Turn Your Attention to Self
Topics:
“Turn Your Attention to Self”
“The Camouflage of Self-Sacrifice”
“Alzheimer’s/The Action of Transition”
Thursday, October 14, 1999-1
© 2000 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Marcos (Marta).
Elias arrives at 9:23 AM. (Arrival time is 18 seconds)
ELIAS: Good morning, Marta!
MARCOS: Good morning, Elias! It is a pleasure, once again,
to meet you objectively. (Elias chuckles) I send many greetings,
very warm greetings, from Isabel.
ELIAS: Ah, and you may relay in return!
MARCOS: Thank you. I have a few questions for you, Elias.
May I begin?
ELIAS: Yes.
MARCOS: First, I would like to ask you about the condition that
Paul’s father is experiencing. What can you tell me about it, and
why, that I may relate it to her?
ELIAS: In which direction are you questioning as to the creation?
MARCOS: She has been telling me that he is creating an illness
which she believes is Alzheimer’s disease,
but she doesn’t know, and that’s why she has the question.
ELIAS: The concern is directed in the vein of wishing to be helpful?
MARCOS: Yes, wishing to be helpful, and also, I believe, trying
to understand and get some more information to perhaps to make it easier
for her as well.
ELIAS: Very well. The reason I direct this inquiry is that
there are different responses, dependent upon the direction that the individual
is wishing information in.
Now; I shall express to you that the underlying direction is different
from the objective direction in this line of questioning.
In this, I shall address to what has been objectively questioned, and
the individual may engage myself for the responses to the underlying questions
if she is so choosing.
In this, the individual that is creating this situation that is being
identified as an illness is not in actuality creating an illness, so to
speak, although it may be classified as such in physical terms.
I express to you that this individual, first of all, is engaging the
action of transition, and is quite purposefully and objectively engaging
this action of transition. The reason that this individual has chosen
to be engaging this action is to be challenging and moving beyond certain
strongly-held belief systems and fears within this particular focus.
Within this focus, this individual underlyingly has held a tremendous
questioning in the subject matter of disengagement or death. The
individual expresses particular religious beliefs with respect to the subject
matter of death, but underlyingly there have been tremendous questions,
and this has created an element of fear.
In this, the individual has questioned for much time framework inwardly
that there may not be an actual existence, so to speak, beyond death.
Therefore, as sparked by this questioning and this fear, the individual
has chosen to be engaging the action of transition as an exploration and
a validation to self that this one focus is not all that exists within
consciousness.
Now; within this exploration, the individual willingly engages this
action and travel, so to speak, through different layers of consciousness
in offering self the recognition of more of their reality than has been
viewed previously through religious belief systems. This in actuality
is quite beneficial to the individual, and shall be offering an expedience,
in a manner of speaking, at the time framework in which the individual
eventually shall disengage and move more fully into the action of transition.
This also shall dissipate the fear of harmfulness and negativity subsequent
to disengagement. This, let me express to you, is quite common within
religious belief systems.
An individual holds conflicting aspects of beliefs. In one respect,
they align with an aspect that suggests to them that there is no existence
in consciousness at all subsequent to death, but they also hold an alignment
with an aspect of the belief system that expresses to them that there may
be a continuation subsequent to death, but that it shall be classified
as their identification of hell, for regardless of their striving within
physical focus, within the context of their religious belief systems, they
do not believe that they attain enough accomplishment or enough perfection
to be moving into the expression of heaven. Therefore, the element
of heaven within their beliefs disappears and is not a reality any longer,
and they view their choices to be either a lack of existence entirely or
an existence within painfulness.
Now; to dissipate this strength of these aspects of the belief system,
the individual has chosen to be entering into the action of transition
to explore more of reality within consciousness and therefore abate the
fears. Are you understanding thus far?
MARCOS: Perfectly, and this is fascinating information.
ELIAS: Now; in this, the behavior of the individual at times may
appear to you to be quite irrational. At times it may appear to be
heightened in emotion. At times it may appear to be argumentative.
It may also at times appear to be quite childish, in your terms.
These are all exhibitions of behavior in response to the experiences that
are being engaged within the action of transition coupled with the interaction
with other individuals objectively within physical focus, for to the individual,
these two actions conflict.
The individual holds an awareness that their experiences are genuine
and that they hold a knowing which validates the experiences which are
occurring, but the experiences or the disassociation with objective reality
at times is being invalidated by the individuals objectively within physical
focus, and this creates a conflict within the individual that is experiencing
transition. Therefore, there is a resistance within that individual
to be participating in objective engagements with other individuals, and
this at times may appear as an irritation or a frustration or a lack of
patience.
You may express to this individual inquiring that offering herself more
of an understanding of the action which is being engaged may not necessarily,
in your objective terms, be enough, so to speak, for many times within
physical focus, you may be offering yourselves an explanation and an understanding
— to a point — of what another individual is creating, and this shall not
quell the turbulence of emotion and thoughts that are created within yourself
concerning the other individual.
Therefore, I express that the attention be turned to self, and in that
attention, the recognition be offered to self that she is uncomfortable
with the choice of the other individual, and in this, she may be exploring
her own uncomfortableness and not necessarily concerning herself with the
choice of the other individual.
MARCOS: I think this will still be very helpful, and I will give
her all this information and continue to urge her, as I have done in the
past, to talk to you directly as well. I think that speaking with
you may also be much more helpful than relaying the information third hand,
so to speak.
ELIAS: If she is so choosing, I hold a willingness to be offering
more information to her individually which may be more helpful.
MARCOS: Thank you, Elias. Thank you very much.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome.
MARCOS: Moving on, I have a couple more
questions for myself about dreams. One is about a dream I had roughly
a month ago, Elias, where I dreamt that I went through a window.
I basically took aside some small acrylic figures that were blocking the
entrance, and then I just climbed and went through the window to the other
side. Can you tell me more, please?
ELIAS: This is imagery that you have presented yourself subsequent
to our last meeting, and in this imagery, you are offering yourself the
validation and the encouragement that you do hold the ability to be accomplishing
this action. Within this time framework, you have objectively attempted
to be extending a foot through this window of which we have spoken previously,
although you have not quite moved entirely through this window, (laughing)
for you retract your foot once you have placed it through and are questioning
yourself: “Shall I move or shall I not move?” Ha ha ha!
MARCOS: Maybe I felt the water was very cold on the other side!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha! I express to you, my friend, you are attempting
within your movement, and in this, you struggle with your individual fearfulness
of unfamiliarity and of what you might be creating; not what you ARE creating,
but of what you might be creating.
This is an important element that you may examine, for this also is
quite a common fear.
Individuals turn their attention to self and avail themselves of information,
and subsequently, they — as yourself also presently — may be convoluting
of themselves, questioning not merely their ability, but over-questioning
their motivation to the point that you begin to distort the information
that you have availed yourself of, for you have twisted or convoluted the
information into a turning UPON yourself as opposed to within yourself.
In this, you move once again into familiar territory. You are
quite familiar with the expressions of duplicity. You are unfamiliar
with the lack of duplicity.
Therefore, as you begin to move into the trust and acceptance of self,
you create your movement of placing your foot through your window, but
you stop and you pull your foot back and you express to yourself, “Oh no.
I must be examining my motivation for moving through this window, and it
may be incorrect. Therefore, I shall evaluate more.”
And in this evaluation, you shall begin to move into the familiar area
of duplicity and begin discounting of self once again, and offer yourself
reasons for discounting yourself even within the context of this information
that I offer to you, and in this action, what you are accomplishing is
convoluting your attention and distorting the information to be reinforcing
the duplicitous expressions.
In this, I express to you, continue to turn your attention to self,
but not UPON yourself.
Do not be turning your attention upon yourself as a lion that shall
dismember yourself, but hold your attention TO yourself to be directing
of yourself in acceptance. Turn your attention to self in what you
within physical focus would express to be a loving nature.
You shall extend this and afford this to other individuals. Why
shall you not afford this to yourself? (Pause) The expression of
other individuals that you engage is more acceptable than your own.
MARCOS: Yes, I think you’re ... I know you’re absolutely right.
I will continue to work on this, believe me!
ELIAS: Let me also express to you, Marta, that as you hold your
attention in the area of other individuals and you continue to concern
yourself with the wants and the desires and the creations and the choices
of other individuals, you shall continue to hold yourself in suspension
and you shall continue to not move through your window.
For this is not the point and this is what we have been discussing previously,
that if you turn your attention to self, if you are expressing acceptance
of self and recognizing YOUR movement, YOUR desire, you shall allow yourself
to move through your window.
And be remembering that each individual creates their reality through
their perception and orchestrated through their choices. You may
not create their reality for them. As intensely as you may attempt,
you shall not succeed in creating another individual’s reality for them.
You have not created this physical reality in that manner.
Therefore, they may not create your reality. They may not dictate
to you your behaviors, for this shall eliminate your choice, and in like
manner, you may not dictate to them their behaviors, for this eliminates
their choice.
You may not be in agreement objectively with the choices of other individuals
— you may not hold comfortableness with other individuals’ choices objectively
— but they are not your choices, and as you continue to hold your attention
in the direction of other individuals’ choices, you are not paying attention
to your choices.
MARCOS: I understand, and I ... again, I do understand on a very
conceptual level. I think that when it gets to the emotional aspect
is when I experience the conflict.
ELIAS: Quite, and within this conflict,
turn your attention to self and express to yourself the questioning of
what you — YOU — desire. Which direction are YOU moving within?
Examine YOUR behavior, for you participate in this ongoing conflict.
What is your contribution to this ongoing conflict?
(Firmly) As you examine your contribution, you shall view that
the creation of that action is motivated by not paying attention to self,
but continuously turning your attention to the other individuals and evaluating
the choices and the behaviors of the other individuals, and expressing
the camouflage to yourself that you do not want these behaviors to be displayed
within other individuals, that you want another individual to alter their
reality and alter their choices.
In this, you are expressing that you are not creating your reality.
The other individual is creating your reality. Therefore, if the
other individual alters their choice and you continue to be wishing this
enough, perhaps it shall be accomplished. No, it shall not!
For you may be wishing and wishing and wishing, and the other individual
shall continue to create their reality in the manner that is beneficial
to them and in the manner that they choose, regardless of your opinion.
And in this, you continue upon the hamster wheel for the reason that
you are not turning your attention to self and recognizing that your behavior
is not dictated by other individuals. Your behavior and your choices
are dictated by you, regardless of another individual’s choices and regardless
of whether you agree or find comfort in another individual’s choices.
(Intently) In this, be remembering, you are all exploring physical
experience. Therefore, it matters not! Within each focus, you
are exploring different elements of physical experience within this physical
reality.
Let me express to you, Marta, it may be helpful temporarily for you,
as you do accomplish well within dream state and within your exploration
of other focuses, for you to be moving in the direction of offering to
yourself the identification and connection with another focus that you
hold in this dimension that you yourself within this focus may be quite
irritated with. You do hold another focus within this particular
dimension which may even be considered repulsive to you presently, for
the behaviors of that individual conflict tremendously with the beliefs
that you hold within this focus.
In this, as you allow yourself to connect with an aspect, a focus of
yourself, of your essence, that creates choices quite differently from
yourself, you may allow yourself to view that these are elements that are
held within you all, and they are merely choices.
It is quite easy within the construct of your belief systems to move
in and out of judgment with respect to other individuals. It is quite
easy for you to move in and out of judgments with yourselves. But
as you allow yourself to view that all of you as individuals choose a tremendously
varied range of experience within physical focus — for the very point that
it is an exploration of an area of consciousness — in this, why shall you
not explore every aspect of this physical reality, every aspect of emotional
expression, every aspect of possibilities of creations within this physical
dimension?
This particular individual which is another focus of your essence within
this dimension would be considered quite hurtful. This aspect of
essence, this other focus, creates choices within his reality that you
may view as tremendously inconsiderate, selfish, and objectively hurtful
to other individuals.
This is NOT a reflection upon you, and within that focus, it is not
wrong, for it is merely an expression of choice, and the individuals within
that focus that participate with that particular individual also choose
to draw themselves into the scenarios that play out, so to speak.
YOU ALL HOLD CHOICES.
The point of this discussion that I offer to you is not to be discounting
of yourself. The point is to offer to you that you hold choices and
that you are not exercising your choices in the manner that you desire,
for you are not allowing yourself to view your choices, for you are preoccupying
your attention with the choices of other individuals.
In this, you continue to hold yourself back and forth within your expressions
and your energy, expressing to yourself objectively that you may be creating
better or that another individual may be creating better. You are
already creating perfectly! It is not a question of creating your
reality better.
But you are expressing that you are experiencing conflict and that you
wish to be discontinuing. This is not a situation of better or worse
either. This is merely a situation of stepping sideways and viewing
that you hold different choices. There is a tremendous difference
between the identification of better and different.
What you are creating now is not worse. What you are creating
now is not bad. What you are creating now is not failure. What
you are creating now is perfect! What you are creating now is NOT
BROKEN.
What you are expressing is a desire to be exploring differently, to
be opening to more of your choices; not to be creating better choices,
but to allow yourself an opening of awareness that you may view more of
your choices, recognizing that all of your choices are merely choices.
And in this, you may even continue within the choices that you have
created now and allow yourself the acceptance of this, and your conflict
shall dissipate. It matters not, but I am recognizing that within
objective terms, you wish to be altering your choices. You wish to
be moving into different directions, and therefore I express to you acknowledgment
of this and I express to you the method of how you may be accomplishing
that action.
And in this, if your desire be
to alter your choices, you may allow yourself to alter your choices if
you are allowing yourself to view your choices, but as I have stated, if
you are not viewing yourself, if you are not paying attention within yourself,
you also shall not view your choices. You shall continue to view
the choices of other individuals, for this is where your attention lies.
Are you understanding?
MARCOS: Yes, I am. This is just so much information.
I understand, and I will continue to explore as I have within my dream
state. It’s just beautiful, wonderful, very helpful information,
and I deeply, greatly appreciate it, Elias.
ELIAS: You are very welcome, my friend. I am quite encouraging
of you in this area, for as you have offered yourself your own individual
imagery of your window and your movement through and back and through and
back, you may also acknowledge yourself that you ARE creating movement,
and you may acknowledge yourself that you are no longer merely viewing
the panes of the window. You have opened the window, and now, in
your movement through the window, your push shall be turning your attention
to yourself and not concerning yourself with the choices of other individuals.
Let me also express to you, merely momentarily, I hold an awareness
of you, and of other individuals also, in the direction of a type of exasperation,
for you may be hearing this information, and I am aware that you become
temporarily discouraged, expressing to yourselves the thought of great
difficulty in the actual accomplishment. I hold the awareness that
subsequent to our engagements objectively, you move into thought processes
of questioning the information that I have offered to you and expressing
to yourself, “BUT, I feel this in this situation. Yes, yes, Elias.
BUT, I love this individual, and this creates this movement within myself.
Yes, yes, Elias. BUT, I wish to be helpful and creating no conflict
and acceptance with respect to this individual.”
I am aware of your struggles in these areas. I do hold an awareness
of the difficulty that you experience in the attempt to be turning your
attention to self and creating your individual desires regardless of other
individuals, for I do hold the awareness of the strength of the different
aspects of duplicity and how influencing this is within your objective
movements and creations, and how easily you move in the thought process
of fear that you may be hurtful to another individual, of fear that you
shall not be accepting of another individual, of fear that you may be expressing
selfishness.
I do not discount the reality of these expressions, for they are real.
Therefore, do not misunderstand and reinforce your own discounting of your
abilities by expressing to yourself that I do not understand, for this
merely offers you a reinforcement of your own devaluing of yourself and
your abilities objectively.
Therefore, I express to you, I do hold an awareness of these elements.
I do not minimize the difficulty that you experience objectively.
I am merely offering you information, that you may allow yourself to recognize
your value and your ability, and that you are much more objectively helpful
to other individuals — not merely yourself — as you are turning your attention
to self and expressing a direction that holds your attention with self.
You are not helpful objectively to other individuals, regardless of the
dictates of your belief systems, objectively you are not helpful to another
individual if you are not focusing your attention upon yourself.
You delude yourself into a thought process — which is the camouflage
of duplicity — in the direction of expressing that you are being helpful
to another individual if you continue to hold your attention in the area
of what may be “best” for the other individual, and you reinforce this
in your feeling of self-sacrifice and nobility within self. Self-sacrifice
accomplishes no helpfulness. This is a disguise and a camouflage
of duplicity. What you express to other individuals in self-sacrifice
is the discounting of self, and the reinforcement in communication to other
individuals that they shall discount themselves also.
And is this the communication that you wish to be offering to other
individuals? No. Is this the communication that you wish to
offer to your daughter? And shall we strike the note there? (Pause)
I think not.
Therefore, offer the mirror action to Isabel that she offers to you
in turning your attention to self and the acceptance of self and your choices,
which shall offer objectively to her the reinforcement of her actions and
choices, and this ripples outward, for she offers to her mother this same
communication. NOW you begin to understand objectively what I am
offering to you in this information.
MARCOS: Absolutely. This is very eloquent. It drives
home every point. I do somehow know that you are aware of this reality,
and at the same time, within my dream state and within my waking reality,
I know the interaction that happens between us, and believe me, that is
tremendous reinforcement.
Your words and your energy and your patience are having an effect on
me, and even though I realize that in the end, it is my choice, it is what
I do and the way that I create my reality, I cannot understate how much
I value your friendship and your interaction with me.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. You have asked for helpfulness,
and I hold a tremendous willingness to be compliant.
MARCOS: Thank you so very much, and I offer the same to you in
however I can help.
ELIAS: Acceptable! (Chuckling)
MARCOS: I have no more questions today, Elias. I will continue
to explore and to move and to look inwardly so I can make the choices I
want to make.
ELIAS: And I shall continue to be offering energy and encouragement
to you in your resolve.
MARCOS: Thank you so very much. Again, as always, a real
pleasure.
ELIAS: I offer to you much affection this day, Marta, and I anticipate
our next meeting. To you quite lovingly, au revoir.
MARCOS: Au revoir.
Elias departs at 10:22 AM.
Bobbi’s note: The funniest thing happened as I was typing this
session. I only wanted to start it, and told myself I would type
until 8:30 and finish later. I was typing and typing, and the clock
didn’t seem to move much; in fact, it was 8:28 for the longest time!
It STAYED 8:28 for the entire time I transcribed this session — the clock
on my computer froze at 8:28. This struck me as very funny, and so
I aligned with it and my original intent, which was to type until 8:30.
Well, of course, I transcribed the entire tape. When I got out of
the Word program, my clock returned to the actual time!
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