The Difference Between Want and Desire
Topics:
“The Difference Between Want and Desire”
“There Is No Duplicity in Essence”
“The Point of This Shift Is New Experiences”
Wednesday, August 24, 2022 (Private/Phone)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Lynda (Ruther)
“What you want in any given moment is something that you look at as positive…. [Desire is] the engine that moves you forward, and it moves you in the direction of what is intrinsic to yourself and your personality and what is ultimately important to you. What your desire is, is important, but that has nothing do with good, bad, comfortable, uncomfortable, right or wrong.”
ELIAS: Good morning!
LYNDA: It’s amazing. I had another good week.
ELIAS: Congratulations.
LYNDA: I’m just going to say that, because all my weeks are good from now on. That doesn’t mean that I was EUPHORIC all day long. (Both laugh) I’m sure that would be boring. Maybe in heaven I’ll try it, just not now.
Anyway, I… Okay. I hit road bumps, but it’s different. It’s different because my typical road bumps, I’m moving through them just faster. I acknowledge them. It’s not like I say by rote “I acknowledge you;” it’s that I’m realizing what a ball of yarn lack is, and how the Mary piece, the money piece, the Gidget piece, my image, my weight – with a thousand little things that don’t seem to be enough that can come throughout my day, I’m just paying attention to saying “No, I have enough,” and doing the happy dance or doing something. And it’s not the trauma it’s been, and I’m not afraid that because I’m not seeking therapy I’m screwed up. It’s just different. I am proud of myself, I’m living my life, Elias.
I did have a moment when…Okay. This stuff with Mary is starting to piss me off. Not her – me. I don’t want there to be any lack of trust or question. Like if Mary doesn’t call me, I don’t care! Don’t call me! I could use the break! (Laughs)
I ended up working on my day off, Saturday, because they needed a volunteer and I volunteered, so I made some extra money. And I’m very happy to have a day off today. So on Monday I got home really tired and I was thinking, “I just want to be home. I don’t want to go upstairs, I don’t want to go downstairs.” And it turned out Mary didn’t even call, and it turned out perfectly. But this niggling little thing inside of me said, “Mary didn’t call me.” And I went, “Go away! Stop! Go.Away! I don’t care!” And I just walked myself through it, and nothing big happened after that. It was kind of a ping, that’s all. It was just a little thing, and I saw it.
And I think what kind of trips me up a little bit is I get disappointed that it even comes up. I want it to never come up again, so I’m mad at myself at little bit and I’m discounting of myself. And then I think, “Okay, so what if it came up? You have tools. It’s a memory. It’s a thing. It’s probably going to always come up. It may always be a flinch. Who gives a shit? Just keep swimming.” And that’s what I did! And here I am.
ELIAS: Congratulations.
MARY: I think so too. Congratulations to me. Anyway…
ELIAS: It might not always be there. You might move to a point in which it isn’t something. But what I would say to you in acknowledgment is that even having something come up that is that small is significant, because it hasn’t been that long since it was very big.
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: It hasn’t been —
LYNDA: January.
ELIAS: It hasn’t even been a year.
LYNDA: Right. It hasn’t.
ELIAS: And the point in that is that to that point, which wasn’t even a year ago, those types of reactions were normal for you. They were consistent, they were frequent, and they had been being that for years.
LYNDA: Right. Years.
ELIAS: Therefore to move from that, which had that accumulation of years of doing that, to this?
LYNDA: Pretty good.
ELIAS: Amazing.
LYNDA: Amazing. I think so too. I think so too, Elias. You know, I wake up and I don’t want to get out of bed because I’m tired, but I’m also like “eh…” I’m like, “This is a habit, this thing of not wanting to get out of bed and face the day is a habit.” And I got out of bed and I danced into the kitchen and I said, “I’m just a happy, happy, happy dog” [talking to Mary’s dog]. I’m saying your song to her. And I just kept moving. I went, “This is stupid. I’m not doing this anymore.” I’ll let you know when I jump out of bed for joy for no reason. That’ll be amazing, but I’m working on it. (Elias chuckles)
And I released my session, and I got some really cool feedback. People called me brave for being vulnerable. It surprised me. I thought, “Geez, what a geek I am.” I’m not such a geek – well, I am a geek, but who cares? I thought it was good. I released my session and I was vulnerable. Your points about desire, everybody said they didn’t hear that take on it before, or they didn’t really understand – I think because we have a tendency to mix want and desire, and want and desire are two different animals.
ELIAS: They are. And because people have a tendency to think about desire as being blissful and as being something very, very positive. Which, it’s not blissful, but it is in a manner of speaking something positive in its core. Or it’s something intrinsic to your nature, and it’s something that ultimately benefits you. But as I’ve said for years and years and years, how it’s accomplished has nothing to do with positive or negative, because THAT actually is the part of you in physical focus that is the most essence, and essence doesn’t care about positive or negative. Essence doesn’t function or operate from the perspective of belief systems. There is no duplicity in essence, therefore it is a matter of simply accomplishing, moving forward and moving in a direction of accomplishing something, and it doesn’t matter HOW it’s accomplished. What matters is that it IS accomplished.
In that, people have a tendency to very strongly think of and make associations that desire is some wonderfully positive piece of your movement and of your actions and of your life, when in actuality it is the engine that moves you forward, and it moves you in the direction of what is intrinsic to yourself and your personality and what is ultimately important to you. But for most of you, and most of your lives, you don’t KNOW what is ultimately important to you objectively.
LYNDA: That’s the truth. Oh my god.
ELIAS: And therefore, because you don’t know what’s important to you, you don’t recognize HOW that engine is driving you. And in that, what I would say is people also think and make an association that essence is ultimately positive and bliss, and it’s not. Those are constructs of humans. Those are constructs in physical focus. Essence has no attachment to positive or negative. Essence has no driving force in relation to good or bad or comfortable or not comfortable. It doesn’t matter. They’re all simply experiences. In essence, they don’t mean anything more than that.
Therefore, this is a piece that many people that are presently seeking to incorporate so much more essence energy into their physical expression, this is a piece they haven’t quite recognized yet and haven’t understood yet. They will, because they are moving in directions in which they don’t understand why, if they are moving in the direction of supposedly being more enlightened by having more essence energy in their physical focus, why isn’t it more positive? Why isn’t it more blissful? Why isn’t it more in the direction of everything they want? Because what you want is irrelevant. (Lynda laughs)
What your desire is, is important, but that has nothing do with good, bad, comfortable, uncomfortable, right or wrong. It simply has to do with what is intrinsically important to you, and what is intrinsically important to you is part of what is associated with your intent in a particular focus. But the more you move in the direction of essence energy, the less you move in the direction of what is comfortable or not comfortable, because it doesn’t matter.
LYNDA: I have an example. (Laughs)
ELIAS: Excellent!
LYNDA: Yesterday it was just over the halfway mark of my day, and I’m tired. And I was a little… not irritated, but I was tired, a little grumpy. Anyway, I was pushing my cart and I had a long run ahead of me. And a couple came by, and I don’t know where it came from – essence – we just clicked and we started chattering. And they went away and they were laughing – total strangers – and I was laughing and I just kept going. And I went, “Damn it, it doesn’t matter how I feel, I’m going to connect with people,” and I never know when I am. And that made me kind of smile, and I went “Hey, I’m moving in my intent!” That was great! But I was dead tired and I didn’t feel like schmoozing, and then this thing happened. And then there was a baby and I took a picture. And then there was a puppy and I took a picture. And I didn’t feel great, I was tired but I just kept moving. And I thought, “It’s good to be me.” And that’s an example. It’s duplicity. It’s… Okay, duplicity.
I come home dead tired, and the first hour I’m home, I’m so happy to be home. I feed the cats. I get comfortable. I put on my shmatas. Mary and I are going to ultimately go out and hang with the puppies, maybe we’ll go get dinner. And before I go to bed I have this little… not bliss, but this comfortable moment at home, but what makes it comfortable is how hard I worked all day.
Now I don’t know, but that seems like that’s how we operate. Is that a close example of… maybe duplicity, the yin and the… My emotions: I’m feeling tired and now I’m not tired. I like that. I don’t like it when I’m tired, but I do like it when I get home.
Now I don’t know, maybe that’s not enlightened or human. I am both: unenlightened AND human. (Laughs) But that’s my example. Those are my daily examples. I’m not saying I want to work at Walmart my whole life. I can’t imagine, I don’t think I have the… I’m old already, I’ve got to fall apart at some point. But for now, I’m really grateful.
And here’s another thing: The routine of it, getting up, going to work, logging in, logging out, I am so safe in that environment. Every day it’s the same damn thing. No matter how tired I am when I wake up, no matter what a schlep it is to put on my clothes and get out the door, and all the pieces, nothing changes there. It’s the same routine. I don’t even know how to describe the marvel of that to me. I know that when I’m going there… Inflation is all around me. Trauma is all around me in the world, but when I go to Walmart I just do my job and come home. I almost feel guilty because I’m so lucky that I have such a safe harbor to do that in, Elias. I’m just saying. So yeah, and whatever essence doesn’t want or wants, we’ll talk about that later as I become more wise. I’m starting to get the drift. (Elias chuckles)
So… Yeah? Those are examples, to me. I’m not saying I don’t have wants. My wants are okay. They’re just changing.
ELIAS: And it… There’s nothing wrong with having wants.
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: That’s part of your expression in physical focus, and it’s natural. But it’s… You are correct. It’s not the same as desire. There is a considerable difference.
And in that, what you want in any given moment IS something that you look at as positive.
LYNDA: Yes.
ELIAS: You don’t look at a want as being negative.
LYNDA: No.
ELIAS: You might look at it in hindsight in that manner, but in the moment, whatever it is that you want, you see that as positive.
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: And THAT is a significant piece in relation to this new popularity of incorporating more essence energy into the physical reality, into the physical focus, because that’s a want. Therefore, there’s a positive attachment to it.
LYNDA: Which is motivating.
ELIAS: It is, but it —
LYNDA: I’m going to say misplaced.
ELIAS: No, it’s not, but it doesn’t (pause) prepare the individual for what that means.
LYNDA: The reality of living day to day. Issues?
ELIAS: No, the reality of essence energy, and how it has nothing to do with want. They want that and they have the association – or they’re making an association – that in relation to that want that the outcome will be positive and will be pleasant. And the part that hasn’t been connected with yet or that isn’t understood yet is that that essence energy has nothing to do with comfortable or uncomfortable, a good outcome or a bad outcome, or anything that is going to necessarily be pleasurable.
This is part of the reason that I keep reminding these people that your physical body is not equipped to accommodate a considerable amount of essence energy. It’s simply not designed to incorporate extensive amounts of essence energy. And therefore, you move in directions of pushing the body consciousness to unfamiliar limits in relation to that expression of more essence energy in a physical focus, and it creates difficulty with the body. Therefore, it’s not necessarily comfortable.
LYNDA: Right. That’s right.
ELIAS: And it’s not necessarily pleasurable.
LYNDA: So, channeling too. People that want to move in that kind of direction also?
ELIAS: Yes. But that I have offered a considerable amount of information about. This is a relatively new direction that people are exploring.
LYNDA: This is living. This is living every day. This is reality.
ELIAS: But this piece of adding more essence energy into the physical focus is a relatively new direction that some people are engaging.
LYNDA: Oh. So it’s different than the whole channeling thing.
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: Okay. Okay, that’s good.
ELIAS: And it’s gaining some popularity – slowly, but it’s gaining popularity because people are thinking, “Oh, this is more enlightened. Oh, this will be more pleasurable. Oh, this will be more positive. Oh, this will give me more power.” (Pause)
The challenge with the idea that it might give you more power is once again that essence doesn’t care about what’s comfortable or what isn’t comfortable – that isn’t a concern. Therefore, in a manner of speaking you might incorporate more power, but at what price?
LYNDA: Right.
ELIAS: Why? Because the body has difficulty accommodating that energy, and because (emphatically) essence doesn’t care.
LYNDA: Okay then.
ELIAS: Your essence doesn’t care. Your essence, IN essence, is only focused on experience. It doesn’t matter if it’s a good experience or a bad experience. What essence is, in your terminology, looking for is new experience. What are you creating new? How are you moving in a direction that is expanding? Because that’s what consciousness does. It’s constantly expanding. Therefore, every experience that you have is an expansion of consciousness. It doesn’t matter if that experience is good or bad.
LYNDA: Okay.
ELIAS: It only matters that it’s an experience!
LYNDA: Right. So we humans attach meaning and we attach —
ELIAS: Of course, because you have belief systems.
LYNDA: And we’ve chosen that. We’ve chosen to experience that.
ELIAS: You have.
LYNDA: It’s not like we’re going to be human-morphed. It’s not like the Shift is going to shift and we’ll become somehow more essence in the capacity you’re talking about. We’re still going to be human.
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: And we’re still going to have belief systems.
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: I’m just saying THAT is very clear now.
ELIAS: Yes.
LYNDA: Clear-ER today.
ELIAS: Yes. That is not going away. That is not changing.
LYNDA: That makes sense.
ELIAS: And what I have been expressing is, if you don’t want to participate in that, then disengage – because this is your reality. And in that, if you don’t want to incorporate the limitations, so to speak, of the human experience, then… be dead!
LYNDA: Be dead.
ELIAS: And then you will move outside of that. But if you are continuing to move in the direction of physical focus and you don’t WANT to be dead, then it’s a matter of accepting that —
LYNDA: This is our life.
ELIAS: These are the conditions and the blueprint of your reality, is these belief systems that guide your experiences in this reality. And in that, they’re not changing, and they’re not being eliminated and they’re not going away, regardless of this shift in consciousness. That’s not the point of this shift; the point of this shift is to thin those veils of separation and therefore to give you new experiences.
[The timer for the end of the session rings]
ELIAS: As I expressed from the onset, you’ve exhausted your experiences. You’re evolving and moving and growing beyond that. And in that, you’re ready for new experiences. And part of that is becoming more self-aware – which is what YOU’VE been doing – and that’s what creates this tremendous change in your experience and how you engage your life.
LYNDA: It’s true, how I look at my life, my perception of my life, how it’s not so terrible. (Laughs) It’s fascinating.
I just want to acknowledge the consistency of you. You are very consistent with this information, man. (Elias chuckles) As it expands, the blueprint of it remains the same and you’re consistent to the blueprint. Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very welcome.
LYNDA: I acknowledge that. Well, I’ve got to go now. (Both laugh)
ELIAS: Very well.
LYNDA: We are going to go W-A-L-K [spelling it out so the dog doesn’t recognize the word].
ELIAS: Ahhh. (Both laugh) Very well.
LYNDA: I may have to release another session. Oh my god! Two! (Elias laughs) In a thousand years!
This is very helpful. Thank you.
ELIAS: (Chuckles) You are very welcome.
I express tremendous encouragement to you, and great acknowledgement.
LYNDA: Thank you.
ELIAS: In tremendous love and affection to you, until our next meeting, au revoir.
LYNDA: Au revoir.
(Elias departs after 32 minutes)
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