Session 1216

I Wake Up Feeling Tired Already


“I Wake Up Feeling Tired Already”
“Small Ones of the Shift”

Thursday, December 19, 2002 (Private/Phone)

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Janet (Oleg)

Elias arrives at 2:28 PM. (Arrival time is 21 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

JANET: Hello?

ELIAS: (Laughs) Greetings!

JANET: This is Janet.

ELIAS: (Chuckles) And how shall we proceed?

JANET: Oh, Elias, I have quite a few questions. I’ve just started reading the material that you’ve been giving to everyone, and it’s almost to the point where I almost feel so confused, I don’t know what to ask anymore!

I’m having some conflict or confusion about, first off, my job. I just started this new job a few months ago, and I’m to the point where I’m unable to move with it. I mean, it certainly requires a certain amount of assertiveness. I’ve been reading some other material from some other entities that have been giving information, and maybe I’m just confused on what they say and what I’m trying to do with this particular job. Can you just tell me or help me see what I’m not seeing, or what am I not aware of?

ELIAS: What is the nature of your confusion?

JANET: I feel very unprepared, and maybe that’s understandable because it is something new for me. It’s in sales, and it’s a whole new area for me. So I don’t know if it’s fear that’s causing me confusion, as far as wanting to move forward with this or go back to something that I feel more comfortable with.

With this assertiveness, it’s like somebody says, “Just let it happen,” but with this kind of particular job, you almost have to make it happen. So what’s the difference there? How can I incorporate that into moving forward with my job and not causing myself any more conflict than I already have?

ELIAS: First of all, express to myself what you want, and express to me what you assess as your conflict.

JANET: I see the potential with this job, but it requires a lot of energy. The technology behind what I’m doing, I’m having a difficult time understanding it. Everybody says give it a year, it’ll take that long, and maybe I’m just wanting things to happen too soon. Then I wonder if I even want to do it at all. Does that make sense?

ELIAS: Yes. Now; identify the conflict.

JANET: The conflict would be just getting up in the morning and having that to look forward to!

ELIAS: Now; the reason that I am inquiring in these types of questions is to allow you to listen to your responses.

Now; as you listen to your responses to these questions, what do you view? What information are you offering to yourself?

JANET: That I’m indecisive as to whether I want to pursue this particular position or if I want to go back to something I feel more comfortable with.

ELIAS: First of all, you are not being as indecisive as you may think. Allow yourself to view, once again, the conflict. What actions are you actually expressing?

JANET: Non-action. The action that I’m expressing is that I want to move forward with this because I see the potential in the future. It’s just the steps along the way to get there that I am afraid of, I guess.

ELIAS: Very well, let me express differently. Are you experiencing fun?


ELIAS: Very well. As you view a potential, what is your motivation?

JANET: The freedom that the job could provide and the money.

ELIAS: Ah. Now; this is significant, for you are viewing a potential for generating more money futurely but, in your terms, at the price of conflict and not incorporating fun. Therefore, the money becomes the motivating factor.

Now; this is a very common snare. First of all, it involves beliefs that you acquire money in performing a job, and the beliefs that jobs are work and are not necessarily fun but you engage them for they offer you the payoff of acquiring money. I may express to you, you do not acquire anything. You create.

Now; you may create money in association with any action, literally. This is, in actuality, as I have expressed to many other individuals, one of your least difficult manifestations to create. In recognition of all that you create within all of your reality, this expression of paper becomes quite insignificant, actually. But I am recognizing the strength of the beliefs that are expressed in placing such importance upon this particular physical manifestation.

Now; in this, what is actually more significant is to be paying attention to what you actually want. For in generating a movement that is expressed with an ease and is in alignment with your preferences, you actually may generate more of this money much more easily. It is unnecessary to be struggling and forcing your energy in expressions that may be difficult merely to generate money, when in actuality you generate more of that expression in actions that you prefer.

JANET: I was to the point where I wasn’t even sure if it was because I didn’t prefer this position because I was afraid of it because of the preparation that it needs, or if it was just the mere fact that I don’t like this and I don’t want to do this. (Elias laughs) Does that make sense?


JANET: I’ve been reading your material and I’ve been trying to sit and think, and of course I think too much about it all, too, and I felt stuck. I feel fatigued and I haven’t even done anything yet!

I started out the first month doing what I’m supposed to be doing with this particular job. Then after that I was experiencing some rejection, which was expected, but I didn’t know how I would actually react to that. And it’s almost like that’s all it took! Then I froze and I didn’t even want to leave my house. And I really haven’t!

I haven’t done hardly anything towards this particular position, but I’m going to have to make some choices here as to whether I’m going to pursue this. Can I actually tweak my attitude to where I would actually like this position or not? Or is that too much struggle, too?

ELIAS: I may express to you that this is possible. Perception is actually quite flexible and changeable. In this, you may move your attention in different manners and alter your perception, which in turn will actually alter your reality in relation to this subject matter.

Although I may also express to you that it is significant to be paying attention to your own communications to yourself and to be paying attention to your choices. For you are generating emotional communications to yourself and you are expressing actions which both offer you information in relation to yourself genuinely and what you want. In this, your conflict is expressed in the struggle that you feel within yourself in relation to continuing in this particular direction of employment.

Now; you are generating actions and communications that, if you are paying attention to (them), offer you much information in relation to what you actually want and what you do not want.

Now; thought is not a communication.

JANET: Right, I’ve read that just recently. I have much study to do with your information, but I just wanted to start somewhere. I thought maybe you could kind of help me see just one little thing in my life right now that I could continue on with.

ELIAS: I am understanding. In this, you may be incorporating thinking, thinking, thinking, and not necessarily offer yourself answers. This is the significance of paying attention to your communications and to what you are actually doing, for what you are actually doing may not necessarily be in alignment with what you are thinking. But what you are doing is what you are choosing, and it IS an offering of information in relation to what you actually want.

As an example — not associated with your employment, but you may be understanding — you may be incorporating a thought process expressing to yourself that you want to be engaging a relationship with another individual and you may be interactive with another individual. As you present that possibility to yourself, you may notice yourself doing actions that are contrary to the development, so to speak, of the relationship.

This is the significance of paying attention. For what you actually do may be contrary to what you think, and what you think you want, many times, is not accurate. It may be generally accurate, but not necessarily specifically accurate.

You may want to be incorporating action in relation to your employment, which allows you the freedom of your individual expressions and assertiveness. That may not necessarily be this particular employment.

In this, as you present to yourself one particular employment which allows you to be expressing that assertiveness, which you may assess to be an expression of freedom within yourself, your thought process interprets that this is the particular and one establishment that shall offer you that freedom. Incorrect! For it may not necessarily be that you want to be in that particular type of employment, but (that) you want to allow yourself a particular type of expression in offering yourself your freedom. But the thought process is translating, and it is translating in relation to information that it is offered.

If you are not paying attention to communications that you are offering to yourself, the thought mechanism does not translate accurately, for it is not being offered information. Therefore, it attempts to generate a translation in association with whatever information it has been offered. If the information it has been offered is objective imagery — “This is the employment; this is offering an expression of freedom in this one particular area” — the assessment is this is beneficial. Therefore, the translation is that this particular employment is the correct employment and you should continue. But you are generating communications to yourself, and in not paying attention to those communications, you are not offering the thought mechanism other information.

As you experience reluctance and resistance to your own movement as you begin your waking day and you recognize that you are forcing yourself to engage your tasks, you are generating a thickness in your energy. You ARE generating emotional communications, which are contrary to what you are thinking. What you are thinking is what you should do.

JANET: Right. I don’t do what I know I should do, and then it’s another story. Then it creates another area of conflict for me.

ELIAS: But you are generating conflict in association with the “should,” also.

JANET: Right, exactly.

ELIAS: In this, as you begin to pay attention to your emotional communications, you offer yourself much more clear information.

JANET: I have been so frustrated lately, and it seems to spill over into everything I’ve been doing. It’s almost to the point where I didn’t even know what the source was any longer. I didn’t know if it was the job or the fact that I’m a single mom or that I live with my sister, or all of those things contributing. I thought if I could just find that one source and tweak it a little bit, then everything else would flow a little smoother.

ELIAS: Let me express to you, you are partially accurate in your confusion. For in this, I may say to you, if you are generating tremendous conflict in one direction, generally speaking you shall also be generating conflict or frustration or confusion in every direction. Therefore, it is not one specific direction, generally speaking, that shall be generating uncomfortableness or confusion or frustration.

Now; I may also express to you that for the most part it may be less overwhelming to focus your attention upon one direction, allow yourself to listen to yourself in relation to that one direction, and move to another direction subsequently, rather than attempting to address to all directions simultaneously, for this may be quite overwhelming.

In this, express to myself what do you feel as you awaken in your morning and you begin your day, and you are anticipating the actions that you should be or must be incorporating within that day?

JANET: I wake up feeling tired already.

ELIAS: Correct. Now...

JANET: I just kind of go through the motions. It’s almost like how we all tend to be sometimes, on autopilot. I just go through the motions, and like I said, I already feel tired before I even get started.

ELIAS: Correct, and is this satisfying?


ELIAS: And is this, in your perception, an expression of preference?


ELIAS: No. Therefore, move your attention to you. What do you genuinely want?

JANET: That’s what I’m not clear about yet. I’m almost to the point where I just want ... I don’t know. I want to have a job that’s fun and I want to have energy left over to be a good mom and to play with my kids.

ELIAS: Very well.

JANET: This particular position, I haven’t seen that yet. I realize there was a certain amount of paying your dues, I guess, along the way until you get to that point, but I wasn’t even sure I had enough energy to put into this particular position or the motivation or that burning desire to succeed in this position to even continue to go forth with it.

My sister is the one who found me this position and has really encouraged me to do this because of the potential for the money. So that’s probably another area of conflict, too. I don’t want to disappoint her or... (Sigh) I don’t know.

ELIAS: Ah ha! But this is not paying attention to you. This is...

JANET: Of course, going back and doing something else is going to cause conflict in another area, so it’s like a toss-up. I know I’ll just have to work on this, and I appreciate your information on this.

ELIAS: Is this not also your choice, my friend, of whether you shall generate conflict if you are expressing a different choice?

JANET: That was a question?

ELIAS: This is the point of genuinely paying attention to yourself and to what you are actually creating in the now, for this is the point of your power and your choices. In this, in listening to yourself and allowing yourself the freedom to incorporate your choices and not concerning yourself with the expressions of other individuals...

JANET: Right, I knew that. I read that, actually.

ELIAS: For in this, in relation to your sibling, quite simply do you believe that your sibling would be generating conflict with you if you are expressing your discomfort with this particular employment? What do you view as your sibling’s greater interest, that you are expressing fun and happiness, or that you are continuing in an expression of employment that she has referred you to and you are dissatisfied, unhappy and uncomfortable?

JANET: Well, I hope it would be the former, the fun and the happiness.

ELIAS: Correct!

JANET: I wish there was money with the fun and the happiness!

ELIAS: I am understanding.

JANET: You told me and I believe that, as far as the generating thing. I guess I’m going to just have to really look at that a little bit more on some different levels, like you said, being in the now. I think that’s kind of where I was conflicting, too, with this particular position. That would be with anything, I suppose. How do you be in the now and make plans and plan for tomorrow or plan for next month, to make sure your bills are paid? You know what I’m saying?

ELIAS: I am understanding. You may be recognizing what you are speaking of in planning, so to speak, but also continue to be paying attention now, for what you do now also shapes the potential of the future.

The future is an illusion; there is no future. It is an illusion which is expressed in association with the perception of linear time. But in actuality, where is the future? There is merely now and what you are generating in this moment. This moment is the future of one hour previous, but it is now. Therefore, it is ultimately significant that you pay attention to what you are generating now, for what you are generating now is what you shall be generating in this hypothetical future.

JANET: Can you explain a concept to me that I’ve read from another entity? Maybe you can explain it in your terms. “Be in the now and a road moves through you, then everything that you need comes to you.” That almost indicates that you almost have to sit still and it just comes there. Is that synchronicity that you’re looking for, is that what that means?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, what is meant by this is that in paying attention to yourself, in holding your attention in the now, you offer yourself much more of your own freedom and your own power in your abilities, and therefore you draw to yourself.

Now; as you pay attention to yourself in the now, you are much more aware of what you want and how to manipulate energy to draw that to yourself, and you naturally do. For in paying attention to yourself, you emanate a different type of energy.

Energy is always expressed. You are continuously projecting energy outwardly, emanating it from yourself. It is continuously being expressed in this outward manner and is not confined to time or space.

Now; as it is not confined to time or space, it is projected in what you may term to be universally. The energy that you express outwardly is a reflection of what you are generating in energy inwardly. Therefore, you automatically draw to yourself what is being expressed inwardly as a reflection. This is the nature of your physical reality.

The design of your physical reality is to be generating physical imagery continuously, surrounding yourselves, to reflect what you are expressing in energy within yourselves. This is the reason that I express to individuals repeatedly there is no expression of yourself that is hidden from you, for it is continuously being reflected in every action, in every encounter that you generate within your reality.

Therefore, your quote is actually accurate. For what you are expressing in any moment, you also draw to yourself. If you are expressing dissatisfaction inwardly with yourself in some area, you shall also draw imagery to yourself or interactions with other individuals that shall reflect that dissatisfaction. If you are generating a trust, an acceptance of yourself, an appreciation of yourself inwardly, you express that energy outwardly and it is reflected to you in all that surrounds you objectively.

As an example once again, you have heard the cliché, so to speak, that when you are not looking for something, it appears. This is more accurate than you think. The reason that this occurs is that when you are paying attention to yourself and you are holding your attention in the now, you are concentrating your energy upon you, and therefore you are also concentrating your energy upon what you genuinely want WITHOUT incorporating thought.

In this, WITHOUT thinking, you naturally express an energy outwardly which draws to you what you want and thusly it appears. This is the wonder of yourselves, that you generate this type of action so very easily. This is the effortlessness of creating. But you also generate a very familiar action of complicating much of what you do.

JANET: As far as just being out and around people — maybe you can help me clear this up — I just feel disconnected; I feel foggy. I have something maybe associated with that. I generated this physical condition where I cannot hear. It’s getting better; it’s better than it was a couple weeks ago. Am I blocking something from the outside? Is that something that I’m telling myself that I’m not listening to myself?


JANET: Am I blocking out environmental things? Does that make sense?

ELIAS: Yes, and this is what you are generating, for...

JANET: When I do go out and I talk to people, I just feel like there’s this something in between us. It’s like I’m not connecting with that other person, and it’s like I’m not hearing what they’re saying.

ELIAS: I am understanding. You are attempting to move your attention to you rather than continuing to project your attention outwardly in association with other individuals. For you are beginning to objectively recognize that if you are to successfully generate what you want intentionally, it is necessary to become familiar with yourself. In this also you are beginning to recognize objectively your movement and action in shifting, also.

JANET: So I am accomplishing something?

ELIAS: Quite! I am quite acknowledging...

JANET: For some reason I always feel like I start in the middle but I miss the beginning somewhere, and I feel left out or like I’ve missed something. It’s like I come into the scenario in the middle of it.

ELIAS: Ha ha! I am understanding. This is merely an expression of your awareness, for you are noticing in certain points and this creates this feeling within yourself of being in the middle, so to speak.

JANET: Can you tell me what my orientation is?

ELIAS: And your impression?

JANET: Soft?

ELIAS: Intermediate.

JANET: Can you tell me what my essence name is?

ELIAS: Essence name, Oleg, O-L-E-G (OH leg).

JANET: What about my daughter, Madelyn? What is her orientation and her essence name?

ELIAS: Essence name, Marriel, M-A-R-R-I-E-L (MAR ree ell).

JANET: That’s pretty.

ELIAS: Orientation, soft.

JANET: And my sister, Leslie, what is her essence name?

ELIAS: Essence name, Reevell, R-E-E-V-E-L-L (ree VELL).

JANET: And her orientation?

ELIAS: Orientation, common.

JANET: And her daughter, Cecily, her essence name?

ELIAS: Essence name, Cielette, C-I-E-L-E-T-T-E (seel lee ETTE).

JANET: And her orientation?

ELIAS: Orientation, common.

JANET: And then my essence family?

ELIAS: And your impression?

JANET: Sumafi.

ELIAS: Correct. And your impression as to your alignment?

JANET: What is the one that is the teacher? Is that Sumafi? I’m confused because it’s been a while since I’ve looked at those.

ELIAS: (Laughs) Your essence family is Sumafi. Your alignment in this focus is Sumari, which also may be a contributant to your feeling of being in the middle, but this is also associated with your orientation.

JANET: Those things I know I need to study a little bit more. With your orientation, if I understand correctly, that is how you view things, correct?

ELIAS: Correct.

JANET: So that will help me to understand a little bit more what I do or not do.


JANET: As far as my sister Leslie, what is her essence family?

ELIAS: And your impression?

JANET: She could be Sumari.

ELIAS: Essence family, Sumari; alignment, Vold.

JANET: And Madelyn?

ELIAS: Essence family, Tumold; alignment, Ilda.

JANET: And then Cecily?

ELIAS: Essence family, Borledim; alignment, Zuli.

JANET: They’re all so different! That causes conflict, too, at times. (Elias chuckles) That’s great, though. That will help me to understand a little bit more about the dynamics in this family.

Let me ask you about Madelyn and Cecily. They are adopted from Russia. Did they know before they came here that they would be with us? Is that the choice that they make before they...? I mean, their essence knew, is that correct? What is behind the relationship between those two and my sister and I?

ELIAS: You have incorporated other focuses together.

JANET: The four of us?

ELIAS: Yes, and also each of these small ones has incorporated other focuses with each of you.

JANET: So we’ll have some things to work on.

ELIAS: And perhaps incorporate an expression of fun in investigation! (Laughs)

JANET: Let me ask you about Cecily. Lately I see her as a mirror, especially of Leslie and I, about our attitude or our reluctance with our jobs. She has been expressing a reluctance to go to school; she doesn’t want to go to school. She is a true mirror, is she not?


JANET: She has had some challenges lately. She keeps talking about she wants to be a boy or wants to have her hair cut off. Is that just something she’s going through, or is she experiencing some confusion that I can possibly ease for her?

ELIAS: Be accepting.

JANET: No matter what? Don’t cut her hair because she asks to have her hair cut because it’s just something she’s going through right now? Or cut her hair because she wants her hair cut?

ELIAS: Be accepting of her choices.

JANET: But she’s only four. I know that sounds like I’m discounting her; maybe I am, to a degree.

ELIAS: I am understanding...

JANET: I don’t want to cut her hair, because she wants her hair cut to look like a boy!


JANET: Oh, okay. (Elias chuckles) I see. I think I’ll see if it persists. If it’s a phase she’s going through, if she still wants her hair cut two weeks from now, then maybe I’ll cut her hair.

ELIAS: Pay attention to your responses. Pay attention to what is being expressed and allow yourself to genuinely express listening and acknowledging of this small one. She is no less creating her reality than are you.

I may express to you, in some manners these small ones express more of an openness and more of a clarity in their awarenesses than do older individuals, for they are choosing to be manifest in the objective movement of this shift. Therefore, they are already expressing a natural openness and recognition of directing themselves.

Many individuals that incorporate the role of parent in this time framework are experiencing more conflict in association with their children, so to speak, for they are continuing in the familiar expressions of roles and not recognizing that these small ones are not addressing to those familiar behaviors and roles. They are already expressing many of the movements of this shift. Merely that they are incorporating few years of age is insignificant and matters not. This is not to say that they are not quite aware of what they want, of directing themselves and of generating their choices, and therefore also are not as willing to be instructed or to be compliant with the choices of other individuals in association with themselves. Are you understanding?


ELIAS: In this, it may be offering you considerable information also in relation to yourself, as you allow yourself to pay attention to YOUR responses in association with these small ones. What do YOU generate in automatic response to their behaviors? For your responses are influenced by your beliefs also.

JANET: I understand. As far as the shift, another entity has said — and maybe this is a prediction and you may not want to comment on it; it’s totally up to you and you certainly have the choice — the next few months will be very critical. What does that mean? Does it have to do with the shift or certain individuals? I don’t know. Do you see that?

ELIAS: There is a movement in the collective expression of consciousness which is occurring now in association with this shift in more of an expression of self-realization, and in this, more of a recognition of the unfamiliarity of much of your reality.

Now; this may not necessarily be objectively understood by many individuals, but it shall be recognized more. One of the unfamiliar movements is a bending of time. Time is accelerating within your physical reality, for you are creating it to be accelerating. It is not your imagination. It is actually being altered. You are bending it in an unfamiliar manner, which is more in alignment with this shift in consciousness but it is unfamiliar in your reality.

There are other expressions that are also occurring that are unfamiliar. You may be recognizing many individuals expressing a confusion, not necessarily incorporating an objective ability yet to identify what is actually changing in their reality but knowing that there is some change and also knowing that old familiar expressions no longer fit.

JANET: That makes sense. You’re saying that some that are aware will be more accepting of it than those that are not aware.

ELIAS: Correct.

JANET: One last question. I read where you had said that here within this physical reality the two bases are emotion and sexuality, correct?

ELIAS: Correct, yes.

JANET: Where does sexuality come in? Does it mean sexuality as in a male versus female role?

ELIAS: No. Sexuality is the entirety of the physicality of your reality. Emotion is the embodiment of communication.

JANET: So, not sexuality as in a lack of. I mean, that’s a reality for me. Does that mean I’m not accomplishing in that area and that’s okay?

ELIAS: No, you are associating this terminology with sexual activities. What I am expressing to you is that the base element of your reality in its design as sexuality is the expression of all physical manifestation, any type of physical manifestation.

JANET: I know there’s more information to clarify more on that. Well, I really appreciate your time. Let me ask you one quick question. When I talk to you, do you hear me? Do you understand or is there some kind of connection?

ELIAS: I understand.

JANET: Not when we’re talking over the phone, but there are times when I make comments to you, like when I’m driving in the car.


JANET: Are we connected in that way at all?

ELIAS: Yes. I am not actually incorporating an audible hearing, so to speak, for this is associated with your physical reality. But I am aware of the expression that you are projecting.

JANET: Because sometimes it’s almost like I hear you answer me. This is the first time I’ve talked with you and it’s almost like I can hear your voice even before we got on the phone, even your accent.

ELIAS: Correct, yes.

JANET: Does that make sense?

ELIAS: Yes, and you are correct. I AM communicating with you and you are translating that energy in association with what is known in your physical reality. Therefore, you translate with a voice.

JANET: That’s great. Thank you so very much!

ELIAS: You are quite welcome. I shall be anticipating our next meeting. To you in great affection, my friend, I express encouragement and acknowledgment. In this day, in fondness, au revoir.

JANET: Good-bye.

Elias departs at 3:30 PM.

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