Relationships/Creating What You Want
Topics:
“Relationships/Creating What You Want”
“The Objective Imagery Matters Not”
“Interactions Between Softies”
Saturday, January 20, 2001-1 (Private/In Person)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Daryl (Ashrah).
Elias arrives at 11:25 AM. (Arrival time is 25 seconds)
ELIAS: Good day!
DARYL: Hello!
ELIAS: Ah, and we meet in physical proximity!
DARYL: Yes, we do!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: (Laughing) It’s a pleasure, Elias.
ELIAS: And how shall we proceed this day?
DARYL: Well, there’s a bunch of stuff I want to talk to you about.
I guess I’ll start with my last session. It was really intense and
one of the hardest things I’ve done, but I did make a turn in that session
and began to open to discovering myself and my natural flow. I guess
one of the things I would like to check with you about is that I notice,
as a result of opening somewhat, that I’ve developed an increased interaction
with someone that I know and like, and I’m very pleased that that happened,
and it was quite a surprise to me!
ELIAS: Ah! Presenting yourself with new imagery and expressions
of freedom!
DARYL: Yes, and I’m also, I guess, a little bit scared about what
I’m doing. Imagine that — me scared! (They both crack up)
ELIAS: Quite an unfamiliar experience that you have created!
HA HA!
DARYL: So I guess I would like to talk some about whether or not
I am indeed changing out of my old patterns, or whether I’m just doing
like a new variation on what I used to do, in terms of relationships.
ELIAS: And express to me, Ashrah, what is your impression, and
what do you view that you are creating, and what is the expression of the
fear that you are wrestling with presently? (Chuckling) For we both
have the awareness that you are wrestling with the fear! Ha!
DARYL: I guess my impression is that I went ahead and started
creating exactly what I wanted.
ELIAS: Ah! Terror!
DARYL: (Laughing) In a way, but also really exciting when
I feel like I am creating it. But then when I feel like I’m just
gonna go and do what I’ve done before, it gets scary. Because for
one thing, I don’t want to do that, and for another thing, I’m really happy
with what I’ve created so far. I’ve also asked myself, am I doing
this at a distance to keep myself at a distance from it, instead of doing
something more locally where I live?
ELIAS: And your responses to yourself are what?
DARYL: That I’m creating what I want to create, and it just happens
to not be where I live.
ELIAS: Now; in examination of your movement into a new freedom
and an expression of allowing yourself to create, do you also view the
areas in your expression in which you are continuing to reserve your expression,
and doubt that you are in actuality creating....
DARYL: Yeah, I feel myself flipping back and forth.
ELIAS: Quite.
Now; let me also express to you that this is quite common. You
are moving into an area of expression which is unfamiliar. You are
allowing yourself a new expression of freedom, and I may express to you,
many individuals in this present time framework are experiencing very similar
type of movement, and experiencing very similar confusion, and the bouncing,
so to speak, in what you term to be back and forth. This is quite
common, for you move in the familiar expressions, but you are discovering
within your objective awareness that you also incorporate more choices,
and you are allowing yourself to view that you indeed hold the ability
to create what you want.
In that, as you allow yourself to create what you want and you move
into that expression, the bouncing appears in the moments that you automatically
move back into the expression of turning your attention outwardly and placing
your attention upon outside situations or individuals, as you are aware.
Now; as you move your attention to the other individual, you also move
your attention away from what you are creating and place the attention
upon the other individual, for this is familiar, and this creates an expectation
that the other individual shall create what you want.
Let me express to you, as I have offered previously in other examples
and with many individuals, creating your reality in what you want is the
reverse of that action.
As you allow yourself genuinely to continue to focus upon self, and
offer yourself permission — which presents a challenge — to create what
you want....
DARYL: Part of me just says, this is just some kind of fantasy,
and stop fooling yourself.
ELIAS: Ah! This is the pitfall. That expression, that
movement, those thoughts and that communication that you offer to yourself
through the emotional expression is the statement that you offer to yourself
in validation of what you are creating. It is the doubt. It
is the expression to be reminding you that your attention is moving outside
of yourself.
DARYL: So if I find myself thinking that, I can reverse course
and go back inside.
ELIAS: Yes, for as you notice that you are moving in that type
of an expression, you are offering yourself the opportunity of choice.
If you are not noticing, or if you are allowing yourself to move into
the familiar expression and the doubt and turning your attention outside
of yourself, you stop allowing yourself to be creating what you want, and
you allow the beliefs and the familiarity of attention to dictate to you
that you do not hold this ability and that you may not be creating what
you want, and you deny yourself your expression, your natural flow, your
creation.
DARYL: I even start denying that I want it! (Laughing)
ELIAS: Are you not quite efficient in this expression of duplicity
and camouflage, and quite efficient at justifying that familiarity, which
holds you in a position of not allowing yourself to move into new freedoms?
DARYL: ‘Cause this situation, the way I’ve created it, has those
factors kind of built in, like ... I don’t know. It could be very
useful for learning a lot.
ELIAS: Quite.
You are presenting yourself with many aspects of your own movement,
your own associations, your own beliefs, that you may be allowing yourself
a genuine examination, and in this also, a tremendous opportunity to practice
allowing yourself to create.
In this also, be reminding yourself quite genuinely, it matters not
what is created in objective imagery. This is in actuality one of
the most difficult obstacles that each of you presents yourselves with,
and genuinely the most obvious expression of the unfamiliarity.
In allowing yourself to be creating your reality in what you want, the
power of that is expressed through perception. The imagery that is
presented outside of you is merely presented as a reflection of what you
are creating within you.
Therefore, as you view yourself to be encountering an obstacle or a
disappointment, it is not the expression of the other individual that matters.
This is merely a reflection to you, offering you information of what you
are already creating — for you ARE creating that expression — and this
offers you the opportunity to view the expressions in which you deny yourself
your own movement in your own expression of freedom and your own choices.
Your reality, ALL of it, even other individuals, is created by you.
Therefore, as you begin movement more into this new expression, and
you remind yourself objectively that you hold the choice to create what
you want — it is merely a matter of offering yourself permission to be
creating that want — you may notice the moments in which you move into
the automatic familiar expressions and behaviors that are denying your
choice.
DARYL: Yes. I hit myself over the head with that last night!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha! (Daryl laughs) But do not chastise
yourself in these noticings. Recognize that this is an opportunity,
for were you not to be noticing, you also would not offer yourself the
choice.
DARYL: I also felt where I would have gone in the past, but I
wouldn’t go there. I kind of go to the edge of it, and then I go,
this is up to me, I don’t have to do that, and then I come back to that
point in a little while. But I never went there, where I would have gone
about a year ago. So that was interesting.
ELIAS: And validating. But it is unfamiliar territory, is
it not?
DARYL: It certainly is!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha! You may be acknowledging of yourself, for
this is in actuality a movement of this shift. For as you allow yourself
the evidence, so to speak, in viewing what you are creating and allowing
yourself to be creating your wants, you also allow yourself freedom within
your movement in all other directions ... and the vastness of reality that
may be presenting itself to you! How glorious!
DARYL: Yeah, it is!
ELIAS: (Chuckling) My expression to you, in recognition
of what you are experimenting with in your individual creation and your
movement — and I hold an awareness of what you are attempting to allow
yourself to be creating — and in this, I may say to you, beware of your
own discouragement, for it is your greatest obstacle. View your expression
of discouragement as an aspect of the familiar monster, and in that, you
may draw your sword and express to it, “No, I shall offer myself permission
to be creating what I choose regardless.” Ha ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: Okay, the next part is kind of related. I’m interested
in information that would help me to move along in opening to my natural
flow, and I’ve realized through this that I have a lot of beliefs and fears
about being in a relationship and losing myself, because I feel like I’m
just beginning to open to myself. I have all these patterns of not
exactly getting rid of me, but I don’t know ... like altering, I would
say, altering myself in relationship to another person.
ELIAS: And the familiarity of your own movement and your own expression
— attempting to become invisible.
DARYL: You would bring that up, wouldn’t you? (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: Yeah. (Laughing, and Elias chuckles) I can tell when
I’ve achieved true invisibility too! (Laughing)
ELIAS: (Chuckling) Quite, for this is quite familiar!
DARYL: Yes! (Elias chuckles) So, I’m unsure. I know
that I’m moving in this area and I’ve opened to it, but I’m unsure how
to encourage it, except to notice what’s happening.
ELIAS: This is your greatest tool, allowing yourself to continue
to be noticing and paying attention, and as you continue to be noticing,
in relation to that noticing, allow yourself also to continue to hold your
attention within you.
DARYL: That’s hard when I’m interacting! (Laughing)
ELIAS: I hold an awareness of the ease of moving your attention
away from self in these types of expressions. But this is of ultimate
significance and what shall offer you, in a manner of speaking, a strength
in allowing yourself to continue movement in a natural flow, without the
insertion of tremendous obstacles which are presented by those aspects
of you that create the automatic responses.
What I am expressing to you, Ashrah, is to be noticing the moments in
which you are experiencing that tension and doubt, those expressions that
you offer to yourself in an association with fantasy or that you are not
genuinely creating this movement — [that] you are delusional! (grinning,
and Daryl laughs) — and in those moments, recognize that your attention
is not held within self. In each of those moments that you are experiencing
those expressions, your attention is not within you. This is genuine,
for as your attention IS within you and concentrating upon what YOU are
choosing, you do not present yourself with those expressions, those doubts,
those associations of being delusional.
DARYL: Yeah, I feel powerful.
ELIAS: Quite. That delusional expression is created in association
with your attention moving outside of yourself and attempting to be viewing
your creation through the perception of another individual, and the individual
needs not be in actuality identified, or an actual individual. It
may be, in your terms, as vague objectively as merely attempting to be
perceiving yourself through the perception of ANY other individual.
THAT is the expression of delusion, for all of the other individuals ARE
you! Ha ha ha! Therefore, you may not be offering yourself the expression
of another individual’s perception of you, for it shall be your perception
of you regardless! Ha ha ha!
DARYL: (Laughing) Okay. Another thing regarding natural
flows is, I’ve felt drawn to doing certain things lately, one of which
is being more involved with music again. Is that all part of my natural
flow?
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: Because I’ve felt in the past like I’ve cut off avenues,
so to speak, and that was one of them, and now I feel like drawn and I’m
trying to just go with things like that.
ELIAS: And allow yourself more of an opening to your choices in
relation to your own expression of creativity. These are all aspects
of your movement presently, allowing yourself to become more familiar with
you and your own expression.
As we have discussed, you are quite familiar with the expression of
becoming invisible. Therefore, if your attention is being created
in a direction of being invisible, you are denying yourself your viewing
of you, not merely what you perceive to be other individuals’ viewing of
you. You are attempting to eliminate your expression from your own
view, and in that, how shall you be familiar with you or recognize all
of your expressions of creativity, or be exploring you as the being that
you are and simultaneously be attempting to eliminate the being that you
are? (Chuckling, and Daryl laughs)
These expressions are in opposition to each other, are they not?
DARYL: Yes, they are!
ELIAS: But now, within this present time framework, subsequent
to your movement in slaying the monster and moving yourself out of the
box that you have created, you are now beginning your exploration.
[This] is the beginning movement in creating a relationship with you,
which is in actuality of ultimate significance. For in not creating
a relationship with you, you also shall not create the byproduct of creating
relationships with other individuals in the manner that you wish to be.
DARYL: Okay. I want to ask you something about my eyes.
We’ve discussed them before, and I think I hold a pretty good understanding
of why they’re doing what they do. I’ve also noticed that during
my interactions, my eyes start hurting as if I had been doing something
very strenuous with them, when in fact I hadn’t been doing anything at
all, and this has gotten my attention and made me aware that it’s still
there. Is there some information that I’m missing about that?
ELIAS: This is movement also, very much in conjunction with what
you are creating within yourself. You are creating a physical expression
through the direction of vision as an outward expression of your own direction.
As you interact with another individual and you are experiencing this
physical affectingness of your vision, and it appears to you that your
physical eyes are becoming fatigued, and it becomes difficult for your
focusing for your physical vision is fatigued, you are mirroring to yourself
a communication of what you are in actuality creating inwardly.
Your direction presently that you have chosen is to be offering yourself
this relationship with you and concentrating your attention inwardly, recognizing
that all of your reality is an aspect of you and what you are choosing
and what you are creating, and within your interactions with other individuals,
in the moments that you are turning your attention outwardly, your vision
becomes fatigued.
DARYL: Oh, okay! I hadn’t correlated that.
ELIAS: Let me express to you, all of your senses, your outer senses
and your inner senses, are all avenues of communication. Your physical
body expression offers another avenue of communication. Your emotions
are another avenue of communication. You incorporate MANY avenues
of communication, and all of these avenues express to you a message, so
to speak, concerning what you are creating.
Many, many, many times, individuals engage conversation with myself
in relation to their subjective awareness, and express the confusion concerning
their subjective awareness, that it be hidden from them and not expressed
in a manner in which they hold the ability to interpret its movement.
All of these avenues of communication you have created to allow yourself
a clear, recognizable understanding, within your objective awareness, of
what you are in the moment creating and the harmony of the subjective and
the objective.
In actuality, your objective expressions, your objective imagery, is
more abstract than your subjective. Once again, your associations
are reverse. You view your objective reality in solidity, in absolutes,
in a manner in which you think to yourselves that you hold a tremendous
clarity as to the identifications of all that is within your objective
awareness.
In actuality, the example of your vision is quite informative as to
the actual abstractness of your objective creations, and the directness
and clarity of the subjective identification of what you are creating.
For within this example, your vision is affected. Your eyes are experiencing
fatigue, or your association with the movement and the expression of your
eyes is that they be fatigued, and this may be identified or defined through
your thought in recognizing this one definition of fatigue, and in relation
to the thoughts that you project in that identification, you also create
confusion.
The subjective is creating the expression as a communication:
You are focusing your attention presently outside of yourself, and this
is fatiguing.
DARYL: Okay, thank you. Um....
ELIAS: Let me express to you also, have you not offered yourself
an experience recently which is quite similar to this type of communication
interaction, that you may hold in your objective awareness more of an understanding
of what is in actuality occurring in these experiences? Have you
not offered yourself an experience of visual image, and the attempt to
be creating a translation into language?
DARYL: Yes. (Laughing)
ELIAS: And which do you view to be more encompassingly expressive
and clear?
DARYL: The visual.
ELIAS: Correct, and....
DARYL: Even though it was quite foreign to me.
ELIAS: And in this, the expression of the subjective communication
through the action of the vision is clear and precise. The understanding
of the objective is abstract and confusing.
DARYL: Yeah, because I’m also feeling like I’m much more aware
of subjective interaction and activity going on. Sometimes I feel
like I understand the content and sometimes I don’t, but I seem to be much
more aware of things going on.
ELIAS: And in this also, you may be creating more of an ease in
familiarizing yourself with your communications, for you already allow
yourself an awareness of your subjective movement.
DARYL: (Sighing) Yeah, I’ve had kind of a wild week, as
you know!
ELIAS: HA HA!
DARYL: I’ve been talking to you about that as the week goes on!
(Elias chuckles)
Another thing I wanted to check with you about is my bird Dusty, because
I have a history of birds choosing to disengage while I’m undergoing major
changes, and I have some concern about her choosing to do that because
I’m going through some of the changes right now.
ELIAS: And I may express to you, this may be another expression
that you shall allow yourself to be noticing and holding an awareness of.
For be remembering, you are creating your reality. Therefore,
if you are projecting an expectation and you are concentrating your attention
and your energy in a particular expression, this is what you shall create.
But you hold choice.
DARYL: Okay. So it isn’t like she’s made a choice.
ELIAS: No. But there is a participation between yourself
and between the creature, and the creature is compliant with your energy.
Therefore, it is also responsive.
This is not to say that you are creating the choices for the creature,
for you are not. But you are interactive and you do hold influence,
for the creature does not hold beliefs. Therefore, it is merely responsive
in compliance with your energy.
DARYL: Well, I know she is very responsive to me, because she
helps me with all my mirroring stuff. When I don’t have people around,
she does it! (Laughing)
ELIAS: (Chuckling) Quite efficient!
DARYL: Yes, she is! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)
When we were having the whole election thing go on this past fall, I
had an extremely vivid and detailed dream about a woman who lives in Florida
who was involved on some level, like as a precinct captain or something,
in the elections as a Democrat. It was so vivid and real to me that
I wondered if she was another focus of mine. (Pause)
ELIAS: No. In actuality, what you have allowed yourself
is an actual participation with movement in relation to that mass event.
In this, you have allowed yourself to be projecting, in a manner of
speaking, an aspect of your consciousness into a mergence with another
individual to be physically experiencing the participation of this mass
event, rather than merely the participation and experience that you naturally
offer to yourself through your orientation of soft. In mass events,
you naturally, in relation to your orientation, hold an awareness of your
participation as being an aspect of what you identify or term to be the
whole. But in this experience, you have allowed yourself to move
in a different type of expression, allowing yourself an actual projection
of energy into a physical participation also.
DARYL: ‘Cause it was ... I haven’t been aware of a lot of merging
objectively. It was much more complete than the one I did, I don’t
know, 20 years ago, which was just momentary. This was like being
inside and knowing her entire relationship with her family.
ELIAS: Quite.
DARYL: And just all the things that were going on with her.
ELIAS: And this is quite understandable, in actuality, for you
are allowing yourself much more of an exploration of you, and you are creating
a different direction in your movement, moving outside of the attempt of
invisibility and moving into the exploration of being, and in this, you
are offering yourself experiences of movement and how you may be manipulating
your own energy, and presenting yourself with experiences that validate
your abilities.
DARYL: Okay. I was also wondering if that individual holds
the orientation of common.
ELIAS: Yes.
DARYL: Okay, because I felt like the perception was different.
Okay, that’s interesting too!
ELIAS: Do you not present yourself with much excitement now?!
DARYL: Yes, I have been! (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)
Another thing I want to know about is, I believe that I’ve begun to
identify the soft dual response when it’s taking place in me to some extent;
I’m not saying all the time, but I believe I’m getting better at identifying
it, and that just being aware of it has been kind of softening it, so it
doesn’t get so out of hand so fast! (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha! Ah, and notice the immediate association
in judgment of control! (Chuckling)
DARYL: Well, it just seems like it can be like a sudden wildfire,
and I’m kind of going, what happened here? (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha! But as you allow yourself to be accepting,
and RELAX....
DARYL: Relax? Oh, come on! (Laughing)
ELIAS: This continues to present itself as a challenge, does it
not? Ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: In every moment!
ELIAS: HA HA!
DARYL: Okay, so just kind of go with the flow a little bit, and
notice it, and try not to squash it.
ELIAS: (Humorously) Ah, yes. This is the suggestion
of the great and powerful and holy Elias! HA HA HA HA HA!
DARYL: Okay. Also, I’ve been having this problem with my
toilet for a couple of years, and its gotten vastly worse in the last month,
and I wondered if that also is imagery of a natural flow.
ELIAS: (Chuckling) Or the lack of!
DARYL: Well, yes — the lack of! (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: The diversion of!
ELIAS: Ah! (Chuckling)
DARYL: So that would be correct then?
ELIAS: Yes. (Chuckling)
DARYL: Okay. Another thing we’ve been working on is that
I’ve expressed the desire to learn how to have objective communication
with you without Michael’s assistance, and we’ve been interacting in this,
and I must say, we’ve been having some fun with it. I wondered if
there was anything that you wanted to offer me objectively. I do
recognize that I’ve started doing some things a little differently, that
I feel are in response to that desire on my part.
ELIAS: Correct, and allowing yourself more of an openness to the
interaction. I may express to you simply, allow yourself a continuing
expression of playfulness, for I may express to you, I am quite playful!
DARYL: Yes, I’ve been noticing that more and more! (Laughing)
ELIAS: (Chuckling) And you may also be practicing in your
relaxation! (Chuckling)
DARYL: Okay! Let’s see. (Pause) I guess also, is
there anything you would like to add in addition to what we’ve already
covered about soft/soft interaction? I’ve gone over what you’ve told
me, and also some information that you’ve given to other people, and if
there is anything you feel would be useful to add at this time....
ELIAS: I may express to you, quite in relation to our discussion
this day, your most efficient expression, in relation to interaction with
another individual holding this orientation of soft, shall be to hold your
attention upon you. For as you project your attention outward and
hold your attention upon the other individual, as another soft orientation
individual, you may be encountering great challenges. For as I have
expressed previously, soft individuals, in your terms, hold an expertise
in tossing the ball to the other individual, and in that action, what I
am expressing is that you are each quite efficient at immediately projecting
the reflection to other individuals. You automatically create this
action.
DARYL: I’m not clear on what you’re saying.
ELIAS: As you interact with other individuals, regardless of their
orientation, as a soft individual, you automatically create a reflection
of each individual that you encounter, so to speak. It requires no
thought. It requires no communication within yourself. It is
an automatic action that is created in association with this particular
orientation. You are all quite efficient at creating this immediate
reflection to other individuals. Other individuals many times experience
an ease in viewing their own expressions through the reflection of you
as a soft orientation.
Objectively, for the most part, each of you does not pay attention to
that automatic reflecting action that you create. It is an automatic
action. But as you encounter each other as soft individuals, allowing
yourself an awareness that this is an automatic action that you create,
you do not merely receive the reflection. You present the reflection
also.
Now; in this, as you turn your attention to the other individual, you
no longer are holding your attention upon you and paying attention to the
reflection you are presenting yourself with, and you are not paying attention
to the reflection you are offering. Therefore, in interaction with
another soft individual, it is most beneficial to you to hold your attention
within you, for you shall present yourself with much less confusion and
much less conflict than you shall move into with this particular orientation
and the interactions of it. (Chuckling)
DARYL: Well, that certainly is the theme of the day — attention
within me! (Laughing)
ELIAS: Ah! (Chuckling)
DARYL: One other thing I’m kinda curious about is, I’ve been
aware of all this energy around this year, and in objective reality, we’ve
created an oil shortage. California, where I live, is undergoing
rotating blackouts because we don’t have enough electricity, and now they
are talking about not enough natural gas, and I’m curious. To me,
there’s all kinds of energy around, but then reality is saying we don’t
have enough to get through the next hour. What’s that about?
ELIAS: And I may express to you, mass expressions are a reflection
of the individual expressions, and in this, many, many, many individuals
are presenting themselves, in relation to this wave in consciousness addressing
to the belief system of duplicity, their identification and definition
of their own individual energy, and that they hold — or believe themselves
to hold — a limited supply, and presenting themselves now with the movement
into a recognition that they do NOT hold a limited supply of energy.
DARYL: So then different imagery will be expressed objectively?
ELIAS: As the individuals allow themselves the recognition that
they do not hold a limited supply of energy within themselves, this shall
also be reflected outwardly, in your terms, in mass expression.
DARYL: Now, this is centered geographically in California, and
I have always felt that California has a real flair for drama.
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: It likes things extreme, and it also likes getting the
attention of a lot of other areas. Is that one reason that it’s occurring
here most severely?
ELIAS: There are other expressions of this type or similar in
other areas also, but you are correct that individuals that draw themselves
to this particular physical location have, in your physical terms, congregated
in like expression to be creating this drama, and in that expression, you
do quite flamboyantly create mass events, so to speak, that shall be quite
expressive and in many situations extreme.
DARYL: Okay. (Elias chuckles) That’s what it seems like
alright!
ELIAS: Ha ha ha ha ha!
DARYL: Okay. Well, our time for today is up, although I’ll
get to see you later at the group session.
ELIAS: Ah yes! (Chuckling)
DARYL: So this has been very enjoyable, meeting with you in person,
and I really want to, I don’t know, keep going with my movement, and I
appreciate your assistance and energy in that area.
ELIAS: And I shall continue to be ... and encouraging with you.
DARYL: Okay, and I’m gonna keep talking to you out loud!
ELIAS: Very well! And I shall continue to play!
DARYL: Okay! (Laughing)
ELIAS: HA HA! And I shall express to you, within your physical
time framework, until later as we meet! (Chuckling) Adieu, my friend.
DARYL: Adieu.
Elias departs at 12:25 PM.
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