Thursday, March 15, 2001 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Daryl (Ashrah)
Elias arrives at 5:30 PM. (Arrival time is 13 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good afternoon!

DARYL: Hello, my friend!

ELIAS: (Laughs) Greetings, my friend!

DARYL: Oh boy! It's been a while since we talked objectively. I guess the first thing I want to discuss briefly with you is about the relationship that we talked about last time.

ELIAS: Very well.

DARYL: I gather that you're kind of aware of what's going on in relation to that, or maybe not, I don't know. Anyway... (Laughs, and Elias laughs)

I realize for my part what I essentially did was kind of become invisible in the situation because of things that are going on with me. I have been spending time bringing various beliefs to my attention, including one area that I have been reluctant to address, which has to do with sexual preferences and mass beliefs. I guess I feel like it's been useful to me even though essentially the relationship has kind of hit a pause at the moment. I've also been learning how much my attention is outside myself. It's given me a real opportunity to kind of practice acknowledging that and trying to change it, although a lot of times I feel like I get really out stuck out there.

So, I guess if there's anything I am not really noticing in that area that would be helpful for me to realize ... if there's anything you would like to say regarding that.

ELIAS: What have you offered to yourself in the identification of holding your attention outside of yourself?

DARYL: Well, that I do it! I start thinking that everything's up to the other person.

ELIAS: And what have you noticed in relation to the ease or the resistance of energy in the time frameworks in which you ARE holding your attention outside of self?

DARYL: I'm sorry, what was the first part of that? I kind of lost it. (Both laugh) What have I noticed in terms of ease?

ELIAS: In terms of ease or resistance in relation to holding your attention outside of self.

DARYL: Well, it seems like a very familiar place, and it seems very difficult to pull myself back in and stay there and keep my attention within self.

When I do keep my attention inside self, it's like this whole different place. I'm content, and I am much more in the now. It's so pleasant there, and then I keep leaving it! I can't understand why I keep leaving this pleasant place to go be in this obsessive unpleasant place, even though it is familiar. (Laughs, and Elias chuckles)

ELIAS: And this is the reason, for it is familiar. I may express to you, my friend, that individuals do not necessarily create what is pleasurable, but experience comfort in the familiar. Comfort is not always expressed in pleasure. (Pause)

DARYL: Yes. I'm gonna be discussing something related to this later, but in between I want to talk to you some about the concept of blueprints and interaction with other people, 'cause that's come up a lot in discussion. I understand that I interact essentially with my version of someone else.

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: Okay. The place where I get confused in relationships is that I understand there has to be agreement, but I also understand that my choices are my choices. So, I guess what I'm trying to understand is if I do want a relationship with this person or another person, do I have the absolute choice to have that? And if I choose that, since there seems to be so many aspects of us around, then that will elicit something having to do with them but also my blueprint, and allow me to have that choice?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes.

Now; recently I have offered explanations to individuals. I have offered an explanation to Lawrence concerning this type of interaction, interaction between individuals. You are correct that the direct interaction with the image of another individual, or the physical aspect of interaction with another individual, is created through the projection of your perception; but you also are receiving energy. The other individual projects energy, and you receive that energy which is projected, and you allow yourself to create a projection through your perception as to what the other individual is creating.

Now; let me express to you, many, many times what you project through your perception is very similar to what the other individual is actually creating and choosing. But I may express to you also that at times another individual projects energy outward, and you may receive that energy, and you may reconfigure it and project an entirely different perception concerning the choice or actions of the other individual.

Now; I may express to you, if your attention is held upon self and you are not engaging issues of fear which distract your attention, for the most part you shall allow yourself to be creating a projection of the other individual based upon their projection of energy, which is the element which provides you with a blueprint of the other individual, and what they are expressing, and what their choices are, and their movement, and any action that they may be incorporating. And in this, as you incorporate that energy and form your blueprint, as I have stated, for the most part you shall create your image of the individual through your perception in very similar manner to what they are actually expressing.

Now; I may also say to you that many times individuals may be creating what you identify as misunderstandings or a lack of understanding, or they may be creating misinterpretations of another individual's creations or actions. For as the energy is received, it is moved through your own filters of your own associations and fears and beliefs, and in this you create an action, as I have stated recently, which may be similar to your physical creations of pinballs.

A ball of energy approaches you from another individual, and as you receive that energy, it may strike an aspect of you or an association within you that you hold, and it may begin striking many different areas within yourself, different issues and associations that you hold, also colliding with your own beliefs and your own discounting of self; and all of these actions in this analogy of this pinball, so to speak, that occur within you reconfigure the original energy projection. And as this is offered to your perception, your perception creates a translation which is more similarly aligned with your own beliefs and issues than it may be with what the other individual is actually projecting.

I may also express to you, for the most part, all of you create a similar action of projecting energy automatically in each movement in each expression that you create, and it is not in actuality directed to any one individual. It is merely a projection outward of your energy in relation to whatever you may be creating in the moment.

Now; this is received more specifically or objectively by individuals that you may be engaging actual physical objective interaction with. This may be in many different manners. It may be within physical proximity, or you do not necessarily need be incorporating physical proximity in your time framework, for you offer yourselves many other avenues of actual objective interaction with each other without incorporating actual physical proximity. This does not lessen the interaction in its objective expression, as you are aware, merely that you are not in actual physical proximity with the individual.

But as I have stated, these types of energy projections are received more intensely and objectively more directly if you are in actual objective interaction with another individual. Are you understanding?

DARYL: Yes.

ELIAS: Now; as to creating what you want in relation to this subject matter and how you create your reality in relation to other individuals, I may express to you, your perception is that which shall create the actual manifestation of what you want. The actual interaction in physical terms with another individual matters not, for what you are interacting with in relation to another individual is not the actual physical manifestation, anyway. What you are directly interactive with is the energy projection from another individual. But the actual interaction in what you term to be physical terms, physical manifestation, is an interaction that you create between yourself and your projection through your perception of the other individual.

Now; the significance of recognition of this manner of creation and physical manifestations is that YOU are directing of all of it. You are not creating another individual's reality. You are not manipulating another individual's energy. You are not dictating to another individual how they shall be creating their reality or what they shall be creating within their reality, and neither are they expressing any of those to you.

You are allowing yourself interaction with the other individual's energy, and you are allowing yourself to be creating an actual manifestation of what you want through your perception. This be the reason that I express to you all so often it matters not what other individuals choose, what other individuals create; it matters not what manifests in situations, in circumstances, or what you view outside of yourself. What holds significance is what you ALLOW yourself to be creating through your perception, for all that is within your individual reality is created by your individual perception. Therefore, [in] allowing yourself permission to be creating what you want, you allow yourself the freedom to create the actual physical manifestation of what you want.

DARYL: So if I understand it, if I continue to want this sort of relationship, I hold the ability, and if I give myself permission then I can have it, period.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: I don't have to get anything from anyone else or get the other person to go along.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: I can just ... I can have it.

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Okay, that's what I thought you were saying, but it is so far out of what we conceive reality to be! (Laughing)

ELIAS: You are correct, and this is...

DARYL: So I can just really go on the assumption that yeah, I've chosen this, and as long as I keep choosing it, then I can have it?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Oh, that is so empowering!

ELIAS: And that you already have it.

DARYL: Well, I meant this particular...

ELIAS: I am understanding of what you are expressing.

DARYL: And I can also see where I've been taking that energy and doing different things with it.

ELIAS: Correct, and what you have been creating - not entirely, but for the most part - is waiting. You are waiting for the expression of the other individual and the permission of the other individual. What you are creating is waiting for the other individual to create the choice that YOU want.

DARYL: Yes! (Laughing)

ELIAS: This is the reverse of what I am expressing to you. Offer to yourself permission to be creating what you want. No other individual may offer you permission to create what you want. And you may create an expectation that the other individual needs be creating a choice before you may allow yourself to follow and create a choice, and I shall express to you, in that expectation, you also create a set, in a manner of speaking, for disappointment. What you hold power and ability in is to be creating your reality in every aspect of it, in every expression that you want.

I am quite understanding the challenge that is expressed in this information for it is very unfamiliar to you, but it also is quite genuine and actual, and in this the challenge is the acknowledgment and trust of your own abilities and that you actually do hold the ability to be creating all that you want.

DARYL: Yes. Well, when I really understand it that way and believe that then, that's incredibly empowering. It's ... I don't know. (Laughs)

ELIAS: Quite!

DARYL: Right. There's another thing I want to do today, and it's all kind of related to this. One of the things I realized, especially when I listened to the tape of our last session, was aside from acknowledging the ability to create, you talked about giving myself permission, and I realized that in many ways I haven't given myself permission to create this.

ELIAS: Correct, for you are waiting!

DARYL: I'm waiting, but there's also ... I've identified some things in me that I feel like I want to change, or actually need to change, in order to get what I want. That mainly has to do with I guess you'd call it taking down or dismantling this energy blockage, my shrines, and what I feel in me that actively works towards me being invisible and not existing.

ELIAS: Quite!

DARYL: I also became aware, during this, of what I would call the pain of not existing, and I just don't want to do it any more. I want to move on and choose something else. For the last week, I've had breathing difficulties again, and prior to that even, when I wake up I have this strong sense that I've been working with my natural flow, and also towards taking this down and preparing myself for that.

Last week, while I had the breathing stuff, I was also aware of the tremendous amount of fear that I hold in taking it down. Because for at least the past 20 years I've been quite aware of it, and I am exceedingly familiar with it, and I've been scared of the idea of existing without it. But I feel like I have moved through a lot of that fear, and part of the reason that I wanted the session today was to make a definite movement towards beginning that process, or indeed, I have the feeling today that it has begun somewhat in the past 24 hours.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

DARYL: So, I guess, anything that you think would be helpful towards me making that move, because I do want to jump that hurdle, and I want to start getting the kind of life that I want, the flip side of the life I've had.

ELIAS: And I may express to you, you are already beginning this movement, and this interaction that you have engaged with myself this day is your expression of offering this to yourself in objective terms, therefore solidifying your resolve and allowing yourself to view this as more real, rather than merely a concept.

DARYL: Yes, because sometimes I've felt like I was doing it before and I wasn't, and I want to know that I'm doing it this time! (Laughs)

ELIAS: (Laughs) I may be acknowledging of you, Ashrah, and express to you, you ARE beginning.

Now; be aware that you also shall present yourself with great challenge and shall be incorporating much practice, for the familiar incorporates a strong hold and it may be quite easy to be moving yourself into doubt concerning your ability - at times, discouragement.

At times, it may be quite challenging to be noticing that your attention is not within but is expressed outwardly. For I may express to you, holding your attention within the now becomes easier and requires less and less effort, in a manner of speaking, as it becomes more and more familiar to you - and it IS becoming more familiar to you. Now the challenge is to be recognizing and noticing in the now when your attention is outside of yourself. For in focusing your attention upon the now, you are not always paying attention to the DIRECTION of your attention in the now.

DARYL: Yes, I have noticed that somewhat, recently! (Laughing, and Elias laughs) Just because I'm in the now doesn't mean I'm inside myself.

ELIAS: Correct! You may be acknowledging yourself that you are holding your attention within the now, but also recognize where you are directing your attention. For as you direct your attention outside of yourself, you do not empower yourself in acknowledging your abilities, and therefore you create much more difficulty in creating what you want. (Pause, and Daryl sighs) The ease in creating what you want is expressed in holding your attention within.

Let me also express to you, my friend, an element of that ease is that as you hold your attention with self and continue to offer yourself permission to create what you want, you become less distracted with the choices of other individuals. You become less discouraged with the choices of other individuals for you allow yourself to be reinforcing yourself, recognizing that the choices of other individuals matters not. What holds significance is what you allow yourself to choose or not to choose.

DARYL: One area that I've gotten kind of confused almost about is that I feel this blockage very strongly in my head, and I can either pull my attention back towards that new perception I have, or I can project it in, into the energy blockage. When I do that, I have this way ... like I can shake my head or do various things, and it kind of moves stuff around and sometimes feels better, but I can't tell if that automatically places my attention in there. Because I know my attention is there, but does that automatically give it energy, or are there times when it actually helps towards dismantling it? Do you know what I mean?

ELIAS: Yes. I may express to you that it may accomplish either/or,
or both.

DARYL: Well, then that be one reason I'm confused then! (Laughing)

ELIAS: It is dependent upon where your attention is in the moment, and what you are expressing to yourself.

If you are creating doubtfulness within your self in the moment and you turn your attention to this affectingness, you may be reinforcing it, for you are not trusting that you are turning your attention inward. You are creating an apprehension and a doubt that you may be exacerbating the situation. In those moments, you may be creating precisely that.

But in the moments that you do not question yourself, and you trust your own communications to yourself and allow yourself to turn your attention inwardly, you are, in actuality, relieving this expression.

DARYL: Okay. Because sometimes I feel like I go into it, and I kind of join it and get lost in it, which would be the first thing you're talking about, I guess.

ELIAS: In its continuation, yes.

DARYL: But there are other times when I feel like I'm impacting it, instead of it impacting me.

ELIAS: Correct. (Pause)

DARYL: (Sighs) Okay, is there anything else that you think would be helpful for me right now, in terms of working through this?

ELIAS: (Chuckling) I may express to you, this is, in your terms, quite a bit and shall be requiring of much of your attention.

Pay attention to the expression of the pinball, for this is a familiar action that you create, and in this, you create your expressions of what you may term to be uncomfortableness and depression, (15-second pause, in which Elias appears to be waiting or listening) viewing what you perceive to be the actions of other individuals or the choices of individuals receiving that energy and allowing the effect of the pinball, which creates hurtfulness within you. And this also denies you your choices, for you hold yourself in an expression of depressing yourself and REPRESSING yourself.

You hold a tremendous ability. You hold a tremendous power. NOW offer yourself permission to engage it.

I shall be quite acknowledging of you that you have allowed yourself to be moving away from this expression of fear tremendously. This monster has become a fraction of the volume that it incorporated previously.

DARYL: Well, I did get the sense this week, as I was letting it wash over me, that I'm determined that I'm going to do this, and it might be kind of scary, but I figure I can handle it! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles) Oh boy!

One thing I've been curious about is that I've noticed just a whole lot of subjective movement and stuff, but my reality hasn't been changing much objectively. Is there anything you want to say about that?

ELIAS: What is your expectation that your objective reality shall be altered in?

DARYL: I don't know. I know there's been so much going on in me that it just seems like there should be more changes that I notice. It seems like...

ELIAS: You do move in harmony with your objective and subjective. But as I have stated, the imagery that may be presented by either the objective or subjective may be quite different. They do not translate literally in the same type of imagery for the most part, although at times you do create this type of expression in which you shall create literally the type of movement objectively as you create movement subjectively; but you may be experiencing alterations in your subjective awareness, and this may be mirrored in your objective imagery in a myriad of manners.

You are in actuality reflecting in objective imagery. You are creating less conflict. You are creating more of an ease in your interactions. You express what you in physical terms identify as more confidence within your objective expression. Therefore, I express to you once again, what is your expectation that you shall be creating objectively in...

DARYL: I guess more like an earthquake or something, because that's what it feels like inside!

ELIAS: (Laughs with Daryl) Therefore, you wish to be viewing dramatics in objective expressions, for...

DARYL: I guess! (Elias laughs) Although having been in actual earthquakes, I wouldn't mean it exactly in that form, but I do feel like that's kind of the objective equivalent of what's going on inside me. (Elias chuckles) But I'll just pay attention, and some things aren't necessarily going to be as intense and dramatically expressed, objectively.

ELIAS: And may I inquire to you, do you genuinely wish to be creating such dramatics?

DARYL: Only if I consider them positive! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)

Okay, I guess to wrap things up, one of the things that I haven't asked you before is about my family and their family alignment, orientation, and so maybe...

ELIAS: Offer to me your impressions. Ha ha ha!

DARYL: Well, with my father, I was wondering if he was the same as I am in terms of Sumafi/Tumold? (Pause)

ELIAS: Sumafi/Zuli.

DARYL: Sumafi/Zuli?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Oh, that's a surprise! And is he common?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: My mother I really don't have a clue about, except maybe Sumari. (Pause)

ELIAS: Vold/Sumari.

DARYL: Vold/Sumari, and she's common?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Okay, and let's see, my sister?

ELIAS: Your impression?

DARYL: Well, from what she said, seems like Gramada, possibly.

ELIAS: As alignment; essence family, Sumafi.

DARYL: Sumafi?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: You're kidding me! (Elias chuckles) There's three of us in one family! And she's common also?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: Okay. And my brother, it seems to me that he might be Milumet. (Pause)

ELIAS: This individual ... belonging to the essence family of Tumold, aligning with Sumari.

DARYL: Tumold/Sumari. Is he common also?

ELIAS: Yes.

DARYL: I forgot to ask for the essence names. Could you provide those? I don't have any feelings about those.

ELIAS: Offer each individual.

DARYL: My father.

ELIAS: Essence name, Deema, D-E-E-M-A. (DEE mah)

DARYL: Okay; my mother?

ELIAS: Essence name, Carolyn, C-A-R-O-L-Y-N.

DARYL: My sister?

ELIAS: Essence name, Tilotu, T-I-L-O-T-U. (TEE low too)

DARYL: Hmm! And my brother? (Pause)

ELIAS: Essence name, Yayta, Y-A-Y-T-A. (yea TAH)

DARYL: Y-A-Y-T-A?

ELIAS: Correct.

DARYL: That's an unusual one. Okay! I really find it hard to believe my sister's Sumafi! (Elias chuckles) I guess that's the way it is! I'll investigate that more.

ELIAS: Ah, let me express to you a clue in one term of "repetition." (12-second pause) This individual creates many repetitions within her focus.

DARYL: Okay. Well, I'll consider that. I have noticed some repetitions, but ... okay. I certainly did think that they're all common after I found out about orientations, because I felt like I didn't fit within the family in terms of certain characteristics! (Elias laughs)

I guess that's about it for today, unless you have anything you'd like to add.

ELIAS: I may express to you, my friend, merely an acknowledgment of your accomplishments, and I express to you that you may be acknowledging of yourself also, for your movement is worthy of your acknowledgment.

In this, I shall continue to be interactive with you and offering energy to you. Allow yourself to relax. (Daryl laughs) It is unnecessary to continue constricting yourself. You are embarking upon a wondrous emergence, not approaching the den of the lions! Ha ha ha ha!

DARYL: Yes, I do feel like there's been some shift in me in the past 24 hours, where I'm really kind of understanding that I can relax and that I don't have to struggle with myself and put all the power outside me.

ELIAS: Correct! Offer it to yourself, not outside of yourself, and allow yourself to view the wondrousness of what you may be creating. Offer yourself the expression of freedom. You are quite deserving of it. (Chuckles)

DARYL: Yes, I am! (Laughs)

ELIAS: HA HA! I shall continue to be expressing energy with you and to be surrounding you with it.

DARYL: And I'm sure that you've been attempting to play with me, and I haven't been allowing it. Is that correct?

ELIAS: You are correct! You are quite stubborn, are you not?

DARYL: (Laughing) Yes! Well, I'll try to relax in that area, too!

ELIAS: You may express to yourself that you may relax your determination in the expression of seriousness! (Daryl laughs) Fun is quite liberating! Ha ha ha ha ha!

DARYL: Okay!

ELIAS: Ha ha ha! I shall continue my expressions, regardless of your seriousness! (Laughing)

DARYL: Do you ever cause noises?

ELIAS: At times. (Grinning)

DARYL: Okay, I thought maybe you were playing with me with noises.

ELIAS: (Laughs) At times it may be quite challenging to be gaining your attention!

DARYL: (Laughing) Okay, I will definitely be trying to move in that direction in terms of playfulness and stuff, because it's been frustrating because I have felt like you were there and doing things, and I was not allowing it.

ELIAS: (Chuckling) You may be quite surprised at how playful I may be, and how liberating this may be to yourself if you allow yourself engagement!

DARYL: Yes!

ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! Very well, my friend. I extend to you tremendous affection as always, and anticipate our next meeting and our continued interaction. To you this day, au revoir.

DARYL: Au revoir.

Elias departs at 6:27 PM.


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