Thursday, October 4, 2001 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Anjuli (Miranda)
Elias arrives at 10:40 AM. (Arrival time is 22 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good afternoon!
ANJULI: Good eternal now-moment, Elias! (Elias laughs with Anjuli) I think I am even more excited than the first time.
ELIAS: Very well, then we shall play!
ANJULI: Yes, we shall. I first have some questions from others. The first would be that Lyryn wants to give greetings to you - Ingomar, essence name Lyryn. He wants to give greetings to you, and he plans to have his first session with you.
ELIAS: Very well, you may extend my invitation.
ANJULI: And then Joshua is a very dear friend of mine, and he also wants to have his first session with you soon, and he has a few questions...
ELIAS: Very well.
ANJULI: ...about his essence family and alignment. I try to learn a little bit about this essence family thing, so I tried to feel into him and I had the feeling that it is probably Sumafi/Milumet or Milumet/Sumafi; and Margot, she was guessing Sumari/Ilda.
ELIAS: Your first impression is correct.
ANJULI: Oops! What was my first impression, Milumet/Sumafi?
ANJULI: Oh, he is Sumafi?
ANJULI: And then his essence name?
ELIAS: Essence name, Ahmed, A-H-M-E-D (ah MED).
ANJULI: Could you pronounce it again for me?
ANJULI: Ahmed? Ha, great. Then his color?
ELIAS: And what is the impression?
ANJULI: Ah, my impression ... my impression?
ELIAS: Yes. (Pause)
ANJULI: It could be a color which somehow fits to mine. Mine is wintergreen, so it could be some sort of blue or some sort of green.
ELIAS: In actuality, your translation of "fit" is correct, although I may express to you it is what you may term to be a complement color.
ANJULI: Yes, a complement to mine?
ANJULI: Oh, that's great. I would have thought of some sort of yellow.
ELIAS: Ah, and then you...
ANJULI: Sometimes I don't dare to say what I feel!
ANJULI: Then I wait until you have said it, and then I say later I would have guessed this and this or would have felt this and this.
ELIAS: Quite. (Both laugh)
ANJULI: He is probably emotional focused?
ANJULI: And his orientation, I thought he could be soft too, like me? The second feeling was he could also be common, and that not necessarily soft ones are feeling into essences. Common ones are feeling into their essences just the same.
ELIAS: You are correct.
ANJULI: Ah! That's great. That's really great! Then the next question was from Varsha, that's from Enapoy, and she has some headaches and a pressure in the head, and she wanted to know if this is due to some widening or a tension, and if you have a suggestion.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! You may express to Enapoy to be paying attention to her expression of analyzation once again. She is incorporating this physical expression in an expression to herself concerning paying excessive attention to thinking.
ANJULI: Oh, yes, I will tell her. She has the feeling that she is dispersed. Is this true? (Pause)
ANJULI: I have not yet read much about this dispersed thing.
I thought I could maybe try to feel into the essence families with my parents and my sisters, although this essence family thing has not yet fully entered me somehow. (Elias chuckles) But I know, I just talk with you about it, and then it comes closer.
ELIAS: Very well.
ANJULI: So I thought my father, probably his essence family could be Borledim? Because he just thinks all the time of family; it is the most important thing for him.
ELIAS: This is the alignment.
ANJULI: That's the alignment? Then his family could be ... the Gramadas are artists; he has some artist thing. Or traveler? No. Healer? No. Hmm, teacher? No.
ELIAS: Belonging to Zuli.
ANJULI: Zuli? This I would not have felt. Really? What is his essence name? (Pause)
ELIAS: Essence name, Quan Ti, Q-U-A-N T-I (KWAN TEE).
ANJULI: One word?
ANJULI: Two words?
ANJULI: Ah, that sounds great. Because I have a feeling when I know the essence names, then it is some kind of easier connection with his essence. Right now he has got the Alzheimer sickness.
ANJULI: And since he started with the Alzheimer sickness he has changed a lot. He is incredible soft and patient, accepting everything. It is for the entire family a feeling as if ... my sisters, they say he is like a saint almost a bit, because of his softness, and he is an example for all of us. So I was really thinking of what we call a sickness is what you said, another state of consciousness, or something you said?
ELIAS: Quite. Your definitions of disease are quite distorted. As I have stated, this particular choice of manifestation is an expression of transition within the continuation of physical focus.
ANJULI: Interesting. And then, of course, together with his transition and his changes my mother is undergoing lots of changes. I think she is right now trying to face certain emotions like anger and ... anger mainly, because the depression she knows, but the anger she so far did not know or did not allow to herself. Is this right, that she is...? (Sigh)
ELIAS: And what have we defined as the expression of anger? (Pause)
ANJULI: The expression of anger?
ANJULI: Oh, you mean that this has something to do with duplicity?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking. But this is not what I am inquiring of you and directing of your response. Rather, allow yourself the recognition of what is being expressed in the emotional communication of anger. It defines that the individual is expressing to themselves a lack of choice.
ANJULI: Oh! Yes, that is true. That is true for her a lot. I try to feel into her essence family and alignment. (Pause) Maybe Tumold/Borledim?
ELIAS: Belonging to Tumold; aligning with in this focus, Ilda.
ANJULI: But then she feels this lack of choice must be hard for her.
ANJULI: I see. Oh, this is interesting. I will explain this to my sisters. That is very interesting, because it is especially very hard for her that she cannot travel anymore, that her body is old and she cannot leave the house and all these kind of things. Oh, yes, her essence name? (Pause)
ELIAS: Essence name, Birdeet, B-I-R-D-E-E-T (bur DEET).
ANJULI: That is a really interesting feeling when you say the essence names.
Then my younger sister, either she is Vold as essence family or as alignment, I think, and then ... what are the artists again? Gramada, or ... hmm. Yes, maybe Gramada. (Elias chuckles) Vold/Gramada or the other way around?
ELIAS: Essence family, Vold, you are correct; alignment, Sumari.
ANJULI: (Laughs) They are giving artistic expression too, the Sumari.
ANJULI: Then her art comes from there. I almost don't say that I would have guessed probably that too. I didn't dare to say. All right, and her essence name? (Pause)
ELIAS: Essence name, Phisca, P-H-I-S-C-A (FISS kah).
ANJULI: My parents and my younger sister, they are all emotional focus?
ANJULI: And my elder sister, I think she is probably thought focused?
ANJULI: And she could be Sumafi/Sumari or Sumari/Sumafi? (Pause)
ANJULI: I learn it, in spite of feeling a little bit nervous still. (Elias laughs) I thought, I am doing these things at the beginning, that's when I am still nervous.
ELIAS: And allowing yourself to practice trusting your impressions.
ANJULI: Yes, I know. Then we need her essence name. (Pause)
ELIAS: Ophed, O-P-H-E-D, (oh FED).
ANJULI: Thank you! So I think that's it with these questions. Now we continue with experiences and my questions about them?
ELIAS: Very well.
ANJULI: I thought of some childhood experiences. The last week when I was going through my feelings and impressions about our last session and the next one, I had the feeling that I felt into past experiences but they didn't feel like being in a line. It was as if I take them out and they are organized in a new way around me or something. It was not a feeling of time in a line; it was as if I have my attention on them and they were there, and it's also a feeling as if by feeling into them now with all of the things that we talked about in the last session maybe something gets added or I have a different perception on them, and they start to have a new impact on me, or something like that.
ELIAS: Very well, I am understanding. And shall you identify an example of how you have altered your perception concerning these experiences?
ANJULI: Yes. I have the feeling that I suddenly remember much more of how throughout my life I was aware of myself, and how easy it was for me to move into some certain subjective experiences and also perceptions that were not part of the society around me. It was a general feeling of more trust into myself, of suddenly discovering more of how I am.
ANJULI: Rediscovering it, or something like that.
ELIAS: Correct, and offering yourself a new awareness of acceptance in relation to your perception and your experiences, rather than the discounting of them or the expression of attempting to be aligning with the mass expression - rather allowing yourself a new experience of accepting your individual perception.
ANJULI: Yes. When I was a child, still a small child, I remember that when there was a thunderstorm outside my mother told us the angels in heaven are playing with balls, and when there is a flash of lightening then the angels have succeeded with their game, and the little child Christ is putting a light on the sky. When I felt into that as child, I thought God must love them so much, because they are allowed to make such a noise. (Elias chuckles) And together with this was the feeling that when I saw the others, the humans, the grown-ups being afraid or rushing around, then I was wondering, because I saw it as some game, as something that I did not judge to be good or bad or frightening.
ELIAS: Correct. And this, my friend, is what YOU have created. It is not in actuality what you perceive to be a gift in expression from your mother.
ANJULI: Yes, I created that she said that.
ANJULI: How did I create that? This means that even small children, they don't necessarily need to be part of the mass beliefs and all that, they just can create how they are taught or how they want to experience that.
ELIAS: Yes, and in allowing yourself to recall these experiences that you have incorporated as a child, you also allow yourself a new recognition that in actuality you do create all of your reality regardless of what you view to be age.
ANJULI: Then I had a similar thing later, when I was in school. Our priest was telling us that God is almighty, is omnipresent, and then there is a devil and there is a hell, and then I asked him naturally ... I remember how I was just amazed because he did not know that if God is everywhere and is omnipresent, then he must be the devil, too. And he did not know how to answer, and for me it was just natural that there is nothing opposite to God.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! And you are quite correct, for you are the expression of God. You are correct, there is no opposite to you.
ANJULI: When I remembered that I was a little bit amazed, because it suddenly came clear to me that this does not matter if you are a child or what, you can have such a clear feeling into reality even if everyone else is saying something different, and you just know from within how it is.
ANJULI: And then I wanted to ask you about a dream I had as a child. The dream was repeating three times. I never forgot it, because it was one of the dreams you never forget. It was about three bears, white, with a white color, and they were walking like humans. I had a feeling of protection from them, they knew me. I had a great feeling of protection in this dream. This dream was coming to me three times, and so my feeling is of course that it has something to do with my relationship to myself, with my essence, and could also be a connection with other essences, like with you, for example, even in the childhood?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
ANJULI: Then this means you have somehow been with me all the time?
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
ANJULI: When I was a teenager I was quite unhappy at school, of course, but I had some ... for example, I imagined to be somebody else; I used my fantasy. We had one hour of going through the forest in a train, which I enjoyed a lot. So it was not only a suffering experience, but I did not feel familiar at school. I did not have the feeling that the school was a school. This was not an easy time.
At that time I was watching nature a lot, and I remember that I watched again how thunderstorms are. I watched how at first the heat builds up and then the thunderstorm comes, and how the trees are bowing down and everything else that is stiff is flying away, is taken away, because it is not needed anymore or it does not accept or ... then after the thunderstorm there are drops everywhere and there are thousands of millions of suns in the drops, and I had again this feeling "this is how life is." It does not matter if there is just the rain or later the rainbow or the heat before or twigs that are flying away or whatever is happening, it is just such a beauty and perfection in the whole. So I had the feeling that my own thunderstorms, or my own times of troubles and of changes and all kinds of emotions, are just like that.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct. And I may express you, you are quite creatively offering yourself symbology to be expressing information to yourself concerning yourself, which is offering you quite an efficient avenue to become more familiar with yourself and create this intimacy in relationship with yourself, in a manner of genuine appreciation. (Pause)
ANJULI: Oh, then we have the next thunderstorm story. That's a nice one. (Elias laughs) Yes!
ELIAS: Do tell! (Chuckles)
ANJULI: This was after my ashram time, the time with my first master, when I already felt that the group or the belief system, the religious and duplicity belief system connected with some things that were interesting for me were kind of limiting me. At the beginning I had felt a great attraction to the group because of this unity and oneness thing, and later it was my desire for oneness and unity why I left. Then I was in like one or two years of great transition of this whole thing. I was in a meditation academy, working there.
I was meditating, and there was a thunderstorm outside. I had the feeling that ... I called it a thunderstorm-being. It was a being that visited me, and I saw him with inner eyes. He was looking in a way that usually humans would think to be ugly or fearful, but for me he was kind of flowing and I found him to be beautiful for what he is and for how he expresses himself. I had a feeling that he felt that and enjoyed that a lot. He made himself a little bit smaller, because he was a huge one, so that he would fit into the room - but I saw this with inner eyes and not with physical eyes.
Then I talked ... no, I did not talk with him; it was a communication more on the feeling level. I asked him how he feels; I wanted to know how that feels to be a thunderstorm. I got some impressions from that. It was almost the feeling as if I remember how that is. It was quite a oneness feeling of remembering how ... forgetting my own personality and knowing how it is to be him. Then I asked him how he feels when he, for example, hits other beings and they die. First of all, he showed me that some focuses, some beings, they have a kind of shimmer, and they are the ones which decide that they don't want to go. Yes, that is their decision, and then there are others. So I learned from him that this is their decision or their creation. I also had the feeling that he had no emotions as we have, and he didn't have this connection of leaving the body and death that humans have. He was taking this quite natural and easy, just as a transformation.
And then there was a kind of a change in the communication, and when I try to remember it, I remember that I was wondering because he showed me an earthquake. I imagined that thunderstorm-beings don't show you earthquakes, so I had the feeling that either I was connected with another being or I got new feelings from him, who he was, or there were other beings present. He showed me an earthquake, and there was the same feeling. I understood that what we think to be disasters are from another angle of perception not that. Then I saw lots of other non-physical beings which were present there, and it was a feeling of a kind of playing or togetherness of those who disengage, those who survive and those who are present non-physical, and the whole event itself.
ELIAS: And this, my friend, is all of your individual creation. What you have presented to yourself is a manifestation of your energy that you have translated into the form of this thunderstorm-being as symbolic to yourself, to offer yourself an avenue of communication that allows you an objective understanding of many of these concepts that we speak of.
In this, you allow yourself a genuine objective recognition of choice and that all movement is in actuality a choice. You also offer yourself information concerning perception, and that although there are mass beliefs expressed within your physical dimension, you incorporate in actuality the freedom to choose how you shall influence and project your individual perception. And this is the point, my friend.
For in recognizing that all of your reality is a creation of your individual perception, you also hold choice, and you may direct your perception in many manners. It is not limited to the expressions of the mass beliefs or your societal beliefs, and this is not an identification of any right or wrong expression. Merely the recognition that it is an individual choice in how you direct your perception, but the recognition that you do direct your perception and that this is in actuality a choice, is a tremendous movement in awareness in itself.
ANJULI: This was all my creation ... oh, that is interesting because when this whole vision ended there was a feeling of "now look what is happening now," and there was thunder and a flash of lightening, and then the flash of lightening hit the electrical system of the academy. So how did I do that, or how did this happen?
ELIAS: In like manner to any expression that may be deemed as a collective event or a degree of a mass event, there may be many individuals creating the event in similar manners, but each individual is creating the entirety of the event in their own unique manner, and each individual is participating in different measures, so to speak, dependant upon their attention in relation to their creation of their participation. In this, each individual, yourself also, creates an event in relation to their own individual movement and direction and what they are expressing to themselves in their exploration of any particular direction in the moment.
Therefore, what you have created in your participation in this event is an allowance of yourself to recognize not merely the power and strength of the storm, so to speak - which is a creation of you, it is an expression of you, therefore validating to yourself the actual strength and power that you individually incorporate in your energy and your abilities - but also you participate in this physical event to allow yourself to view the REALNESS of this power, that it is not what you define as imagined.
Although I have expressed to you all that imagination is quite real, for the most part individuals continue to incorporate a distinction between what you perceive to be reality and what you perceive to be imagined. Therefore, in this experience you allow yourself to create an actual physical expression to demonstrate to yourself the reality of what you offered to yourself in your communication with the being, which is perceived to be somewhat real but somewhat imagined. Therefore, you incorporate the physical display in imagery to express to yourself the realness of it. Quite creative! Ha ha ha!
ANJULI: I had two other things in that time. One thing was a little bit earlier in the same year. I had a meditation, and then I had the feeling that I saw the countries on Earth not as countries but each of their collective consciousness as a being, and I had the feeling that the being representing China was separate from the others through a dark wall and it was asking for help for being connected with the others. I tried to reach through the wall and wasn't able to. After this experience on the next day I heard in the news that they have had this disaster on the Place of Heavenly Peace, where the police or the officials were shooting at the students. I was a little bit afraid afterwards of what this experience was and how it was relating to the event later and about myself. I think I was a little bit afraid of what you can do.
ELIAS: And what is your impression? (Pause)
ANJULI: My impression is that ... (pause) well, there are many things. At that time I had a little bit of a judgment, a duplicity thing of what is good and bad, what should happen and not, and also I had the feeling that I was not able to reach through because it was all ... maybe I learned that this is not up to me, they can ... oh, it is difficult.
ELIAS: (Laughs) Let us view this experience in relation to the experience with the thunderstorm-being, for in this you offer yourself another example of the power of energy. But in this experience you have incorporated a fear in relation to that expression of power or force of energy.
Now; in this, you offer yourself imagery that shall incorporate information to yourself that you may understand the expression of fear within yourself and within other individuals concerning the recognition of the powerfulness of your individual energies.
ELIAS: And in this, you also offer yourself an example of an experience in which you recognize partially your own participation, but you question responsibility in relation to your participation.
In this, you offer yourself the opportunity to examine your individual beliefs and the ease in which you move into an expression of personal responsibility in relation to other individuals.
ANJULI: You mean that I think I am responsible for what happens to other individuals?
ELIAS: Not necessarily that you are incorporating a thought process that you are responsible for other individuals, but that you are offering yourself an example of how easily that may be expressed by yourself or by other individuals.
You are presenting yourself with an example merely to offer yourself a clearer understanding of how easily those expressions may be created in automatic responses. Not that you are necessarily incorporating that action in the moment, but merely offering yourself an example that allows you to identify how easily that may be expressed in automatic responses. Are you understanding?
ANJULI: Hmm, I try. I think I have to go through it again later. I try to ... I think I did not understand fully.
ELIAS: At times you may present yourself with examples of certain expressions, not necessarily as an example of what you yourself may be creating in the moment, but to merely offer yourself information concerning a particular subject matter. You may not necessarily be expressing within yourself that you feel responsible for creating a particular event in that moment, so to speak, but you also offer yourself an experience that provides you with an example, an understanding of how easily that can be expressed.
ANJULI: Yes, I think I now understand.
ELIAS: Therefore in offering yourself that type of information, you also create an awareness that allows you to notice the moments in which you might incorporate that type of an expression, and therefore, in noticing, you provide yourself with choices and not necessarily the expression of the automatic response.
ANJULI: I think now I understood. (Elias laughs with Anjuli)
At that time there was another thing. This was five years before the wall in Berlin was falling. I was sitting in meditation, and I saw how the wall in Berlin is falling and how the people meet. I was sitting there, of course very emotional, I was crying, and I did not think very much about what I had seen there; but exactly what I had seen happened five years later in Berlin.
I was wondering if I had seen something which would happen in the future, or if this is also like this whole thunderstorm thing and something like that, showing to myself how everything is my own creation or how this whole thing around me, what I think to be a thick reality, is a kind of a video or something like that?
ELIAS: I may express to you that you have expressed both. You also have offered to yourself in this experience a type of window into viewing the simultaneousness of time. For in offering yourself a viewing of this event you are not necessarily viewing into the future, so to speak; you are merely allowing yourself to pierce through a veil of separation and allowing yourself to view what is occurring in another expression of the now.
Just as I express to you all "the shift in consciousness is accomplished," but within your linear time framework you view yourselves to be continuing to move into the accomplishment of it. This is the expression of linear time. Therefore in THIS time framework it is not yet inserted into your officially accepted objective reality. It is BEING inserted, but the completed accomplishment of it has not been inserted yet. But also it has been, for within the expression of simultaneous time it is accomplished, in like manner to your allowance of your experience viewing this event and also viewing it five years subsequent.
ANJULI: Interesting. I think, Elias, our time is almost over, and I wanted to ask you ... I have 1000 more questions, but fortunately we have another Thursday next week! (Elias laughs) Yes!
ELIAS: Very well!
ANJULI: And a little question at the end: after the last session I dreamt that you visited me in...
ELIAS: You are correct.
ANJULI: Oh. (Elias laughs) Well, I thought that you might say this, and it was a feeling of ... I was watching the whole process in quite detail. I saw me or felt me or was aware that I was in bed and was sleeping, and then when I felt that you would come, first I felt just an energy and then I was a little bit amazed because I was not emotionally disturbed or something like that. I felt very calm and kind of surrendering to the flow, and I had the feeling as if my part was the allowing of it to happen, and the more I was opening myself to it the more I felt you manifesting.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct, and if you are so choosing you may be incorporating this action again.
ANJULI: Yes, I will, I will! I am choosing! (Elias laughs with Anjuli) Oh, Elias, it was great.
ELIAS: Very well, my friend, I shall be anticipating our next discussion, and I shall be in your linear time framework revisiting you.
ANJULI: Oh, great!
ELIAS: In this, as always, I offer my encouragement to you and great affection.
ANJULI: Thank you, Elias. I love you.
ELIAS: Until our next meeting, my friend, au revoir.
ANJULI: Yes, au revoir.
Elias departs at 11:44 AM.
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