Sunday, April 2, 2006

Participants: Mary (Michael), Ella (Bella) and Inna (Beatrix)

ELIAS: Good morning!

INNA: Good morning, Elias.

ELLA: Good morning, Elias. It’s good to see you. I think the major topic of today’s discussion is going to be understanding more of how we create. But before I get to that, I do have some impressions for a friend – you know this happens. Our friend Natasha said that a number of people told her recently that she resembles to them a lot Nikki Tambley, and Natasha was wondering if there is any relationship to Nikki Tambley at all.

ELIAS: Counterpart action, and they also have shared several focuses.

ELLA: Any particular focus you wanted to comment on?

ELIAS: One with Michael also, all three as siblings.

ELLA: What period of time? Where?

ELIAS: Sixteen hundreds, Belgium.

ELLA: At this point, I will ask questions for my friend and co-worker Elena. I had impressions of her essence family for several months. I think Elena is Tumold/Vold or in reverse.

ELIAS: The first impression is correct.

ELLA: I had an impression of her essence name. I’m not positive, but to me it sounded like Meyuro, or something starting with “M.”

ELIAS: (Pause) Similar.

ELLA: How do you spell that?

ELIAS: Miura (mee-OR-ah), M-I-U-R-A.

ELLA: She is common, right?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: She is not final?

ELIAS: No.

ELLA: And I would like to know how many focuses she has in this dimension.

ELIAS: Six hundred thirty-two.

ELLA: Interesting. I had 162, but I could relate to 6 and 2. I was just checking right now; it was now, this impression. What is the focus color and essence color? The focus color would be what?

ELIAS: And your impression?

ELLA: There’s a lot of black in there. So, I’m sure one of them is the focus color, probably. The other one is some sort of... I don’t know how you say it. Warm beige – not beige – the color of the stone she utilizes, topaz. She’s very attracted to the stone. I think there’s also a preference to that color. So, I would say it would be the black and this very warm yellow.

ELIAS: Amber.

ELLA: So, which one? The focus is black, and the essence is amber?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Now, really what we are very much interested in is that I could see that she has ability, cognitive and intuitive ability, but she suppresses it. I guess information that I offer doesn’t really resonate with her to a degree that she’s comfortable. I think she wants the confirmation from you that what she is receiving is tuning into a dominant probability or one of the dominant probabilities – I mean perceiving that information versus creating that event in somebody else’s reality and then feeling responsible for it. She holds a fear of seeing something bad in somebody else’s life and being responsible for it. Would you offer her some thoughts?

ELIAS: What she is tapping into is probabilities. Therefore, they are potentials but not absolutes, and it is not necessary for her to incorporate personal responsibility for other individuals. For these are all choices, and therefore, they may be potentials or probabilities but not an absolute. For the other individuals incorporate choice in every moment, and they may not choose those potentials but that does not invalidate what she taps into.

ELLA: That is not the concern. The concern is – I understand what you’re saying – she might have perceived that person A was going in direction A, and that person was going in direction B. We are fine with that. Her primary fear is where she has received that person A will be sick and then person A gets sick. When they actually choose a dominant probability, she feels that she somehow might have inflicted that on them.

ELIAS: No.

ELLA: I am trying to explain that the individual creates their own reality, and probably she would like to hear that from you.

ELIAS: Yes, that is correct.

ELLA: She just perceives.

ELIAS: That is correct. But I shall express to you, in this it is significant and important for the individual to be aware of what she expresses to whom in what time framework. For in that, there is an element of suggestibility.

ELLA: That’s what I’m thinking. So, if a person has multiple probabilities that are... Let’s say three probabilities, and out of them two are quite possible. A person like Elena would tell them, “You know, I think you’re going to get sick,” versus the other choice, which might have been just as well not to get sick. Could you actually sort of push somebody in that direction?

ELIAS: It is not a matter of pushing another individual, no. You are not incorporating that action, but there is an element of suggestibility. When you are interacting with another individual concerning potentials which would be associated with future choices or events or creations, those are potentials.

If she is engaging another individual, such as this example that you have incorporated, it is important first to recognize what her motivation is in sharing that information with the other individual, and also to be clear that this is a potential, not absolute, not expressing to another individual, “I see this is going to occur with you in the future” in an absolute manner, for that generates creating that avenue for suggestibility, yes.

ELLA: That’s what I’m saying. I’m not saying you’re pushing somebody physically, but yet mentally you are giving them some sort of an influence which might lean them towards one of the probabilities.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: One of the people told me never... Well, I am very suggestible, so for myself I would always tend to say to people that read your palm or cards...

ELIAS: Correct.

ELLA: They could tell me anything, and I will just actualize it, just because somebody told me it was going to happen.

ELIAS: Yes, and that is a factor with most individuals.

ELLA: That’s very poignant to me, what you’re saying.

ELIAS: Therefore, it is important that it is clarified and expressed that this is a potential or a possibility but not definite.

ELLA: But she definitely has this ability?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Would you suggest for her to develop it? Or it’s a choice?

ELIAS: That would be her choice, but she has already developed this to an extent.

ELLA: Right. But she’s suppressing, I feel, because of the fear. The question that she asked me, when she feels that guilt and fear, how does she deal with it? I guess you already answered this in what you explained that she does not need to hold this guilt.

ELIAS: Correct, and in recognizing that she is aware of her own motivation in sharing information that she taps into, that shall alleviate the guilt also. If she is expressing to the other individual clearly that what she is tapping into or what she views is not a definite but that she does view this possibility, that is not setting in stone and therefore alleviates some of her personal responsibility.

Also, evaluating her own motivation shall be helpful. For in that, if she is motivated to offer information to an individual to prevent an action or to fix – and many times that is the motivation, but the individual interprets it as being helpful – therefore, it is significant that she defines to herself how she defines helpfulness. For, her definition of helpfulness may be to be fixing or to be preventing or to be offering information to alter another individual’s direction or to change another individual’s direction. Those are not helpful, but individuals many times do define helpfulness in those manners, and they are not helpful. Therefore, in examining her own motivation, what is motivating her to share certain information that she taps into, and evaluating: Is this necessary?

ELLA: Well, what would be helpful? I don’t get it.

ELIAS: Does this individual actually want this information in this moment?

She has developed this ability to tap into potential probabilities. Now it is important that she also, if she chooses to continue and develop further, it is important that she also develop her own sense of her own energy, her own motivation and the other individual’s energy – not merely viewing potential probabilities and automatically sharing, but also allowing herself to be aware and tap into the individual’s energy present in that moment and what is beneficial to them to receive, whether they are ready.

INNA: You say she will intuitively know what a person wants?

ELIAS: Yes, if allowing herself to connect to the other individual’s energy, and in connecting with the other individual’s energy in the moment, not in the projection but in the moment, yes, intuitively...

ELLA: She might feel, she just might not perceive it this way. I’m sure she’s going to have many more questions, but I would first let her practice with this information and then maybe in a following session pick up from there.

ELIAS: Very well.

ELLA: With me, that brings more pressure. (Both laugh)

Anyway, I have a cat for many years, my husband’s cat, and I have an impression that animal perceives something within the house, because it talks to it in a very loud manner. To me, sometimes it appears that it’s Indian that it’s communicating. I’d like to know what it is communicating with.

ELIAS: And your impression?

ELLA: Well, I think there is definitely a presence, some essence. I don’t think it’s mine.

ELIAS: No.

ELLA: I don’t know if it’s yours, but... (Laughter) You? You are trying to attract my attention for years! (All laugh) It’s howling every frigging night. You have that much free time on your hands that you have to come here every night and make the animal howl?

INNA: There is no time!

ELIAS: (Laughs) That is correct.

ELLA: You know what I thought? I didn’t think that it was your presence. I thought that it was possibly Patel, because he is more in pranks like that. What I thought, somebody told me that in this house somebody disengaged by killing themselves. I don’t feel any animosity to whoever was there, but I thought possibly my cat senses them hanging around and still being connected with the place. But you don’t think...

ELIAS: There are energy deposits. It is not that the individual is hanging around, but there are...

ELLA: Still being attracted to the place.

ELIAS: Yes. There are energy deposits.

ELLA: In our house...

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: ...still present. Does he talk to them also?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: He’s very sensitive. But that’s okay. I don’t think he’s in pain. He sounds sometimes like he is in pain, and yet I look at him and I know he is talking to somebody.

ELIAS: Yes. Creatures are quite sensitive to what you do not see. (Chuckles)

ELLA: I have something that I was never ready to discuss because this is one of my dark secrets, but I really have a lot of judgment on myself just because of the way I deal with him. His loud, persistent noise drives me crazy, so sometimes he gets the rough of it. I’m not asking for anything, just saying that this is the first time I’m actually able to say that I feel like whacking something. I prevent myself from doing that, but yet I also feel sometimes, with his energy and mine, really crowded. Once I found my (inaudible), and so that’s part of my dark secret.

ELIAS: And what do you perceive that you can do or choices that you can engage to cooperate with you but allow that to continue?

ELLA: Are you saying that I limit my choices in this type of interaction with him, that I only see one way of letting my frustration out? Maybe I should also yell as loud as he does, and maybe that would help. I don’t know.

I know that I’ve noticed for many years that even though to me most of the time I appear as a really peaceful and gentle person – I don’t know if it’s a gentle person, but more a normal, nice person – but I have that dark side to me that periodically surfaces. To me, it echoes some of the other focuses that I’ve already explored. There is this very powerful and yet almost sometimes not very manageable burst of energy. I associate that with the color black. I observe that I’m not necessarily ready yet to move in that direction and know what to do with it, but I do perceive it. I actually accept it more within me just as one of the experiences that I offer myself as knowing all of myself and accepting all of myself. That’s what I’m doing.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

ELLA: We talked of the advantages of that, and I do notice the way I thought you were interacting with me slightly since the last time I saw you. I feel like my cursor jumps sometimes in a weird way on my computer, sometimes advancing by itself, and the light bulb in the bathroom is constantly flickering, flickering. Is that also part of your energy, or somebody else is interacting this way?

ELIAS: At times, my energy; at times, that would be associated with Patel.

ELLA: But I have a feeling that he is also (inaudible) very playful manner. Once I thought it was your energy, because Inna and I were talking about something, and I had one of your sessions opened on the computer screen. While we were reading and discussing something, the session closed by itself. I thought it was your confirmation to what we were discussing at the moment. That was pretty obvious to me.

Okay, I would like now to discuss the main portion of what I’m interested in. We all are very interested in how we create, and actually, in certain events in my life, I really am very comfortable acknowledging to myself yes, I am creating that for my own benefit. I benefit from it, and it doesn’t have to be all this very difficult. Yet parts of it are still eluding me.

I have asthma. I had a very deep belief that these clinical illnesses cannot be cured, and so I basically resigned to it. Eventually I created for myself a different venue of working in that, and I have experience with a homeopath that I’ve been seeing for about four years. Within that experience, I’m realigning my beliefs, but I’m not there yet. I’m sort of turning the dial slowly, that in spite of what kind of illness it is, I am able to work with my body consciousness and heal my body. It doesn’t have to be absolute. Working with a homeopath is very easy for me. I don’t have to impose on myself some very difficult or very painful routines. I enjoy what she is doing. She gives me a tiny pill. There you go, I’m breathing well. So, it’s very easy outward advice.

The way she’s working, I don’t know, I don’t understand how I create how she is working with me. Because on the one hand, she also does not respond well to this type of information. If I read to her about energies and focuses, she rejects all this. Okay, so I have to work within her frame of mind. Sometimes that’s constraining to me, because the way she works with me, she asks for free association, a sort of visualization. I readily put myself under and go and perceive images. But some of that imagery is, I think, from different dimensions or different probabilities, and I don’t always know how to deliver it to her in the manner that she would understand.

The way she is treating me, she thinks that she has to find a dominant fear, whatever the fear that is affecting me, and that would somehow help her to treat me, to release that fear, which actually makes sense to me, because that’s a waste of energy. She was working on spiders, fear of spiders – I have a very interesting fear that I also will ask about in that area – and that was beneficial. It was working well for a while. Then finally the same remedy stopped working. I think what I created, I actually released something and then went on a different level. Is that correct? Now we have to start working on a different level. Now she is exploring a fear of snakes. Does that make sense, what she is doing? Because I am creating that, actually. I am attracting that information.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: So, what she is doing is fine? I can relax and not question my own creation that much? Is that okay for me, just to go with the flow and offer whatever comes to me?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Am I creating well in that? I perceive that I am a little bit more aware of what I am creating in this direction.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: You advise me to continue in the same direction? You offer any...?

ELIAS: Yes. For this allows you to move in increments, and the imagery matters not, for you can incorporate any imagery. You are choosing the imageries that you are presenting to allow yourself in steps to choose to release energy and to address to opening yourself more and trusting yourself more.

ELLA: But do I create a good chance for her abilities while doing that? Am I releasing much more of this tension that I’m feeling and actually improve my ability to breathe well?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Because I am feeling very (inaudible) about what she is doing. I guess my fear is that I am leading her in circles, that I offer her some sort of an imagery that makes no sense. But what you’re saying, the image doesn’t matter; whatever comes, it’s okay.

ELIAS: Correct. For it is all a process of releasing energy, releasing tension and allowing yourself to become more open and trusting yourself and trusting your body consciousness.

ELLA: Within what occurs, I have such a vivid and almost physical imagery, like (inaudible) doing this type of exercises?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Then I would like to verify some of the impressions that came from them. While she was exploring the fear of spiders, I found myself in a cave being attacked by shelobs, so I thought possibly I’m a focus of Frodo in that image, or observing – I’m not sure – in The Lord of the Rings.

ELIAS: As I have expressed previously, in relation to these other dimensions, the characters in the stories are representations. Therefore, it is not an assignment of this character is this individual. It is, yes; you incorporate a focus in that dimension that is represented by the character.

ELLA: So, I did have experience similar to what Frodo experienced in that fictionalized version?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: In the Harry Potter reality, a kid that was also attacked by big spiders – do I also have a focus that is represented either by Harry Porter or Hermione or...?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Which one? Harry Potter?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Because that’s what I relate to. I relate to him so much. He is my...

I also saw a man while we were exploring the snake imagery. If I knew how to draw, I could draw a painting of the man that I saw who was bit by the snake. Does that have to be always a focus of mine, or it could that be someone else I’m perceiving? I saw a young rather bushy man of about 35, hunter’s type of dress, walking in the woods and being bitten by a snake. What I remember very well is he was so sure of himself, a macho guy. Aside from that fear of understanding that he was going to die, it was just a tremendous surprise: “That should happen to me? Incredible! I cannot die now.” He was just incredible (inaudible). Who was that?

ELIAS: That is another focus.

ELLA: It looks like almost contemporary, though, not a long time ago, because the dress, the setting was rather contemporary. Maybe within this century, is what I’m saying.

ELIAS: Within the early years of the twentieth century.

ELLA: I think I have another five minutes, so I can...

With respect to holding tension and affecting my breathing, and also with respect to responsibility over another person’s life – which I understand there’s none, but perceiving it as such – I generate instant and automatic fear and tightness in me, looking at my husband when he’s not breathing well. First of all, there is obviously a parallel, because I’m also affected in this area, but also there’s a lot of guilt, which I understand it’s very a wasteful use of energy. But I do feel this and notice it’s a very automatic reaction. So, then I sort of talk myself out of it, but yet I still go into that more. Why did I have that experience here in my life, not feeling well and him being the way he is? I mean, is that one of my experiences that I’m exploring?

ELIAS: Addressing to.

ELLA: But what is the meaning?

ELIAS: What is your guilt?

ELLA: Well, my expectations. I have a lot of expectations of what a well-rounded person is. I’m analyzing myself in this area right now and so the expectations of myself of that image, would you say?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Image affects me in many respects, because in my case, in this particular case, I am not a good wife. I’m not controlling his life or his vanity. He should be eating well and exercising, and I’m not making him. Therefore, I am not a good partner, and that would create a lot of guilt. So, I do understand this correctly?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: But then the conclusion out of that, I should tell you, what I’m doing now is I’m telling myself it’s his choice and he’s happy within his choice. If his choice will be to disengage, it’s still going to be his choice.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: As mine would be.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: So, I’m still automatically jumping to that, but the benefit of what I’m doing is that now I am able to move away from it...

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: ...and notice almost every time that I’m doing it.

ELIAS: Yes, and also acknowledge yourself for noticing. In this, remind yourself, regardless of what you do, it shall not change his choices. Therefore, it is not a question that you are a good partner or a not-good partner. You are the partner, and you are generating your interactions, and you are sharing with each other, and you are sharing yourself with your partner. That is the point.

ELLA: And being there for him, right?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Which I enjoy a lot, actually.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: But on the other hand, I also allow myself right now to withdraw when I need to and do something that is pleasant for myself, which I think is also very beneficial.

ELIAS: Very much so.

ELLA: And the last question, then Inna can ask her questions. Just overall in the movement that we are right now generating, all four of us, particularly for myself, have you, are you seeing progress, significant progress...

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: ...or a little bit of progress?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Particularly for myself, am I...? I understand that I still have to identify the truth and then identify with the truth. I understand how that affects me.

ELIAS: Yes. But you are moving in that direction, and you are generating significant movement and significant opening. I am greatly acknowledging of you in what you are noticing, that you are paying attention.

ELLA: My effort to pay attention, I have been consciously doing that...

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: ...and I will continue to do so. Actually, what helps is I do write down certain things. I’ve noticed since I’ve started writing down my dreams – and I will continue to do that – I think I found a dream trigger, but I also don’t know if it has a meaning with it. In the majority of my dreams, I am away on a trip. To me it feels like a dream trigger.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: But yet also I have some sort of desire to be away? I’m not sure if it has meaning for me. I don’t view it as simply a dream trigger.

ELIAS: It is a dream trigger, and it also is a symbol.

ELLA: But that’s what I’m asking. What is the symbology?

ELIAS: This symbol is associated with your movement and accomplishment.

INNA: Okay, it’s time for so many questions. First question from Avalot – he found a focus. It is a Samurai focus in 1500, 1500s, and his name is Musashi Miyamoto, and he was a famous Japanese Sumari. His question is, is it his focus?

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: There’s no doubt. (Laughs) A second question for my son, Michael, Misha. I am just going to say it how he is saying it: “Why am I afraid to be abundant?” He’s saying it doesn’t make logical sense. I never left him. I never did anything to him. I’m a good mom. But he has a fear to be abundant. So why...?

ELIAS: It is associated with responsibility, that the more abundant he may be, the more responsible he may feel in association with that abundance.

ELLA: Abundance or abandonment?

INNA: Abandonment, being left. He is afraid I am going to leave him. Even when he was a small child, he would go, “You’re going to forget to pick me up.” I never did, never. But he had that fear. He would always look at me: “Where is my mom?” He was always afraid. It didn’t make too much sense, like he did it.

ELIAS: This IS associated with responsibility.

INNA: So he would be taking care of himself?

ELIAS: He incorporates a fear of being responsible for himself. Therefore, he projects this fear to you and projects the responsibility to you.

INNA: It’s not just to me. Even he watches a movie and if somebody lives alone, like lonely people who have nobody, he feels emotionally sorry for these people. He doesn’t want to be alone. He has a fear to be alone, which doesn’t make too much...

ELLA: I would think it’s connected to some different focuses, or maybe he was left somewhere, maybe he was abandoned somewhere else and I was... Maybe I did something.

ELIAS: Not you. But yes, he does incorporate a few focuses that have incorporated the experience of separation in dramatic scenarios. Also, in this focus – although he draws considerable energy from other focuses in relation to his own experiences and his own associations – a considerable element of this is associated with responsibility.

INNA: He seems to be okay. I left him alone. He was alone. He seems okay. He can take care of himself, and I was proud of him, actually. I don’t know why he has problem with this. I think it is a fear, some kind of a fear.

ELIAS: That is what the fear is, the fear of being responsible.

ELLA: Is that his truth, one of his truths? Responsibility?

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: Is this because he is intermediate, related to his orientation?

ELIAS: Not necessarily, no.

INNA: Because you think intermediate people really like to be alone. That was my perception. But he hates to be alone. He really...

ELIAS: Intermediate individuals do not necessarily like incorporating aloneness. They may at times want to be incorporating a type of aloneness, which would be demonstrated in they may want to be engaging themselves and their own direction but they also prefer, generally speaking, to know that another individual is close, even if they are not interacting.

INNA: Yeah, that’s (inaudible). I can just be in a different room.

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: In his words, you don’t have to interact.

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: But he wants me to be around.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: That’s what he always says, I want to be home.

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: He hates to be alone. I am trying to understand intermediate, because I am not. I am trying to understand it.

ELIAS: I am understanding. Yes, that would be a factor. That orientation can be generating activity alone, but there is much more of a comfort in knowing that there is or are another individual or individuals present, even if they are not interacting.

This would be a misconception in association with the intermediate orientation. Individuals generate this association that an intermediate individual would be more prone to be isolating – no. A soft individual would be more prone to be isolating, and generally speaking, they do.
An intermediate individual does not function in that type of manner. They may want to be interactive with themselves or in their own direction or engaging whatever they are doing themselves and not necessarily interacting with another individual, but they are not comfortable with isolating. They are more comfortable knowing that there is a presence of other individuals in some capacity.

INNA: That makes sense.

Next question: I want to ask you the essence name and family alignment of a man we were talking about in my first session. His name is Eugene. And just for me, I want to feel the essence name, just to feel it.

ELIAS: Essence name, Lushwashi (loo-WASH-ee), L-U-S-H-W-A-S-H-I.

ELLA: Is that something oriental?

ELIAS: Yes. Do not attempt to pronounce. Feel.

INNA: What I feel was right. What I feel was right, yeah.

ELIAS: Feel.

INNA: And the family, my impression is Sumafi/Ilda, probably.

ELIAS: Correct.

INNA: From here, what I want to talk about is me. We talked about what we create and what we want to create, and the difference between want and desire. And I was thinking, what is my desire in my life? What is my real want? What is my value? I’ve come to the conclusion the biggest, what I value, is a love relationship. Would you agree with that?

ELIAS: Yes, I would agree that is an expression that you value.

INNA: My question is why can’t I create it? I was thinking about it a lot, and what I think, one of my limiting beliefs is I am not lovable. Because of my family situation, I wouldn’t believe somebody could love me. So now, if I understand this, how would I proceed to be able to create it? How do you create? I’m not talking about creating some object, like to create a car or a chair or money. I don’t care about this. Really, I don’t. But it’s more complicated. How do you create an event and it’s an emotional event? Because it does require other individuals. I cannot just love myself, just by being by myself. I’m talking about love with somebody else. So what would I do to create it?

ELIAS: Again, in appreciating you.

INNA: I knew you would say it. I understand it in my head. I understand it logically.

ELLA: I actually think she doesn’t feel she is doing that, but she is creating friends around her that really appreciate her. It is hard for her. She is appreciating herself, but she doesn’t see it.

INNA: It’s more. It’s much better than it used to be. It’s completely different. It’s like a huge difference. When we last talked to you, two years ago, it was completely different. It’s big. That’s what I think, a huge difference.

ELIAS: Yes. But now you continue in acknowledging yourself within your day, each day – each day – acknowledging yourself, acknowledging your accomplishments regardless of what they are. Even if your accomplishment in one moment is that you have noticed some action that you did or that you noticed an emotional communication. Regardless of what it is, acknowledge accomplishments five times within your day, and five times within your day, express some type of genuine appreciation of yourself, regardless of what it is. It matters not, but it must be a genuine appreciation of yourself.

In this, each time you generate the expression of appreciation, place a stick in a bowl – in a bowl, a small stick. In this, you shall acquire quite a few sticks within a time framework. Continue this exercise for a month.

INNA: You mean every time I appreciate, I put a stick in.

ELIAS: You put the stick in the bowl. Choose a ceramic bowl, and subsequent to your month of incorporating these exercises each day, five times within each day, both of the exercises, invite your friends to your home, incorporate your bowl of sticks, surround the bowl and ignite the sticks, and you shall celebrate your accomplishments. You shall celebrate yourself with the fire.

ELLA: For a common person, it’s really objective. You physically feel what you’ve accomplished and this is the result.

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: But I am not so used to doing it. For me...

ELIAS: That IS the point, and this is the reason that I am expressing these two exercises to you.

ELLA: To interrupt.

ELIAS: Yes, and to become familiar with actually appreciating you. If you do not appreciate you, you will not draw to yourself another individual that will appreciate you, and if you do not appreciate you, you cannot receive from other individuals. You shield.

You do incorporate friendships that are significant, and you have allowed yourself to open and to receive more, but you also continue to shield and bounce off and not allow yourself to receive what they offer.

INNA: You know what? Even so, I’m afraid to believe it’s possible. I am afraid to believe it’s going to happen. That’s why I’m shielding.

ELIAS: Which it can occur now, if you begin to generate these exercises each day, beginning this day. Not beginning tomorrow, this day. Begin.

INNA: It’s like something I want so much, but I’m afraid to believe it’s possible. It’s just a fairy tale. I don’t want to think about it. It’s not possible for me.

ELIAS: It IS possible.

ELLA: I would say for me this exercise would be excruciatingly difficult.

INNA: I even say it: Elias doesn’t like me. I always feel when I meet people they are not going to like me. I don’t know why. I don’t do anything bad, you know. I don’t know why, but I feel nobody likes me. Nobody’s going to like me.

ELLA: And to me, she is so likable. She has so much to offer, and I enjoy what she offers. I really like that individual. Yet I perceive the shielding. I can almost tell you every time you shield. I can tell you.

INNA: I can sense when I’m doing that.

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: But I am still doing it. I think it stems from my childhood, because I was thinking my parents don’t love me, and if your parents don’t love you, nobody is ever going to love you. That’s what I think it came from. But I did choose this scenario, so I must go through some challenges to overcome it. That’s maybe something I put for myself. So, I understand I have to love myself before. I understand that’s a challenge.

ELIAS: Yes, and this is the manner in which you begin. You begin with this exercise.

ELLA: I find it very ironic that this is the information she attracted to herself from her husband, because he constantly told her many years ago that you have to love yourself for somebody to love you. She was, I guess, attracted to him a long time ago.

INNA: He put me down a lot. He was, “Nobody, you’re nobody,” and I was always like screaming to myself. I was really screaming.

ELLA: But he didn’t put her far down. She was attracting to herself...

ELIAS: Yes.

INNA: Now I understand it.

ELIAS: And I am recognizing that you understand. But now it is a matter of addressing to now, not projecting to past.

INNA: It’s hard not to do it. Because even if I understand it’s a belief and I correct it with praise, it’s still there.

ELIAS: Very well. We shall incorporate another exercise also. In this, I shall participate with you. You shall incorporate a visualization, once within your day, preferably within your evening after you have been collecting your sticks.

In this, you shall incorporate a visualization, and in this visualization you shall be within a beautiful, calm, warm meadow, and surrounding this meadow is nothing but beautiful fragrant flowers – for as far as you can see in every direction flowers, flowers, flowers, of every type and color, and the fragrance of all of these flowers is very sweet. In this visualization, incorporate your outer senses. Do not think. Concentrate your attention upon your outer senses. How do the flowers smell? How does the sun feel? What do you hear? What do you see? Generate a stimulation of all of your outer senses and genuinely experience the environment surrounding you.

I shall present myself as a butterfly. Do not attempt to manipulate the imagery of the butterfly. Allow it to move freely. I shall manipulate the butterfly, and I shall entertain with the butterfly to also encourage you to not think, for this shall provide a distraction. But the butterfly shall interact with you, and as it interacts with you and as it touches you or as it floats to your hand, pay attention to how delicately you handle the butterfly. You can stroke it, and in this, pay attention to the gentleness that you exhibit with the butterfly. Another butterfly shall appear. That butterfly shall be you. Pay attention to how the butterflies interact with each other and the gentleness and the delicateness that they express with each other. Allow yourself to experience this visualization.

Each time you incorporate projecting past, stop momentarily and remember your butterflies, and offer that gentleness to yourself. This shall encourage you to move back to the present, for your butterflies are always present; they are not past. That shall interrupt this automatic thinking, thinking, thinking, and perhaps you may be remembering and viewing your butterflies many times within your day. But they shall become more familiar to you than the thinking, thinking, thinking in relation to the past.

INNA: Thank you very much.

ELIAS: You are very welcome, and I express in genuineness that I appreciate you, and that as I express friendship, that is also genuine. Regardless of how you discount yourself, my butterfly shall not disappear.

INNA: Thank you. I do appreciate it.

ELIAS: And remember, I am aware that you are not at your home today and that you have not yet acquired your bowl, which you will immediately upon arrival at your home Incorporate the display of your bowl. But even this day, collect your sticks and take them with you when you return to your home, and add them to your new bowl. And it shall become familiar. It is merely a matter of practice.

INNA: Thank you very much for all you have offered.

ELLA: We only have time for a couple of confirmations for me. It will just take a moment. I have been observing certain preferences with my husband, and I think that he has certain focuses I can try to identify. He is attracted to the painter Vermeer, Girl with a Pearl Earring. I think he has a focus in that area. Does he have a focus of Vermeer?

ELIAS: No, but familiar to that focus.

ELLA: He knew Vermeer?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Not as part of the family, as a friend?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: And he is very much attracted to ancient Greece, the philosophers of ancient Greece (inaudible). I thought that he might be having a focus of Aristotle.

ELIAS: A student.

ELLA: Does he possibly have a focus of Nero, the emperor that burned Rome?

ELIAS: No, but he does incorporate a focus in that court.

ELLA: Somebody close to Nero?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: And also, I don’t know why I wrote it but I guess I had an impression, something related to Benjamin Franklin? Observing?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: I for sure know that he must have a focus in India, in the slums of India, maybe in a very poor area, living on the street.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: A boy? A man?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Probably I would say 19th century approximately, the time frame?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Does Sam have a focus of Saladin, the famous Muslim leader?

ELIAS: Observing.

ELLA: Thank you, tremendous. Even the part that you described to Inna, I saw the butterflies, how they interacted among themselves, the gentle touching of their antennas...

INNA: She doesn’t need it. She just goes and I’m...

ELIAS: Discounting, discounting, discounting! Stop!

ELLA: You can use me, because I have an ability you can draw upon.

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: Do you encourage the visiting of the labyrinth for either one of us or all of us, the labyrinths that are in our area? Is there a potential of these being beneficial at all?

ELIAS: Yes.

ELLA: That’s something that I’ll have to try.

ELIAS: For it is a presentment of imagery of your own labyrinths within yourself. In this, you can actually experience physical movement through them.

ELLA: And that there’s no dead end, even though sometimes it seems you don’t know where you’re going.

ELIAS: Correct.

ELLA: I really appreciate the things you are giving me right now. That was so awesome, Elias.

ELIAS: Very well.

INNA: It was really special.

ELLA: We shall see you again.

ELIAS: I shall be anticipating.

ELLA: Are you going to make my cat meow again? I do like the interaction with you, but...

ELIAS: Perhaps!

ELLA: Actually, I would love interacting. Do whatever you want. You want to make things meow and squeak, fine!

ELIAS: Perhaps you may not be as irritated with the creature and its singing if you are recognizing that it is a welcome energy.

ELLA: That does not irritate me. What irritates me, when I already give him all his food and yet he is behind me and he is looking at me and he howls at me. I think he is projecting at me, and I don’t know what else to give him. That’s when I get really frustrated. I feel a responsibility, I guess.

ELIAS: What he wants is your attention.

ELLA: He’s not asking for food?

ELIAS: No. What he wants is for you to express that gentleness, similar to the butterflies, with him.

ELLA: Okay. I’ll try to.

ELIAS: (Laughs) To you each in great fondness and in great encouragement, I shall be anticipating our next meeting. In dear friendship, au revoir.

ELLA: We are sending an energetic hug.

(Elias departs after 1 hour 10 minutes.)

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