Wednesday, September 14, 2005 (Private/Phone)

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Anonymous

(Elias’ arrival time is 16 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

ANON: Good morning, Elias. How are you today?

ELIAS: As always, and yourself?

ANON: I’m interesting; I’m doing all right. Today I’d like to do some new things with the session, and what I’d like to do is work through understanding my process and how I make choices and concentrate my energy, because I’m not sure I understand what I’m doing there. Is that all right with you?

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: There are a couple of scenarios that I want to deal with. I wrote my final MBA exam in August in Toronto, and in the middle of that exam, I created a physical infection, a cellulitis infection, which is a recurring thing for me. I almost gave up writing the exam, which is totally not part of what I usually do. I’d like your input on that, please.

ELIAS: And your impression?

ANON: My impression was that it was almost the breaking point for me in recognizing how much struggle I create in my life. There was a moment in the exam when I didn’t even know how to answer this question and I wanted to just get up and leave. But I recognized that I had choice in that moment, that I could get up and leave, but since I was already there, I might as well finish it, and whatever happened, happened. Since then, I have been dealing with struggle, the concept of struggle, and noticing how much I have created it in my life, and that it is my underlying expression.

ELIAS: And force.

ANON: I want to work with the exam a little bit, because there’s almost an apathy in me. This is where I start to get confused. This is a small example and really contained, so I think it will be helpful. In my head, I maintain the fear that I haven’t passed the exam, and I try to shore myself up — okay, if you haven’t passed, you’ll just write it again in December and that’ll be okay, all these platitudes. But inside of me, I feel really calm and no panic, and it’s okay. It’s almost like I don’t know what to listen to. Does that make sense, what I’m saying?

ELIAS: And in this, you are struggling also.

ANON: I am! When I got home from the exam, I recognized that I had created this infection again. So I asked, “Did I pass the exam,” and I got the impression that yes, I did, and I even got a number. That night, all my dreams where about my being supporting me and showing me how I passed the exam. When I woke up in the morning, I felt very supported by my being, by my inside. It wasn’t like a sales job or anything. Then I thought oh man, do I just let go of that?

ELIAS: This is how you are generating the struggle, for you are questioning whatever you do. You offer yourself information, you offer yourself imagery and impressions, and subsequently you question them. That creates the struggling.

ANON: Yes, I know that, and I guess I feel so incompetent in my understanding of how I create my reality. I do believe that I do — I don’t necessarily want to believe it all the time (laughs) — but I do keep going back to that. You say we create our reality every moment; in this example, at one moment point as I’m bringing in these struggles and these questions, am I creating passing the exam and failing the exam every second?

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: Oh boy.

ELIAS: In this, as you allow yourself to relax and listen to your intuition, listen to your impressions, not generate the questioning but allowing yourself to pay attention to you rather than to the test, in that, you shall calm yourself and allow yourself to stop with this struggling and create what you want.

If you are allowing yourself to move into an expression of calm and allowing yourself to relax, and recognizing yourself not focusing all of your attention upon the outcome but rather allowing yourself to be exploring your own process, the outcome becomes secondary and almost insignificant.

What you are doing is expressing tremendous pressure with yourself in association with certain outcomes, for you are associating certain outcomes with the value of your production and performance, which that also taps into your own value of self, and that motivates this struggling also.

ANON: I understand that.

ELIAS: Listen to your own expression. What did you express to myself? You expressed you engaged the test, and subsequent to it, you generated a thought process and a feeling concerning it that it matters not if you passed or if you did not pass, and if you did not pass you shall re-engage the test in a later time framework. This is what you expressed, but this is not what you are actually doing.

ANON: Right, and even as you’re saying this back to me, there’s a part of me that’s saying bullshit, it does matter. You don’t want to be writing this again; you want to have passed this. This is not a part of your life anymore; you want to move on.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: That’s the piece that gets really mad inside of me for not listening and when I’m trying to cover it up with “it matters not,” because it does matter.

ELIAS: That is the point, not to be expressing what you suppose is the right expression, that it should not matter to you. That is not acknowledging you. This is what generates this continuous struggling. You are camouflaging. You are attempting to force yourself into an expression that is not real with you.

In that, you are not merely forcing your energy and generating struggle, but you are also generating significant expectations of yourself, not acknowledging yourself, and you are actually significantly discounting yourself. For in those expectations, what you are expressing is that you incorporate certain information and therefore you SHOULD BE expressing in a particular manner. You SHOULD BE feeling and expressing that it matters not. Therefore, you attempt to generate the camouflage that it matters not but that is a denial of what you are genuinely expressing, and it is a denial of what you are actually doing. That generates forcing of energy, discounting, expectations, disappointment, and also is affecting of motivation. For you place yourself upon this hamster wheel, in which you are continually running in this circle of attempting to express, but merely as a façade, in one direction, but in actuality, you are actually genuinely expressing in another direction.

Therefore, the one direction that you perceive to be better or more advanced or more in-tuned is the direction that continuously eludes you, and that is affecting of motivation. For eventually you become exhausted in attempting to attain this position, this expression of being that continuously seems to elude you. Therefore, in frustration you begin to affect your motivation and essentially are expressing within yourself why shall I bother, I cannot achieve this anyway. But that also perpetuates the struggling.

Whereas, if you are allowing yourself to genuinely view and acknowledge what you actually are doing and expressing, and not attempting to push that away from yourself or deny it, that allows you to become more genuinely in-tuned to yourself and acknowledges your preferences, one of which in this time framework is not to repeat engaging the test, for it is tedious and although it is an action that you chose to engage in your process, it actually was not a fun or easy experience. Therefore, as I have expressed, your preference is not to repeat it.

In attempting to move in or don the façade of “it matters not,” you are generating many other actions. You are creating many other automatic responses, all of which perpetuate this forcing and struggling.

ANON: So in the acknowledgment that it does matter, that is leading into the acknowledgment of what the real preference is.

ELIAS: Yes, and that allows you to stop struggling.

ANON: I’m not sure why I was thinking there was something wrong with “it does matter.” Is there an underlying belief in that?

ELIAS: It is an association, and in this, it is also not an uncommon association, for it is somewhat of a misunderstanding. I express many, many, many times to individuals that term of “it matters not,” and individuals interpret that in a manner in which they associate it with religious beliefs, religious beliefs concerning attaining enlightenment or more of a purity of spirit, so to speak, that if the individual can ultimately express in any situation that it matters not, they shall be in a position of more spiritual enlightenment, more freedom, more purity of spirit, and they shall have eliminated duplicity. This is entirely not the point.

In moments in which I express that term “it matters not” to individuals in any situation, I am not expressing that no thing matters. Were that to be so, there would be no point in you participating in this particular physical reality in relation to the blueprints of it. As I have expressed over and over again, even in acceptance of self and of your beliefs, you are not eliminating them and you shall continue to incorporate your preferences and your opinions.

ANON: Then “it matters not” means this is just an experience and our value and all of that stuff is enhanced... I understand on an underlying level what “it matters not” is. I just wasn’t able to make the bridge to I can choose what I want in this reality and create it...

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: ...that I can own those preferences as these are the experiences that I want in this physical manifestation in this focus.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: As you were saying that, I acknowledged that it does matter, and I can feel a softening in my being that I’ve passed the exam and it will be fine. There is a little bit of fear that comes up there, but that’s an automatic response. I can allow that to be there but I don’t have to live in that.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: I guess there’s a fear that I can recognize what my preferences are. A month ago I couldn’t write down what my preferences are. I felt if I did then they would be taken away from me. It was this whole weird thing that was going on. But now I’m practicing getting clear on what my preferences are but not necessarily having an attachment to them. I think this is what you’re talking about, about the outcome...

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: ...and that it’s okay for me to own those preferences and to stand in my confidence in my ability to create them, but not to force the creation of them.

ELIAS: Correct, yes, and not to struggle with yourself in continuously doubting and continuously attempting to don this façade of an expression that is not genuine within you.

It is not wrong to incorporate preferences. It is not wrong to incorporate an opinion. It is not wrong to incorporate beliefs. This is an element of the blueprint of this reality. In that, it is also not wrong to be incorporating duplicity. That is a belief system also, and it is not being eliminated. Were it to be being eliminated, you would no longer incorporate preferences.

ANON: It’s not about judging all these things as wrong; it’s about recognizing that they exist as part of the blueprint and to consciously choose which aspects we want to engage from that blueprint.

ELIAS: Yes, and to acknowledge what your guidelines are and merely recognize that those guidelines are quite real for you but may not necessarily be applicable to another individual. What may be unconscionable to you may be entirely acceptable to another individual.

ANON: I see that the more I look at the globe. Like we have certain standards here about ethics in business, and you look at certain other countries and there’s corruption and so on. I’m looking at that and going it’s not about judging that, it’s about recognizing that that is the form in that country. To go in there pretending it doesn’t exist or to try to force them to do it your way is just being willfully ignorant, almost, of what is actually going on.

ELIAS: Correct, for what may generate success with you may not generate success with another individual. What may generate ruin with you may actually enhance the success of another individual. You all incorporate different methods in association with your preferences and with your guidelines, which your guidelines are your truths and your truths are your beliefs that you have generated into absolutes. They are what they are. Those are your guidelines, and they are not bad, and they are not wrong, and it is not necessary to change them.

This is the point, to be acknowledging your own truths, your own guidelines, not be comparing them with other individual’s guidelines but recognizing also that other individuals may incorporate different guidelines but they are equally as valid and real.

ANON: I actually had a glimpse of that with my ex-husband. I was judging him on his ethics and just a whole bunch of other things. I was saying he’s really successful in business and how could people who deal that way be successful? Well, it happens everywhere. What I’m recognizing is that that’s their preference, and their preference is to be successful. Their method is their own creation, and it’s really not my business. It’s as unique to them as mine is to me.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: So really, for us to be looking at other individuals and their form of success is yet another form of looking outside of ourselves.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: This is what I learned in reading for the exam, the book, where they’re looking at all these case studies of businesses and all the success factors. What I recognized is that they’re all superficial, and the real success factors are the underlying energy and alignment that goes into these businesses that you can’t write in a book. You can’t take someone else’s blueprint and make it your own blueprint.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: I feel a little bit alone with that, too. As I was working with it, I felt so connected, almost like I’m this projection of energy from infinite whatever, like this column of energy, and that I’ve got this bubble of energy that’s my creation. I get to choose what’s in this bubble, the bubble being this focus in this physical reality. I was noticing the struggle, and I recognized very clearly that I don’t want to continue in this physical manifestation if it’s all about struggle. I would rather disengage, like disengaging is getting to go back where I don’t have this illusion to contend with that can be very confusing sometimes. I don’t know if I’m creating disengaging energy right now. I may be, but I’m not sad about it if I am. Can you...?

ELIAS: This is not what you are creating.

ANON: I’m creating a mechanism for me to be continuously paying attention to myself.

ELIAS: Yes, and presenting to yourself information concerning what you actually do. In a manner of speaking, what you are doing now is peeling the layers of the onion.

ANON: What I’m also doing now is I believe I’ve gotten to a place inside myself that I do feel connected, that I’m able to get to my information consistently if I give myself space, or even instantly when I’m working with people, where I didn’t have that before. But now it’s about engaging other people in the world, and that part is where I feel like I’m not sure. Anyway, Mary and I had a really good chat about that.

Body is one of the issues. The other night I felt very boxed in by four issues in my life: body, money, the company that I’m doing, and relationships. These are things for me to look at, and I felt that every single one I had created a wall of either/or. I started writing about it yesterday, and I recognized that the underlying piece of energy, the battle that was going on was a battle between freedom and fear, and that freedom and that I create all of my reality are integral. I can’t create all of my reality without acknowledging and allowing and accepting that I have the freedom to do that...

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: ...without the compromise and the trade-offs. So if I don’t have to compromise and trade-off, the only thing that’s left is to be very clear on what my preferences are.

ELIAS: Yes, and also to allow yourself. For, you may be aware of what your preferences are and also hesitate.

ANON: I want to deal with one situation that’s coming back, and you and I have been talking about this for a long time. I haven’t done anything about it, hoping that energetically I have been clearing it, but obviously I have not been doing that. I want to clear it, I want it out, and it’s the litigation with my other client. Every time I go to do something, I remember that Elias says not to do anything. I’m setting up a conflict between the information I’m getting from you and me, and I’m recognizing that it’s my own information and that I’m bringing in the blocks, and I’d really like to clear the path.

I think I was doing the same thing that I was doing with the exam, saying it matters not if I get paid, but it does matter to me. I want to get paid in full for the work that I’ve done. Where do I go with that? I’d like to understand now, by recognizing that preference. I’ve also gone to the point of saying how these things manifest is none of my business. Well, part of that is true, because there’s no way I can contemplate with my mind all of the permutations and combinations on how something can manifest. My mind would limit the process. Is that right?

ELIAS: I am understanding. Yes, I shall agree with you in that respect, but let me also express to you, what you are doing and what you have been doing is once again a common misunderstanding and generating into black and white, which is an automatic familiar action.

You engage conversation with myself. In that time framework, I shall engage discussion with you concerning what you are generating in that time framework, and I shall offer identifications of what you are creating and how you are generating certain actions and certain processes, just as we are doing now in this day. We have engaged discussions previously, and in each time framework I address with you to whatever you are creating in that time framework. Subsequently, you generate what we discuss into an absolute. You incorporate what I express to you in solidity and begin to view that as an absolute. This is the snare, and this is what creates confusion for you and for many individuals.

I may express to you, as I have, in one time framework the suggestion to not incorporate action, for in that time framework this is the most pressing issue. This is what you are presenting to yourself to be addressing to, automatic responses and pushing. Therefore, it is significant for you to practice not pushing and being aware of your energy, being aware of your motivation and allowing yourself to generate more of a balance rather than extremes.

But subsequently, you incorporate that information, you generate that into an absolute, and as you practice with not pushing, you become more accomplished at that. Therefore, your energy changes, and you become more aware of yourself and how you are manipulating energy and how you are expressing energy. You become more aware of you and what you are doing. Therefore, as you progress and become more aware and are altering your energy and your perception, what was discussed previously may not necessarily be applicable any longer — but you are not allowing for your own input. You are overriding your own input with what I have expressed to you.

This is entirely not the point, my friend. I am continuously encouraging all of you to listen to yourselves. Ultimately, that is the point: ultimately not to necessarily be engaging myself for answers but ultimately moving into a genuine trust of yourself and a genuine intimacy and awareness of self that you shall offer yourself your answers. You shall offer yourself your information. You are generating that action in conjunction with myself now, for this is the method in which you have chosen to be offering yourself information, by engaging conversation with myself. This is your creation. You have created this as a method to offer yourself information.

But ultimately, in shifting, the point is to be offering yourself this information without engaging this type of method. I am not the authority above you.

ANON: I believe that I have been making tremendous movement in myself in many areas where I’m doing that, limiting my interaction with you in a lot of things.

ELIAS: Yes, and I agree, yes, and I acknowledge that. But this is also valuable information that you are offering yourself now. For in this, you may begin to recognize that you incorporate certain information in certain time frameworks for that is what you are addressing to in that time framework. But if you are genuinely practicing with what information you have offered to yourself, there is also an element to be acknowledged that you are moving, that you are altering different elements of your reality, and therefore, you are not stuck in one position.

ANON: And I kept being stuck. That’s why I wanted to talk to you about it. All of the other ones I felt fine about, but this one I felt totally frozen. As you’re talking, I realize that my preference is that I want the outcome of being paid, and it’s okay to have that preference.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: The action may be to engage the other individual in a conversation, because we still live in a physical dimension and we don’t always communicate telepathically what we understand, that information. We need an engagement that goes on.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: But I need to look to the motivation underlying the action.

ELIAS: Correct, and to be aware of what type of energy you are projecting and to be aware of how you are engaging another individual and whether you are expressing in familiar patterns of pushing or whether you are genuinely expressing in an energy of allowance and cooperation rather than competition.

ANON: Let’s work with that then, because I’m not always clear on the energy I’m projecting. Before I understood that I wanted the outcome, and it was almost positional. I kept proving and justifying, and I thought that’s a form of discounting so just let that be and notice what’s going on. Now I look at my motivation, and my preference still hasn’t changed. I want this completed. I feel — and maybe I’m deluding myself and you’ll tell me — that I don’t want to be carrying on with litigation. I’ve learned what I needed to learn from the situation. I appreciate all I’ve learned from it, it was tremendous, and it’s almost like holding me back, preventing me from moving in other directions, but I almost feel like I might be pushing it away a little bit. Let’s take this step by step, because it’s been around for a while. Is that the energy I’m projecting? I just want to phone the guy and say look, this is what I want, I want to be paid in full, and I am prepared to continue on with the litigation but my preference is that we allow this to be completed. But I can’t imagine that he’s gonna say I’m gonna pay you!

ELIAS: (Chuckles) Now; that is a factor.

ANON: This is the victim thing that comes in. I create my reality, but all of a sudden at some piece I don’t create my reality.

ELIAS: Correct, and that is the factor. That is your fly in the ointment. It is a matter of you generating a clarity within you that you are moving in the direction of your preference, you are not opposing, you are not competing, but you also are not doubting that you actually do create your reality.

Let me express to you, in focusing your attention on the other individual and anticipating what the other individual will or will not do, what you are projecting is an energy of opposition. You are not projecting an energy of cooperation, and that is an important factor. If you are expressing an energy of cooperation and not opposition, that shall allow you to create what you want.

ANON: This is actually brilliant, because I’m getting confused about cooperation and compromise. For example, a litigation is a very positional type of action. I say one thing and they say something else. It’s like no, I’m not gonna move. In my reality, I don’t need to compromise on my preference.

ELIAS: Correct, it is not a matter of compromise. Remember, you can create and express cooperation regardless of whether you agree or disagree.

ANON: That’s the piece that I don’t quite get.

ELIAS: Agreement is not a requirement for cooperation. Like and dislike are not requirements for cooperation. Cooperation is an energy that is acknowledging of yourself and also equally of the other individuals, without any opposition.

ANON: It is not about agreeing to his position; it’s about acknowledging that I want to be paid. This is my preference and acknowledging that his preference is something completely different. Just the acknowledgment and acceptance of that is cooperation.

ELIAS: And not generating your attention in the direction of his preference. His preference is his preference in his reality, and whether he actually generates that or not is his choice. What is important for you to pay attention to is your preference and whether you choose to express that.

ANON: I get caught, though, that he needs to cooperate for that to manifest.

ELIAS: That matters not. It is not concerning the other individual. It is not a matter of whether the other individual is expressing cooperation or not. It is a matter of whether YOU are expressing cooperation.

The point is that you reflect to you what you project, what you express. Therefore, this is the reason that it is ultimately important for you to be paying attention to you and what type of energy you are expressing, for that is the energy that shall be reflected to you, for this is what you naturally do.

ANON: What all of us do.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: So if someone snarks back at us, we project out that snarky energy in some way.

ELIAS: Yes, or you have generated some type of an expression within you — a fear, an anticipation, a defensiveness. There are many different types of expressions and energies that you may be projecting, and as objective imagery is abstract, there are many different expressions that your energy can be reflected to you in. But basically yes, you are correct in your example.

ANON: It is the feeling tones underneath that we have to pay attention to, not necessarily the black and white response that the other person is sending.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: And sometimes it’s their energy, too. There’s a play back and forth going on. Sometimes I feel other people trying to extract a certain response from me, and I’m like hold on a minute, I don’t want to respond that way. Is that accurate too?

ELIAS: Yes and no. Yes, you are continuously interactive with other individuals, and therefore, you are continuously in interplay with other individuals’ energies; but what is significant to remember is that every individual that you interact with, you have specifically drawn to yourself. You have specifically drawn each individual to yourself to be interactive with, for they shall reflect in that moment precisely what you are projecting.

In one moment, you may be interacting with a family member, and that appears normal. It appears natural to you, and you do not associate that you have chosen that particular individual, as opposed to any other individual within your world, in that moment for that individual shall precisely reflect to you the energy that you are projecting. In another moment, you may be interacting with a stranger, and that individual also is the precise individual that shall reflect what type of energy you are projecting. There are no accidents. The manner in which you create your reality is so precise and immaculate and perfect that you are continuously drawing other individuals to you precisely to reflect what you are projecting in any moment.

Now; remember, reflections are not mirrors. In this, let me express to you, as a small aside in association with this subject, if you gaze into a mirror, you view a precise image of yourself. If you gaze into a pond, dependent upon the movement of the water, how still it is or how many ripples it contains, the reflection that you view may not be an exact image of you. It shall incorporate differences. It is a reflection; it is not a mirror.

In reflecting, at times you also present precise individuals expressing in precise manners that you may be aware of your own responses or automatic responses, or it may be an interaction that you present to yourself to evaluate or to emphasize what your preferences are — but you have created that. Although the other individual is participating and you are receiving the other individual’s energy, you did draw that individual to you specifically in the situation and the scenario and in the expression that is engaged to offer yourself some type of reflection.

ANON: Even people walking down the path, everything?

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: So, it’s more the feeling tones underneath of those expressions. Is that...?

ELIAS: In a manner of speaking.

ANON: It’s always an invitation to me, when I get confused, to just sit with it and allow it room to give me the information. If I try to analyze it and figure it out, then I always get really confused. It doesn’t work.

ELIAS: (Laughs) I may express to you, that is an allowance of yourself to assimilate, and in that, there is wisdom.

ANON: In the litigation and all of that, I actually really appreciate the scenario I’ve created. It was quite comprehensive. I do tend to create comprehensive, elaborate scenarios. What I’m getting is I do feel like I want it to complete. I feel calm about it inside, but the piece that’s keeping me stuck a little bit is the feeling that this creation is cut in stone, like I can’t go back and change it. It’s almost like you go down certain paths and you can’t go back and undo things, and so that feeling of “oh god, it does matter and you better get it right” always comes into play.

ELIAS: You always incorporate choice, and change is the nature of consciousness. Therefore, whatever you choose, you can always choose differently.

ANON: Can you tell me how I can choose differently in this situation? Because of time, I don’t think I can go back and say this litigation never happened.

ELIAS: It is not a matter of denying past experiences. Although, you could change past experiences, but in this time framework, with you, that would be unlikely.

ANON: I’ve done it with other things, but this one I don’t know that I could do that.

ELIAS: I am understanding. Therefore, it is a matter of what you would term to be moving forward and generating an expression and an energy of cooperation and also acknowledging your preference.

ANON: And again, cooperation is not compromising.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: I’m going to have to sit with that. We even teach our children that, that to cooperate means you give in a little bit and everyone gives in a little bit.

ELIAS: NO.

ANON: Cooperation is an underlying respect for what is...

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: ...what the expressions are.

ELIAS: And allowing for a flow of energy together.

ANON: In that, it’s not concentrating on the other person’s energy, it’s concentrating on my own energy and staying in the openness of allowing...

ELIAS: Yes!

ANON: ...without grasping onto that...

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: ...and fine-tuning the allowing, the openness, over and over again, and without expectation of what the other person is going to do.

ELIAS: Correct, without opposing and without expectation.

ANON: So, don’t go in there expecting them to respond in a certain way. Just go in there respecting that this is my preference, engaging the action to complete what I’ve created here with respect, and respecting him as an individual and me as an individual, our respective energies...

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: ...without attachment to responses. It doesn’t matter what the responses are, the underlying respect stays there, and during the process to be very aware of my energy and be open to allowing whatever his expression is...

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: ...without being caught in whatever his expression is.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: This is where I see the outcome. The outcome just sort of happens if you do this. It’s not that it matters not, it matters because it is an acknowledged preference, but it’s not the point. The point is my awareness of my energy in the interaction.

ELIAS: Correct, and your trust of yourself.

ANON: In doing that, in my trust of self and respect for the other person — for both of us, for that respect is a really important energy for me, anyway — if I go in there with that motivation, that understanding, my interactions are always less oppositional.

ELIAS: Yes.

ANON: That makes senses. What’s happening for me lately is that it’s not making sense in my mind. My mind can’t grasp it anymore. It’s in my being that I understand. Like I told Mary, of all the things I’ve lost, it’s my mind I miss the most! (Elias laughs) We’re doing a little bit of a longer session today, with Mary’s okay.

I felt a shift in myself, as we were talking, in understanding and allowing those energies. It’s not about being inactive, it’s about me listening when I need to engage action and what is motivating that action.

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: I understand that in my being.

One of the other things I’ve been engaging recently is creating my own company, and now I feel really stuck. What’s sticking is my generating enough money to be able to move forward with this. I’m not sure if I’m being too inspecific in my preferences. The form of my company is so different from how other companies work today. Let me narrow down the question. In my alignment with this company, in my energy, is there limitation and blocks that I’m engaging there? (Pause)

ELIAS: This is quite a general and broad question.

ANON: I have the kind of company I want to create, and it manifests in dribs and drabs. In order for me to live, part of my preference is not to have to do slave labor for five years in order to build it up. It’s a common mass belief. In order to go ahead in this physical dimension, I need a certain amount of money and resources to do that, between two million and twenty million dollars, which is a lot of money. I’m not sure how to manifest that or if I can manifest that, or if I have to go back to the compromise of doing the old forms to get there. I feel really afraid of that.

ELIAS: I shall express to you a game to be practicing engaging imagination.

ANON: I’ve been doing that.

ELIAS: Somewhat, to an extent, but I would encourage you to be generating that more fully and allowing yourself to generate expressions of imagination that are more fanciful.

ANON: (Laughs) I keep generating people who keep pulling me down to earth! Like what planet are you on? Is this in the type of product I’m doing or how to generate money or both?

ELIAS: Both. In this, as you generate time frameworks in which you are engaging imagination, subsequent to that, I shall express the suggestion that you incorporate an exercise of attempting to translate the imagination expression into some type of physical manifestation that would be associated with either the money or the product.

ANON: Okay...

ELIAS: That shall generate a busy-ness with you!

ANON: Am I limiting my imagination here? In other words, imagine anything? What’s fanciful? Like other dimensions? Like anything’s possible?

ELIAS: Correct.

ANON: Once I have anything’s possible, it’s almost like an end-point, like I have a vision of all these things happening.

ELIAS: No, you are complicating.

ANON: I’m very good at that!

ELIAS: Offer an example of any expression imagined in this moment.

ANON: This has to do with money generation. I’m shining a light and people are just coming up and giving me money just because they love me.

ELIAS: No. That is not what I am expressing.

Now; in one moment, in this now, pretend that you are a small one. What can you imagine as a small one that would be a fun imagined thing?

ANON: I don’t know, like going out and exploring? I get an image of a little girl going out in a field and finding flowers. That would be fun.

ELIAS: No. You are not understanding the point. I am expressing to you to engage imagination in a fanciful manner.

As an example, engaging imagination to generate a visualization of an enormous butterfly that incorporates a wing span of twenty feet and that incorporates the most brilliant colors that you have ever gazed upon. This wondrous butterfly incorporates a back that is as soft as mink, and it invites you to fly with it. This is a fanciful imagination expression. Allow yourself to feel the back of this butterfly, as soft as mink, allow yourself to stroke its giant, grand, magnificent wings, and feel the silkiness and the strength but the fragileness of them. Allow yourself to experience the exhilaration of flight and the cooperation of yourself and the motion of the butterfly — the gentleness, the strength, the powerfulness, the beauty, the sheer appreciation of the wondrousness and the magicalness of your being and its being.

Incorporate a fanciful expression of imagination in this type of manner, and subsequently incorporate that as a puzzle, and in this puzzle, the exercise is to translate the elements of that imagination expression into some manner of association with your business.

ANON: Whoa! I’m exhausted just thinking about it!

ELIAS: (Laughs) As I have expressed, this shall generate much busy-ness with you!

ANON: I didn’t realize how I much have suppressed my imagination. I can’t even remember as a kid having an imagination. I’ll have to sit with that and open up my imagination more.

ELIAS: That shall also be effective in encouraging you to be expressing more of a relaxed energy, and it shall also encourage you in a greater expression of your own creativity.

ANON: With the people I’m doing this with, the partners I have, do I engage them in this, or is this my vision?

ELIAS: If you are so choosing. It may be a playful, helpful exercise for them also, if they are so choosing to engage it.

ANON: But my engagement of it is still my creation and my reality. I’m almost feeling like I’m responsible for all this stuff, like I’m the leader, but I’m putting too much of a burden on it, aren’t I?

ELIAS: That also, be aware of cooperating.

ANON: Again, cooperating is acknowledging my preferences and my energy and acknowledging theirs. I almost feel like I need to do this a little bit to be very clear on what my preferences are before going on. I’m taking care of people again, and I don’t want to do that, like I’m taking responsibility.

ELIAS: I am understanding. This is not a matter of incorporating personal responsibility and control in association with other individuals. That generates a pushing and struggling energy. It is a matter of generating cooperation.

ANON: Am I doing that a little bit with my brother and his family?

ELIAS: Somewhat.

ANON: I am definitely aware of it. Are there any other bits of advice you want to pass along?

ELIAS: I may express to you that you incorporate enough to assimilate in this present now. (Chuckles) Continue to remind yourself of cooperation, and allow yourself to assimilate. Remember our butterfly.

ANON: I got the feeling of you acknowledging me as a being as you were describing that and its aspects, and I felt very appreciative of that.

As soon as you say “cooperation,” my mind immediately goes to compromise, so I really want to allow myself some room to sit with the energy of cooperation and what that really feels like in my being.

ELIAS: Very well.

ANON: This tiredness that I’m feeling is about the assimilations and all this other stuff that’s going on?

ELIAS: Partially, but also partially it is a fatigue in association with pushing and struggling, which is a forcing of energy.

ANON: It was marvelous. I feel like it’s allowed me to have a lot more clarity and confidence. Thank you.

ELIAS: You are very welcome, my friend. I shall be anticipating our next meeting. I am encouraging of you, and I express my appreciation of you also. In dear friendship, au revoir.

ANON: In great lovingness, bye, Elias.

Elias departs after 1 hour, 32 minutes.

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