This Is an Ongoing Process
“This Is an Ongoing Process”
“Be Present With Yourself in the Now”
Thursday, September 18, 2003 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Anne (Monique)
Elias arrives at 9:53 AM. (Arrival time is 18 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good evening!
ANNE: Good evening! How are you?
ELIAS: As always. And yourself?
ANNE: Very well, thank you very much. Shall we get into it?
ELIAS: Very well.
ANNE: Well, as you know, I had one full day of self-appreciation. We were talking about that in our last meeting.
ANNE: I think I’ve certainly moved more in that direction than I have been in a long time. Could you just confirm that for me?
ELIAS: Yes. Ha ha!
ANNE: And it will just carry on, I think.
ELIAS: Which is a significant alteration in perception, is it not?
ANNE: Yes, it really is. Thank you very much for suggesting our little game, as well. I felt that after a period of time the chocolates weren’t necessary. It was working on its own.
ANNE: Yes, and I acknowledge that you’ve been around me quite a lot, particularly this week. I’ve just noticed that and want to thank you for that.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome, my friend. (Chuckles)
ANNE: Today I had an insight. I don’t want to go through it too in-depth, but it’s about being a student versus being an actual practitioner. I’m talking about it in terms of the acceptance and widening of my awareness. I get the sense that one day it will just all click. That’s what I’m thinking. That’s the way that I seem to operate. From that point onwards it will just be quite automatic. I liken it very much, this whole process of widening my awareness, to how I started my business the first time. What would you say about that?
ELIAS: Quite similar.
ANNE: I say that because when I was 20 I had the desire to start the business but didn’t actually do anything for five years about it. Then, that was because of a lack of confidence or trust in my abilities. It’s the same thing with this, isn’t it, with the acceptance?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
ANNE: When I was getting that sense, the insight rather, I had a timeframe of... Well, it changed actually from seven years, to two years, to five years, to three years. Those are all different probabilities, correct?
ANNE: The one that I’m on at the moment I sense is a seven-year. Is that right? I guess it could change in any moment.
ELIAS: You are correct. It may change in any moment, and that is dependent upon your movement and how you assimilate information, and the steps, so to speak, that you incorporate in allowing yourself to express, and moving in actual experiences in which you allow yourself to trust yourself and therefore offer yourself an experiential reality of the movement that you are incorporating.
In this, also remember that the process is ongoing. As you widen your awareness and as you trust yourself more and therefore incorporate more confidence and more allowance of yourself in your freedom, you generate more of an ease. But you continually are exploring, and therefore, you are continuously engaging a process of assimilating more and more.
ANNE: In association with that — I was thinking more about it today — and I felt there was a wall that I’m coming up against. There’s a wall that I can’t seem to identify. That feeling is the same now as in other areas of my life. I guess it’s all the same, isn’t it? But do you know what I mean?
ELIAS: Offer description.
ANNE: It’s like the core. There’s a core obstacle that I feel I need to jump over or sort of just become aware of so I can jump over it. But I don’t know what it is, what this wall is. I don’t know how else to describe it.
ELIAS: Offer an assessment of your experience in like manner with other expressions in your focus.
ANNE: For instance, my writing, and I notice it’s actually the same association of it being a chore, which is the same association that I have with it being a chore going through all the different steps. It’s a similar feeling. When I get past that, something feels a bit overwhelming. Like in my writing, I get incredible inspirations, and then suddenly I feel I can’t go on with this anymore because it’s very overwhelming, and then I stop.
ELIAS: Very well.
Now; do you incorporate any impression with regard to this experience?
ANNE: I don’t understand the question. Can you repeat that?
ELIAS: Do you incorporate any impression associated with this experience, prior to my response to you?
ANNE: It feels overwhelming. It’s having something to do with trust. It’s having something to do with just doing it.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
Now; let me express to you, what you are experiencing, although it is familiar for you have generated this type of experience previously, you do not offer yourself the information of actually what you are generating, and that is what sparks the overwhelmingness. I am quite understanding what you are expressing and what you are actually doing. In this, what is a significant factor is paying attention to the now and being present in the now.
Now; this may be somewhat confusing at times, for I am aware that at times you think that you are paying attention and being present in the now, but your understanding of being present with your attention is clouded.
Now; in some aspects, you are paying attention somewhat in the now. Incorporating your writing as an example, in this, in a day you may be paying attention to the action of writing, and therefore, you think that you are paying attention in the now. But you are not present in the now with your attention, for what becomes overwhelming is the anticipation of the finished product. That becomes distracting and the attention moves to that, which is a projection to the future. In that projection, the task or the activity becomes a chore, for you are not actually doing it; you are merely thinking about it. Therefore, as you continue to think about it and you continue to project in anticipation of the finished product, you are not actually present and participating in the process.
This is what you are experiencing in relation to your movement in this information and the movement within yourself in trusting yourself, generating this acceptance and applying these concepts in practical application within your focus. For you are projecting your attention in anticipation of what you assess to be the final product, which is the reason that I express to you to remember that this is an ongoing process. There is no finish line.
In this, yes, you shall move into more and more of an expression of acceptance, understanding, ease and allowance of yourself in relation to your preferences and your freedom. But what you are experiencing in this feeling of this wall, the wall is the lack of actual action and participation of doing now and being present with yourself now. The wall is the evidence to yourself to pull your attention back into the now and to be present in your participation of your process.
ANNE: That is going to be my next task, to really practice the now, practice keeping my attention steady in the present.
ELIAS: Correct, for this generates a balance. In that, you eliminate this feeling of anticipation that you must be recognizing something but you cannot see it. The something is the wall, and the wall is the projection of attention and occupying your attention with many probabilities and possibilities and potentials that have not yet occurred. That becomes a concern and that becomes overwhelming. In the overwhelmingness, what do you create? Precisely what you fear. You create stopping and not generating the productivity that you want.
ANNE: I shall practice that. There was an experience that I did have. I was sitting at the computer one evening, reading a transcript actually, and there was an incredible feeling of centeredness and just being in myself entirely. It was a very comfortable feeling, wonderful, wonderful. I could do anything. It was a feeling of utmost confidence. Is that an example of a combination of trust, being in the now, just everything? That was an ideal feeling.
ELIAS: Yes, and you may generate that experience in whatever you do, if you are expressing that presence with yourself.
ANNE: I also have the sense as well — I have a lot of insights, to be honest — that the whole thing is actually quite simple.
ELIAS: In actuality, you are quite correct. It is. But I may express to you as I have to other individuals, you do fascinate yourselves with complicating.
ANNE: Yes, I agree. We have to drag it out forever!
One other thing I wanted to ask in relation to this week, every time I have a session with you, about three or four days before and three or four days after, I feel very clear, very able to access insights very easily and be correct.
ELIAS: Yes, and this is not unusual. And I may express...
ANNE: Why not have that all the time? I’d love to have it all the time!
ELIAS: You may. But what is occurring is that within that time framework, you allow yourself much more of an openness. You are aware of my energy, and in that awareness of my energy, you trust your impressions and you trust yourself, for you trust that I am present. Therefore, there is a type of energy safety net, for you allow yourself to trust yourself, knowing that my energy is also present, being supportive. Therefore, if you figuratively falter in your trust of yourself and your openness of yourself, you incorporate an awareness that there is a supportive energy backing you.
Now; outside of that time framework as, in your terms, time moves forward and you incorporate a further distance from our actual objective interaction with each other in physical conversation, you begin to not be as aware of the presence of my energy. It is not that it is not present, but you begin to distract yourself and you begin to project your attention. In that, you are less aware of my energy in presence with you and in its supportiveness, and you begin to doubt or falter within yourself.
In this, eventually you shall generate enough trust to express a confidence within yourself in which it is unnecessary to be dependent upon that backing, and you shall allow yourself that expression.
You are allowing yourself that expression, and in a manner of speaking, it may be likened to an analogy of a small child engaging what you would assess to be learning to swim within water. Initially, they are swimming within the water and they allow themselves to engage that action if the parent is supporting them physically from beneath them. The action is the same, but they do not trust that they shall hold themselves afloat in swimming. But eventually, as the parent loosens their hold in their support from beneath the child, the child eventually trusts themselves that they shall keep themselves afloat.
This is a very similar action that you are engaging. You allow yourself an awareness of my presence in supportiveness, and therefore, in those time frameworks, you allow yourself to be more confident and you allow yourself to trust your impressions and information that you offer to yourself much more clearly.
Eventually, as you continue to practice with that action, you may extend those time frameworks and also change your perception, knowing that my energy continues to be present and supportive, but also knowing that that expression is more of an interaction in friendship rather than dependence.
ANNE: Exactly. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet, as it were.
ELIAS: I am quite understanding. This is the movement that you are generating. But the key, once again, is to be present with yourself in the now.
ANNE: I shall certainly practice that.
I had an experience — again, this usually happens when I’m at the computer — an experience while I was at work one morning when I felt very much Morten Harket. He was doing something, as if he was pulling or taking inspiration or something happened. I don’t know how else to explain it. It was from my heart center that I felt it was taking place. After that, I felt someone waking up, and then I was in New York and saw a beautiful apartment. So, I think it was two separate people. It was Morten Harket and it was my focus in New York...
ANNE: ...who was just waking up. I felt that same sort of drawing on inspiration coming from someone else again today, another gentleman. What is that? I’ve felt it before.
ELIAS: This is also an element of this process that you are engaging in widening your awareness — allowing yourself to experience yourself as more than one attention and allowing yourself to draw upon the energies of other attentions to be somewhat inspiring to yourself in this focus — allowing yourself to open to your periphery, which is significant, for this generates a larger sense of self and it also allows you to draw upon other energies and to manipulate energy in a manner which is beneficial and motivating to you in what you physically do in this focus.
That is a natural action in widening your awareness and this is the process that you are engaging. This is your want, to be widening your awareness, to be expressing this intimacy with yourself and this acceptance and trust and confidence, and allowing yourself to actually express your freedom and generate creating what you want in physical manifestations and in activities. In this, as you continue in this direction, you are allowing yourself to open more to your periphery, which with different individuals many times does incorporate a natural allowance and tapping into other focuses.
ANNE: I loved that feeling and I just want to have it as much as I can. I’m very motivated by inspiration. Speaking of it, speaking of inspiration, another morning I was at work and just had the strongest feeling of being inspired and really wanting to write. Normally when I get my inspiration to write, I also get a story and a setting, the whole component of what makes a story, but this time I had none of that. It was just the pure inspiration.
ELIAS: Which also is an experiment in trusting yourself, allowing yourself to engage the action without a preconceived idea, allowing a free flow of energy, and allowing yourself to trust and merely engage the action and also incorporate your own surprise.
ANNE: I see. That’s what it was. Well, that’s nice. (Elias laughs) So, I’m definitely moving in a direction that I’m quite happy with.
ELIAS: And I may offer my congratulations!
ANNE: Thank you very much. On to some other items that I wanted to cover as well. About a month ago, I guess, there was a period of about a week where you could actually interpret it as I was being insulted by a couple of different people. But I had no emotional reaction to the experiences. There was no response; there was no emotional response. There was a mental response, but that’s it. It was as if I was playing with a ball, but I didn’t really need to play with the ball.
ELIAS: I am understanding.
ANNE: Is that because I recognized it for what it is, but the fact that it still takes place means that I haven’t completely dealt with the whole process?
ELIAS: Not necessarily. This is an interesting example that you have offered to yourself. For you generate the experience, in a manner of speaking, to test yourself, which offers you actual experiential evidence of your accomplishment.
You do not present this to yourself as a type of reflection of yourself that you have not moved your perception and that you have not incorporated more of a trust of yourself or to discount yourself. You present this to yourself to allow yourself to see physically the difference in your response in not generating a response or an emotional communication.
That you did not offer yourself an emotional communication and you expressed a neutrality was your example to yourself of your own movement in an acceptance of yourself, that you are no longer generating that responsiveness within yourself and discounting of yourself. This is significant that you presented these experiences to yourself as a validation.
Let me express to you, although I express to you all that all of your interactions are a reflection of yourself, that is not to say that they are a mirror. A reflection may be presented in many different manners and to accomplish many different expressions, many different identifications. At times you present experiences to yourself that reflect how you have generated a movement and how you have accomplished. Not necessarily to reflect a discounting of yourself, but to allow you to view within yourself what you have accomplished in what you have moved into, and therefore validate yourself.
ANNE: That was an interesting experience, I have to say, because he could have said anything to me and it didn’t make a single solitary difference. (Elias laughs) It was very nice. It was quite freeing.
ELIAS: This is an evidence of reconfiguring energy.
Now; as I have expressed previously, I may present many, many, many concepts and much information to you all, but until the point that you individually generate an experience in association with these concepts, you incorporate merely an intellectual understanding but not a reality, and there continues to be a question of how you actually do these experiences.
This is an example of reconfiguring energy, and therefore, it is not affecting. The reconfiguring of energy was expressed in association with your own confidence and acceptance of yourself. Had you not been expressing that acceptance and that confidence, you would not have reconfigured the energy. Therefore, you would have discounted yourself.
ANNE: That is quite an accomplishment, I have to say. (Elias laughs) Oh, that’s so good! Thank you for that.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome.
ANNE: Let’s go through an experience recently as well with my café. I’m just going to run through the scenario.
ELIAS: Very well.
ANNE: Basically, Monday I had a sense that I had to call my agent, to reconnect with him and to start the process of selling the café, which is what I’m hoping to do. The next day, he called me in the morning and said we had an interested party. That afternoon, we had an offer. That was Tuesday. Wednesday morning came and he said, “We’re having some problems.” By Wednesday afternoon, it was off, it fell through.
It went very, very quickly. The whole process of possibly getting rid of the shop just went to every extreme. I’m wondering why that happened. There were a lot of little items going on at the same time. Paralleling my excitement was sort of a heaviness dealing with certain issues at the café regarding my staff. That was all kind of happening, and in three days, everything seemed to happen. But why didn’t it go through?
ELIAS: Now; what is your assessment of what you created and what you presented to yourself?
ANNE: My assessment was that I had created the buyer and all of the excitement, and I had a sense that it could potentially go through very easily. That’s what I wanted, something very effortless. In that process, I began to doubt how quickly it could actually happen. That was part of that process. It was a sort of reflection of beliefs that I actually carry regarding effortlessness.
ELIAS: Correct. Therefore, what did you evidence to yourself?
ANNE: My initial response to that would be I’m obviously leaning in the direction of still believing more strongly in effort rather than effortlessness.
ELIAS: Not necessarily. You are viewing this situation in association with familiarity, and in that, you are not actually clearly seeing what you presented to yourself. In actuality, what you presented to yourself was an evidence of the possibility that tremendous movement may occur quite quickly and that it is not necessary to incorporate a tremendous length of time to be accomplishing what you want.
Now; this is significant, for what you focused upon was the outcome rather than the process. The process was the point of what you were presenting to yourself, that the process may be expressed quite quickly and quite simply, but this also offered you the opportunity to recognize beliefs that you incorporate and doubts that you incorporate concerning certain types of actions and how much time they incorporate.
Therefore, you presented to yourself many actions in extreme in a very short time framework to present that possibility to yourself that not all actions, regardless of how large they appear to you to be, must be incorporating tremendous time framework.
ANNE: I obviously would very much like to get back into the frame of mind I was in on that Monday. It was a real strong belief at that point that it was possible, anything was possible, that it could go through and I’m entitled to having something quite simple happen.
ELIAS: Correct, but also recognize the point of this experience was to view the process. Therefore, remember that; for your automatic action is to be paying attention to the outcome rather than the process. But the process is important and being present in the process is important, for that affects the outcome.
ANNE: As we speak, I feel like I’ve kind of bounced back into my original frame of mind — it’s never going to happen now, and oh gosh, it’s going to take forever.
ELIAS: Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop! This is a tremendous discounting of yourself and not trusting yourself. Relax, do not project, be present in the now and allow yourself to trust yourself.
ANNE: Okay, I will. Why in this particular area? It’s just heavy.
ELIAS: This is very strong imagery that you incorporate. It is what you term to be very personal. It is a very strong reflection to you of yourself, of your movement, of your investment of yourself, of your preferences, of your beliefs. Therefore, it is a tremendous expression of imagery within your focus.
It also is representative in imagery to you individually of much of your own intimacy with yourself. It is your creation. It is an expression of your creativity. Therefore, figuratively speaking, in your terms it is a part of you. It is an extension of you. Therefore, why shall it not be occupying your attention quite strongly?
ANNE: The key is the present, again.
ELIAS: Yes, this is very important.
ANNE: Okay, fingers crossed, I’ll get it done! (Both laugh) That’s definitely something to practice and a goal to keep in mind.
ELIAS: And to continue to be acknowledging of yourself.
ANNE: In that whole scenario over the last week, I was dreaming of spending my time, sometime, in Norway and in Denmark. These two countries at this point in time for me are quite inspiring. Whereas, England, which is where I’m living now, every time I come back to this country, I’m irritable and I just want to get out. Is that because it’s my general preference for being... I can’t figure out if it’s because of my beliefs, or is it simply I want to get out of here?
ELIAS: First of all, I shall express to you that ALL that you express and every moment and every action that you engage is influenced by your beliefs. There is no expression that you generate within your focus that is not influenced by some belief. But as we have identified previously, preferences are preferred beliefs, and in association with preferences, this may be also related to energies.
Different individuals incorporate compatibility, so to speak, with different energies, and preferences change. They are not continuous throughout the entirety of a focus. You may incorporate a preference in association with certain types of energies with certain physical locations and cultures, and those preferences may change and you may choose to be incorporating different physical locations that you recognize, in sensing of energy, may be more compatible with the type of energy that you are expressing.
Now; this also is associated to movement. As you alter your perception and as you express your movement in different directions, many times the energy in the physical location that you occupy may not be as suitable or as compatible with the energy that you are expressing in your movement. Therefore, many times individuals generate actual physical objective imagery of actually changing the physical location that they occupy as a reflection of the movement that they are generating inwardly — changing of their energy and changing their directions.
ANNE: I figured that that was the case. But I started my publishing company and it’s based here, and relocating at this point is not terribly practical. I’m trying to make it all kind of fit and work together, which... I don’t know.
ELIAS: It is merely dependent upon what you want, my friend, not complicating and remembering the process of your experience within those three days, that you may actually generate any expression that you want quite quickly and quite easily. It is merely a matter of paying attention to your own communications, paying attention to your energy, and paying attention to what you want, generating a clarity within yourself, trusting yourself in simplicity and merely allowing yourself to do.
ANNE: Okay, I’ll be on the plane tomorrow! (Elias laughs) Well, maybe not tomorrow, but soon. Thank you for that. It’s a bit to think about, that one.
I want to go on to a couple of dreams. I had a dream about a house that we were going to go visit the next day, and the lady of the house, who is no longer there, was in my dream explaining the whole house. It felt as though she had passed away and that her husband had passed away, and there was a great deal of detail about this house. The next day I found out, or whenever it was after visiting this house, that she hadn’t passed away, she’s still here on this planet. I didn’t understand why she would have come to me in my dream to explain the whole house and her history and everything about it. What was that dream about?
ELIAS: And your impression?
ANNE: Well, it was filled with love. The whole house, it was a dream filled with love. The impression, the feeling of the dream was to take the house, regardless of the situation that it was in. There was a lot more space than there appears to be. At this point in time that’s all I can think of.
ELIAS: Now; allow yourself to listen to yourself, first of all. In that, what do you view as a similarity of this dream as to expressions within your focus within your waking state? Where is your investment?
ANNE: I always put my investment elsewhere, don’t I? Well, ultimately in myself, actually, to be honest.
ELIAS: What do you image in physical imagery as yourself? We have discussed it in this discussion.
ANNE: The shop.
Now; you allowed yourself to connect with this individual’s energy and offered yourself information of this individual’s investment of self in physical imagery. In that, you presented to yourself the imagery of the investment in what you translate as love. You generate similar imagery in investment, but not with that association. Not an investment of love, which is the reflection of you, but many times in a reflection of frustration and discounting.
You offered yourself an example in this dream of generating a potential and the possibility of creating naturally, as you do, projecting outwardly, producing in physical imagery as your reflection of yourself, but allowing yourself to generate the investment in appreciation rather than frustration.
ANNE: I’m sure I’ll understand that at some point. It’s not clicking.
ELIAS: Remember this in relation to your new venture.
ANNE: Yes, I will, because I know that I want to make it on a different footing.
ELIAS: Allow yourself to generate your investment in physical imagery to reflect that appreciation, and in this, your investment shall be quite different and generate much more of a successfulness.
ANNE: I shall remember it, because I know instinctively that I want very much to start the new venture on a different footing, and I think it will.
ELIAS: And this is your choice if you are paying attention.
ANNE: That is another challenge. Speaking of which, I had another dream about changing my direction. I was on a roundabout. Down one avenue was very clear, a wide-open avenue, and I said to myself, “Oh, I could easily become a detective. That would be so easy for me to be. But I’ve decided already to do the publishing,” which was another direction off of the roundabout. However, I didn’t actually see the avenue or the road of publishing off of the roundabout. It was like it was blocked off my view, yet I knew I had made that decision already. Why wouldn’t I have seen it in the dream?
ELIAS: For it is not necessary. You already know it. You are presenting to yourself other avenues, to allow yourself the recognition that you are not bound to one direction and you may even generate more than one direction simultaneously.
ANNE: That’s good to know. That gives me a little bit more information as well, personally. Something’s clicking now in general with the overall kind of way that I’m interpreting my dreams.
Just one last thing and then I think we’ve got to go. I had a dream of cars, of driving — again, it’s probably the same theme — driving a beautiful silver car that I really did like very much, but had very much difficulty in controlling it and maneuvering it. In the end, I decided to give it back and instead I took the more familiar car. When I went to go visit the more familiar car in the garage, it was all brand new, shiny, even though it was an older version. I felt more comfortable and relaxed, and knew that I could do it, but at the same time slightly disappointed that I couldn’t control the new car. Was the symbol of that new car the new sort of direction, shall we say?
ELIAS: Yes, and the unfamiliarity of new movements. But it also is associated with timing and appreciation, for what you have offered to yourself in imagery in this dream is a recognition that there is some uncomfortableness associated with the unfamiliar, but there is also a desire to be incorporating that unfamiliar. But within timing, and in the recognition of the timing, you move back to the familiar. But the familiar is changed also and there is a new appreciation of the familiar, for the perception is different.
Therefore, it is imagery of appreciating what you are generating now and also knowing that in this time framework that is enough, and as you continue, the unfamiliar shall become more familiar and it shall not be as overwhelming.
ANNE: That is very good to know. Thank you very, very much. Any closing statements? Are there any more games we can play?
ELIAS: You may continue with your chocolates! Ha ha! But perhaps now offer yourself your chocolates each time you notice yourself merely paying attention to the outcomes rather than the processes.
ANNE: You got it! Well, thank you very much.
ELIAS: You are very welcome, my friend. And I shall be anticipating our next meeting, and I shall be interactive with you in supportive energy in the interim.
ANNE: Thank you very much. I look forward to seeing you around.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha! In tremendous affection as always, Monique, au revoir.
Elias departs at 10:59 AM.
(1) See 9/25/03.
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