The Camouflage of Playfulness
“The Camouflage of Playfulness”
Sunday, March 16, 2003 (Private/In Person)
Participants: Mary (Michael), Scott (Giya) and Jeff (Armund)
Elias arrives at 3:27 PM. (Arrival time is 19 seconds.)
ELIAS: Good afternoon!
SCOTT: Hey, asshole! How ya doing?
ELIAS: (Laughs loudly) Very well, and yourself?
SCOTT: Not too bad! Getting that feeling for the intermediate orientation.
SCOTT: It’s very different.
ELIAS: And what have you discovered?
SCOTT: That it matters not! (Laughs) There’s a temptation to compare all the time. I sort of come in and out of it. Sometimes I’m very comfortable, in a state of bliss like you talked about yesterday, and other times I’m like pulling my hair out. It’s kind of challenging to stay within the self when you’re surrounded by so many commons.
What are the essence family, orientation and alignment for my dad’s dad?
ELIAS: And your impression?
SCOTT: How about for Jeff? (To Jeff) Give him your impression.
JEFF: I don’t know what it means.
ELIAS: (To Scott) Offer YOUR impression.
SCOTT: (Laughs) Sumafi, I think alignment, and Ilda family? (Elias shakes his head) No? Sumafi family? (Elias nods in affirmative) I know he’s very precise, so I figured that was part of it. Geez, family alignment — I don’t think it’s one I’m really familiar with. Maybe Borledim?
SCOTT: He’s Gramada too! Oh, damn! (Elias chuckles) Orientation?
SCOTT: I’ve been meditating, and I hear... I don’t know if it’s you or not, but it sounds like you. Is that you interacting with me?
SCOTT: Can I bring myself to the point where I’m always aware of you?
SCOTT: A health question — why am I creating all the congestion in my head?
ELIAS: And your impression?
SCOTT: It’s blocking my ears, and I think it’s telling me to listen to myself more.
ELIAS: Yes, and pay attention to your communications more clearly without distraction.
SCOTT: I think this is some mechanism I’ve created, where when I go inside of myself I hear a click in my ear. It clicks and it doesn’t really reduce my hearing ability, but am I trying not to hear certain things?
ELIAS: It is a trigger.
SCOTT: Got any questions, Jeff?
JEFF: I’m thinking about some.
SCOTT: Gordon is soft orientation?
SCOTT: Borledim family, Ilda alignment?
SCOTT: My messages are coming in backwards! (Elias laughs) The dyslexic boy who believes there is no dog!
Are there any exercises we could do right now that would enhance my self-awareness?
ELIAS: Engage your exercise in association with the senses.
SCOTT: The five senses?
ELIAS: Yes, your outer senses. I have offered this exercise previously, and it may be what you term to be useful in generating a clearer awareness of yourself.
SCOTT: These things aren’t actually harmful, right? It’s only your choice to make them hurt, cigarettes?
SCOTT: (Lights a cigarette and begins pacing, and continues pacing throughout the session) I’m all over the place here with no questions!
ELIAS: (Chuckles) And therefore, what was your purpose for interaction? Merely to be interactive.
SCOTT: And hang out with a friend.
ELIAS: Very well. (Chuckles)
SCOTT: Am I likely to create the kind of relationship that I want with Kate in the future?
ELIAS: What do you actually want?
SCOTT: That relationship with myself.
ELIAS: And in relation to this individual?
SCOTT: I want to take care of her. I want to make sure she’s happy and care for her but allow her to be independent and totally separate. I really love and respect her, but I don’t think we’re compatible intimately. I notice like a blocking at times. I guess because she’s common, she’s very focused on the physical. I would sort of drift off in my own intermediate zone and stuff wouldn’t matter to me really, but if I have a conversation with her it’s obviously really important to her. So I wouldn’t understand the same thing that she does or see it the same way, and that was a point of discomfort.
ELIAS: But this is also your choice, for individuals may be expressing different orientations and may generate quite a strength in intimate relationship. You do speak different languages, but you also do incorporate the ability to be interpreting and speaking the other individual’s language and understanding the other individual’s language. It is dependent upon what you want and the nature of your desire.
First of all, you express you want to be taking care of this individual. This in itself is a motivation that is askew.
SCOTT: What’s my genuine motivation?
ELIAS: What is it?
SCOTT: Good sex?
ELIAS: And therefore, do you actually want a relationship in intimacy, or do you want to be creating a sexual relationship?
SCOTT: Definitely a sexual one.
ELIAS: Which is acceptable. It is merely a choice.
SCOTT: I had a lot of duality in the relationship. Initially it was fantastic and always was, but I just got so different by the time it was ending than when I went into it. I want her to know that she’s appreciated.
ELIAS: And you may express that. But it is significant that you examine your motivation and that you recognize what you genuinely want. Do you want to generate satisfaction within yourself in a physical expression, or do you want to be generating an intimate relationship with this particular individual in a different type of expression?
Let me express to you, my friend, examine carefully, for you credit the other individual with your freedom and your choices and your performance. Therefore, you also express a common misunderstanding. For in crediting the other individual with your choices and your freedom of expression, you also focus your attention upon the other individual and continue to hold your attention in that direction.
In holding your attention in that direction, what you express to yourself is that you may be experiencing that type of interaction ONLY with that one individual, for that individual allows you or brings this expression out within you. This is entirely incorrect. That is crediting the other individual with your choices and your freedom of your expressions. You may generate those same expressions with ANY individual, not merely that one.
SCOTT: Is Erin intermediate? Not the one that’s here; my friend up in Canada. I think she’s belonging to Sumari.
ELIAS: Family is correct. Orientation, no.
SCOTT: No? She’s common?
SCOTT: She’s very intuitive. It’s quite neat. I thought that was a very intermediate thing.
ELIAS: Not necessarily. Not to the exclusion of any other orientation.
SCOTT: So am I going to create a lot of wealth for myself?
ELIAS: Are you? (Smiling)
SCOTT: I don’t really care.
ELIAS: (Chuckles) What DO you want?
JEFF: Good question!
ELIAS: Other than crystal ball questions!
SCOTT: Harmony. I really like harmony between essence and body and mind. As long as I’m in that zone, I don’t really care about anything else. And this is acceptable.
ELIAS: Quite! And how do you generate that?
SCOTT: By paying attention to myself.
ELIAS: Correct! (Chuckles)
SCOTT: I was listening to my last tape recently, and it was pretty powerful, empowering. But again, I can sit and relax in my room and listen to this stuff, but then when I go out and play in the objective world I sort of lose track of that. I forget everything I know, and I’m apt to discredit myself when I meet a nice young lady.
ELIAS: It is quite easy to not be paying attention, is it not?
SCOTT: God, yeah!
ELIAS: (Chuckles) Directing your attention intentionally may be quite a challenge.
SCOTT: How come I don’t like Carl Jung?
ELIAS: And your impression?
SCOTT: Because he’s happy?
ELIAS: Somewhat, but also that that individual held a strength in his conviction and his knowing, and held steadfast to it regardless of the opposition or that it did not conform to officially accepted beliefs.
SCOTT: He’s common?
SCOTT: What about Bill Gates and Einstein? Einstein, I think, is soft. (Pause)
ELIAS: And what is the purpose of this information?
SCOTT: (Laughs) To compare myself!
ELIAS: Ah! And do you incorporate an expectation that I shall be a party to that action? (Chuckles)
SCOTT: What about this dream I had with this diagram? Is there truth in that? I appreciated it, because at the time it seemed right to me. Does it mean anything bigger than some swirls on a board?
ELIAS: And what is your meaning within it?
SCOTT: It has to do with trust of the individual to create what they want.
ELIAS: Now look beyond.
SCOTT: Trust of me to create what I want?
ELIAS: View the bigger picture. View the drawing, recognize your association with it, and insert it into the bigger picture. What is it? It is an object. Where?
SCOTT: On my book.
ELIAS: It is an object, a large object. Where is it?
ELIAS: No. It is a wall. Where?
SCOTT: In my home?
SCOTT: I’m always looking in the future.
ELIAS: Where is the wall in the future?
ELIAS: In the City.
SCOTT: Protecting me?
ELIAS: Not necessarily, for it is unnecessary. This is a wall in the City in the future.
JEFF: Which city?
ELIAS: The dream city.
SCOTT: Oh, that’s where I got it from. I’ve erected a wall in the dream world.
ELIAS: There is an actual city which is being constructed and has been being constructed...
SCOTT: And will soon be constructed.
ELIAS: Correct, for several of your years. It shall be inserted into your physical reality in what you view to be the future. Many individuals participate in the construction of this city.
JEFF: Is this something in space?
ELIAS: It is within your physical dimension.
JEFF: So it’s within our solar system?
ELIAS: It is within this physical dimension, upon your planet, within this reality. It is a future city. Many individuals within this forum participate in visualizations, meditations and dream interaction, and actually visit this city and construct different manifestations within it. All of the tiles that are mentioned within your transcriptions are all inserted into this particular city. That wall is also a construct of that city.
SCOTT: In this focus will I see it?
ELIAS: It is dependent upon how long you choose to be in this physical focus.
SCOTT: I like it — well, I’m starting to like it.
ELIAS: Or you may actually physically view it if you are projecting.
SCOTT: Oh, cool. So I could sit at home and look at the City.
ELIAS: You may project yourself to it and actually engage it, walk about within it.
SCOTT: Any good bars? (Elias chuckles)
The sense thing you were talking about, paying attention to my physical senses — my hands are freezing cold, and they’re usually like that. That’s to get my attention? I’m holding onto something, holding onto my energy physically. That’s why I stopped taking (inaudible). Why do I want to do that, hold onto my energy so much physically, as if I’m going to run out?
ELIAS: Protection — very strong belief and expresses very strong influences. And what are you expressing protection from?
SCOTT: Rejected (inaudible)?
ELIAS: And what do you perceive it shall be expressing in threat?
ELIAS: Ah, therefore you do not create a safe reality. No other individual, my friend, creates your reality or your choices or any expression within it. YOU create all of it.
SCOTT: I just did that trigger thing again. When you were saying that, I just jumped out for a second and came back in. My attention went to Jeff for a minute, or a second, and came back. And again. (1-minute pause and Elias intensely stares at Scott)
I’m trying to find what my intent is.
ELIAS: What is the general theme throughout your focus — not merely now, but throughout the entirety? This is your clue.
SCOTT: I’ve always been very shy. I put up a good façade, but... (Pause) I don’t know. Thought — it’s very important to me. I place a lot of value on thought.
ELIAS: The theme of your focus, the general direction of it, is expressed in your experiences. What is the common theme? You may move in many different specific directions in association with that general theme, but all of your directions and all of your experiences shall be associated in some manner to that theme, and not deviate.
SCOTT: I went exploring. I came down here on an exploration. I love to explore. I’m very curious. I don’t like evidence of my exploration. Is that the Gramada thing?
ELIAS: Not necessarily. What do you hide? (16-second pause)
SCOTT: Appreciation of myself, my own creations?
ELIAS: And your own credit.
SCOTT: My credit?
ELIAS: Your own credit. You hide; you camouflage. What shall be the fear in expressing an openness?
SCOTT: To be challenged by commons. I can’t handle that very easily.
ELIAS: Ah, therefore you identify an orientation as an enemy.
SCOTT: It has nothing to do with what I do. It has nothing to do with my choices.
ELIAS: What has nothing to do with your choices?
SCOTT: What commons believe or do and say.
ELIAS: Ah. Therefore, what shall be the fear? You have just expressed it is of what you shall be met with by individuals of the common orientation.
SCOTT: An expectation?
ELIAS: You do incorporate expectations. Identify the fear.
JEFF: Fear of not appreciating my own work.
ELIAS: And fear of not generating the ability to accomplish. Fear that you do not actually create all of your reality, but perhaps some of which is created elsewhere. Therefore you erect your protection and you limit yourself. (20-second pause)
SCOTT: I was playing chess yesterday with Jeff. My strategy is basically self-defense. The best offense is a good defense, that’s how I play, and I usually win like that. But that’s on the protection theme as well.
SCOTT: What’s my orientation type? Political?
ELIAS: Ah, your focus type? Yes, political.
SCOTT: What about Jeff?
SCOTT: He’s always thinking. (Pause)
ELIAS: What do you weigh so heavy upon yourself that you camouflage in this playfulness that is a façade?
SCOTT: Some judgment. It’s hidden very well, though. (Pause)
ELIAS: I may express to you the identification of your reluctance to be expressing exposure. You may wear the mask and express the façade and the pretense of playfulness, but in actuality the genuineness of it is lacking, for there is an apprehension and a fear of genuine exposure.
SCOTT: It’s like when I take a trip — sometimes before the trip’s over, my mind is already back home in the safety and the comfort. I don’t think I can continually provide a safe reality for myself with exposure.
ELIAS: And this may be significant to address to, recognizing that you actually create all of your reality, my friend. No other individual may express any action in association with your reality that you do not allow and create yourself.
SCOTT: On an essence level, that’s where you decide it, right?
ELIAS: It is not a matter of decision; it is. It is reality. It is your right, in your terms. And to do so, to be attempting to be creating any choice for any individual is intrusive, and therefore is not expressed. There is no intrusiveness within consciousness.
SCOTT: I see what you’re saying. I don’t want to influence people’s lives by discrediting myself once again like with my last relationship, not wanting to be my own director, going in my own direction while interacting in exposure. I wanted to be alone because it seemed safer.
ELIAS: But quite limited. You may incorporate your time frameworks of aloneness and also allow yourself the freedom of your exposure and generate FAR less obstacles and barriers and allow yourself much more of an openness within yourself, and therefore also generate much more of an expression in association with your preferences.
Is it not quite fatiguing to be continuously erecting this wall of protection?
ELIAS: Much more so than to merely allow.
SCOTT: I’m doing it off and on right now, too.
ELIAS: I am aware. (Pause)
SCOTT: That’s why I was thinking of perhaps taking the session alone, same reason. Why do I default to that? (Pause)
ELIAS: What is your fear of how your friend shall perceive you?
ELIAS: (To Jeff) Do you perceive your friend to be incompetent? No.
JEFF: Not at all.
ELIAS: Do you perceive your friend to be expressing lunacy?
JEFF: The more I hear, the more I want to learn.
ELIAS: Do you perceive your friend to express insensitivity?
JEFF: Like right now? I think he’s being sincere and sensitive.
ELIAS: (To Scott) Therefore you are not insensitive. But it matters not that you receive the validation outside of yourself, does it?
SCOTT: No. Did I just dismantle something? Oh, there it is again — shit! I can feel energy freely flowing and then it just shuts off again, like the blocked drain in the shower today. (To Jeff) Did you get that? Did the bathtub fill up with water?
JEFF: Yeah. It might be recovered by the end of this. (Elias chuckles) Did you want me to go outside?
SCOTT: No, it’s cool.
ELIAS: For merely a moment, allow yourself in this now to experience the energy in this environment. Experience the energy in this dwelling. What is it?
SCOTT: It feels very warm and accepting.
ELIAS: And open. And this is a freedom. This is what you want, but this is what you fear.
SCOTT: It’s definitely what I want.
ELIAS: I am aware.
SCOTT: That was part of the attraction to Kate. She’s very comfortable and that made me at peace.
ELIAS: But once again this is crediting the other individual with your allowance of yourself. Which is dangerous, for it reinforces discounting of yourself, and it merely contributes more bricks to your wall.
SCOTT: It’s a little ironic being an Aquarius. It should be all about giving and recycling energy.
Is there more truth in numerology than astrology?
SCOTT: There’s no truth in either of them.
ELIAS: Correct. They are associated with your beliefs and therefore are quite real, but not necessarily associated with truths. I may express to you, what you deem to be astrology is quite real, quite the reverse of what you view it to be...
SCOTT: Yeah, I actually got that part, sort of intuitively. I recognized that there does seem to be some accuracy in there. But if you continually listen to yourself, it’s going to align with what you’re doing a lot more than if you look at it and check it like it’s an itinerary.
ELIAS: It is the reverse, for your planets and your universe revolves around you, not you around it, for you create it. Therefore, YOU direct those planets rather than them direct you, and you reflect in what you choose in your direction and your personality. It is not accidental that each individual chooses to be emerging or born in a particular time of your year, aligning with a particular astrological sign or planet.
Numerology is a tool, similar to the tarot cards. It is a focal point in which you allow yourself to channel your energy to offer yourself information. Therefore, it is not inaccurate.
SCOTT: It’s only appealing to your thought process, your thought sensor.
ELIAS: Not necessarily. What I am expressing to you is that it is not necessarily inaccurate. It also is an outward expression of your intuition. Therefore, it is quite real and quite accurate at times if you are genuinely incorporating it as a tool, as a focal point to channel your energy specifically and clearly. You may engage that action with cards, with crystals, with many different tools or focal points.
SCOTT: It’s all symbolism.
Can you hear my thoughts? Do you know what I’m thinking?
ELIAS: I do not read thoughts, in your terms. What I attune myself to is your energy and its patterns.
ELIAS: Thought is an inaccurate expression. It is a translation mechanism, and therefore it is not always accurate in its translations. It is not an avenue of communication. Therefore, I attune my energy to your energy, and I interact with those patterns of energy that you are expressing, which offer much clearer information than thought.
SCOTT: How come marijuana affects me so much? Why do I allow it to affect me so much? Last night I had some and I just went off. It was fun, for sure. (Laughs)
ELIAS: It offers you an excuse — a reasonable excuse and an acceptable excuse — to move your attention in different directions and to express yourself in different manners, which you would not generally allow yourself to express without the excuse of the substance.
SCOTT: Is that again not crediting myself?
ELIAS: Yes, for in actuality, as you are aware and I have stated previously, the substances themselves, in themselves innately, express no power. There is no affectingness outside of your beliefs and what YOU express, but it is quite real. (Pause)
SCOTT: Do I share a focus with Julianne and Jenny?
SCOTT: What’s my essence name?
SCOTT: It’s like Buddy or Guddy or something weird like that.
ELIAS: Listen carefully to your impression.
SCOTT: I’m wanting to erect walls around it! (25-second pause) Aldestan?
ELIAS: That is a focus. (Pause)
SCOTT: It reminds me of “Dune” for some reason. (Pause) I don’t know!
ELIAS: Giya, G-I-Y-A (GUY yah).
SCOTT: Same name of the energy in “Final Fantasy,” but it’s not spelled the same. That was a good movie. (Elias chuckles)
So if we can do anything we want, how come I can’t make this coaster float?
ELIAS: You can. You merely do not believe that you can. (Chuckles)
SCOTT: That’s no fun! Hey, look at this — it’s floating! (Elias chuckles)
JEFF: I’ve got that power, too!
SCOTT: What’s Jeff’s essence name?
SCOTT: Can you offer spelling?
ELIAS: A-R-M-U-N-D (ar MOND).
SCOTT: Do Jeff and I share any focuses?
SCOTT: How many?
SCOTT: I had that number in my head! (Laughs) Do I share one with Kate in like the 1600s?
SCOTT: As lovers?
SCOTT: That’s why I’m always a hopeless romantic. (Elias chuckles) What about another one as a mother?
SCOTT: I’m trying to figure out the time on that — twenties?
ELIAS: No. (Pause)
SCOTT: It’s parallel to now, isn’t it?
ELIAS: No. It is simultaneous.
SCOTT: Not in this timeframe, though.
SCOTT: In Japan?
SCOTT: How old was I in 1754 in Japan? Eight?
SCOTT: Do you know what time we started the session, Jeff?
JEFF: I think it was 3:22. I’m not sure. (Elias smiles)
SCOTT: What are you laughing at?
ELIAS: I am aware, contrary to Michael’s belief that I am unaware of physical time. In actuality, you incorporate your physical timing for one question. (Laughs)
SCOTT: What will this question be? There’s always enough time to do exactly what you want, isn’t there?
ELIAS: Ha ha! Precisely.
SCOTT: Time is your expression. Money is time or whatever you want to create. One last question. All right, make it a good one! (Elias laughs) What did we talk about when we came over? Anything that would be cool?
JEFF: When we were coming down here? I can’t really remember. (Pause)
SCOTT: I don’t believe in fighting. Why don’t I believe in fighting?
ELIAS: It is not necessarily that you do not believe in fighting; you do not agree. (Pause)
SCOTT: Accenture — who’s Accenture?
ELIAS: It is not a “who.”
SCOTT: It’s a company for investment. It caught my attention I think the last time I was in New York.
ELIAS: It is a “what.”
SCOTT: Is it only that company, or are there other connections?
ELIAS: It is a connection in association with the movement of that company, its expression. Perhaps you may contemplate and investigate how that is associated with you and your expression.
SCOTT: It’s a patenting company. That’s what it is, right? So crediting myself with my creations.
ELIAS: Or protecting.
SCOTT: (Laughs) Yeah, yeah, yeah! It’s the opposite of my friend, Dave. He’s very open to that, like he wants to give away everything, where I want to protect it. I think it would be used for bad or wrong, like the atom bomb — more so used for wrong against me!
ELIAS: Perhaps you may trust yourself and also not assume personal responsibility for other individuals’ choices. (Pause)
SCOTT: It has to do with money, too — how I’m going to create enough money for myself. Protection again.
ELIAS: You are quite creative, my friend, and well adept at generating finances.
SCOTT: I know, but I don’t like to credit myself with that.
ELIAS: Correct. Examine what you view as so bad or so wrong with generating abundance in any form.
SCOTT: I think it’s a waste of energy. I don’t want to allow it to happen. I want to hang on to the energy that I have instead of allowing more to come through. Whenever you create something you make an energy deposit, and that’ll stand on its own. If I just trust it to stand, it’ll stand on its own. But I don’t trust it to stand.
ELIAS: But it shall, and there is no limitation to energy. (Pause)
SCOTT: That’s why I didn’t create enough money to go snowboarding — protection again.
ELIAS: And holding to your energy.
SCOTT: Why do I always do that? I’m not doing it now. Well, I think I am; look at my hands. I feel a lot warmer now than I did at the beginning of the session. I feel like I’m allowing a lot more to go, to flow. (Pause)
ELIAS: Relax and trust yourself. (Pause)
SCOTT: Am I going to heal these things, my broken bones in my hands?
ELIAS: If you choose.
SCOTT: That was a wake-up call to get my attention. That’s when I broke up — I punched a piece of concrete. That’s when some black belt kicked me in the hand. I think he fractured it or something. Did he? (Elias nods) Because it swelled up like a son of a bitch. So I’m going to heal this by continuing to pay attention to my physical senses, my five senses. Just like the sun today felt so nice.
That gentleman that kicked me in the hand — I don’t even know his name — but I share focuses with him, other ones, right?
SCOTT: As a father?
ELIAS: Yes, one.
SCOTT: Is he also Bill?
SCOTT: (Laughs) Shit! Wow. I’m starting to understand through impressions how intermediates attract other people to themselves. I’m starting to see that, whereas that whole getting-kicked-in-the-hand thing... Hey, this guy just lent me a ton of energy, and I know this guy, he’s very familiar. He’s like a friend of mine. It hurt like a bitch but I trusted what happened, when he kicked me. That’s about it’s greater to receive than give, right?
ELIAS: Not necessarily, but this is a very strong belief. It is much more difficult within your reality to receive than to give, for you do not allow yourselves to receive. (Pause)
SCOTT: Can you increase the energy you’re giving me a lot?
SCOTT: Will you?
ELIAS: Perhaps in another time framework. In this present now you are not allowing for a volume...
SCOTT: An abundance of energy?
ELIAS: Correct. Therefore I may express to you, we shall disengage and if you are allowing within another time framework, I shall freely offer to you.
SCOTT: That could be any time. I don’t have to be here in a session.
ELIAS: You are quite correct, any moment. I incorporate the ability to be offering a connection and expressing my energy within any moment within any situation.
SCOTT: Am I allowing more right now?
ELIAS: Slightly, yes. (Scott takes a few deep breaths)
SCOTT: More now?
ELIAS: (Chuckles) Very well, my friend! I shall be disengaging, and I shall be offering each of you MUCH encouragement. Shall I extend a hand?
ELIAS: Very well. (Slowly extends his hand to Scott and they shake hands)
SCOTT: That’s not a bad grip. Thank you.
ELIAS: You are quite welcome. I shall be anticipating our next meeting. (To Jeff) And I shall offer you encouragement also, my friend.
JEFF: Would I be able to ask you one quick question?
ELIAS: You may.
JEFF: My best friend committed suicide, and I was just wondering if he was at peace now.
ELIAS: Engaging the action of transition, my friend, shedding the beliefs associated with this physical reality and the objective awareness, and moving into different choices.
Let me express to you, it is merely a choice. There is a continued expression of energy in association with this shift in consciousness and its insertion into this reality; but the choice not to participate in physical expression is merely a choice, my friend. I am understanding of your expression in separation and disappointment, but in actuality it is literally merely a choice.
JEFF: Thank you.
ELIAS: You are very welcome. To you both in tremendous fondness and in lovingness, au revoir.
Elias departs at 4:38 PM.
(1) From 9/22/96, The Exercise in Clarity:
Within the beginning elements of this exercise, I shall be asking you to be holding your field of vision, not closing eyes; for you are turning to this attention, this station, this channel. You are noticing and allowing clarity of this channel. Therefore, the purpose is not to be altering your state.
In this, I will ask you to sit comfortably. Focus upon any given object within your room, but do not concentrate intensely upon this object. Allow for your vision to normally encompass the entirety of the room, with one main focal point. Do not strain, and do not force yourselves to be concentrating very hard upon any given object. In this, now tune your consciousness to your senses. Notice your vision. Allow your vision to be as clear as it may possibly be. Tune to your hearing. Notice all of the sounds that occur. Many sounds are occurring that you automatically tune out and pay little attention to. Notice your body, your physical feelings, your body temperature. Notice your sense of touch. The air touches your skin continuously. Your clothing touches your skin. These are all elements that are a part of the clarity of your focus, to which you pay little attention to. Notice smells. You pay little attention to your sense of smell throughout your individual, mundane day. Notice your sense of taste. You view that if you are not consuming something, you are not tasting anything. Your senses are highly tuned, and respond regardless. They incorporate continuous stimulation. You only choose to not be clear upon these senses.
Take a moment to concentrate, unstrained, upon the activity of all of these senses that you incorporate throughout every moment of your physical focus. (Here there is a ninety second pause)
Now, I will be instructing each of you to be closing your eyes and allowing your attention to drift. Do not be focusing upon your outer senses, so to speak. Allow yourself to feel comfortable, and calm, and quiet. (Here there is a thirty second pause) Enough drifting!
You will notice that with your eyes closed, you will drift. You have experienced, within your attempts at meditation at times, difficulty in holding your focus. You experience, much of your time within your dream state, an inability to hold your focus and manipulate within that focus. This exercise of tuning your directed attention, your consciousness which is tuned to this channel, will be very helpful to you in instructional areas of developing your ability to be manipulating within alternate channels. Altered states, as you term these, are all alternate channels. If you hold the ability to consciously manipulate within the consciousness that holds your attention, you will more easily learn to manipulate and understand within alternate channels of consciousness. Therefore, throughout this week, until our next meeting, I shall offer you the opportunity for what you would term to be homework! I shall be instructing you to be practicing this exercise three times within each of your days. You may incorporate this exercise at any given moment, for your eyes are open, and you are attentive to all those individuals around you and also any activity that you may be engaging, for you are tuning your consciousness more clearly. You are not drifting. You are not placing yourself into an altered state. Therefore, this exercise will not be interrupting of your normal activity.
In this, incorporate one time for initiating this exercise within your evening time, while you are relaxed at your home, individually. Therefore, you may follow your directed “tuning in” to your attention channel by closing your eyes and allowing yourself to drift. In this, while you are allowing yourself to drift, you may incorporate this action briefly, only within a time element to be noticing those events that are occurring. This may be color flashes, it may be feelings, it may be scenes. You may incorporate visualizations. You may incorporate mental images, as you term these. You may find yourself incorporating thoughts “slinging” by you rapidly. Notice what occurs.
Do not concentrate intensely upon the experience. It is only an exercise. It is unnecessary to be very serious and directed! You may incorporate this as fun, and it may be brief. It is not necessary for you to be setting aside hours of your time and very directedly concentrating on accomplishing! It is more important for you to be tuning consciously, eyes open, to the awareness that you are familiar with; for as you learn to be directed, and manipulating within that directedness, you shall also learn to be directing within alternate realities.
I express to you that you may be manipulating within your clarity; for what you have experienced presently within this exercise is only noticing. As our week progresses and you are incorporating this exercise, you may attempt to manipulate these senses. Allow the clarity of your hearing, and then intentionally turn it off. Allow the clarity of your sense of smell, and then disengage. Allow yourselves the opportunity to view your own ability to manipulate your own consciousness and its functions; for in this, you may much more easily recognize how to be manipulating when encountering different events within alternate focuses.
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Copyright 2003 Mary Ennis, All Rights Reserved.