, there’s another state which I’ve been developing more in the past
few years where I do feel like I’m ... whatever self I allow myself to
be, I know it’s not being within my full self. And in that, I feel
the tension shift to the other side of my face. It’s still uncomfortable,
but less uncomfortable, and I can feel energy moving within my body, which
I don’t in the other state, and I feel somewhat me, although not the end
result which I will feel when I’m finally outside the box of fear.
I guess what concerns me is, I keep going to the most uncomfortable
state, and then I feel kind of stuck there, and recently when I’ve been
there, I get an increased aching in my eyes that’s above my normal eye
pain, and also for the past week my right ear has ... I normally have a
white noise in there that’s at a low level. This isn’t a ringing
— it’s a white noise — and in the past week, as in other times, it has
increased to the point where it’s blocking my hearing, and it’s also very
distracting. I guess basically I don’t understand why I switch between
these two states exactly, and how to un-stick myself when I feel like I’m
in the grip of the fear entity. Do you understand what I’m talking
about?
ELIAS: Quite. Yes.
Now; first of all, let me express to you that what you are creating
is a familiar action, and this is a type of creation that you have engaged
for much time framework.
Now; in this, you present yourself with two factors. One is the
familiarity. You move into this action, for you know this action
objectively.
DARYL: Now, when you say action, are you talking about the least
comfortable state?
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: Okay.
ELIAS: This is familiar to you objectively. Therefore, you
recognize this and you understand to a point the action that you are creating.
Within that familiarity, you magnate yourself to this type of creation
for that very reason, for the action that you are moving into, subjectively
AND objectively, in addressing to this element of fear is unfamiliar, and
this, within the circle of the beliefs and within the circle of the shrine,
creates a perpetuation of it.
Now; I wish not for you to be moving yourself into the idea of “stuck”
or helplessness, for in actuality, you are not exhibiting either.
Your perception, which motivates your thought process, is beginning to
move you into the direction of stuck and an element of helplessness, but
this is merely an aspect of duplicity which is attempting to be battling,
so to speak, with the movement that you are creating.
Now; the other element that is presented in this action is the beginning
of a new movement. I express to you, many times within physical focus,
individuals may be directing themselves into the addressment of certain
issues and certain beliefs which are held very strongly, and as they choose
to be moving through those particular issues, they begin to create more
of an intensity than they have experienced previously. This is an
element of the process that is in compliance with your mass belief systems.
The mass belief dictates that you shall move more into the turbulence
of the storm, and you shall allow yourself a temporary respite in the eye
of the storm. But subsequent to the movement through the eye of the
storm, you shall move yourself once again into the turbulence of the storm,
and the second movement into the turbulence of the storm shall be increased
before you move out of the storm.
This is a widely held belief in mass belief systems. You express
to yourselves in your common vernacular that events shall become worse
before they shall become better.
Therefore, in compliance with this belief, in your individual movement,
as you choose to engage difficult areas, strongly-held issues, you create
a time framework to be reinforcing of yourself, allowing you an objective
gathering of strength, figuratively speaking, and subsequent to that movement,
which may be viewed as your eye of the storm, you create an intensity.
Now; be remembering, you have moved through the initial element of the
storm to be moving into the eye, but now you move into the next element
of the storm before moving out of the storm. In this, the second
or next element of the storm is familiar, for it holds the same qualities
and action as the first element of the storm, but it appears to be more
intense.
Now; I express to you that this is an indication
to you that you are accomplishing and that you are creating. I am
aware of the struggle and the uncomfortableness that you are experiencing
individually, physically and emotionally.
But let me also reinforce to you that you are presenting yourself with
this type of creation — as it is familiar — in more of an intensity to
be gaining momentum within your motivation, for you have become so familiar
with certain aspects of your own creations, in conjunction with this element
of fear, that you also partially become complacent in the area of motivation
to be moving through it.
Therefore, to be matching the intensity of the fear with the intensity
of motivation, you increase what you term to be the symptom, and this creates
an increase in your motivational factor to be continuing and to be moving
through this issue and dismantling this shrine.
Now; you are not stuck, for you are not discontinuing your movement.
You are not creating a situation in which you are immobilized or in which
you are static. You are continuing to be dismantling this shrine,
but you are increasing the outward expression of this shrine, that you
may afford yourself more of your own ability to be dismantling of it.
In this, let me also say to you, do not allow yourself to be moving
in the direction of discounting your movement or to be resigning yourself,
in a manner of speaking, to what you are creating, for this is the reinforcement
of the duplicity, which thwarts the movement of dismantling this shrine.
Also, be aware, within your movement,
of your thought process and your emotional expression within the time frameworks
that you are creating this type of outward expression, for as you move
your thoughts and your attention into judgment and what you view as negativity,
you also perpetuate the very creation that you wish to discontinue creating.
This physical exhibition that you create increases and prolongs as you
offer more energy to it within your thoughts and emotional expression of
your dislike of it.
I am not expressing to you to be embracing or to be affectionate or
to be loving painfulness! I am NOT expressing this to you.
What I AM expressing to you is that within the projection of negative energy,
you are merely perpetuating the creation.
It is unnecessary for you to be liking a certain creation. It
is also unnecessary for you to be disliking a certain creation. In
this, either expression perpetuates it.
DARYL: Yeah, I’ve had trouble finding that middle point ‘cause
I tend to get angry and feel helpless, but I have had a negative reaction
to it.
ELIAS: Quite, and this perpetuates the action. This is a
concept that I hold the awareness is quite difficult within physical focus,
is that as you concentrate objectively upon any element within “like,”
you shall be perpetuating that which you like. But this movement
also occurs in the reverse, that as you dislike a particular creation and
you move energy into the dislike, you are creating the same action as the
“like.”
It is the same movement of energy. It matters not that you label
one positive and one negative. It matters not that you label one
“like” and one dislike. They are the same movement of energy, and
in this, what I am expressing to you is to allow yourself to view that
these are not merely your choices. You hold other choices that are
not either/or, like or dislike, negative or positive. You hold other
choices between these poles.
And in this, as you allow yourself to turn your attention away from
the creation ... for as you concentrate upon the creation, you shall automatically
move into the like or the dislike, the evaluation and the judgment, for
this is automatically familiar to you.
Therefore, if you are turning your attention away from the creation
and turning your attention to self, and occupying your attention with the
acceptance of self and the acceptance in genuineness of whatever you are
creating within any moment, not placing judgment upon it, you shall dissipate
the energy which is projected to the actual physical creation. Are
you understanding?
DARYL: Yes. I’m just having a lot of difficulty doing it.
Would it be effective to distract myself?
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: Like just with an activity or something that would pull
my attention away from the creation?
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: ‘Cause accepting it seems really hard when I’m really in
the grip of it and I’m in pain, (sighing) and it is just very difficult
for me to accept it at this point.
ELIAS: Quite, and I am understanding of this difficulty.
Let me express to you, pain is the identification of a feeling that
is held in negativity. You may experience the identical same feeling
and it may be perceived as pleasure. It is your perception that identifies
pain, and pain is the physical expression of negativity, negative energy.
Therefore it is, in your terms, the counterpart to pleasure.
Now; I express to you, they are the same energy. They are merely
defined differently. They are the same expression of energy.
They are the same movement of energy. They are the same intensity
of energy. They are identified and defined through your perception
differently, and this is the element that creates comfort and uncomfort.
In this, temporarily, yes, you are correct. If you are allowing
yourself distraction, this may be quite helpful, for you are so very familiar
with the identification of pain that you do not allow yourself any other
identification. You do not allow yourself any other choice.
Therefore, if you are turning your attention away from the actual creation
of pain, you may distract your attention and interrupt the flow of energy
in this particular direction.
DARYL: Okay. Could I also try to experience it as something
other than pain? Would that be effective also?
ELIAS: Yes, you may. Now; think to yourself:
Within your actual physical dimension, individuals create intense physical
extreme pain, or the identification of pain, in conjunction with the action
of birth. But individuals may also, within that action, without any
outside substances and merely by focusing their attention differently,
they may engage the action of birth and experience no pain.
Individuals may incorporate the action of surgical procedures without
the engagement of what you identify as anesthetics merely by turning their
attention and creating a difference within their perception.
In this, a key element is distraction of the attention objectively,
turning the attention objectively away from the creation of the pain; not
necessarily turning the attention away from the physical action that is
being engaged which supposedly is creating of the pain, but merely turning
the attention away from the element of pain itself.
This is, in quite physical terms, very successful with individuals within
physical focus. The reason that you may accomplish this type of action
is that pain is not an actual entity in itself. It is not an actual
physical manifestation in itself. It is a definition within your
perception.
Therefore, as you look to an element of pain that you are creating,
be remembering that the creation of pain is the creation of a definition
of a physical feeling within your perception, but your perception may be
distracted and it may be turned, and as it turns, the pain becomes eliminated,
for it is not an actual physical element in itself.
DARYL: Okay. Well, that gives me some ideas of how to handle
it differently, because I can feel myself moving in the direction of feeling
stuck, and I don’t want to go there again. I want to know that I’m
moving, and keep moving.
ELIAS: And you are.
DARYL: One thing that I’ve also been experiencing, especially
late at night when I’m going to bed and I’m planning on laying there or
I’m actually laying there and trying to communicate with myself or have
some interaction with you, is that I start sneezing. That’s been
happening a lot. It happened a lot last night, and then that just
kind of interacts with this and makes it more congested and thick up there.
I’m aware of the relation of sneezing to fear of life and wanting to
blink out. Is there something with fear of life that I haven’t been
recognizing, or is this just part of this process I’m going through?
ELIAS: It is an element of this process that you are engaging.
The reason that you create this intensely surrounding the time framework
that you objectively engage interaction with myself is that this is the
presentment in objective terms of pulling surfacely elements that you desire
to view, but hold fearfulness in viewing. Therefore, you are creating
this battle once again.
You move regardless, and you may view this also as your objective imagery
and reinforcement to yourself, for you engage the interaction with myself
regardless. Therefore, you allow your desire to be motivating you
and moving you, regardless that the familiarity of your creations struggles
to keep its hold.
DARYL: Okay, because it seems like it interrupts the interaction,
and then the interaction doesn’t take place, but it actually is taking
place?
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: Well, that’s good to know, because sometimes I just get
up. I mean, I sneeze ten times in a row, and it really interrupts
things!
Another sensation connected with this is a feeling of sadness, and when
I investigate it, it seems connected with duplicity, like not wanting to
bother everybody else by me being alive, like I should just give up and
accept this and be dead, essentially. Is that a correct interpretation
of the sadness?
ELIAS: Objectively, yes.
Now; I express to you, as you are aware, this is an expression of duplicity.
Now; view with myself that this belief system of duplicity, as you know,
holds many aspects, and all of the aspects of this belief system are crafty,
and in this craftiness, they become very creative in different manners
of moving you into expressions that shall continue the reinforcement.
Now; in other terms, YOU are very crafty and creative, for in actuality,
the aspects of the belief systems are not entities within themselves, but
they are elements within you. Therefore, we may also express that
YOU are quite creative in attempting to be continuing in your familiar
creations.
In this, let me express to you, I hold the awareness of the difficulty
that you experience in dismantling this shrine.
I also hold the awareness of the perception that you hold in the difficulty
in dismantling this shrine, for your perception expresses to you that there
is such tremendous difficulty that it creates an exhaustion within you,
and in this exhaustion, you begin to express a willingness to discontinue
and a doubtfulness as to the worth of your effort and a doubtfulness as
to your ability to be accomplishing, but this also is very familiar to
you. You have been creating this type of movement for much of your
focus.
Now; I express to you, you speak with me and you express genuinely a
very strong desire to be dismantling this shrine and to be moving into
the creation of new probabilities and a different type of exploration of
this individual focus. I express to you information in compliance
with that desire, but I shall also express to you that in reality, it matters
not.
If you genuinely desire to be invisible,
if you genuinely desire to not be continuing within physical focus, you
may choose this action, and it matters not. But do not delude yourself
into the thought process that what you shall be creating subsequently shall
be tremendously different.
This be the reason that I continue to be encouraging of you and that
I continue to be offering you information that may be helpful in your movement,
for you may continue within physical focus or you may disengage physical
focus. In either choice, you shall continue to be experiencing what
you are creating presently, for you have created this particular issue
and this particular challenge within self.
You have chosen to be offering yourself this challenge to be exploring.
Therefore, you shall explore this challenge, regardless of which area of
consciousness you choose to explore it within.
Are you understanding?
DARYL: I couldn’t hear part of that on the phone, but what exactly
do you mean by “this challenge”?
ELIAS: This challenge in the movement through this fear, and challenging
the depths of the affectingness of duplicity.
DARYL: Okay. Because I’ve had this sense that it was something
I chose for this life, and I think of it in terms of — at least with the
second part — of separation and reunion, and that I choose to separate
very greatly from essence and others and even myself, and then the other
part of it would be to come back to that, to move through all these issues
and come back to myself and to essence as much as I can, and to others.
Is that what you’re talking about?
ELIAS: You are correct, and this IS what I am speaking to you
of.
Therefore, it matters not if you are continuing within physical focus
or if you are disengaging physical focus. You shall continue this
same action. This is what I am expressing to you, that the idea of
disengagement is not what you may term to be a comfort, for the engagement
that you have chosen, the challenge that you have chosen, shall be explored
and enacted regardless of physical focus or disengaging physical focus.
You have eloquently expressed the intent that you have created within
this focus — to be exploring this type of separation, this type of creation,
this type of emotional qualities — and you have chosen to be creating a
movement into harmony; from disharmony into harmony, so to speak, quite
physically expressing.
And in this, I offer to you this statement merely to allow you objectively
to remind yourself that although you may move yourself into the expression
of sadness and despair, the concept of disengagement is not to be viewed
as a comfort. Are you understanding?
DARYL: I think so. Are you saying that I’ve been considering
disengagement?
ELIAS: No. I am merely expressing to you that at times,
you lean in the direction of exasperation, and within that exasperation,
you also lean in the direction of discontinuing, and momentarily, you allow
yourself this idea that if you are discontinuing, you may rest.
DARYL: So I should just get over that idea! (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ha ha ha!
DARYL: ‘Cause I experience it more as that if I don’t move through
this, then there’s no point in continuing to be here, because ... I don’t
know. Because I don’t want to be here if I can’t move through this,
is kind of the way I feel. But if I have to move through it regardless,
I guess I should just go ahead and keep doing it here.
ELIAS: Quite! In this, you allow yourself the objective
recognition and definitions of what you are creating, and you offer yourself
a time framework, which is less confusing objectively.
Therefore, contrary to the mass belief system that if you are disengaging
you shall become all-knowing and you shall become less confused, I express
to you that upon disengagement you may be creating MORE confusion, for
you move yourself into areas of consciousness that complicate — in a manner
of speaking figuratively — what you are creating objectively, physically,
for you remove yourself from the linear time framework and the slowness
of physical reality, which offers you much more of an ease in creating
these types of movements and these types of directions.
In a manner of speaking figuratively, you may experience more ease within
physical focus in addressing to these types of issues than you shall experience
in nonphysical focus.
DARYL: Okay, I’ll keep that in mind. (Elias laughs)
Connected with the same thing is, I’ve also thought that my choosing
to be a final focus — and doing it during the shift — has to do with this
same theme of separation and reunion, and that I have focuses who are more
separated and others that are less separated after the shift, and that
I’m kind of a bridge between those?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, you are correct, and this also
lends tremendous energy to all of the other focuses of essence in addressing
to any aspect of fear elements that they may be creating.
DARYL: Okay. Another thing I was wondering about is this
creation itself of the energy entity and how I experience it both subjectively
and objectively at the same time. Is this an expression of the orientation
of soft, the way I’m doing this?
ELIAS: Not necessarily, although your choice of orientation lends
to an ease in the type of creation that you have chosen.
DARYL: Okay. Also regarding the orientation of soft, I feel
that one of the reasons I chose that for this focus was my interaction
within the shift, and being aware of what’s going on out there.
ELIAS: Correct; that within this particular focus, this is more
facilitating of your choices and your action.
DARYL: Okay, well that certainly gives me a lot to work with.
I guess I’m finished, unless there’s something you wish to add that might
be helpful to me.
ELIAS: I merely express to you to be continuing within your movement
and to be reminding yourself that you ARE continuing within your movement,
and in this, also be remembering in the moments of your painfulness to
be allowing yourself to notice your tension physically and emotionally,
to physically and emotionally intentionally relax the tension that you
hold within that moment, and subsequent to the momentary relaxation of
the tension, allow yourself distraction. Be remembering, pain is
not an entity in itself.
And to you, I offer tremendous energy and affection and continue to
be greatly encouraging, for you ARE creating your movement outside of the
box. I offer to you this day much lovingness and express to you,
au revoir.
DARYL: Au revoir.
Elias departs at 4:44 PM.
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