Friday, October 29, 1999 © 2000 (Private/Phone)
Participants:  Mary (Michael) and Lynda (Ruther).
Elias arrives at 10:55 AM. (Arrival time is 12 seconds)

ELIAS:  Good morning!

LYNDA:  Good morning, Elias!  It’s nice to hear your voice objectively again. (Elias chuckles)

You know, I thought it would be a good idea to pick up where we left off.  When I ended the call with you last time, I thought at first, in the beginning of the session, that I was talking to another aspect of you, and later in the conversation, when I relaxed, I realized I was talking through another aspect of me which was more fearful and nervous.  I have a feeling that you are always you, and I am always me, but I want to keep talking to you objectively so I can establish, on my side of the fence, a more relaxed relationship with you objectively, because I want to bridge the gap between ... or balance me between my objective and my subjective.  You are understanding what I mean?

ELIAS:  Quite.

LYNDA:  So, that’s why I’m going to talk to you today, and talk to you, hopefully, now that my world is more stable financially, every couple of weeks, because I think that you are much more efficient for me than going to a psychiatrist, Elias!

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!

LYNDA:  (Laughing)  Anyway, can I read you something?  It’s a short something I wrote myself, and then we can kind of bounce off on that?

ELIAS:  Very well.

LYNDA:  Thank you.  “The details of desire manifest in ways that delight you NOW.”  Capital now.  “You will not betray you.  There are no methods, only desire and trust.  Look now to desire’s thread in your life.  Let go of the handrails; free-falling is indeed quite free.  There are no mistakes, only choices made in the moment.  Caws — C-A-W-S — and effect, a strong couple of birds, neh?  It is never one or the other; there are no absolutes.  Essence is too many-hued to be just three primary colors.  Look closer, listen.  Blue has many myriads of shade and tone, as does love.”

Stuff like that is forever pouring out of me, and I save it and I’ve got it, and I do know that one of these days, it will coalesce into some books.  Right now, though, I want to address the subject of what I wrote ‘cause I feel such a difference between what I write and me.  So, will you speak on ... speak forth, my friend.

ELIAS:  This is merely your expression to yourself in a type of affirmation.

You have allowed yourself to hear information and to be assimilating some of that information within you, and as the information that you are assimilating rings true within you, you also allow yourself to hold to this, and you mirror this outwardly in your communication to yourself, and in this, you create a type of affirmation that you may re-engage often, and therefore be reinforcing yourself within moments of doubtfulness objectively.

LYNDA:  Well, I knew that!

ELIAS:  Ha ha ha ha!

LYNDA:  (Laughing)  You know, it’s so ... I guess it’s ‘cause I’m of common orientation, but I think this is — and I’ve talked to you about this before — this is my essence talking to me.  I really don’t feel like I have to justify it by writing a book, and yet I’m driven to communicate it out objectively, and it’s all tied into my issues of success and making money and all that.

Right this very now of my now, Elias, I have created what I call sort of a stabilizing point where I have balanced ... I am not so panicky.  There’s money coming in.  I’m in a very amazing situation with the older gal I take care of, and these people are quite gracious towards me, and I am making a lot of observations.  But I want to be able to say this just straight out.  This is not a situation I want to spend too much more time in, and when it’s a situation that I don’t want to be in, I think, “Oh god, I’m going to HAVE to be in this situation because I am being long-suffering or ....”  It’s so ridiculous.  But anyway, I do feel that I won’t be here that long, but I am allowing myself to not flip out over the different personality things, ‘cause these people are quite gracious to me, and I know I’m helping them and they’re helping me, and there’s a lot of stuff going on ... and I keep trying to win the lottery!  Will you talk to me about my San Francisco stuff and my desire to live long and prosper?  Because it seems like that’s really what I’m setting myself up for.

ELIAS:  Let me offer to you this day that you have created a line of probabilities presently to be allowing yourself an avenue in which you may offer yourself permission to relax and to view self, and to be recognizing your ability to be trusting of self.

In this, within yourself — you individually — it becomes quite difficult at times to be turning your attention to trust in yourself in the midst of creating much confusion and anxiety.  Therefore, it is more efficient for you to be creating of a time framework of respite, so to speak, in which you allow yourself a calmness and the feeling of safety, so to speak, and as you create that type of environment, you also offer yourself permission to be turning your attention to self and experimenting with your ability to trust, for you have allowed yourself what you may term to be your safety net.

And in this, as you view your movement, if you view yourself to be faltering, you shall not be creating tremendous anxiety within the moment, for you have provided yourself with this aspect of safety, and therefore you also provide yourself with a feeling of comfort.

This environment that you have created facilitates your movement in turning your attention to areas in which you may experiment, you may relax, and you may be allowing yourself elements of trust within yourself, and as you continue in that type of creation, you reinforce your recognition that you may be trusting of yourself, and this allows you to continue in small steps — in what you term to be a forward motion — out of the area of fearfulness and into freer expressions with your own movement.

I hold the awareness that your objective direction is to be creating movement to this particular physical location, and that you hold a desire to be creating that type of expression.  But presently, you continue to hold some elements of fear in conjunction with that type of movement, not entirely trusting yourself that you hold the ability to be creating of that action without conflict and without a tremendous expression of anxiety and worry.

This is the reason that you have created the environment and situation that you participate within now, to offer yourself a temporary time framework in which you may practice in your expression of trust in self, reinforcing your recognition of your individual trust, and as you continue to feed that aspect of yourself, you shall also move yourself more and more into the actualization of your desire in the area of this physical movement.

LYNDA:  Right.  I know that I’m also addressing to beliefs along the way, and my choice to not work.  It’s pretty awesome, I think, that I don’t get up every morning and go to a job like I used to, and to me, that’s a big deal, and that’s pretty exciting.  I think that’s pretty liberating for me.  I do feel like I have to justify my actions.  I don’t have that much interaction objectively with people, and I’m observing my desire to go, “It’s okay!  I don’t have a job, but I’m doing this and I’m doing that,” and I’m not letting myself do that.  I’m just observing the movement I’m in.  Do you know what I mean?

I’m addressing to beliefs about ... the corporate world to me is as difficult as the religious world.  They all sort of mesh in together, and that demand!  I think you’re correct in terms of me trusting this time.  You’re pretty much mirroring back to me what I really feel.  I think it’s very exciting to be allowing myself the awareness of these beliefs.  The ones about the corporate world are as strong to me as the religious world.  I genuinely don’t want to align with them, but I don’t want to feed them either.  You understand what I’m saying.

ELIAS:  Quite.  In this also, you are correct that you offer yourself the opportunity to be addressing to certain aspects of belief systems as you are allowing yourself this time framework in which you may be relaxing and not creating an element of stressfulness and pressures objectively upon yourself, which also reinforces your ability to be trusting of yourself.

In this also, there is an identification or a definition, which creates a separation within you, in the subject matter of jobs, in which you look to certain expressions of employment and you express to yourself that those expressions are REAL jobs.

LYNDA:  Right.

ELIAS:  And certain other expressions of employment are not real jobs.

LYNDA:  Right!

ELIAS:  I express to you that it matters not.  They are all actions that you create for a specific purpose.  Each job, so to speak, that you engage, you are engaging for the purpose of acquiring financial gain.

Now; this is another aspect of beliefs that you may be allowing yourself to turn your attention to, for this is also a mass belief system.

LYNDA:  Right.

ELIAS:  Individuals look to any form of employment and they define this action as a job with the purpose of creating or generating financial gain, and that THAT gain of financial expression shall subsequently provide the individual with the avenue to be creating what they want, and you also align with this belief system.

LYNDA:  Right.

ELIAS:  What I am expressing to you is the reverse.

In this, an element of the action of this shift in consciousness is to be widening your awareness as individuals, allowing yourselves to be accepting and trusting of self, accepting the belief systems that you have created within this physical dimension, and thusly recognizing that you as an individual create what you desire to create, and move in the direction that is pleasurable and fun and creates the least amount of conflict, and that you may be expressing your greatest fullness in your individual creativity regardless of how that may manifest, and that in DOING that, you shall generate all that you believe you need.

LYNDA:  I’ve heard that before!  Hmm!

ELIAS:  This is not....

LYNDA:  Well, I think I’m moving.  I think I’m positioning myself in that direction.  I admit I’m a little bored and impatient, but I will definitely take you up on what you’re saying.  I do think about that often.  I think what the dilemma is, and this goes back to something you told Holden that I recently read ... ‘cause you know I came out of that strong religious thing of accepting me, Lynda, as all that I need, and I definitely am receiving what you’re saying.  Do you know what I mean?  I’m tying this back into that.

ELIAS:  Correct.

LYNDA:  Comfortable with myself.  Oh good, alright.  Well, can I ask you another thing?

ELIAS:  You may.

LYNDA:  Thank you.  I think I was on the wrong side of the revolution in France, and the reason I’m saying that is ... well, I don’t mean “wrong.”  I’m saying that with my tongue in my cheek.  I was sitting on the steps recently, and a woman walked across the street, and I knew she was somebody’s housekeeper, and I immediately thought, “God, there’s still such a caste system of jobs and positions in life.”  And in that moment, Elias, I saw a woman wearing like a powered wig — sort of like Marie Antoinette, but I think a little later — and an empire dress, and she was walking away from a huge house, and she was walking on a lawn, and I was sitting up against a tree looking at her, and I was also the man looking at her, and I was wearing a blue velvet jacket and I had dark hair, and I realized that was possibly Etienne and Marie Flange I was looking at.  Is that correct? (Pause)

ELIAS:  A similar expression.

LYNDA:  ‘Cause we were both having the same thought at the same time simultaneously in different time zones.

ELIAS:  Correct.

LYNDA:  It was very interesting to have that experience, and it made me realize the immediacy of this now time, that we all take similar actions at same time.  I just thought that was interesting.

And the reason I say I was on the wrong side of the revolution is because I think I was not ... oh, I think I have to say this ‘cause this ties into ... I don’t feel particularly identified with the part of the French Revolution that Lawrence and Michael and you were involved in.  I feel like I was on the other side of the Revolution.  Is that right?

ELIAS:  You are correct.

LYNDA:  Ah!  That helps me because that answers some questions for me in the experience that I had with Michael and Lawrence.

Right before I came here, when I was at my most flipped out, I’ll call it, right before ... I didn’t have ... at the time, I didn’t have the money for another session, and I had this experience with Michael and Lawrence, and I knew it was okay and I was being the convoluted little sapling, but it was beneficial in any event, and I felt a real peace about the connection with Michael and Lawrence, even though I knew ... I felt I was causing a lot of conflict and having a lot of angry reaction to them.  And later, I really flipped out and sent Michael and Lawrence a letter, and was very frustrated and very pissed-off, and later felt really guilty about it.

Anyway, all that tied into that experience, and I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t want to feel guilty about why I feel the difference between us.  It’s calmed down, but I really have no desire to interact with the Castaic group.  I’m just not interested in it, and I feel guilty about that.  I continue not to interact.  Can you please talk to me about that?  I’m trying to be as open and honest with you as I can, so talk to me, if you would, please.

ELIAS:  Very well.

LYNDA:  Thank you.

ELIAS:  Now; there are two elements holding involvement in this situation which may be also expressed in many, many different individuals and therefore may be beneficial in objective recognition to many individuals, and yourself also.

In this, there are certain elements of influence in energy which are exchanging and affecting in a type of manner within all of the expressions of all of the focuses of essence.

What I am expressing, first of all, is that I have offered statements to you all many times that all of your focuses are simultaneous and they are all affecting of each other continuously.  You are affecting of all of the other focuses of essence, and all of the other focuses of essence are affecting of you.

In this, be remembering that you, although as a particular manifestation you are one focus of attention, you are also all of essence.  And in this, I hold an awareness of the difficulty in objective understanding of this concept, for you have created separations, veils, and a linear time framework quite purposefully, that you shall retain your individual identity within one particular focus of attention.

But this may also be confusing at times, for as I express to you that other focuses are continuously influencing within energy of this focus, I am NOT suggesting to you that any element of your reality is created without your knowledge or without your participation or without your permission.

(Intently)  In this, the whole of you as essence participates in every focus of attention.

Therefore, you may be holding one focus within one time framework creating a certain line of probabilities and experiences, and within another time framework you may hold another focus of attention which creates a different line of probabilities and experiences, but you generally are participating, as I have stated many times, with groups of essences.

(Intently)  Therefore, each essence is focusing several or many attentions in conjunction with other essences in the same time frameworks and physical locations in this physical dimension.  Therefore, you interact with each other continuously.

Think to yourself in physical terms.

In this, you may be interactive with a group of individuals in objective, physical terms.  You may be occupying the same area, so to speak, and you participate in interaction with a specific group of individuals.

Now; you may choose to be engaging several games simultaneously with this group of individuals.  You may engage many different games.

(Intently)  As you play these games, the rules and the objectives of the games individually are different, but the interaction between the players is the same.

The direction of each game may be different.  The experience of each game may be different.  But you are not separating yourself into many different individuals and placing each of the individuals before each game, and neither are any of the other individuals separating themselves into many different individuals, placing each one before each game, creating separate groups to be playing each game simultaneously.  You are one individual, and you are merely playing all of the games simultaneously in conjunction with the other individuals in your group.

Now; in like manner, essences focus their attention in many different directions, and each attention becomes a manifestation, a focus within this physical dimension.  This is not to say that each focus is not all of essence, for it is.  Therefore, all of the actions that are being created in any one experience in each focus are assimilated and affecting of all of the other focuses of attention.

Think to your physical body.  You may be creating the movement of walking, and in this movement of walking, you may create an action of colliding your foot with an object, a rock, and it may bruise your toe.  The whole of your physical body is not bruised; your toe is bruised.  The whole of your physical body is aware of the bruise that occurs with your toe.  The experience that your toe has engaged is affecting and recognized and noticed by all of your physical body, but the experience of the bruise upon the toe is not transferred and created throughout the entirety of your body.

It is experienced.  It is assimilated.  It is recognized.  It is affecting.  But your entire body is not bruised, for your entire body is not creating the identical same experience.  It is assimilating the experience.  It is sharing the experience.  But it is not necessarily creating the same experience within every individual cell within your physical body.

In like manner, as each focus of essence creates experiences, the other focuses assimilate these experiences, and recognize and may be responsive ... although the responsiveness, I shall express to you, is a choice.  It is not necessarily an absolute, but it may be an automatic, for you are familiar with automatic responses.

Therefore, you may be allowing yourself to choose the automatic responses, and therefore, as one focus is engaging in a particular line of experiences and probabilities, you may allow yourself to automatically be responding to the assimilation of that energy and the recognition of those experiences.

This is a choice, but it does occur many times within physical focus quite without your noticing, for it is an automatic response, and you do not pay attention to automatic responses.

This experience that you have offered yourself is an example of this type of action.  This occurs quite frequently within physical focus.

Now; I am not expressing this information to you, that you may subsequently view this information and create a tremendous action of concentration upon this particular action in energy or that you may be over-analyzing all that you do and all that you respond to within your physical focus, but merely to offer you information, that you may allow yourself to be aware objectively and to be noticing, and in noticing, you offer yourself the ability to create more choices, not merely the cause and effect.

Your belief in cause and effect stems from your action of placing yourselves in automatic action.  Therefore, as you disengage your automatic responses and you allow yourselves to begin noticing how you create this automatic response or reaction, you also open the window within your awareness to be allowing yourselves a myriad of different choices that you do not necessarily offer yourself as you create these automatic responses.

LYNDA:  Right.  I think a lot of what you’re saying is, my automatic response is because I have such ... I was in this other group for so many years, and automatically, if I see something that reminds me in parallel with the Castaic group, I shrink back.  I think that is just an automatic response from the other group I was with, and wanting so much to stress ... to give myself permission to make my own choices, and even give myself permission to flip out, and then observe it.

And I am playing the no-conflict game with it and I am observing the automatic responses, and at least I’m aware of them more than I ever have been before, and I’m not condemning myself.  My god, the self-condemnation is just such a ... you know, I’m allowing myself to automatically do that, and then at least talk to you about it and have you give me this information so I can get it out and let it out.  Do you understand what I’m saying?

ELIAS:  Quite, and I am understanding of the direction that you are moving into, and I am expressing to you that this is movement.  This is an action of noticing and allowing yourself to be noticing, and I am expressing to you encouragement to be continuing in this direction.  It matters not the response of another individual.

I express to you also much encouragement and reinforcement to you to not be moving yourself into a condemnation and a discounting of self in the expression of, “I have created this action.  It has been very bad.  I am very sorry that I have created that action.”  No.  You have created an expression within the moment which is neither good or bad.  It is merely an expression that you have chosen and offered within that moment.

Now; you may look to these types of expressions and you may recognize within yourself that you have created an automatic response which limits you and does not provide you with the opportunity of viewing more of your choices, which limits your expression of creativity.

But this is quite a different direction from the thought process of condemnation and expressing to yourself that you have created an expression that is wrong or that is bad, and that you must be or should be altering your behavior to be expressing yourself in a better manner in conjunction with other individuals.

THIS is an aspect of the belief system of duplicity, and this is what I am expressing to you and to other individuals — not to be altering your behavior in the manner of merely reinforcing the existing belief systems that you align with and to be expressing those existing belief systems more in energy and forcefulness, but to be recognizing without judgment that you are creating choices within the moment continuously, and that none of your choices are good or bad.  They are merely choices, and in this, the automatic choices are not bad either.  They merely limit you and do not allow you the freedom to be viewing OTHER choices.

LYNDA:  That’s great!  I definitely think that’s great what you’re saying, and I really appreciate it, and I receive that information.  (Laughing, and Elias chuckles)  It’s just so weird!  Oh boy, that’s great, Elias.  I appreciate it.  Thank you.

ELIAS:  You are welcome.

LYNDA:  I’m going to think about it and interact with you.  I’m going to go back and interact with you subjectively, which is so much more fun, and easier, frankly, but I’m determined to bridge the gap.

ELIAS:  Ha ha!

LYNDA:  And I will do that, and I will let you go and I will let Mary go, and I hope to be talking to you in a couple of weeks.

Do you have any final words of wisdom, Mister Elias, whose Oscar Wilde pictures are all over my neighborhood because they’re having a retrospective of Oscar Wilde at UCLA?  And wherever I drive, I look up, and like within a block, there’s a picture of Oscar Wilde, and it just makes me laugh and think of you and relax, and I want to thank myself for creating that imagery!  How’s that?

ELIAS:  Very well. (Chuckling)

I express to you encouragement, and I also express to you to be noticing.  This one action shall be your most beneficial creation.

If you are not noticing what you are creating, you also shall not be addressing to what you are creating and you shall not offer yourself the objective ability to be expanding and creating new freedoms, for you shall not allow yourself to view all of the myriad of choices that you hold.  And this is wondrous, that you shall allow yourself to view all of your choices and all of your creativity!  Continue within your reinforcement of acceptance and trust, and be noticing.

LYNDA:  I will, my friend.  I love you.  Thank you, and I’ll talk to you quite soon objectively.

ELIAS:  Very well.  I offer to you this day great affection, and I anticipate our next meeting.  To you this day in lovingness, au revoir.

LYNDA:  Au revoir.

Elias departs at 11:45 AM.

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