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"Do as I say, not as I do!"
Saturday, November 29, 1997 © 1997 (Private)
Participants: Mary (Michael), Vicki (Lawrence), Stella (Cindel), Letty (Castille), Marcos (Marta), and Marissa (Isabel).
Marissa is twelve years old; our youngest participant to date. This is her second session, and it was a real pleasure to have her here again. Elias and Marissa's interaction is fascinating to observe!
Elias arrives at 5:42 PM.
ELIAS: Good evening! (The group responds with enthusiasm)
(To Marissa, smiling) And have you discovered yourself?
ELIAS: And have you viewed blue eyes within your dream state since our last meeting? (Smiling)
ELIAS: As I have promised, I have come to you in your dream!
MARISSA: I've had some dreams, like just flash-backs about Egypt, and I was wondering if it has anything to do with Ikisha?
ELIAS: Yes. You ARE connecting with your other focus and becoming acquainted! And she is quite lovely, is she not? (Laughter) And entertaining also! (Grinning)
MARISSA: Stella showed me the book of the families, and I'm not sure, but I was thinking that I align with Sumari?
ELIAS: Very good! Little ones are quite attuned, are they not? And belonging to the family of Sumafi.
MARISSA: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome. Continue your investigation of becoming acquainted with your other focus, for she is much like yourself and influencing of you within this particular focus, and quite colorful also! (Grinning)
MARISSA: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very welcome.
LETTY: Elias, hi! Since she's here sitting next to me, I have a question that came to me. I have the impression that Isabel has been a mother of mine in one of my focuses.
ELIAS: In one.
LETTY: (To Marissa) See? That's why you mother me! Thank you!
MARCOS: She's always taking care of you! (Laughter)
LETTY: I have another question. I've been having dreams where I keep dreaming about airplanes and being at airports, but I never get on the airplane. Am I missing the step? I look at it like getting on a plane and flying would be to me, which I do in this focus, but in my dreams it's like I'm always one step before, and I wanted to know if it's something that I'm kind of like holding myself back on?
ELIAS: Correct. This would be imagery to yourself of the aircraft as a transport device. In this, you do not allow yourself quite to be boarding this craft to be transported. You, as the other individuals within this company presently, are investigating subjectively other focuses within other dimensions, but are preventing yourself from viewing these other focuses. Therefore, you create imagery within your dream state to be offering yourself information of your own blocking of this action.
ELIAS: Entering into areas of investigating other-dimensional focuses creates a fearfulness within many individuals. Many individuals hold a fear of what they may not identify within its natural element. Therefore, they view that this may hold harmfulness to them, and this creates a situation that you hold back within yourself, not wishing objectively to be entering areas that are very unfamiliar to you. You hold, as I have stated previously many times, very strongly to this attention, to this focus, for this is familiar to you objectively, and you view other focuses within other dimensions to be holding fearful aspects, for they are very unfamiliar to you objectively and also partially subjectively within this particular focus. But within essence, they are all elements of you. Therefore, you need not hold fearfulness of any other focus that you hold within essence, for it shall not be hurtful to you.
LETTY: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are welcome.
MARCOS: Elias, I created an illness about two weeks ago that I believe -- and I would just ask you to tell me if I'm right or wrong -- I believe that I created this to call attention to myself in a major way because I had been running too much and I needed to slow down. And so I did, but in a major way! I mean, I was in bed! But I think it was the only way that I could really call attention to myself to stop and slow down a little bit. Is that correct?
ELIAS: Correct. This is unnecessary. Allow yourself the incorporation of natural time, and then you may not be creating of situations that shall obtain your attention in the area of illness. Many individuals allow themselves certain time frameworks within your year that they may excuse themselves and become ill, and therefore allow themselves a rest period. There are more enjoyable methods to be taking holiday! (Grinning)
MARCOS: Well, you know, one thing that I think I did enjoy from that illness in a way is that I've been having a lot of experiences in my dream state; not just dreaming, but also experiences. I've seen and met with you at the pond a couple of times, and I think I want to sleep more and more and more because that's how I'm finding out about a lot of things! But there's one experience I had ... there's a doctor that I went to see months ago. I had hurt my knee and I went to see him. He's a very metaphysical type of person, and when he checked me out he also told me that there was a negative energy, in his terms, that was surrounding me, that someone else had placed on me, and he did this very strange thing. He materialized a little voodoo doll. According to him, somebody was trying to hurt me, and I got that feeling. I had no idea about what was going on up until that time, but when I was ill I remembered that and I was thinking, how would that work? I saw that he materialized this little voodoo doll in his office. Does that illness have anything to do with that any more? How would that work? I don't understand.
ELIAS: Another individual may not inflict any element upon you that you do not accept. Therefore, they may project energy in hurtfulness, but if you are not accepting of this energy, it shall not be affecting of you.
Now; I may be expressing to you that partially, another individual may project hurtful energy to you and it may be affecting of you -- underline partially -- if you are not watching. If you are not paying attention and you are not listening to your own intuition and your self and trusting of yourself, if you are discounting of yourself, you may not be deflecting of this energy which is being projected.
I have expressed this previously within a different type of analogy.
You may be projecting to another individual hurtful thoughts and expressions,
and in response to this energy, the other individual may be affecting themselves.
As I have stated, you may be projecting energy and hurtful thoughts, and the receiving individual may stub their toe or may initiate another action that shall be in compliance with the energy that you have sent. But if the individual, such as yourself, is aware of self and trusting and accepting of self and connecting with your own intuition, this is blocking of the other individual's energy which is projected. It is an automatic element or action. This is not "protection" in the manner that many individuals think within their thought process. It is an automatic action.
Within the element of essence, which you are, you choose -- if not allowing yourself awareness and if not listening to your own intuition -- to be accepting of another individual's energy which may be affecting of you. You may choose this for many reasons. Many times this would be a choice that shall gain your attention and offer you more information of your reality. At times it may be a choice of what you may term to be destructiveness, for this aligns with your desire of yourself. If you are choosing to be destructive to self, you may also be accepting of other energies that lend to this choice. It is dependent upon your desires and your awareness; but another individual may not inflict anything upon you that you do not accept. It is merely a question of your acceptance of the energy which is projected.
In this, you have accepted projected energy to lend energy to your intent and your desire to be offering yourself holiday; not necessarily to be hurtful to yourself, but to offer yourself your rest period, viewing this to be acceptable and viewing expressing to other individuals that you merely choose to be initiating holiday as opposed to illness [as unacceptable], as this would very much so not be very responsible! (Laughter) You have accepted this energy to be lending energy to your own creation, and also choosing a time framework within your year where many other individuals choose en masse to be creating of similar situations, which also lends energy to your own creation.
MARCOS: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome.
STELLA: (To Marcos) Do you have more?
MARCOS: I did the last one. Go ahead.
STELLA: He's going to give me a chance! Hi, Elias! I have a game for you, but I'm going to give it to you in a little while because I have more pressing matters right now. What's going on with me? I have this added energy. I was calling Marta last night; I was calling you. I am connecting to what? You said before that I needed to connect with Marta more. Am I connecting more with Marta?
ELIAS: A little. (Grinning)
STELLA: A little. Is there more?
ELIAS: Yes. You are beginning to connect with the energy of the essence representing the family that you align with.
STELLA: That I am aligned with?
STELLA: I didn't get it though. I didn't get what you said.
ELIAS: The energy is presenting itself to you, that you may be identifying with this energy. You have been within this company for a time framework to this present now, and now the energies of these essences connected with your game shall be introducing themselves to you.
STELLA: Very interesting! Where am I going with all of this energy?
ELIAS: You are connecting! (Grinning)
STELLA: I am connecting. Quite healing, huh?
ELIAS: This be the intent.
STELLA: Healing. For everybody involved?
ELIAS: Quite, and also for yourself.
STELLA: Yes. I understand now why I'm getting that. Now, why are you in the picture?
ELIAS: (Grinning) I am always in the picture! I am ever present, for I choose to be, for I am quite fond of myself! (Much laughter)
STELLA: You like to have fun, don't you?
STELLA: That's what I'm into now!
ELIAS: It is good!
STELLA: It's very good! It's quite fascinating. Okay, now that we got that out of the way, I have this game for you!
ELIAS: Very well!
STELLA: I really would appreciate if you would tell me just hot/cold. Not warm; hot or cold. It's very, very important. We're trying to find Vincent!
ELIAS: Ah! A new method! (Laughter) Five hundred and five!
STELLA: Oh god! No, but it's a nice game! Because we are doing our research. We are! I have a lot of people helping me!
ELIAS: The Easter egg hunt! And you challenge Elias in a new, crafty method ...
STELLA: Oh god! No! I wasn't trying to do that!
ELIAS: ... within your thought process that the brain-dead essence will not hold an awareness of the direction that you pursue!
ELIAS: Incorrect! (Marissa is cracking up)
STELLA: No, you are absolutely correct. But it's a game! You like games!
ELIAS: I am quite fond of games!
STELLA: I haven't seen any of your parlor games yet. You say you play them. I haven't seen any. Don't mess with my car! I don't want you messing with my car! Okay, now the game, okay?
ELIAS: The hunt ...
STELLA: Yes, it's on! I don't have much time!
ELIAS: ... for Vincent!
STELLA: (Sighing) I don't have much time.
ELIAS: And the hot and cold directions of Elias!
STELLA: Right. (Laughter) Very precise, you must be!
ELIAS: No! (Grinning)
STELLA: We came up with some wonderful places, all different! So, Switzerland. Hot? (Pause) You're not going to tell me?? (Elias is laughing) What does that mean?? The man travels a lot, right?
ELIAS: Ah! Warm!
STELLA: He travels. No wonder we get all these places! You know what? I have a feeling he's Cuban. (Letty whispers something) He's Spanish! There we go. (Pause) He's not Spanish.
ELIAS: I did not express this!
STELLA: But your face kind of tells me....
ELIAS: It may be!
STELLA: It may be?? Well, are we warm or cool or hot or cold? Which one? (Pause) He's still not going to say!
ELIAS: This is not an acceptable game! (Laughing)
STELLA: Oh, no! We've got to come up with another one. I shall come up with another one!
ELIAS: I hold no doubtfulness that you shall! You are quite inventive and have created many methods and many attempts to be rousing Elias to be answering your investigation! And therefore, you need not be investigating!
STELLA: I don't need to??
ELIAS: Oh, but you do!
STELLA: I do?
ELIAS: But you are wishing for this essence of Elias to merely offer the answer!
STELLA: Well, kind of in a round-about-way.
LETTY: Ask him if we can help you.
STELLA: Can they help?
LETTY: Are we connected? Are we connected to Vincent, too?
LETTY: Okay, then I have to connect.
STELLA: Well, we're just going to connect.
ELIAS: Very good!
STELLA: Okay. Elias, I feel like I'm in an altered state. I have this incredible energy.
ELIAS: This be what I have expressed to you previously. You are connecting with this essence which is representing of the Tumold family within your game. This be what you are feeling.
STELLA: Okay. I should not try to depress it or try to hold back or do any of that stuff?
STELLA: Go with it?
STELLA: Oh, you're so wonderful!
ELIAS: As are you also!
STELLA: Thank you, Elias!
ELIAS: You are very welcome.
STELLA: I will come up with more questions. I have more, but....
ELIAS: I hold no doubtfulness of this either, Oh Asker of Questions Three!
STELLA: You said you were trying to get my attention. Have you tried lately? Because I haven't seen you. I haven't seen any of your parlor tricks. I tried to see if anything was moving. Nothing has moved. Have you done any of that stuff?
STELLA: No. Oh, so you're not going to do that with me?
ELIAS: I may, when you are not expecting this and anticipating of this! But within this present now, other essences are presenting themselves to you within introduction. Therefore, I may be graciously standing aside temporarily.
ELIAS: As to not be intrusive.
STELLA: Oh. Thank you.
STELLA: Temporarily. Okay, Elias. Thank you very much.
ELIAS: You are welcome.
LETTY: Elias, I have another dream that I had a couple of weeks ago. It had a real impact on me because even after I woke up in the middle of the night and then closed my eyes, I still kept seeing things. I wasn't scared, but I saw little monsters and ugly little things and devils, the ones that I see on television but I saw them in my dream, and they were just all around me. They weren't doing anything to me. They were just there in front of me, and even when I woke up and then closed my eyes, I still saw them. The only way I wouldn't see them is if I opened my eyes. Is that something ... I mean, I didn't feel anything, but I've never had that happen to me before.
ELIAS: This is imagery of belief systems once again. You image the belief systems as elements that you disdain. Many individuals image belief systems, subsequent to this information, as elements that shall be viewed as negative, and therefore they image these in figures or actions that they view to be negative within their objective awareness. I have expressed to you many times, your belief systems are not negative. They merely are. They are elements of your reality. They shall continue with you within your reality. I merely point you in the direction of recognizing your belief systems, that they may not be quite so affecting of you; for many times your belief systems are creating conflict within you, and if you hold an awareness of your belief systems and may identify them and may be accepting of them, not disdaining them, not viewing them as negative or bad but recognizing and accepting of these belief systems, then you may neutralize their power and therefore hold no conflict within them. You shall still hold the belief systems, but they shall not be initiating conflict within you.
LETTY: Okay. Thank you.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome.
MARCOS: A couple of quick ones, Elias. Am I Sumafi aligning with Sumari?
ELIAS: Aligning with Ilda.
MARCOS: Ilda. Okay, thank you. Why have I seen you in a couple of my dreams as a young man, someone that I don't consciously know in this focus? Both times, at least both times, maybe three times when I've see you, I recognize you in my dreams as a young, very good-looking, very athletic man.
ELIAS: For this is a pleasing projection to myself! I am quite pleased to be imaging myself in this manner, and many individuals may view me in this manner also. It is quite distressing when individuals are imaging me as an old, fat man! (Laughter) This would not be my choice of my favorite physique! (Belief system, Elias??) An Adonis, would you not say? (Laughter)
ELIAS: Apollo is quite appropriate! (Laughter) Continue.
MARCOS: I was in one of my dream states a few days ago. I can tell the difference now when it's a dream, a normal sort of dream, if that is right, as opposed to an experience, as when I have met with you and some of the essences here as well. But in this one, I actually felt that I went to see this doctor that I mentioned earlier, and as I walked out of his office, there were two very large airplanes, shiny, new airplanes, and I walked beneath them. I can't quite understand about the airplanes. I think I know why I met with this doctor in my dream state, but what were the airplanes doing there?
ELIAS: Ah! Connection with Castille, sharing very similar imagery within the same type of movement; which you all, as I have expressed earlier, are attempting to be investigating subjectively, and some objectively.
STELLA: Back again to me! I had an experience. I gave him a massage this week, and I had an experience that we were together in Greece. We were having a lot of fun. It was wonderful! It was a wonderful experience. It was like we were young, and we were just laughing a lot, and it was just wonderful.
STELLA: I came up with the word Oliver for him.
STELLA: I just love you!
ELIAS: Continue your investigation. It proceeds quite well!
STELLA: Is that a bleed-through, my love for Letty and Marta?
LETTY: How about me? Augusta?
STELLA: Oh, I came up with her name in our focus with all the people at the bank. I came up with her name ... what was the name? Augustine. This was in Italy when we were all together with the people that are working at the bank, with Bruce, Annabelle, and Constance. I gave him the name of John. John seems so out-of-place, but John came up. Is it correct?
STELLA: No. Yeah, it seemed out-of-place, but....
STELLA: Juan! (Everybody gets really excited. I have never seen a group of people get so excited about a name! What a wacky group!)
MARCOS: Juan! Alright! Good! I'm very impressed!
STELLA: And then her name was correct?
STELLA: Oh, Augustine! We have so many names!
ELIAS: You are progressing quite well!
STELLA: Oh, this is wonderful! As a matter-of-fact, Bruce wants to know if we were twins in some other focus or something?
ELIAS: I shall leave this for your investigation also!
STELLA: Actually, it was for Bruce!
ELIAS: You are accomplishing quite well!
STELLA: Thank you. Another thing. Two days ago, I got a letter from my ex-husband, which was kind of nice. I got a nice letter from him. He called me Estellita and it was very nice, after eight years that we have been separated. I guess he had to do it for his conscience or something. Whatever the reason is, it was a nice letter. I feel the need to talk to him and tell him that I don't hate him. I really don't. I just wish him well, absolutely all the best. It feels nice that he would send me this letter. It's sort of nice to receive something like this, like maybe I haven't been the most horrendous woman on this earth! And I will see him. What do you think?
ELIAS: Very good! I am encouraging of this.
STELLA: Thank you. Thank you for your encouragement. I thought you were going to tell me to go find out or something! (Laughter) I appreciate your encouragement because I think it's going to be good. I feel that I have connected with my step-sister in another realm, but I don't feel the need to talk to her or anything. I have a lot of sadness for her for some reason. I don't know why, but I feel kind of sad, but I want her to be very happy too, so I don't know what that's all about. But it seems like I'm going through some incredible changes again, as usual. Why do I get a life so intense??
ELIAS: For you have chosen this! (Grinning)
STELLA: It's crazy! It's a little bit too intense sometimes.
ELIAS: But you have chosen to be experiencing within the fullness of the experiences and the emotional factors of the experiences, and all of its physical elements also.
STELLA: Gosh, I'm really doing a good one for my last focus here! And I intend to enjoy all of them! No guilt, no shit -- sorry -- none of that stuff! I intend to enjoy every minute!
ELIAS: And recognize that it is all experience, and adds to your action of becoming.
STELLA: Okay. I shall take that one with me!
ELIAS: Very good.
STELLA: Thank you, Elias.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome. (To Marissa) And you are quite lovely this evening!
MARISSA: Thank you!
ELIAS: We shall break, and I shall return for your continued questions.
ELIAS: Adieu! (Smiling at Marissa)
BREAK 6:25 PM
RESUME 6:44 PM (Time was eight seconds)
LETTY: Elias, I have a question. Marta and I have a brother in this focus. His name is Danny, Daniel, and he's kind of like strayed, gone on his own path away from the rest of the family, and I just wondered ... because we don't see him. We're not sure whether he's even telling us the truth about how he really is, and I was just wondering ... and also because he's in my dreams a lot. So I don't know if he's calling or I'm just thinking about him or just wish I could see him, because I do miss him. So I just wondered if you could look in your crystal ball and let me know how he's doing?
ELIAS: Ah, the crystal ball!
LETTY: Yeah, we couldn't go home without it!
STELLA: I get to look!
ELIAS: Of course! The crystal ball ... (pretending to look in a crystal ball and humming) He is quite alright.
LETTY: Does he miss us?
ELIAS: Yes, but I suspect that within this terminology, you are missing of him more!
LETTY: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are welcome. An excellent area to be practicing your acceptance!
ELIAS: And 102.
LETTY: And 102. Okay, yes. Thank you very much.
MARISSA: Elias, I bite my nails, and I was just ... just thinking about ... how can I stop?
ELIAS: And why shall you be wishing to be discontinuing this action? For you view this to be unacceptable and not a very good thing, correct?
ELIAS: For other individuals express to you that this is not a very good thing! (Letty and Marcos laugh) Ah! The culprits! (Marissa is cracking up) Influencing of this little one and not accepting ...
ELIAS: ... of her behavior and choices, and therefore influencing herself to not be accepting of her OWN choices and behavior! Tsk, tsk, tsk! (To Marissa) I may be expressing to you that the adults are less accepting than the small ones, and not paying attention very well to this information, (to Marcos and Letty) are you??
MARCOS: Touché! (Laughter)
ELIAS: I shall be expressing to you that you may be listening to yourself and be accepting of yourself and your own choices, and not concerning yourself with the choices or wishes of other individuals. In this, as you are accepting of yourself, you shall be automatically eliminating certain behaviors that you -- YOU -- choose not to be continuing within. And you have the permission of the All-Knowing Elias to be expressing to individuals holding greater age factor than yourself that you are listening to yourself and you are expressing of yourself perfectly within every moment, and that other individuals need not incorporate worrying, and you may be reminding these individuals of Acceptance 102!
MARISSA: Thank you!
ELIAS: You are quite welcome. Be satisfied with yourself, for you are adequate and perfect within your own expression, regardless of how others view.
MARISSA: Thank you!
Margot's note: I just loved this!
Vic's note: Me too!
ELIAS: (To Marcos and Letty) Acceptance 102!
MARCOS: Understood! (To Marissa) But I'm still your father!
ELIAS: Therefore, do as I say, not as I do! Another very strong belief system!
MARCOS: (Quickly changing the subject) Is it possible, in our terms I guess, to go back and change time? If I wanted to go back to a different year of this focus and choose a different probability, is that possible to do?
MARCOS: Even though other essences are also involved and that may change their probabilities too, it's still doable?
ELIAS: It is dependent upon their agreement within essence that they comply with altering their probabilities within your altering of your probabilities, but you may alter your probabilities at any moment. It shall be affecting, within energy, of other individuals within that particular time framework and shall be affecting of them in what you view to be subsequent time frameworks, although it may not be affecting in the manner of your expectation, for they hold the choice of incorporating the energy to their benefit and the choice within their own probabilities.
Therefore, you may alter your own probabilities and change a past event. It may appear to another individual involved to be the same, although there is a slight alteration in perception, for they have incorporated energy differently as you have altered a probability.
MARCOS: In a sense, that may have already happened, because all probabilities happen at once, do they not?
MARCOS: So, just consciously, the way we think our actions have evolved, many other actions, many other probabilities have also happened ...
MARCOS: ... at the same time.
ELIAS: It is merely a choice of which probability you choose to be inserting into this particular reality, but I may express to you also that you are constantly -- all of you -- altering probabilities of which you view to be past AND future. Therefore, your memories are inconstant. You do not remember absolutes continuously within your movement through your time framework, for probabilities, in what you view to be slight manners, are continuously being altered. This be the reason that you may experience an event with another individual, and within years past, you may both remember the event differently. Within one day past, you shall remember the same event.
You are continuously altering probabilities. It is merely a question of the degree that you choose to be altering, but it is an automatic action to be altering of past and future probabilities within alignment of your intent and desire. As you move through your focus, you are continuously creating within your intent, and you alter the probabilities to fit with this intent. (Pause)
Within one moment, the probabilities fit precisely. Within another moment, they may not. Therefore, they are altered.
MARCOS: So if I think back and I want to change something, it probably fit at that time within my intent.
MARCOS: And that makes me think about it differently. Then I don't want to go back and change things, because probably doing it the first time fit with my intent.
MARCOS: Okay, thank you. That's very important to me.
STELLA: Elias, I'm so consumed by what's taking place in my energy. I've had this three other times in this focus, this sort of energy thing, and it has changed me, always for the better, absolutely. Is it going to be the same with this change, whatever is taking place right now?
ELIAS: In a manner of speaking, correct.
STELLA: Okay. Well, as long as I don't go crazy or something!
ELIAS: Not unless you are choosing this! (Laughter)
STELLA: Now I have the cat on my lap, and I don't care for cats! (Marissa is cracking up, which is making us all crack up)
ELIAS: Dispel your fearfulness. The creature shall not be harmful to you! It is merely a creature, and it is quite accepting of you.
STELLA: I know. I understand that. They're laughing at me! (Elias chuckles) So anyway, I have a lot of thinking to do with this stuff because I feel like I'm in an altered state. I keep going out! It's like I look at something and it's like my mind just goes ... and it goes! So, I guess I'll just go with it. I'll just go with it!
ELIAS: Very good choice!
STELLA: Thank you, Elias.
ELIAS: You may be attempting to be incorporating this energy into your actions within your intent of your healing. It may be lending energy to you.
STELLA: So going back to the same question, it's sort of like whoever comes around me or would be around me, it would be very healing to them too?
ELIAS: Correct. (Pause)
MARCOS: I understand the healing part.
STELLA: You do? He understands. We're very well connected.
ELIAS: Very good!
STELLA: I guess that's it. Tonight we're going to ... I had this wonderful idea. Since I'm at this energy level and I have some gypsy music, we're going to go enjoy it at my house! So you're welcome to come and enjoy! Vicki said it was a probable reality for her, so I don't know if it's going to become a reality, but we shall see!
ELIAS: Ah! An opportunity to be investigating the gypsies!
STELLA: Well, that's what I told them, yes! Very interesting! We can do some of the dances! I'm very good at that!
MARCOS: I have one more question, if I may ask it? In my dream state and occasionally in my conscious reality, I continue to experience this very, very overwhelming sense of loss. Sometimes I wake up from a dream where I have met someone or I have been with someone, and I wake up and I just feel like a huge vacuum where my heart is. It happens sometimes when Marissa, when Isabel comes and stays with me for a few days, and then she leaves because she lives with her mother most of the time, and it is just an overwhelming sense of loss. It feels as if I'm going to die almost, and I don't know what it is. I've tried to connect with it. I sometimes think maybe there's a bleed-through from another focus? I don't know. I've been able to deal with it much better now over the last year, but it's still quite strong, and I don't know where it comes from, and sometimes I just don't know how to handle it.
ELIAS: Many individuals experience a similar type of feeling within the action of this shift. Individually, they choose how long they shall be continuing this feeling, or how not long they shall be continuing this feeling. This is imagery, a representation of what you view to be within your belief systems of a separation of self; an emergence into a new reality, which you view movement slowly. Therefore, the feeling continues over a time framework.
This is imagery of a mourning for the familiar self, that self that you have recognized throughout your focus, and a recognition that you are emerging into a new element of self, which creates within your belief systems a separation, a leaving-behind of the old, a movement into the new. Therefore, you experience a grieving for that self which you view to be leaving behind, although you are not leaving behind the old self. The old self IS yourself. You are merely incorporating new elements to yourself, new aspects of awareness. It is merely your belief systems that create this feeling.
MARCOS: I read in a transcript something that when I remember it, it makes me feel very calm. I can't remember who it was, but you told someone not to look outside of yourself for someone to make you feel good. Don't search. It's within yourself that will make you feel good. No one is going to make you complete. It's yourself that will do that. And when I think about that, it really strikes a note, because I keep thinking about other people and how someone will come along and make things perfect, and it doesn't happen. When I think about that transcript, then I feel fine, but I need to remember that.
ELIAS: Absolutely. No other individual may create your reality and create your happiness or joyfulness. YOU shall create that.
MARCOS: Thank you for the explanation.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome.
STELLA: I guess we're done, but I have to say that today you played the role, the other role that was missing. The blessing -- you gave me the blessing! I was waiting to see when I was going to get the blessing! You gave me the blessing tonight. So, Reverend Excellency Elias, thank you so much! (You crack me up, Stella!)
ELIAS: (Humorously) And we shall all pray now, and I shall offer my benediction! (Much laughter)
STELLA: Right! Because you said you were going to do the cross and all that stuff! Thank you very much!
LETTY: Thank you, Elias!
ELIAS: Therefore, you may all feel quite blessed this evening!
STELLA: I do!
VICKI: Gag me!
ELIAS: Lawrence shall be especially appreciating of this! I shall offer a special blessing for you!
VICKI: Gee, thanks.
ELIAS: You are very welcome, for I know you are appreciating!
VICKI: I wonder if I might ask a question about imagery. This is so weird! The other night before I went to bed, I had a very bad hour or two, like I was in labor, giving birth. It was very extreme!
STELLA: Oh! The same pains I go through!
VICKI: When I woke up in the morning, the imagery that was the most clear was of a large, brown growth on my foot. It covered most of my left foot. In the dream I became curious, so I looked under it, and what I found under it was a couple of rows of very beautiful, very nicely sliced tomatoes! I've thought about this a lot because it's been driving me crazy. I have some thoughts about it and some ideas, but I'd be curious to hear your interpretation of that imagery.
ELIAS: Your creation of your discomfort previous to your sleep state is imagery to yourself of the great struggle and difficulty that you hold within the area of belief systems. I shall offer to you that your own impressions, coupled with much of Michael's interpretation to you, are correct. You may offer one point to Michael! Although he does not acknowledge himself, he is becoming quite adept at imagery within subjective areas.
VICKI: I know.
ELIAS: Futurely, this shall also become clearer to you within your objective imagery, which you shall offer to yourself to be acknowledging of yourself ... within not distant future.
VICKI: I'll be looking forward to that! (And I'm still looking forward to that two months later!)
ELIAS: I am quite sure!
I shall be offering to you this evening much fondness, and great affection to this little one! (Smiling at Marissa) Continue with your investigating, and also within your assertiveness of Acceptance 101! And I shall be visiting you once again.
MARISSA: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome. I express to you all this evening much lovingness, and a very fond au revoir!
Elias departs at 7:12 PM.
Vic's note: Because the dream imagery of the tomatoes was very vivid and very distracting, I bugged lots of folks about it. Some of you probably remember my incessant questions to you about this imagery. Not only did I bug you guys and Elias about it, I also bugged Paul about it. Rarely has dream imagery affected me so intensely. For those of you that don't know, Ron engages an energy exchange with an essence named Patel, whom we call Paul. I thought it might be interesting to include Paul's comments, so here they are:
Friday, November 28, 1997
Session #38 (Paul)
Greetings and good evening, my dear Lawrence. As you continue to amaze and bewilder yourself at your quite creative expressions of imagery to yourself, you may take solace in the fact that these creations are not only of benefit to your further understandings of this shift, but also may be of great help to others in this understanding as well.
This imagery that you have great curiosity over has been provided to you, by you, for the purpose of relinquishing a small portion of the final manifestation that you presently enjoy. In this, you have taken, so to speak, a stronger foothold within this focus and have placed your beliefs underneath a partially protective covering that may only be viewed for moments at a time. As you move through your quite neatly organized beliefs, you may find that occasionally one may be out of place, so to speak. As you place this belief neatly back into its place, you may also knock two others out of their places, and so on. This is not to say that these beliefs shall all be scrambling about to be stepping out of place, but that they may be only trying to show you how easily skewed they may become. Although you may be looking to these beliefs and saying to yourself that you were not aware that these existed, you may also be aware at the same time that these have always been known by you.
As in all things, there shall be a certain amount of doubtfulness within the interpretation of these beliefs. However, the expression is as is, and interpretation shall be your best teacher. Within these interpretations of these beliefs, you may encounter many hills and valleys, so to speak. Just as our story of the ball and the hill, some shall be quite easily interpreted and some shall be not so easy for you. The ease comes from recognizing these and acknowledging them, for as they become acknowledged, they become more familiar to you. As they become more familiar, they also become more submissive, so to speak. As they become more submissive, they also become more comfortable, and as they become more comfortable, they become more you. I use this term you, as your beliefs are you, just as you are your beliefs. The more comfortable you become with your beliefs, the more comfortable you become with you.
I hope that this has been of some slight help to you, and we would also like to thank Olivia for gracing us with this honor of speaking. Until we next speak, ta!
© 1997 Vicki Pendley/Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved
Copyright 1997 Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved.