Vulnerability and Exposure
Topics:
“Vulnerability and Exposure”
“Focus Impressions”
“The Shifted Tribe in Venezuela”
“Impressions for The Game”
Session 20060719 (2045)
“Vulnerability and Exposure”
“Focus Impressions”
“The Shifted Tribe in Venezuela”
“Impressions for The Game”
Wednesday, July 19, 2006 (Private)
Participants: Mary (Michael) and Bobbi (Jale)
“The vulnerability is the expression of genuinely generating an openness. That is difficult for many individuals, for there is an automatic association that if you generate openness you create the potential for discomfort. But in actuality, in generating openness you generate an expression that allows you to receive, and that is significant. For in allowing yourself to receive, you also allow yourself to express much more fully and more easily, for you generate a free flow rather than merely in one direction.”
ELIAS: Good morning!
BOBBI: Hi there, Elias! How are you?
ELIAS: As always, and yourself?
BOBBI: I guess I’m as always…Well, I don't know if I'm as always. I’m fine! (Both laugh)
Yeah, a lot of stuff has been happening for me. I would say that it's fun stuff, so it's been very nice. A lot of changes since the last time I talked to you.
ELIAS: Ha ha! Congratulations.
BOBBI: (Laughs) Yeah, thanks. You know a lot of it I would say, “Oh well, it's just, you know, objective movements of other people,” and I like the way it’s [inaudible]. At some level there is… I'm creating that too.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Chris moved out of the house into his own place, and Melissa graduated from college and found her own place, so it's been very nice not having that parent role to deal with in such an immediate manner, you know?
ELIAS: (Laughs) Discovering your OWN new freedom.
BOBBI: Exactly! Exactly, and that's what it has been, so that kind of trickled down to a lot of other areas too. You know, it's like “Oh, it's so nice having freedom in this area, maybe I'll just have some over there too.” It's been really neat. (Elias laughs)
I do have a few issues about some of that stuff that are not nearly as pressing as they were when I first made the appointment to speak with you. Actually, let's talk about that after a little bit, because I’ve got a lot of little things that I'd like to kind of verify, if that's okay.
ELIAS: Very well.
BOBBI: Okay. I think that my son Chris, essence name Yan, is counterpart to Jeremy/Opan and Mikah.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: And I'm thinking with Jeremy, maybe even a parallel counterpart act going on?
ELIAS: Almost. Not quite, but very close.
BOBBI: Right. Yeah. Okay. I think my daughter Melissa’s color is turquoise.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: And Chris's color is a dark purple-blue.
ELIAS: Correct.
BOBBI: Now, I’m not sure, though—because I was kind of in a meditative state when I got these colors, kind of drifting off to sleep—I’m not sure if those are essence colors or they’re focus colors, and I would tend to go with essence colors.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
BOBBI: Okay. I have a picture hanging in my house that was sort of the impetus or the first thing that got us going on this path to wind up living in this house in the mountains here in Yosemite. It's a very old-time picture, around the turn of the century, and it's two women with long skirts, high button shoes, and they’re both holding hands and doing a high kick on this very narrow little finger of rock coming out over the Yosemite Valley. It's a really neat picture. One of the women in the picture is called Kitty Tatch; she was sort of a character in the Yosemite Valley around that time. It's a long, involved story how this picture led us to buying this house, but I have an impression that Kitty Tatch is a focus of Lawrence.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: And so some of her energy would have sort of been lending in the whole movement. I mean, specifically me being attracted to that picture and the whole progression of events.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Yeah. That is so nice. (Both chuckle) I had an impression of myself perhaps being one of the apostles of Jesus, and I think that was Simon the Zealot. Is that correct?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Is that a directing focus?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: And you’d tell me the difference, right? Directing or lifetime observing.
ELIAS: Correct.
BOBBI: Okay. Well, neat then! (Both laugh)
BOBBI: Okay, let me see. You know, there’s those scrolls, the Nag Hammadi scrolls, which the first time I ever heard of them I was immediately drawn to them and fascinated by them. I think that I probably have some connection, either a counterpart or observing essence or a focus of individuals who wrote and then hid, and then even found the scrolls and are working with the scrolls, those three different events. Is that correct?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Yeah. It’s just this huge fascination.
Okay, I was watching a movie about an older man from New Zealand who races motorcycles in the ‘60s and ‘70s. His name was Burt Munro. He was quite a character. I was wondering if that is a focus of Ron/Olivia?
ELIAS: Overlapping, yes.
BOBBI: Cool (chuckles). Neat! Howard has an impression—Howard/Bosht—that I hold a focus as William S. Hart in the movies, playing a cowboy in the movies.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Is that right?
ELIAS: Correct.
BOBBI: Woo! Okay! Well, he’ll be jazzed at that. (Both laugh)
You know the last time we talked, we talked about that current focus that I have that still lives in South America, the tribal one. The premise is that the whole group is already shifted?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: And you kind of challenged me to find out what country that was. I think that's in Venezuela.
ELIAS: Correct.
BOBBI: Okay, cool. And I was curious as to how their sort of mass early shift occurred. I mean, was it a process, or since they’re so isolated it just went much faster, or did they shifted much easier because of pre-existing cultural beliefs, or did they just wake up shifted one day? What happened?
ELIAS: No, it has been a process, but in that, in the subjective movement of the process, that was assimilated more strongly. There is less structure, and therefore in their process, that allowed them to generate this action of shifting more quickly, for there are less obstacles, so to speak. Not that they do not incorporate beliefs just as do all of you, but that they incorporate less structure, and therefore their beliefs have been not expressed as rigidly or as intensely as most individuals within more structured societies. And therefore, the action of acceptance of beliefs was somewhat easier, and their openness to subjective movement and their openness to awareness of beyond themselves, so to speak, also allowed for a swifter movement.
BOBBI: The [inaudible] of their culture and their lifestyle, then? Sort of.
ELIAS: Yes. Yes!
BOBBI: I kind of get the feeling that probably many of us in the forum have focuses in that tribe.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: I was trying to connect with who those individuals might be. The first name that came to mind was Christian.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Milde, or Sheri?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Debbie/Oona?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Lynda/Ruther?
ELIAS: No.
BOBBI: Oh. And I got probably not Michael, Mary/Michael.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: I’m sorry, I couldn't hear what you said. Yes or no?
ELIAS: Yes, Michael does incorporate.
BOBBI: Oh, really?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Good! Okay. And that's as far as I got. I figure everybody else could figure out if [inaudible] or not. (Both laugh)
BOBBI: Okay. I got a name a while ago as Lady [inaudible], a woman in Scotland in the 1500s, as a focus of me?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: I think that I'm probably counterpart and also observing essence of the actress and singer Queen Latifah.
ELIAS: Correct.
BOBBI: I’ve been trying to connect with Asian focuses, and I think that most of my Asian focuses were just kind of very peaceful personalities, simple farmers, probably a lot of them Milumet aligned, and that was kind of the overview of my Asian focuses.
ELIAS: Yes, you are correct.
BOBBI: I have a couple of game entries. [1]
ELIAS: Very well.
BOBBI: I would revisit my new category from last fall of movie monsters. In the category of movie monsters, I would say the Creature from the Black Lagoon with Milumet.
ELIAS: One point.
BOBBI: Okay. A mummy with Tumold.
ELIAS: One point.
BOBBI: And a witch with Sumari.
ELIAS: One point!
BOBBI: All right! My last one would be in the category of numbers: the number 9 with Zuli, purple.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Okay. So much for the game thing. (Elias chuckles)
BOBBI: Oh! This is just kind of informational for me: Lately I decided to lose some weight, and I have found that it's been very easy and actually sort of pleasurable, and it's been happening pretty easily. So I’m wondering, since this is very different than how it usually is in the rest of my life, would this equal like a lightening of my energy, or am I just more accepting and trusting of myself? Or what would this correspond to?
ELIAS: Both. Not opposing yourself and generating more of an allowance, appreciating yourself more, and that does generate a lightening of your energy.
BOBBI: I’ve noticed that lightening of energy in a lot of other areas where normally I would tend to get kind of nervous or real wound up, and just whatever, who cares. (Elias laughs) You know, again, that's very different for me too, and it's been very nice.
ELIAS: (Laughs) Discovering new freedoms and allowing yourself to genuinely ALLOW rather than holding to or worrying or struggling. (Chuckles)
BOBBI: Yeah. Yeah, and pushing, again, and you know, me and my pushing my energy and just kind of let go of that.
ELIAS: (Laughs) I am very acknowledging of you, my friend.
BOBBI: (Laughs) Thank you! (Elias chuckles)
BOBBI: Okay. Let's see about anything else. Oh, you know what? I was thinking about all my current focuses, and I know there are six of us, but when I count them all up I come up with seven, one too many, so if we could kind of go through those and weed them out and see who shouldn't be in that list? Is that all right?
ELIAS: It is not necessary. You have generated an additional.
BOBBI: Oh!
ELIAS: (Laughs) This occurs quite frequently, my friend. Alterations in numbering of focuses is quite common.
BOBBI: Okay. Awesome. The list will stand, then. (Both laugh) Very good.
Okay. I have actually some stuff, and it's probably all overlapping, and I thought maybe we could talk a little about exposure and vulnerability. You know, I had mentioned, gosh, it started last fall or something I had that pain in the Achilles area of my heel, and we talked about vulnerability and how it relates to that. The dumb thing [is], it comes and goes. I mean, it gets so bad to the point where I think I’m just going to have to get a cane or something as I hobble around, then it gets a little better and then it doesn't. And usually when I have these physical manifestations like this, once I connect to or recognize what the specific issue is, then I can address to whatever physical manifestation it is and it will heal and go away. Now, obviously I haven't really, you know, poked into what specifically is causing this severe heel pain, because it's not going away, and if anything it's getting worse.
So I know that you have talked to Ben/Albert about he has pain in his feet too; I’ve seen some of his transcripts [inaudible], and you’re talking about exposure and vulnerability, and I thought, “Well maybe that's the issue here as well with me.” So anyway, can we talk a little bit about that?
ELIAS: And what is your assessment in relation to exposure and vulnerability when you evaluate this situation?
BOBBI: Well, I know me, and I know I'm not crazy about exposure. I know I have issues with vulnerability, and usually I try to do things so that I will not be in a position to be vulnerable. I try to do strengths and whatever it is. So I don't like those two things, and...
ELIAS: But in that, it is an area that hinders your freedom. You are generating movement in many different areas which are allowing you to express much more of your freedom and express much more allowance with yourself, but you also generate the obstacle in relation to the vulnerability. For in generating vulnerability, you generate genuine openness, and in the openness you allow yourself much greater freedoms.
Vulnerability and exposure are not necessarily expressions that require the involvement of other individuals; that is not necessarily the point. The expression of exposure is associated with your willingness to genuinely expose yourself to yourself in genuinely allowing yourself to recognize and accept and not oppose your own guidelines and the manner in which you express yourself, and not restricting that or not hiding, so to speak, from certain aspects of yourself or experiences.
Many times individuals may generate an issue with exposure, for they generate judgements in relation to themselves concerning past experiences. And in that, the individual strives to generate different experiences in the present that can almost be viewed as redeeming from whatever experiences they have generated in the past that they view to be wrong or not very good, or that they did not accomplish in certain expressions well enough; and therefore, their motivation to alter their expressions is born out of a sense that that shall provide them with a type of redemption for what they are not pleased with.
In actuality, that does not occur. What occurs is you attempt to create more and more distance between your present and whatever you disliked in relation to your past, and that generally is expressed in attempting to ignore. And in that, what occurs is you create shrines, and thusly you create opposing energy. But—if you can genuinely expose to yourself certain expressions and experiences that you have generated pastly and recognize that regardless of what judgement you place upon those experiences now, in the moment that they were generated they were purposeful, and they did offer you information in some capacity.
That is not to say that you shall automatically now like the experiences that you may have generated previously that you disliked, but that you allow yourself to be accepting of yourself and recognize that each of you within your reality generates some experiences that you do not like—and that is not to be equated with who you are or your value. They are experiences, and in those experiences you do offer yourself information.
This is the point of exposure. It is not a matter of generating an outward expression in which you exposure yourself to other individuals by generating confession, but more that you allow yourself to genuinely express within yourself an acceptance of the expressions and experiences that may have been uncomfortable or disliked, and not discount yourself in relation to those, and generate the ability to view experiences such as that as a benefit to who you are now and what you know now.
The vulnerability is the expression of genuinely generating an openness. That is difficult for many individuals, for there is an automatic association that if you generate openness you create the potential for discomfort. But in actuality, in generating openness you generate an expression that allows you to receive, and that is significant. For in allowing yourself to receive, you also allow yourself to express much more fully and more easily, for you generate a free flow rather than merely in one direction. Are you understanding?
BOBBI: Yes. I think so. Well yeah, I’m mostly understanding. (Both laugh) I guess I’m not sure, because it sounds so dumb, even on a basic level what you mean by generating an openness. Just not being on guard, or…? What exactly do you mean by that?
ELIAS: In expressing an openness, you allow yourself to relax some of your expressions of rigidity that expressions must be generated in a certain manner, actions must be done in a certain manner; that you allow for the injection, so to speak, of other types of expressions, other possibilities, other experiences that are not necessarily familiar to you.
It is an action of noticing your hesitation in any expression and evaluating what motivates that, what generates a necessity for that hesitation. And in that evaluation, for the most part you shall begin to recognize that the hesitation is not necessary, that it is being motivated by a false fear.
Generally speaking, when individuals allow themselves to genuinely express an openness and notice when they are experiencing hesitations in different situations, they can evaluate quite quickly and easily whether their hesitation is genuine in an expression of intuition or whether it is a hesitation that is being motivated by an unfounded or false fear—which, most individuals in most of their hesitations are expressing an unfounded or false fear.
You wish not to express yourself in a certain manner with another individual for they may perceive you as a lunatic, or they may perceive you as bad, or they may perceive you as stupid. These are unfounded and false fears. They are assumptions, and they are expressed in association with your own questioning of yourself. In not paying attention to hesitations and not evaluating what is motivating them, you do express less openness and less vulnerability, for you shield.
Individuals generate that action when they are being careful. If you are genuinely not doubting yourself and generating your own empowerment and accepting of yourself and expressing your own confidence, and allowing yourself to express freely, you do not concern yourself with those types of questions, for you generate the knowing and acceptance within yourself, and therefore it is not necessary to be careful.
BOBBI: A much clearer idea of what you mean by exposure and vulnerability, so that in expressing yourself and having that confidence, that could even go over into the area of being confident is not HAVING to respond to something or not.
ELIAS: (Firmly) Yes! Precisely. It is not a matter of exposure in the manner of divulging to other individuals and confessing or expressing every element of yourself to other individuals; it is a matter of not hiding within yourself.
BOBBI: I suppose it’s more like openness and exposure, vulnerability to yourself.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: More than an outward [inaudible], thinking of it in terms of outward interactions.
ELIAS: Many times automatically, that vulnerability and exposure with yourself will allow you to BE more expressive outwardly; but that is, in a manner of speaking, an automatic byproduct of that exposure and vulnerability that you express with yourself, for you are not shielding with yourself, and that allows you to generate a much clearer understanding of yourself and, in a figurative manner of speaking, to brush away these hindering false fears that are unnecessary.
BOBBI: I really feel like I have been moving much more rapidly in that direction in the last few months. Maybe it's because of that… What’s bringing this to mind is the manifestation of this intense pain in my heel. Actually it’s gone to both heels now, where some days it is extremely difficult to walk. I feel like I’m moving in those areas of exposure and openness in the way you have defined it.
ELIAS: Yes. And I would express to you that this movement and experiencing of the lightness of your energy shall be helpful also.
BOBBI: I guess I’m trying to correlate it to understand what the relationship was in intensifying this physical manifestation.
ELIAS: To draw to your awareness the importance of these expressions, to emphasize the importance. You're generating all of this other movement, my friend, and that is genuinely widening your awareness and empowering you, but you are—or have not been—to this point clearly aware of the significance and importance of these two expressions and how much they can hinder all of the movement that you are generating if they are not recognized as being significantly important. Therefore, to emphasize the importance of these expressions and the value of them, you generate an intensification of the physical manifestation to create a louder message.
BOBBI: Okay. Suddenly it all clicked as you were talking there. (Elias laughs) And I was thinking, “In real physical terms this physical manifestation is hindering my movement, so what am I doing to hinder my movement? But that’s…” Okay.
ELIAS: Precisely!
BOBBI: Yeah, it all falls into place now, and I can see in certain instances where it sort of got worse and I was thinking, “Okay, what's going on there, and I can see the situation that’s creating it although not the specifics of what I was doing.” Okay, I didn’t!
ELIAS: (Laughs) Congratulations!
BOBBI: (Laughs) Yeah, exactly. Now we’ll see if this helps or if I’m talking to you [inaudible]—we’ll see. (Both laugh)
And you know, it explains something else. Sometimes Chris calls and it’s a difficult phone conversation for various reasons, and it's usually very upsetting to me and I wind up kind of upset for a day or two. And thinking through it, the last time I thought—and I couldn't remember why, but I thought, “Oh! Oh, I can hardly wait ‘til we’ve talked again and we have another of these insane conversations and I can experience that,” and it was for a reason that now I see. It was to sort of bring up the whole exposure, vulnerability and even rigidness.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: [Inaudible] Okay. Good! Thank you. (Elias laughs)
So that's sort of it as far as all of my topics for today go. I was going to ask if you would give me a little clue or a little preview of what you’re going to be talking about in the group session on Saturday.
ELIAS: Thought.
BOBBI: Thought?
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: Really! In terms of what?
ELIAS: In many directions. There is a tremendous amount of energy and attention that is being expressed in relation to thought with many, many, many, many individuals in this time framework, and I recognize that it may be presently quite beneficial to defining more the mechanism of thought and what it does, what it does not do, what it can do, what it cannot do, and how you as individuals interplay with this particular mechanism. It can be very beneficial and accurate, or it can be quite inaccurate and destructive. (Pause)
BOBBI: I look forward to hearing that.
ELIAS: Very well.
BOBBI: [Inaudible] So we’re still doing the truth wave, right?
ELIAS: Yes. But I may express, in which most individuals shall receive happily, it is beginning to decline.
BOBBI: Woo hoo! (Both laugh) Very good! Well, maybe by the next group session in the fall you’ll have good news for us. (Both laugh) It’s been particularly long lasting.
ELIAS: Quite! But this particular wave was not actually generating the point with most individuals until recently. (Chuckles)
BOBBI: Oh, I get it, I totally recognize that too. It seems like it had reached sort of an intensity in the last few months.
ELIAS: Yes.
BOBBI: An intensity in clarity also.
ELIAS: Yes, in which individuals genuinely began to recognize what a truth is and what their truth is, and how it is affecting and how it is expressed, and genuinely beginning to recognize them as guidelines, not as the evil enemy.
BOBBI: [Inaudible] Okay, I think… You know, we’re done a little early. Is there anything else that you would like to add?
ELIAS: Merely an encouragement, my friend. You are accomplishing quite well, and I am acknowledging of you and offering--
BOBBI: I notice your energy, too, and your help. I do notice it quite often.
ELIAS: (Laughs) I am with you always (chuckles), and at times reminding you to incorporate playfulness. (Laughs)
BOBBI: Which reminds me of a very funny dream I had. It had been sort of a… not an intense dream, but kind of serious dream. In the second part, the end part in the dream, I was looking at a takeout food place that was being built. It was going to be drive-thru, and I was looking at the building thinking, “They’re never going to fit a drive-thru through it, how they going to do that? And this loud old car pulled up, like a big old-time Cadillac with fins, and inside was a man from the Blue Man Group—I don't know if you are aware of it, that entertainment group. His face was blue and shiny, and he leaned out the window and yelled, “When is the pizza ready?,”(both laugh) referring to the building that was going to be built, and then roared off. Even in the dream that seemed very peculiar. (Elias laughed) But I assumed it was your energy and pretty much just as a reminder of playfulness.
ELIAS: Yes. (Laughs) That all within your reality is not SO serious. (Laughs)
BOBBI: And in the dream, then, you were ready for pizza and for a party.
ELIAS: (Laughs) Perhaps the analyzation can be placed upon hold temporarily. (Laughs)
BOBBI: Exactly. (Elias laughs) That was just for a piece of pizza.
ELIAS: (Laughs) And playing.
BOBBI: Yes. Yes, exactly.
ELIAS: (Laughs) There is quite enough seriousness in your world.
BOBBI: Well, yeah, recently especially. Yes, true.
ELIAS: (Chuckles) Very well, my friend, I shall greatly be anticipating our next discussion (chuckles) and your progress, and I shall be offering my supportiveness to you in every moment. (Chuckles)
In great friendship and appreciation and genuine lovingness, au revoir.
(Elias departs after 51 minutes)
[1] Game definition: The Game started with Ron/Olivia trying to remember names of essences he’d seen in a dream. This evolved into trying to connect (using intuition, not logic) the names of anything to an essence family in the categories of color, gender, tone, gemstones, plants, animals, fictional characters—anything of the player’s choice. Refer to eliasweb.org/GameIntro
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