"The Buddha's Experience"
Friday, October 12, 2001 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Julie (Fontine)
Elias arrives at 1:50 PM. (Arrival time is 23 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good day!
JULIE: Hello! Elias, I'm happy to talk to you! I also have to tell you I'm a little nervous. (Elias laughs)
I guess I'd like to start with getting my essence name and family and alignment.
ELIAS: Very well. Essence name, Fontine; F-O-N-T-I-N-E (FAHN teen); essence family, Borledim; alignment in this focus, Sumari.
JULIE: How do you spell that? Sumari?
JULIE: Okay, and how about my orientation?
ELIAS: And express to myself, what is your impression concerning your orientation?
JULIE: I think it's soft.
ELIAS: (Chuckles) Correct.
JULIE: Am I thought focused?
JULIE: No, emotion then?
ELIAS: Political focus.
JULIE: Political. Oh, okay, I'll have to read more about that.
ELIAS: Very well.
JULIE: I guess first I'd like to ask about some relationships with my children. My son tends to be very expressive of anger and aggression at times, and I have a very strong reaction within me during those times. I realize that it's ... I think it's probably a reflection of something within me, but I guess I'm not quite sure what it is. I wonder if you could give me some insight into that.
ELIAS: And in your assessment, noticing your response and the expression of this individual, what is your impression concerning what you are creating in this interaction?
JULIE: What am I creating?
JULIE: I'm creating emotions, I suppose. Is that what you mean?
ELIAS: Very well, and what is your emotional communication?
JULIE: Usually I become very angry and sometimes even rage when he is expressing aggression towards me. I've thought that it might be due to a belief in victimhood that I'm wanting to make myself aware of.
ELIAS: Quite! You are correct. For in this, let me express to you that these expressions that you view in this individual, as you have already identified to yourself, are reflections of what you are expressing inwardly.
Now; in this, you are offering yourself a communication. You express this emotion and you identify the signal in the anger, and the communication that you are offering to yourself is that within the moment you are not allowing yourself to view any choices; therefore, you are creating an expression of victim. You also are aligning with an expression of a belief concerning control, and in this, you are expressing the expectation to be expressing control but associating within self that you are experiencing a lack of control. Therefore you are expressing both elements simultaneously.
In this, you also offer yourself another communication that you are allowing another individual's choices and expressions to dictate to you. This is the reason that you experience this anger, which is an expression of a lack of choices.
In this lack of choices you offer to yourself the opportunity to view your automatic response, which incorporates little to no thought but is an automatic action that you incorporate in allowing your expression to be dictated by another individual.
Now; in this, in actuality if you are turning your attention to you, you may allow yourself to genuinely view the opportunity that you are offering to yourself. For as you notice in the moment that you are creating this automatic response, you may allow yourself to direct your attention away from the other individual, refocus your attention upon self, and merely offer yourself the recognition that you do incorporate choices.
I may express to you, my friend, this one action may be quite affecting. It is not necessary that you even express an identification to yourself of what choices you hold or what the expressions of choices may be. Merely the recognition that you incorporate choice at all within that moment shall be greatly affecting of your perception, and you may notice your allowance of yourself to discontinue being dictated to by the other individual.
In this also you create another action, as an automatic by-product, in which you discontinue the payoff of the other individual, for you are offering a consistent payoff to this individual. In your response, this individual is receiving the energy that is expected.
JULIE: I'll have to think about that or read it again or something. (Laughs) But thank you very much for that.
ELIAS: You are welcome.
JULIE: I'm surprised that I belong to the family of Borledim. Well, I guess it's one of the families I thought I could belong to, but I had used my pendulum and gotten a different response. So I guess I'm wondering if I can trust myself when I really thought I was a part of a different family.
ELIAS: Let me express to you, my friend, as I have expressed previously, every individual incorporates qualities of all of these essence families, in actuality.
Now; it is not necessarily that you may not be trusting of yourself, it may be that within a particular moment your attention is focusing on particular qualities that you view as more obviously expressed within your experiences or within certain qualities of yourself. This is not necessarily inaccurate.
In belonging to an essence family, the qualities expressed are not what you may term to be as obviously viewed. These qualities create what may be viewed as an underlying expression in the individual, which, if you are paying attention, you may allow yourself to recognize the expressions of that family within your experience, but they may not necessarily be as overtly expressed as the qualities of the family that you are aligning with.
JULIE: Then the aligning family, you said I was Sumari. I don't see that at all because I'm such a shy and quiet person.
ELIAS: Ah, but let me express to you, this is the significance of allowing yourself to become familiar with yourself, not merely in association with the qualities expressed in these essence families that you may incorporate but also allowing yourself to familiarize yourself with your perception in relation to your orientation, your personality, and also the influence of your beliefs.
It is not an expression of absolute qualities, my friend, that shall be displayed in definite types of expressions in a narrow field, so to speak. There are many, many, many different expressions of each of the qualities of these families. What I have offered in brief explanation of the qualities and intents of these essence families is a generalization.
JULIE: I see.
I'd like to move on and maybe ask you about some things that are happening with my body. One thing is that the lower part of my left eye twitches a lot, and I was wondering if it's happening in order to get my attention about something or if there's some significance to this.
ELIAS: In actuality, yes. You are offering yourself a physical expression as a communication to yourself to be noticing. You express this action as a signal to yourself concerning the incorporation of tension, physical tension. In these time frameworks as you incorporate a physical tension within your body consciousness, you also constrict your energy field, and as you create that action you offer yourself a signal that shall gain your attention.
JULIE: I see. So what do you suggest I do to unconstrict my energy field and to release the tension? Should I just relax my body consciously...
ELIAS: Yes! Allow yourself...
JULIE: ...and that would do it?
ELIAS: Allow yourself to notice that you are offering yourself this signal, and within that moment that you notice, allow yourself to stop, turn your attention to yourself, and objectively focus your attention upon your physical body expression and allow yourself the expression of relaxing your physical muscles.
JULIE: I grind my teeth at night, too. Would that be related to the same thing?
JULIE: Holding tension?
JULIE: But that happens unconsciously. Is there anything different I could do about that?
ELIAS: The action that you shall incorporate in your waking state in practicing noticing this physical body tension and releasing that tension through intentional relaxation shall also be affecting of the expression that you create within sleep state.
JULIE: Can you tell me why I'm holding this tension, maybe what beliefs are involved?
ELIAS: This, in actuality, is quite associated with your individual expression of victim, not merely in relation to your son.
JULIE: But in relation to everyone, or much of my life?
ELIAS: Yes, and expressing a discounting of yourself in not recognizing your own abilities and your individual choices, and expressing strong expectations in relation to yourself in association with how you should be or should not be interacting with other individuals. And also I may express to you, my friend, you do hold strong associations in expectations of how other individuals should be or should not be interacting with you, which reinforces your expression of victim and perpetuates this expression. It also is an incorporation of fear.
JULIE: I've been sort of aware of all of that. I've noticed that my habitual state is one of tension and the feeling that I'm not enough. There have been a few times when I have felt peace and a very serene relaxation and settledness, and because of those times I realize that most of my life has been spent in this anxious state, this tense state. I was wondering, could you tell me how I became peaceful, what was the action in that?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, in those moments that you are recalling, what you have created is an action of resignation.
In those particular moments, I may identify to you that you have moved yourself so extremely into expressions of tension and fear that you have created moments in which, in your common vernacular, you have chosen to give up and stop, momentarily. In this, you have actually offered yourself what you may term to be a reprieve and an offering of an example to yourself that it is possible to be experiencing some other expression than merely this anxiety and tension.
Let me express to you my friend, in actuality this is a significant subject matter to allow yourself to examine. For in this resignation, what you have actually accomplished is allowing yourself a temporary expression of not fighting with yourself, not continuing conflict and struggle with you. It is not an expression of viewing the struggle or conflict that you may perceive is occurring between yourself and any other individual, but a genuine action of resignation and relaxing, not continuing to struggle and fight with you.
This is significant, for in actuality this is what I am expressing to you now concerning how you may be altering this expression that you incorporate now in tension by paying attention to the signals, noticing, and allowing yourself to choose to intentionally relax. And as you create that action, you may also reinforce yourself in expressing to yourself that you are worthy and you do incorporate great worth, for this is inherent within you. It is not given to you and it may not be taken from you. It is the nature of your being.
I am recognizing that initially you may not necessarily believe what you are expressing to yourself, but it matters not. It will...
JULIE: It will help?
JULIE: It will help me to believe it eventually? (Laughing)
JULIE: All of that makes sense to me, and I've had many of the same thoughts myself. So thank you for validating it.
ELIAS: (Gently) You are very welcome, my friend. I am understanding and recognizing of the challenge that you present to yourself in this action and allowing yourself to incorporate this practicing in this exercise of merely physically relaxing your body consciousness; but I shall express to you, my friend, that in this practicing you shall also be offering yourself validation in your accomplishment. And do not snare yourself in discounting of yourself if you experience a moment in which you view yourself not to be accomplishing as well as you expect. There is no better, my friend.
JULIE: I guess I believe that there is. (Both laugh)
I'd like to ask you, it appears to me that I've been experiencing a loss of my memory ability. It seems like it's been sort of drastic in the last few years, and I'm wondering what that might signaling.
ELIAS: This is an expression of attention.
Now; I may express to you this also is an aspect of what we have been discussing this day in relation to this tremendous expression of tension that you create.
Now; as you focus your attention upon the creation of this tension, you are not paying attention to other expressions, and therefore you also, in a manner of speaking, interrupt your recall for you are not paying attention to it.
JULIE: I see, okay.
I'd like to ask you, sometimes I see flashes of color, and I'd like to ask what my own color tone is and if I'm seeing that.
ELIAS: And your impression?
JULIE: I quite often see a lavender color, but I'm not sure about that, if that would be my color tone or what it would be.
JULIE: Orchid. That's about what it is I think, what I see.
ELIAS: You are correct.
JULIE: I also see blue. I started seeing that about ten years ago. That was the first color I ever saw. Could you tell me what that was?
ELIAS: And shall you venture your impression? (Grinning)
JULIE: Well, since reading about you I know that your color is blue.
ELIAS: You are correct.
JULIE: Would that have been you ten years ago?
ELIAS: You are correct. Time is of no consequence in my expression. (Chuckles)
JULIE: I'd like to ask about some other symbology. I've seen imagery about large cats and I've had dreams about black panthers, and so has my daughter. I've just been seeing images of large cats everywhere lately. Plus I've heard about incidents of cat attacks. I'm wondering what information I'm offering myself with all of the cat stuff.
ELIAS: And once again I shall inquire of you what your impression is.
JULIE: I thought that maybe the black panther might be a bleed-through from maybe another focus, but I'm not sure.
ELIAS: Partially. Now attempt to be listening to your impression concerning why you have chosen to be focusing your attention upon THAT particular focus and how that correlates to other cat imagery that you are offering to yourself presently. (Chuckles)
JULIE: So you're asking what else, what other impressions I've had about the cats?
JULIE: It just occurred to me that cats are very relaxed and also the large ones are very powerful and graceful...
JULIE: ...and maybe that's what attracts me to them.
ELIAS: Partially, and you also hold an association with these large cats as fierce and incorporating the ability to attack. Therefore you offer yourself, in a manner of speaking, a complete circle of association within this particular species - the balance.
JULIE: I see, yes, because I do think of them as being predators.
I'd also like to ask about my attraction to owls and about an experience that I had with owls last year. I was initially attracted to owls, and when I wanted to believe that I create my own reality, I decided to create an owl experience. The experience that I had was very powerful for me. When it came, I saw two owls and two meteors right behind them. It was very powerful for me just as an experience, but I'd like to know if you have any further insight into that.
ELIAS: Very well. You have created this imagery in association with desire, for you have associated this creature with an expression of patience and wisdom and powerfulness. You accompany this expression of the creatures with the imagery of cosmic expressions, so to speak. In this, you are offering to yourself imagery concerning your desire to be incorporating these expressions of wisdom and patience and, in a manner of speaking, empowerment.
JULIE: So if those are my desires, would that be what my intent is also in this focus?
ELIAS: It moves in association with your intent, but as to the identification of your intent in this focus, no, that would not be the defining expression of it.
JULIE: I enjoy writing. Could writing have something to do with my intent in this focus?
ELIAS: Let me express to you, my friend, all that you incorporate is an expression of value fulfillment and all expressions of value fulfillment are associated with your intent. They perhaps may be expressed in a branch, so to speak, to the side of the direction of your intent, but you are always expressing experiences and choices in association with your intent in some manner.
Now; as to this action, you are incorporating a preference in this focus in that expression, for this allows you an avenue in which you may be listening to you. Therefore, in this action you do allow yourself moments in which you turn your attention to you much more fully and allow yourself to listen to yourself.
JULIE: That makes sense. I wanted to ask you about my connection with my daughter. I'm wondering if there's some counterpart action with the two of us. We seem very similar in a lot of ways. (Pause)
ELIAS: Yes, you do incorporate counterpart action. You also incorporate several other focuses in relation to each other incorporating relationships.
JULIE: My daughter ... well, I guess I already know what you're going to say. My daughter cries a lot and wails about the smallest thing, and I know that's a reflection of me, too. I think it's her feeling of powerlessness that she's expressing. Is that correct?
JULIE: And lack of choices? So she's mirroring that for me?
JULIE: And that's why it bothers me so much.
ELIAS: This is, in actuality, very similar to what you create in relation to your son. It is a different outward objective expression, but the actual experience in reasoning is quite similar.
JULIE: I guess I'd like to ask you about maybe some impressions that I've had about other focuses.
ELIAS: Very well.
JULIE: My impression was that I was involved with a Pueblo culture, maybe, in Arizona.
ELIAS: Yes! You are correct.
JULIE: And was my friend involved in that also?
JULIE: Back to the topic of focuses, can you tell me if I have one in the Amazon in South America?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct, and shall you attempt an identification of approximate time framework?
JULIE: Hmm, no I don't ... well, I guess 1600 popped into my mind, but I don't know.
ELIAS: You are correct, late 1600s.
JULIE: One evening I received an image of a reptile person. Could that have been a focus or be a focus of mine also?
ELIAS: This is another dimensional focus, not one associated with this physical dimension. (Pause)
JULIE: And how about in Africa? (Pause)
JULIE: And would my husband have a focus there, too, with me? (Pause)
ELIAS: Yes, but briefly, for that individual chose to be disengaging incorporating few years in age.
JULIE: Was he a child?
JULIE: My child?
JULIE: Can you tell me how many focuses I have in all?
ELIAS: Total numbering of focuses in this physical dimension, 344.
JULIE: And how many would be accessible to me?
ELIAS: Those most easily accessible, 21.
JULIE: That doesn't seem like a whole lot.
ELIAS: You may be accessing the viewing of any of your focuses. I merely express the distinguishment of certain focuses as being quite easily viewed.
JULIE: Well, I think I'm running out of questions.
I have one more thing. I've been interested in Buddha and what Buddha experienced during the moment of enlightenment. Can you express that in your own terms, what that would have been? (Pause)
ELIAS: One moment. (10-second pause) Very well. I may express to you an identification of what may be translated into what you know within this physical dimension. The experience is an actual allowance of BEING the remembrance, a moment of incorporating the state of being of remembrance of consciousness and essence, not in association with this shift in consciousness.
This is the reason that there is much attention offered to this experience. For in this time framework, you all throughout your globe are moving into that experience of remembrance but in association with your choice to be creating this shift in consciousness, and in this, the individual has allowed that experience NOT in association with the shift in consciousness. Are you understanding?
JULIE: He was not involved with it, with the shift, but we will be able to incorporate something similar within the shift?
JULIE: Is that what you're saying?
ELIAS: Yes. This is a state of being, of knowing the remembrance of essence and of consciousness - the knowing, the dropping of the veil of separation and the recognition of what you are as consciousness and essence.
JULIE: I know I shouldn't ask this, but is that possible for me too?
ELIAS: Yes, my friend! Quite! You also are participating in this shift in consciousness, and you are not excluded from the action of it. Ha ha!
JULIE: (Laughs) Okay, thanks. Well, it looks like our time is up, and I wanted to say I have a message from a friend, Khalil's focus sends greetings, gratitude and congratulations to you, Elias. And I'd also like to say thank you very much.
ELIAS: You are very welcome, and you may express my greeting in return also.
JULIE: Okay, I will.
ELIAS: I express to you my friend, be encouraged. Pay attention to self, pay attention to allowing yourself to relax. Reinforce yourself, regardless of whether you believe presently that you are glorious. (Chuckles)
JULIE: Okay. (Laughs)
ELIAS: And I shall offer my expression of energy also to you in great encouragement.
JULIE: Thank you, I appreciate it.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome, my friend. In my expression of affection to you, I anticipate our next meeting.
JULIE: Thank you - me too. Goodbye.
ELIAS: To you, au revoir.
Elias departs at 2:50 PM.
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