Sunday, May 20, 2001 (Private/Phone)


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Letty (Castille)

Elias arrives at 12:28 PM. (Arrival time is 23 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

LETTY: Good morning to you, too, Elias! For you are doing wonderful! (Laughs)

ELIAS: And what shall we discuss this morning?

LETTY: Well, I have so much I don't know where to start! (Elias laughs) And it's all related to me, of course! I've been thinking, part of what's happening to me is like your discussion with Cindel yesterday, about the movement that's happening. Since she told me your explanation and I read it last night, it was such a soothing blanket of relief. So I personally want to thank you.

ELIAS: You are welcome.

LETTY: I mean, I was ready to sell my house and just start packing already (laughs with Elias), like the movie "Exodus." I understand exactly now because it's happening, and I guess that my personal individual question is, how is this shift affecting me? I've felt a lot through the last couple of weeks from the anger to the frustration, to even the last few nights some really what I consider peaceful nice dreams, where I woke up really feeling good or not as anxious as other times.

ELIAS: I am understanding. Let me offer to you, Castille, the identification that all that we have been speaking of, in identification of different actions and aspects of your reality and subject matters to be paying attention to and addressing to in relation to this shift in consciousness, has been discussed and you have been allowing yourselves to be assimilating the information, and now you are experiencing more of the effects, so to speak, of what you are creating and the areas in which you are turning your attention to.

Now; we have been discussing for a time framework the subject matter of emotion as communication, and paying attention to self and holding attention within yourself and in the now, and not projecting your attention outside of yourself. In this, you are widening your awareness in relation to this shift in consciousness, and therefore all of these concepts and subjects that we have been discussing are now becoming much more obvious, and you are paying attention more closely. You are paying attention to your experiences and what you create and how you create, and this is all an expression of the process of widening your awareness, in a manner of speaking, and becoming more familiar with yourself.

In this, you may express to yourself in any particular moment that you do not FEEL that you are necessarily more familiar with yourself than you have been previously, but in actuality, as you continue to present yourself with these experiences, in actuality you are becoming more intimately familiar with not merely WHAT you create within your reality but HOW you create that within your reality, and offering yourselves more and more opportunities to view and pay attention to how your reality is created and what communications you offer to yourself. This is a large movement, in your terms, in association with this shift in consciousness - for this is the actual movement into OBJECTIVELY expressing this shift. (Pause)

LETTY: Is this one of the reasons that in trying to understand this movement within me ... you know, yesterday I had this thought about my widening. I felt it in my head - how I usually do when something's going on - and I even felt that at a different level. I felt like I was on drugs or something for a minute there in the morning. Is that all part of the energy?

ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.

LETTY: Because I still have ... and of course, I use the excuse of being a Vold, of needing change and moving, but it's just more on the inside than on the outside.

ELIAS: Correct, and becoming more aware of what you are creating and how you are creating in paying attention to self, and practicing holding your attention upon self in the now, and recognizing automatic responses and also recognizing the oftenness of your movement in NOT expressing automatic responses, but offering yourself more of an ability objectively to recognize the influences that are being expressed in relation to your perception and intentionally choosing different directions and expressions.

LETTY: Yes, kind of like playing with it.

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes. And in this, you are beginning to be noticing the actual alteration of your reality. It is beginning to assume a different flavor, so to speak.

LETTY: Yes! With all this I have felt so much more comfortable with myself. I want to ask you about the situation - and I know I'm working on it - and I need more confirmation from you as to the personal responsibility with Leezar and his situation at home with his son.

ELIAS: Express to myself the nature of your concern.

LETTY: My desire is to move up to Portland and be with him. It's interesting the way things are being created within all of us, because I felt I was ready to move up there and he kind of wasn't, and then all of a sudden within all our energies the situation was complicated by his son wanting to move in with me.

My question and my concern is, I know I want to do something. Whether it is trying to pay attention to myself, but at the same time I want to give ... not that I'm helping him, but give him advice. I'm having a problem staying away from it, too. I want to be part of it, is what I want to say, but at the same time I don't want to do it where I just complicate it for all three of us.

ELIAS: Very well. I may express to you that you are offering yourself the challenge, presenting to yourself an objective situation involving other individuals and the challenge of participating with other individuals, creating what YOU want to be creating, and also continuing to hold your attention with self.

Now; this is directly associated with what we have been discussing previously this morning. For, this is yet again another example to yourself of how you are creating movement to actually implement the concepts that have been presented. You have allowed yourself to be listening and discussing with myself these concepts. You have allowed yourself to be assimilating, and you have allowed yourself movement in application of these concepts in relation to yourself.

Now you are creating a situation in which, in your terms, you are presenting yourself with the test or the challenge in whether you may actually physically apply this information and hold your attention upon self, interact with other individuals, create the action of the straight sapling, not concern yourself with the choices of other individuals or attempting to be directing of their focus, but genuinely directing of your own focus, and in this steering your own ship.

LETTY: Oh, you put it so nicely! (Elias chuckles)

ELIAS: This in actuality within your physical dimension is a tremendous challenge. For at times you may be practicing and allowing yourself to be paying attention to self in situations that may involve other individuals, but as you create a scenario in which you involve yourself in interaction with other individuals in an expression of intimacy, your attention moves much more automatically outside of yourself in the guise of helpfulness and concern.

LETTY: Yes, that's where I'm having the challenge.

ELIAS: Quite. This is the opportunity that you have presented to yourself to actually practice in the attempt to genuinely hold your attention within self and experiment with that ability in relation to other individuals that you create intimacy in relationship with.

LETTY: So it doesn't necessarily mean I cannot give my opinion, but it's the kind of energy that I could put into it, or the desire to have him change, instead of just giving them an opinion and having them do their own decision.

ELIAS: Correct. As I have stated previously, you may be accepting and you also may express an opinion or a preference, and this is not in conflict with the expression of acceptance. You may be offering your opinion, and as you create that expression, the difference of how that may be received is in the expression of energy that the opinion is offered within.

If you are offering your opinion in relation to your perception and your preferences in acceptance of yourself, knowing that this is merely an expression of your perception, not creating an expression of attempting to be altering another individual's reality and not creating an expectation of action, the response of the other individuals shall be quite different than it shall be if you are projecting an energy of expectation.

Now; the expectation may be expressed in the identification of wanting an action to occur. That action is not necessarily always directed to the other individual. Surfacely you may express to yourself, in recognizing your expectation, that you are offering your opinion with the expectation that an action shall occur in relation to the other individual, that they shall receive your opinion and therefore they shall alter some expression within their reality. And in actuality, many times the expectation is directed to yourself. You expect an alteration of an expression within yourself, an action to be implemented within yourself, and you project that outwardly to the other individual.

LETTY: I realize as you're telling me this, I think I just did that. I liked the way Cindel wrote in our discussion between love and acceptance, and I sent it to Leezar. I want it to be with no expectations, but yet I believe deep down I was fooling myself because I did have expectations that I hoped it would enlighten him, quote/unquote.

ELIAS: Correct, and this is not the point.

LETTY: Right. So sometimes it's easier just to let him work on his own creation.

ELIAS: I may express to you quite the reverse. For the most part, within your physical focus and within your perception, it is easier attempting to be directing of his choices and his creations and his perception, for this is familiar. It is much more challenging to not be creating that expression. The offering of advice or the attempt to be enlightening another individual or offering information to another individual is expressed much more easily, for this is a familiar action. It is an automatic expression. Paying attention to self in the now is an unfamiliar action and not automatic. Therefore, not offering advice, not offering enlightenment, not offering information is much more challenging.

Although I may express to you, in actuality you are correct, that if you genuinely are holding your attention upon self within the now and not creating the expectations and are expressing the love as I have defined it as a knowing and an appreciation, your reality does move much more easily. But you have not quite allowed yourself a genuine familiarity with that actual action yet.

You offer yourselves glimmers at times, and you do at times allow yourselves to objectively notice in moments in which you accomplish this action, and this validates you in your recognition that you do in actuality hold the ability to be creating this; but you move once again into the familiar expressions, for the challenge continues to be allowing yourself to hold your attention upon self.

Let me express to you, Castille, there are many beliefs that influence this movement into the automatic responses, for there are aspects of your beliefs that continue a stronghold within that express to you collectively - not merely you individually - that you create your reality only to a point, and in relation to other individuals, some aspects of your reality are dependent upon the choices of other individuals.

This is the hurdle that you present to yourselves now in challenging yourselves to leap this hurdle and genuinely recognize that this is an influence of your beliefs, and [that] it is not necessarily correct, and that in actuality you are not dependent upon another individual's choices for ANY aspect of your reality. You genuinely are directing ALL of your reality. This is the expression that I offered to Cindel yesterday, in allowing yourselves to grasp the wheel and steer your ship.

LETTY: Yes, and I think you just made a point that I was going to ask you about. It snuck up on me that I have been believing that. I'm finally meeting my quote/unquote new boss tomorrow, and I'm nervous because I don't know whether he's going to want me to stick around or not - and it's not about him, it's all about me, whether I want to.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Can I ask you about him? It's interesting, because Cindel and Marta continue the feeling that there's a connection between him and me. I don't know whether they're trying to make me feel better, or I'm trying to convince myself that they're trying to make me feel better, or I'm not allowing myself to see that connection in the sense that it's someone from another focus, or that it's not going to be as hard as I'm trying to make it through my fears.

ELIAS: Correct. And once again, you are offering yourself the opportunity to pay attention to your emotional communications to yourself and to what you are creating and the movement that you are implementing within self and the projections that you are creating outside of yourself, outside of the now, and offering yourself also the opportunity to view and notice how you affect not recognizing certain expressions in relation to other individuals as you are not paying attention to you.

We have expressed this action as being an action of blocking. I shall alter that term presently and express to you, in this now you may move beyond the idea of blocking an expression or an opportunity to view or recognizing a connectedness. In actuality, you may allow yourself now to view another layer, in which surfacely it appears that you may be blocking. In actuality, you are projecting your attention in other areas, and therefore you do not view what you are presenting to yourself in the now before you.

LETTY: Okay. So it's just my attention.

ELIAS: This is a quite significant aspect of your movement and your perception. As I have expressed to Cindel, the attention is the wheel of the steerage. This is what directs your perception. This is what steers the direction of your perception.

If your attention is focused upon the other individual and reinforcing discountings of yourself and fear, you are no longer paying attention to steering your own ship, and therefore the ship may move in directions that you wish it not to move into for you are not holding your attention upon steering your ship. The action of steering your ship is not to be projecting your attention to the other individual but to be noticing what YOU are creating.

You are correct, it is not a situation of whether the other individual shall be accepting of you and shall choose for you to be continuing in this job, so to speak, but whether YOU are creating that movement. The other individual does not create your reality. Your reality is not dependent upon the other individual and their choices. You create that.

This is the aspect of inserting this movement of this shift in consciousness into your objective reality. This is the expression of recognizing objectively and intentionally creating what you want within your reality.

LETTY: I do feel those little time frameworks, even though they're short, that I really notice them in the now and understand and assimilate it and everything. Then something happens, and we go back to the automatic response.

ELIAS: But do not be discounting of yourself, for you are offering yourself these moments in which you are recognizing that you are objectively intentionally creating, and you are recognizing of your ability and offering yourself that freedom and those choices; and you continue to practice with this action which creates a movement, in which the time frameworks that you intentionally recognize objectively your ability and direct your movement to be creating what you want within the moment reinforces your recognition of your ability and validates to you that you do hold the ability to be creating in this manner, and therefore you allow yourself to implement this more often.

LETTY: I wanted to ask, Elias, in the last few sessions we talked a lot about my frustration, and I wanted to see if I understood this correctly, because I still find myself in those moments where I recognize my frustration. Is frustration a neutral emotion? What I'm trying to understand is that I must pay attention not to the frustration but to the beliefs and thoughts that create that?

ELIAS: The feeling of frustration is the signal of the emotion, gaining your attention that there is a communication occurring. The communication within frustration is a recognition that you are presenting to yourself in the moment many choices, and you are creating an expression of confusion in that moment concerning the recognition that you hold many choices but you are not choosing.

As I have expressed previously, at times frustration may move into more of an extreme and become the expression of anger, and in that moment you have created, in your terms, losing sight of all of your choices. This is the difference between these emotional communications.

In the moments of the communication of frustration, you are not quite moving in the expression of choosing, but you are recognizing that you hold many choices. You are incorporating confusion, and you are in the moment creating an allowance of the influence of your beliefs that you must be creating the "right" choice. Therefore, there is an influence of duplicity which is occurring in the moment.

Now; this in actuality is a key element concerning frustration, for as I have stated, once again, in the communication of frustration you do recognize that you hold choices. You are not choosing a particular direction in relation to your frustration, for you are allowing the influence of duplicity to be projected to your perception, which expresses to you the confusion in identifying the correct or the right choice, and you become more concerned with the right choice than the choices themselves.

LETTY: And that's where I get frustrated.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: I believe I'm now understanding that, at the moment when I get these signals. I only have wonderings from the last time we spoke about anger, and I just reviewed what we discussed in the previous session. I must have listened to it 20 times! (Elias chuckles) I finally believe I'm starting to assimilate the understanding, at least objectively, of that choice of duplicity.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: I thank you because I know you're repeating a lot to me, but I think I'm starting to really objectively see it.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: I think I have a picture of it now, and I'm excited about that part.

ELIAS: Very well. I may express to you, do not be discounting of yourself in the expression of repetition. It matters not, for this is the manner in which you allow yourself to assimilate and move that assimilation into an objective understanding.

LETTY: Kind of like I told Cindel that we need to use more information to each other or to ourselves about how beautiful and wondrous we are until we really, really believe it. (Laughs)

ELIAS: Yes. (Smiles)

LETTY: Elias, I have a question I've never asked you. Considering that I've ... I was going to say a terrible word called "suffering" of allergies for many years, which I don't have anymore. I stopped creating it for whatever reason and have never spoken to you about that.

But lately I sneeze a lot. I think I've heard, but I don't remember you speaking to somebody else about that because I didn't pay attention - it wasn't happening to me. Now that it is, I'm not sure the signal I'm trying to give myself. Is it like my other ones of stop and listen to what you're saying, or pay attention to yourself?

ELIAS: I may express to you, [in] this action that you are incorporating, in relation to your individual movement presently and your incorporation of your awareness in relation to this shift in consciousness, you are creating a physical implementation of imagery in association with blinking.

In this action of sneezing, you physically literally create a moment of moving your attention in an entirely different direction. In this, figuratively speaking you stop all movement of this manifestation, and blink your attention to another area of consciousness.

LETTY: So it's just telling myself that that's what I'm doing.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: How interesting! Well, thank you so very much Elias, as always.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome my friend, as always.

LETTY: My last question is just going to be based on the now. I've felt I've gone through a lot of movement in the last ten days. Do you see a possibility of my still moving out of this area physically, as I had been working movement towards Portland?

ELIAS: Yes, although as always I shall express to you this continues to be your choice, and this is dependent upon the strength of your desire to be engaging the challenge that you are presenting yourself with.

LETTY: That's true! (Laughs and Elias chuckles) Thank you so, so very much.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome, my friend. I continue to offer great encouragement to you as you continue leaping your hurdles and continuing your travel in the movement of this shift. I also continue to offer my expression of energy to you.

LETTY: Yes, I feel it. Thank you.

ELIAS: To you, as always, in tremendous affection and friendship, adieu.

LETTY: Adieu.

Elias departs at 1:19 PM.

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