Sunday, March 30, 2003 (Private/Phone)

Participants: Mary (Michael) and Letty (Castille)

Elias arrives at 1:13 PM. (Arrival time is 16 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

LETTY: Good morning, Elias! (Elias chuckles) And how are we today?

ELIAS: As always!

LETTY: Oh, wonderful!

ELIAS: And how is the adventure?

LETTY: The adventure continues. As you probably know, I’ve had a few moments that I wish it would discontinue, but it comes back to the reality that I can create something more easy-flowing for me. Still, I’ve had a couple of times throughout the last month, or the last time we discussed, where I still hold onto energy. The releasing of that tension, I think I’m getting better at consciously objectively releasing it, but sometimes it’s tough to recognize that that’s what I’m doing at the moment. Even though I do bring up the question “what am I doing,” it’s still not automatic to notice I’m holding onto energy, and that’s what I was creating.

I have specific questions...

ELIAS: Very well.

LETTY: But I want to ask you before we get started with my questions, about Isabel. I would like to be able to help her understand what we know. I understand she recognizes very conceptually that she creates her reality. In trying not to put too much energy in it, she was a little disappointed because over the last couple of weeks she’s been getting rejection letters from universities that maybe she thought she didn’t want to go to or she did. I really haven’t talked to her very much about it, as she was getting prepared for a theater contest.

If you could help me guide her so she could start looking at herself as to why... We still put so much worth into the society that if we are rejected by a university that means we’re not smart enough or good enough to go to that school. Even though I think we all understand that that’s not the real case, it’s still a little bit difficult.

ELIAS: I am understanding. I am understanding of the beliefs which are expressed in this type of situation.

In this also, your greatest helpfulness in association with Isabel is to be supportive, and if you are choosing to be sharing information, perhaps offering the suggestion that she allow herself to genuinely examine what she wants — not what she thinks she wants, but examine what she genuinely wants — for she is reflecting her wants in the imagery that she is creating. It may be an easier movement if she is allowing herself to genuinely pay attention to herself and what she wants and what her preferences are, rather than continuing to align with the wants and the directions of other individuals, specifically family.

She is allowing herself to acquiesce to the expectations of other individuals, and this is the reason that she is generating this type of imagery, which — you are correct — is not a reflection of her worth or her abilities. It IS a reflection of her own denial of herself and her preferences.

Let me also express to you, this occurs strongly in what you view to be younger individuals, for they have already generated a considerable movement in association with this shift in consciousness. This is not to say that they do not incorporate beliefs, as do you all. But they present to themselves imagery in strong expressions, for in a manner of speaking, figuratively, it is as though they incorporate an understanding of what is being accomplished in this shift and therefore they shout at themselves quite loudly if they are acquiescing and not directing themselves.

Are you understanding?

LETTY: The last part...?

ELIAS: You all present imagery to yourselves, and in this, you all are also participating in this shift in consciousness. But you all also recognize that some individuals appear to be understanding of these concepts more clearly than others presently.

Now; in like manner, those individuals that appear to incorporate a greater clarity in relation to these concepts, they also present to themselves, regardless of their clarity, imagery that reflects what they are denying to themselves, but they may express that somewhat more intensely.

It is likened to your cliché that the more information you possess, the more responsibility it requires. In this, the responsibility is to self. Individuals that incorporate younger ages have been manifest into a time framework of an objective movement of this shift. Therefore, from the time of very young ages, they are displaying in actions their awareness of their responsibility to themselves to be directing themselves.

Now; in time frameworks in which they deny themselves, they also present to themselves imagery which is obvious, therefore the metaphor of if they are denying themselves their imagery is shouting at them to move their attention.

Now; this is not to say that many of you that incorporate older ages are not presenting similar expressions to yourselves as you widen your awareness. The difference is that these children, so to speak, have naturally incorporated an awareness that you as older individuals did not necessarily express, for the most part, until you had incorporated more information, for much of your movement was subjective prior to the objective recognition of it.

Are you understanding?

LETTY: Very well.

ELIAS: Therefore, my suggestion is that you may be interacting with Isabel and perhaps reminding her to be paying attention to her, her preferences, what she wants, and directing herself. For she frequently incorporates this expression of acquiescing in relation to the expectations and the wants and the directions of her parents, which denies her choices and her freedom, and denies her the expression of her preferences. In this time framework, to move her attention and to emphasis the importance of paying attention to herself and the importance of directing herself, she is presenting this type of imagery to herself.

You may also be reminding her that acquiescing to the expectations or the directions of her parents is not helpful to them either. It is not a matter of herself disappointing them. They are generating their choices, and she is responsible for directing hers and her focus, and is not responsible for their expectations.

LETTY: Which I know you had already talked to her about.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: So I’m sure she will. It’s more of a reminder at this point.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Sometimes we think we’re working in that direction, but I know, speaking for myself, the automatic of putting the attention on and the influence of trying to please other people, in our time framework for a long time.

ELIAS: Correct, and this is motivated by beliefs associated with how other individuals perceive you and receiving approval of other individuals and seeking an expression of validation of your worth from other individuals.

LETTY: I know this is going to be helpful in reminding her.

I want to ask you, but I’m not sure where to start. I feel my questions and a few dreams I want to talk with you about are all related. I want to start with a very unusual dream I had a few days ago. I know Cindel was present, so I knew that was one familiar face. There were other familiar entities there that I don’t remember, but I felt that there were people that I feel comfortable with and I feel connection with.

It felt like it was a dream within a dream, because we seemed to be just energies. Within the energies, there was some imagery of being in a tree, being able to balance ourselves from one limb of a tree to another, almost like floating. I’m not sure whether it was another dimension because it was just an unusual... Objectively, the only thing that was familiar was a feeling of what looked like a tree. It was a very peaceful feeling that I felt at the time. It was black and white, because I remember that the energies, or what seemed to be like energies, were white.

ELIAS: And your impression?

LETTY: I have been feeling kind of anxious about various things and it kind of gave me tranquility and that within energy we can be that way. It’s unfamiliar to be constantly like that, but it was almost like making me feel good about how I’ve been uncomfortable or anxious objectively.

ELIAS: Correct.

Now; in this, you have presented yourself with an interesting choice of imagery, but also powerful and accurate. For what you have expressed to yourself in this imagery is an offering of perceiving yourself differently. It is not associated with another dimension. It is associated with yourself now and allowing yourself to expand your perception of yourself, that you are not an expression of your physical form but that your physical form is merely one expression of you, and therefore you are not limited to it.

This dream imagery concerns freedom, an acceptance in balance and an allowance of a free flow of energy, which does generate much more of an expression of calm, but beyond calm it expresses an energy of limitlessness and freedom.

LETTY: Wow. That’s interesting, because the following day I showed myself another perception of myself, quite opposite. I had an interaction, or not quite an interaction, but phone messages from Leezar. I allowed myself to go back to the absolute, to the relationship of the past with the expectations of the present, the whirlwind tornado that I was in in Florida on that specific day, which was good imagery of what was happening weather-wise. At the same time, now I understand I created it.

That night I dreamt the opposite, of being very upset about his messages, because I perceived them into this little box, very limited. Then I had dreams about that same feeling, where I had my doubts — do I want to still commit with him or not and I want him out of my life again. In the dream, people were telling me, “No, call him back, call him back,” and when I tried calling back, the first time the phone didn’t work — nothing happened. The second time, it was even more interesting imagery, the phone disintegrated right in my hand, practically, so I was not able to do that. (Elias chuckles) I know — I’m very dramatic!

I woke up very upset about it, too. I talked to Cindel and she reminded me about the energy I was holding on to. I practiced my relaxation, and then I was able to call and everything just started flowing through. What I found even more interesting was that the same time framework that I was having difficulties dealing with him and pushing him away, he was having problems, like he almost felt my energy. So was that what I was doing? Am I throwing myself from one spectrum to the other in just getting to know myself?

ELIAS: I may express to you, this is an excellent example of how the objective and subjective awarenesses move in harmony and complement each other, and how they express in different manners — how the subjective is expressing a subject matter and information, and the objective generates many different types of abstract imagery in association with what the subjective is expressing.

Now; many, many times as I express this to individuals, the automatic association is that whatever you are generating within your objective imagery and expressions shall match precisely what you are generating subjectively, and this is not necessarily what you actually generate. This is the reason that I continue to express to you all the abstractness of the objective awareness and how it designs imagery in association with the subjective expression. They are moving together simultaneously. One is not following the other. They are merely generating in different manners.

Now; the subjective awareness is expressing an action of being aware of your freedom, and the objective awareness is generating imagery to allow you to pay attention and recognize when you are not allowing your freedom. This was the point.

Now; in this, it appears to you that objectively you are generating the opposite of what you have expressed within your dream imagery. No. Your objective translation of the action of the subjective in the dream imagery was quite accurate. You generated experiences that complement that movement, that are prodding your attention to recognize and notice when you are not allowing yourself that freedom, when you are not allowing a free flow of energy, and when you are binding yourself and confining yourself.

In this, as an example to yourself, you have presented an excellent display of how these two awarenesses move in harmony and how abstract the objective presentment of imagery may be, and also the powerfulness of how you create actions that allow you to identify what you are actually expressing in what you are doing.

Therefore, you have incorporated your communication, you have incorporated somewhat of a translation in thought — although not quite clearly, for although you presented to yourself the communication you are not receiving it entirely — but you also present to yourself the doing.

LETTY: I was trying to interpret that communication in my solar plexus, which was very obvious, and I recognized part of it. At that moment, I felt I was definitely discounting myself. I just realized that the discounting wasn’t that I wasn’t trusting myself or was not accepting myself as worthy, or was the influence of other people as to what I felt my limitations were. But actually now I understand that it had to do with the fact that in the discounting of myself, I was telling myself that I was limiting myself.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: That was probably the hardest part, as you know, in my communication — because I do so well with the objective imagery — it’s many times the emotional. I recognize that there was and it was a feeling I did not enjoy, so that automatically told me that something had to do with the discounting of myself.

ELIAS: But in this also, pay attention, for regardless of whether an experience or a feeling is comfortable or uncomfortable, this has no bearing upon whether it is valuable.

LETTY: They’re all valuable.

ELIAS: Quite. But uncomfortable experiences or feelings are not necessarily viewed as valuable in the moment, and the automatic response is to attempt to eliminate it.

LETTY: Is that kind of what I did? I went to the seminar by myself, knowing that I wasn’t going to know anybody. I really did want to keep to myself and try to pay attention to myself, yet by the second day I created familiarity with it. It really wasn’t about being by myself, because I really am not comfortable being by myself.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Which makes a lot of sense.

ELIAS: It is the appreciation of paying attention to yourself, but not to the exclusion of other individuals.

LETTY: I was trying to give myself time. I read a transcript, and I’m trying to what you call “discover my identification of my attention.”

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: It’s a different way of really paying attention to what you are doing.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: Now I really can catch myself for moments and without being discounting of myself. Yes, I’m thinking about past moments or the memories or planning the future, but without being so hard on myself.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LETTY: About being hard on myself, Elias — why did I create so much pain, so much pain with this little vanity exercise I went and did to get rid of my stomach?

ELIAS: And do you incorporate an impression?

LETTY: For a while I thought I was aligning with a mass belief that no pain is no gain. Then I thought that’s too broad — how does it pertain to me? One of the things that I recognized also was I know I create the moment. There’s a lot of beliefs within my perception that affect the fact that I continue to want a relationship, but I’m trying to understand the relationship I’m looking for is not the traditional, as we’ve talked about. I had little spurts of friends in good relationships that came and took care of me, but then there was that time that I was still alone and wishing someone was there to get me that glass of water.

ELIAS: Let me express to you, this is yet again an example that you have presented to yourself in relation to the concepts that are being discussed now and the movement that is being incorporated now, which is associated with identifying beliefs, identifying preferences, allowing yourself to genuinely recognize beliefs that are expressed and recognizing the influence of those beliefs which are expressed.

Now; this may seem quite simplistic, but in actuality there are many beliefs that you each do actually express but you don’t notice and you do not recognize the belief itself. In this, the manner in which you allow yourselves to recognize what belief is influencing and how it is influencing is to be paying attention to what you do. I am aware that I have expressed this previously, but for the most part most individuals continue to not genuinely incorporate a clear understanding of that action. You have a limited understanding of it, but it is not quite clear yet.

In this, you incorporate beliefs concerning the physical presentment of appearance in association with your gender and what is attractive and what is not attractive. But you also incorporate beliefs concerning alteration of the physical body, and you incorporate beliefs concerning methods of altering the physical body.

Now; these beliefs are quite influencing. Expressing a belief is not associated with thought. This is what generates the challenge in identifying many of your beliefs, for they are not associated with thought. They ARE associated with choice and with doing, and this is how they are expressed.

Therefore, in this, you may recognize now that although you may generate a thought process that expresses the agreement with incorporating methods that are available to you through your physicians to be altering physical expressions of the physical body consciousness, you express a belief that this is not necessarily acceptable, that you should be accepting of your physical form in however you manifest it, and therefore it is an expression of non-acceptance to be altering of it.

Now; your thought disagrees with your belief, but this does not express that you do not incorporate that belief. You merely disagree with your belief, but it continues to be expressed. Therefore, you generate experiences, actions and manifestations in association with the expressed belief, not with the thought.

Thought does not create your reality. It is not your attention, and it does not change reality or your beliefs. Its function is to translate, and many times it translates inaccurately. At times it may identify your preferences, but it may be identifying your preferences inaccurately also, or incompletely.

You do incorporate a preference of physical body expression — which is also associated with a belief, for your preferences are all associated with beliefs — but you did not allow yourself to examine other beliefs that you incorporate also. Therefore, you express the action of all of them. You incorporate the action of the physical alteration in association with your preference, but you also expressed the experience associated with the influence of the other beliefs, which generated painfulness.

LETTY: It’s a perfect example for me that the translating was not accurate in my thinking. In my thinking, I was trying to convince myself that I recognized the belief system. But yet I do recognize moments where I really was not accepting, that I was fighting the belief of allowing myself to have the alteration, because I should accept my body the way I’ve created it.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: That’s part of my process of accepting myself.

ELIAS: Correct. But this is not to say that you do not incorporate preferences, and you do. They are not bad.

LETTY: But they were not genuine.

ELIAS: They ARE genuine. But in expressing those preferences, it is important to recognize beliefs that may be viewed as opposition to those preferences, which you incorporate simultaneously. In actuality, they are not necessarily opposing each other, but they are different beliefs.

Were you to be recognizing this belief concerning not altering your physical expression for that is a display of a lack of acceptance of what you have created, you would have allowed yourself to recognize the influence of that belief and acknowledge your preference, therefore allowing yourself to incorporate the choice of the action that you did and not incorporating the painfulness that you expressed, for you are merely engaging a choice and acknowledging your preference without doubting yourself and without judgment.

LETTY: That judgment of myself, I find it hidden every once in a while. It pops up and I recognize that I have been judging my actions, but not quite objectively.

ELIAS: I am understanding. In this, it matters not. You are correct that you may incorporate any method or any expression within your reality and choose whatever you will to be exploring, to be altering, and it genuinely matters not. Any choice is not better or worse than any other choice, and any method that you incorporate in allowing yourselves to accomplish any action is also not better or worse than any other method.

But you do incorporate beliefs that are associated with duplicity, and therefore you do generate associations with what is better and what is worse. “It is better to be accepting of your physical form in whatever manner you have chosen to express it.” No, this denies preference.

LETTY: Right, and then I go into that whirlwind of thought.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Does that have something to do with all this that we talked about? I know it all comes down to I really want to learn about me. I created this cold since last week that’s kind of annoying, so obviously it keeps me paying attention to myself and my nose. I thought I did it last week because I overwhelmed myself with friends that I wanted to spend time with, yet at the same time I thought it was too much. But it’s still continuing with the infection, so I continue to have a little bit of discomfort within myself with that duplicity.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: And that’s what’s holding it?

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: I don’t know about the young ones, but I think I yell pretty well, too, Elias!

ELIAS: And I agree, which in that discussion and that explanation you may perhaps allow yourself to notice that I was also acknowledging of that. (Chuckles)

LETTY: Well, thank you! You know, my birthday’s coming up, so I keep saying that I’m getting younger because of our beliefs of age. It’s a challenge itself.

ELIAS: I am aware, which is also another belief which was in play in this experience that you incorporated.

LETTY: Oh, you mean age? Oh, yes. I think many times I attribute to one belief system and I forget how many others, especially the duplicity, play in it.

ELIAS: There are many beliefs that are expressed in each action that is incorporated. That of age and of aging was influencing of the healing process, for you express a belief also that as you incorporate more age you generate less of an ability to heal quickly.

LETTY: I’ve got that big one!

ELIAS: (Chuckles) Which is quite influencing.

LETTY: We definitely like to explore!

ELIAS: (Laughs) Yes, you do!

LETTY: I just need to remind myself a lot. I recognize that when I relax my energy, it’s easier to see what’s happening.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: Because when you hold that energy, you block everything — or at least I do very well. (Elias chuckles) Well, this gives me more homework between now and our next session.

ELIAS: Very well. Practice, practice! (Laughs) My encouragement to you, Castille...

LETTY: Thank you, yes.

ELIAS: ...and my support, and also my lovingness. Au revoir.

LETTY: Au revoir, dear friend.

Elias departs at 2:06 PM.

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