Obstacles in Creating What You Want: Skepticism vs
"Obstacles in Creating What You Want: Skepticism vs. Fear"
"I CAN and I SHALL"
Sunday, February 25, 2001 (Private)
Participants: Mary (Michael), Mike (Mikah), Ben (Albert), and Frank (Christian)
Elias arrives at 2:23 PM. (Arrival time is 23 seconds.)
ELIAS: Continuing! (Chuckling)
MIKE: I have a question. I wasn't going to ask it but...
ELIAS: Merely one? (Grinning and chuckling)
MIKE: (Laughs) I can only ask one at a time! (Elias laughs) Why is it that I use sugar as a trigger to be causing dizziness and like a numbness? There are certain times of the day that when I eat certain things I get dizzy or I get disoriented.
ELIAS: First of all, offer to me your impression concerning what you are creating, what you observe within your focus that you associate within these time frameworks with this action.
MIKE: Hmm. I don't know. It's just been so common throughout my life that I haven't really had to ... I mean, it's reversed now. When I would eat sugar when I was younger it would be the opposite. I would become really hyper, and I'd become more objectively aware, I guess. I'd become more of a smart ass, but now it seems that within the past couple years it's turned itself around to where I'm almost blacking out. I'm not sure quite what to make of it. (Pause)
ELIAS: You do incorporate this substance as a trigger. I may express to you that within each of these displays of imagery that you have chosen to be creating, you are offering yourself a communication expressing that you be paying attention within your awareness of self and not holding your attention outside of self.
In previous experiences, you have offered yourself this type of trigger in an expression, as you have stated, of a heightened awareness, to be paying attention to yourself.
In THIS time framework, in relation to your movement in what you term to be years, your attempt at turning your attention to self with this trigger is, in a manner of speaking, manifesting in blocking out objective distractions.
I may express to you, both of these actions are in actuality extreme, and if you are so choosing you may be experimenting with this particular manifestation that you have created and allowing yourself to not be expressing this action in extreme, but noticing in those moments that your attention is occupied quite strongly outwardly and allow yourself to be paying attention to you without the distractions of what you view as outside stimuli; and in allowing yourself to turn your attention and be paying attention to what you are creating in the moment, you also may lessen this affectingness.
I may express to you, Mikah, you may not necessarily discontinue this type of action entirely, for you have incorporated this as a trigger to be paying attention. This is your choice to be discontinuing this action entirely within this present now. The potentiality is that you shall not necessarily disengage this action entirely, but if you are choosing, you may be incorporating it in less extreme merely to move your attention, and this may be beneficial to you as an objective expression, to move your attention to yourself and recognizing the distractions that you are engaging and holding your attention outside of self in extreme.
MIKE: Okay. Why do I do this then when I'm involving myself in school, when I'm having to do work and having to engage certain types of objective concentration? This seems sort of like a distraction from that, and that's not compatible with grades.
ELIAS: Not necessarily. I may be in disagreement with you in your assessment of this situation.
You are correct that incorporation of this manifestation IS a distraction from your objective concentration outside of yourself, but I may also express to you this turning of your attention to self is not necessarily incompatible with your interaction in your studies, so to speak.
In actuality, holding your attention outside of yourself in tremendous concentration is requiring of more of an expression of energy, and in this action your communication to yourself is that you may be engaging your studies, so to speak, more easily and with less effort in allowing yourself to relax and pay attention to YOU.
(Leaning forward) Now; do not misunderstand what I am expressing to you. I am not expressing to you that you may not be paying attention to some outside objective expressions, or that you need be turning your attention inward in the expression of thoughts and interrupting your thought process in relation to your studies.
What I am expressing to you is that in this concentration objectively of your attention outside of yourself to the exclusion of an awareness OF yourself, you are no longer paying attention to what you are creating inwardly - and what you are creating inwardly is a forcing of energy. You are creating an association of extreme expectations in relation to yourself. You also begin communication to your physical body consciousness in relation to the forcing of energy, and what you create is a building of tension within your energy field, and your physical body consciousness begins expressing this tension and exhibiting this tension, but you are not paying attention to what you are physically creating. You are focusing your attention in extreme outside of yourself in this expectation that you hold concerning yourself, that this is the method that you must be incorporating to assimilate the information.
What you are expressing to yourself in communication is if you are paying attention to your own energy field, which requires LITTLE thought - in actuality, requires no thought but perhaps initially merely the thought of paying attention and noticing - and if allowing yourself to receive that communication, you allow yourself to relax your energy, which actually shall create more of an ease in your allowance for assimilation of the information that you are attempting to be objectively assimilating within your studies.
Therefore, I acknowledge to you, you are correct. It IS an interruption. It IS a type of distraction, to be offering you a communication in how you may be accomplishing what you want to be accomplishing in relation to your studies more efficiently.
MIKE: Okay; all right.
I know there has to be a focus where my name is "Mikey." I find it very interesting that throughout this present focus of mine, a lot of individuals don't call me Michael, they don't call me Mike, they call me Mikey. Which is fine with me but I notice, I do take note, that it's like there's ... it's not a random set of individuals. There's a teacher or a certain relative or other people that I'll meet, and they'll just randomly start calling me Mikey. I'm wondering, is this a focus of mine that all these people have shared with me, that they're recognizing? (Pause)
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct - what you term to be a small child.
MIKE: A small child ... what time framework? (Pause)
ELIAS: Seventeenth century. This individual disengaged in what you would term to be young age.
MIKE: Really? Did he drown?
ELIAS: No, although I may also confirm this as an impression, for the actual choice of disengagement was a collection of fluid within the lungs, not water but as a dis-ease which was created by this individual. I may also express to you that within that brief focus, this small one may be identified within your physical terms as frail and held in affection by many individuals.
MIKE: Was this maybe a French focus?
ELIAS: Partially. Emergence of the manifestation originated in Prague, and there was physical movement into this location of France.
MIKE: All right ... let's see. Okay, I'm guessing that this is another focus, I'm hoping. That's my impression, that's it's another focus. About six months ago I started seeing visions of this male who I thought initially was maybe a future aspect of me. This individual is my size, he has a goatee, he's very well built muscularly, and he has very ornate dragon tattoos on his arms. For about two weeks that's all I kept seeing was this individual, and then it just stopped. I was wondering, who was the individual I was seeing? (Pause)
ELIAS: Your impression is correct. This may be associated as a future focus, not within this physical location, occupying a physical location of what you identify as Japan.
MIKE: How many focuses do I share with Rodney? (Elias smiles and raises his eyebrows) Twenty-six? (Elias continues smiling and gives Mike a nod in acknowledgment as he accesses.)
FRANK: Oh, he didn't just get that right!
MIKE: Oh, close! Twenty-four, okay.
I had talked to you about an essence named Karen who I shared like 200 focuses with. And I met this individual named Caryn, and it didn't dawn on me that it MIGHT be this individual until she was walking by my door, and she had to turn around and come back and tell me about how much she recognized me from somewhere, that there's something nostalgic or something about me. So I know that there's other focuses shared, but I'm wondering if this is THAT Karen? (Long pause while Elias grins and stares at Mike.)
ELIAS: And your impression?
MIKE: (Laughing) Initially I wanted to say yes, but then I started logicizing because there's only been brief interaction.
ELIAS: Ah! And you have moved yourself into the expression of rationale...
MIKE: (Laughing) I'm so good at it though!
ELIAS: ...and therefore you discount the initial impression. I may validate the initial impression.
MIKE: That WAS Karen?
MIKE: Interesting. Hmm.
ELIAS: Ah! But you hold associations that shall you encounter an individual that you have shared many focuses with, (humorously) you shall be viewing sparks and fireworks...
ELIAS: ...and intense...
ELIAS: ...interaction! (Laughing)
MIKE: (Laughing) No! I just figured maybe it would have been a little bit of a longer interaction, because she was the one who picked up on the connection, not me. So that's why I discounted the impression initially. (Elias laughs) God! I'm surrounded by smart asses!
ELIAS: HA HA HA! And playful! (Chuckling)
MIKE: (Laughing) Yeah! All right.
I have a question. We've talked in many sessions about how I create my reality, you know, that when I'm skeptical I compound the difficulties. I make it more difficult for myself by being skeptical - I create obstacles and stuff - and I was wondering, how did I end up getting into Columbia when I was so very skeptical, even right up to the point of when I got the acceptance letter I was still skeptical that they had sent it to the wrong person?
ELIAS: I may express to you, you may view this experience as an opportunity to distinguish between the expression of skepticism and fear. For in this particular creation, the expression that you engaged was not necessarily one of skepticism or disbelief, but rather incorporating a familiar camouflage that appears closely associated with that type of expression in relation to an expression of fear.
The expression of fear was created in relation to daring to trust yourself and an uncertainty in allowing yourself to trust.
MIKE: But isn't that skepticism?
ELIAS: Not necessarily, for in actuality you were not creating an expression of disbelief, but a fear in relation to your belief.
Now; I shall express to you, Mikah, within that time framework in conjunction with our previous discussions concerning allowing yourself to create what you want, your attention moved from the expression of attempting to create manifestations that you are genuinely skeptical concerning, such as the creation of your winning finances (Elias grins and Mike chuckles) - which we both hold an awareness of - and the reality of your genuine skepticism or lack of belief that you hold that ability, into an expression of turning your attention in allowing yourself a genuine expression of trust and experimentation with that trust; but in the vast unfamiliarity associated within you of this type of expression of trust and allowing that to manifest into an actual physical expression, the camouflage appeared to be a type of skepticism, although in actuality, it was not. It is an expression of fear that there may be a possibility that you shall be disappointing of yourself if you genuinely may not trust your own creations. In this, you allowed yourself enough of an offering of trust within yourself to be actually manifesting what you want, regardless of the fear.
I have expressed to other individuals, you may be creating expressions of what you want within this physical reality and not entirely believe that you actually hold the ability, or you may be creating what you want in allowing yourself even the smallest of steps into your own expression of trust even in the manifestation of fear. And the greatest gift that you offer to yourself in these types of movement is the validation and acknowledgment that you are not helpless, and that you do in actuality hold the ability to create precisely what you want if you are allowing yourself the freedom of the expression of trust within yourself, and even within the presence of your own fear you may be creating the expression regardless.
And this is what you have offered to yourself, not a genuine expression of skepticism, a familiar camouflage which appears to be an expression of skepticism, but in actuality a genuine experimentation with trust. This may prove to be quite valuable to you in reinforcement of yourself, that you have allowed yourself an accomplishment that appeared to you as impossible.
MIKE: So I just want to be clear on something. When there's skepticism involved, you create obstacles and the probability becomes more or less "less probable" because there's a disbelief in your ability. But when you fear something, unless you're succumbing to the fear, then the fear doesn't necessarily create an obstacle in the same capacity that skepticism does.
ELIAS: Correct. For in the expression of skepticism, you align with the expression of the disbelief, and in this you block avenues of communication that may express different information to you.
You focus your attention upon ONE avenue of communication, which is expressed in the rationalization of what you view in physical terms, and you reinforce your belief - rather than your disbelief, but it may be associated as a disbelief - your belief that you do NOT hold the abilities that you do. Therefore, you reinforce a discounting of yourself, and you create obstacles. This is not to say that you create a situation in which movement is impossible, but you do create a thickness and much more of a challenge in your movement incorporating that particular type of expression.
Fear, at times, does create tremendous obstacles and limitations in MANY individuals' movements. But it creates the obstacles or limitations in the moments in which the individual allows themselves to move into, so to speak, that expression in which they allow themselves a consumption of the expression of fear.
In these situations, figuratively speaking, the individual creates such an extreme in expression of the fear that they actually almost create another entity, another expression of themselves, which challenges them in battle. It is almost a separation of their own physical energy into two entities, one as the opposer and one as the victim; and in succumbing to that battle, the individual renders themself victim and helpless, and shall block much of their own movement and their ability to be creating what they want. For in the role of victim, generally speaking, you do not create what you objectively want. You DO create what you expect, but your expectation may be different from an objective want.
MIKE: Okay. (Pause) You answered about three of my questions! (Elias chuckles)
Well, this one could use a little bit more clarification. You talk about patience and about how that's an objective participation in knowing of certain creations, and then you talk about how when you're looking to create something, objectively concentrating on something is not necessarily what creates the thing, and at times your objective concentration will inhibit what you're looking to create because it's attributed to a lack of acceptance of self.
MIKE: So how do you objectively engage a knowing without moving into the area of reaffirmations to the point where you're blocking your energy?
ELIAS: You may be affirming to yourself in what may be expressed as an objective reinforcement or reminder to yourself to be holding your attention upon yourself and what you want, in a manner of speaking, without continuous objective concentration.
In this, what I am expressing to you, in reinforcement of your movement or affirmation to yourself, is that you allow yourself to be noticing in moments those expressions in which your attention is moving away from yourself and moving once again into familiar expressions that discount what you are creating, or that express doubt within you as to what you are actually creating or your movement - which as this is an unfamiliar action, to be offering yourself permission in creating what you want and actually moving into that expression, you may be incorporating a time framework in which you may be engaging practice. This is not an automatic action yet. It is unfamiliar.
Therefore, in a manner of speaking, in the design of your physical dimension and how you create your reality, it may be temporarily necessary to be reaffirming to yourself or practicing in holding your attention to self, for you quite easily move your attention into the familiar, and the familiar continuously expresses to you that you may not be creating what you want, you do not hold the ability, you cannot.
Therefore, you may identify clearly within yourself, in any moment and within any subject matter, what is the nature of your want, and you may turn your attention to creating that want, merely expressing to yourself that you CAN and that you SHALL. This is all that is necessary, in a manner of speaking, to begin that creation.
Now; this is not to say that you may not move your attention many times into a familiar expression, and incorporate doubt and discounting of yourself, and once again into the expression of "I cannot."
But if you are allowing yourself to be genuinely paying attention to yourself, you may notice the moments in which you have reincorporated the familiar in expressing to yourself "I cannot," and once noticing that expression, you may identify that and reaffirm to yourself, "This is not an absolute. This is incorrect. I CAN," and allow that expression. It requires NO thought, it requires no further concentration than merely the noticing and turning your attention once again into the "I can," and allowing yourself to relax in that expression. (Pause)
ELIAS: I have expressed to you previously and to other individuals, as you are aware, this is not an absolute, and this is not to say that you may not instantaneously be creating ANY expression in relation to your want.
But I may also express to you, in recognition of the strength of your beliefs, the familiarity of discounting of yourselves and the manner in which you are familiar with creating your reality in methods and processes, generally speaking for the most part individuals do not allow themselves to instantaneously manifest what they want. This is not to say that it is not created at times, but generally speaking you do not incorporate that type of action.
In recognition of that, I express to you manners in which you may objectively direct your attention within the familiar design of your movement in creating your reality - methods, so to speak, which offer you an objective sense, in a manner of speaking, that you are in actuality directing your choices and your own movement. In actuality you already are, but you do not recognize objectively HOW you are directing your choices, and many times that you even ARE directing of your choices.
Therefore in my interaction with you in response to your questioning, I offer to you manners in which you may view your abilities, and objectively recognize in the moment what you are actually creating.
The importance is held in paying attention in the now. For another familiarity within your reality is to be projecting your attention away from the now - futurely or past. And I may express once again, as you project your attention futurely, you rob yourself of your attention within the present, which is the center of your power of creation. Therefore, in other terms I may express to you, why shall you engage thievery of yourself?
MIKE: (Laughs quietly, and Elias grins) Okay.
ELIAS: Do not pirate your own creations in not allowing yourself to be paying attention to what you are creating now.
MIKE: Okay. Speaking of creations, I've engaged in an experiment with meeting this one individual who we've talked about before. I've learned so much just in the last month or so, from expectations to impressions to all sorts of good stuff that I can walk away from this with. But there's one element that is frustrating, in that I have yet to be able to actually meet this individual. I've been able to see this individual, but not actually have interaction with this individual. And I'm wondering, there's something that's stopping or there's like a judgment placed, and I know that I'm placing a judgment on myself somewhere in there, but I'm not sure if that's what's inhibiting the interactions.
ELIAS: Associate with your creation of your acceptance to the school, for you are creating a similar expression of fear.
MIKE: Of what? This is interesting.
ELIAS: An expression of fear in association with interaction and your ability to be interactive in an adequate manner - not that there is in actuality an "adequate manner," but these are YOUR beliefs!
MIKE: (Laughs) And that's what inhibiting it?
ELIAS: This is associated with you and your view of you, and your association with your abilities and your trust of self. In this, I am tremendously acknowledging of you, Mikah, in the movement that you have created in what you term to be, in linear time framework, recent months.
But you are correct, you are continuing to be experimenting, and an element of your experimentation is with the expression of your own trust. You ARE creating movement. Be acknowledging to yourself, for I am also.
MIKE: All right. Claude Monet - do I know him in another focus, or was I a critic of his work in another focus?
ELIAS: You are not a critic of his expressions. Do you objectively know this individual? Yes.
MIKE: In another focus, you said?
ELIAS: Do you hold what may be termed as relationship and close association with this individual within that focus? Yes.
MIKE: Was I married to him?
MIKE: No. Was I his mother?
MIKE: (Laughs) Was I a female?
MIKE: No! (Laughs) And I had close relationship, you said.
MIKE: Was I like blood relationship or like...
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking.
MIKE: Was I a child of his?
MIKE: Ah! Interesting. Okay. (Pause as Mike looks through his questions, and Elias chuckles)
There is this song, and I'm not very big on connections with music, but this one specific song ... it's a new rendition by an orchestra of a song that was already done called "The Mummers' Dance." The first version I liked, but the second version evoked some sort of reaction in me. I've only heard it three or four times, but every time I hear it I've almost blacked out. I see a woman in a white gown, she's a younger woman, and I see lots of green. I was wondering, who is it that I'm seeing or connecting with? (Pause)
ELIAS: Another individual associated with the composition in its original form. This is not a focus of your essence.
MIKE: So I'm connecting with like an energy deposit of that person, Loreena McKennitt?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, yes, and you are also creating an association within yourself in conjunction with that expression of that energy in response to your association of distortion.
MIKE: (Chuckles) Okay. I have two more questions. The individual we were talking about before, Piaz - I think that's how you pronounced her essence name - I asked you about focuses we shared as brothers, and we were merchants. But I didn't ask you how many, and I think there were some in which we were married.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
MIKE: How many? (Pause)
MIKE: Okay. Then my other broad question was, is there anything else that I have yet to ... as I found myself here quite on accident, and I talked myself out of a session and...
ELIAS: Ah! Accidentally!
MIKE: Yes. (Laughing)
ELIAS: (Humorously) For there are so very MANY accidents expressed within your reality!
MIKE: I know! (Laughs)
MIKE: Not! (Cracking up)
ELIAS: (Chuckling) This would be an expression in similarity to coincidence. Not! (Laughing with Mike) You have offered yourself an opportunity to be interactive with these individuals, allowing YOU to incorporate more of an expression of FUN...
FRANK: As opposed to kinkiness? (Laughter)
ELIAS: ...and less seriousness. You have also expressed the want to be interactive with myself in physical proximity, and you have created that.
MIKE: Okay! All right.
ELIAS: Not accidentally! (Smiling)
MIKE: Not accidentally - I'll make a note of that!
ELIAS: And I may be acknowledging of you also, Mikah, for I have been encouraging you for much time framework to be incorporating fun and less seriousness, and you are! (Chuckling)
MIKE: (Laughing) It's taken me three years but... (Elias laughs)
I think there was something else, 'cause we have like a minute. (Sound of pages flipping) Oh god, I could kick myself in the ass. Umm...
ELIAS: This may be incorporated! (The group cracks up)
FRANK: We would like to see that too! (Laughing)
ELIAS: I may engage observance of this action! (Grinning)
FRANK: This is amusing to Elias! (Elias chuckles)
BEN: Let ME kick him in the ass! (Much laughter)
MIKE: Okay ... I'm looking for a clarification on my impression. I thought when I came to school here, because I didn't offer myself my trip to Australia, my impression or my initial movement was to be double majoring in computer science and psychology. Now I have come to the decision, which I knew before I actually started school, that computer science was something I did not want to do. My association is that I wanted to be involved with technology. I have an interest in technology but not in computer science. But on the other hand, I'm having difficulty with wanting to move into the area of psychology, because I don't want to learn how to fix people, and I don't want to get caught up in that.
So that leaves me sort of hanging. I don't know what I'm going to do, but yet I find myself coming back to computer science and psychology so I know I'm trying to tell myself something, that there's something in the psychology thing, and I'm wondering maybe if you could tell me what it is I'm trying to tell myself.
ELIAS: I may express to you, in the continued interaction that you and I have engaged and the incorporation of information that you have allowed yourself, you may be paying attention to your choices, recognizing that although you may be incorporating this science of psychology, this is not to say that you may be expressing your interaction with individuals within that science in the manner which has been previously accepted within your reality.
There is much movement incorporated presently, Mikah. Your reality is altering. This shift in consciousness is escalating. Your sciences are changing. Psychology is not immune, and you may be incorporating alterations in its expression also - not in fixing.
MIKE: Okay. All right, I think that's it for today.
ELIAS: Very well.
MIKE: Thank you very much.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. (Frank and Ben do something to make Mike laugh) Ah! And have we incorporated discussion this day of paying less attention to outside distractions? (Much laughter) For it matters not! (Chuckling)
FRANK: Sort of giggly today, isn't he?
ELIAS: Continue practicing. (Chuckling) And I hold little doubt that the incorporation of your friendships shall provide you with much opportunity for practicing! (Mike laughs and Elias chuckles)
To you this day in great affection, I express au revoir.
Elias departs at 3:29 PM.
(1) Mike's Note: The following week I was in a little store looking for a gift for someone, and I felt a nudge on my back from someone trying to get around me. I turned around, and lo and behold, it was that person with a big smile saying, "excuse me." I froze and just watched them go by, as I felt I was the subject of a cosmic joke!
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