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Session 20220521

Mary’s Talk

“A Happy Camper”

Saturday, May 21, 2022 (Group/Hinsdale, New Hampshire)

Participants: Mary (Michael), Ann (Vivette), Bonnie (Lyla), Christina (Melian), Debbie (Tamarra), Denise (Azura), Eric (Doren), Hazra (Lettecia), John (Rrussell), Karen (Turell), Kathleen (Florencia), Lynda (Ruther), Magdalena (Michella), Mark (Liam), Melissa (Leah), Naomi (Kallile), Veronica (Amadis) and Yvonne (Zarla)

“People should just be really encouraged that you can do whatever you want to do and you can make it work – anything.”

MARY: Well, my little talk is going to be a little talk, just a little short because I don’t really have a whole lot to say this time for some weird reason. Because I’m just a happy camper, so I don’t have a whole lot to talk about. (Group cheering and applause)

I’m just happy. Ever since my studio got finished I’m very happy about it, and I’m very happy just in general. And yeah, everybody is, according to Ann’s session, creating things to make them pay attention to themselves. I’m paying attention to myself because of the M17! (Group laughter) I don’t care about anything else. (Laughs) I’m very happy about this new [sewing] machine I’m about to get. You might not see me in the fall; I might just rocket-ship to the moon on this thing. (Group laughter) It might just jettison me out into space! I’ll be the one that is signaling the extraterrestrials that they can come and see us. (Group laughter) I’ll be like, “Hi! I’m on the M17. Go to earth! Go say hi to them!”

ANN: “All is well!”

MARY: Yeah. I’m just very happy these days, so I don’t have a whole lot of things that are like… You know, all I can say is, everybody should just go in the direction of what they love, and just do it. Because you know what? (To Mimi, one of her dogs, as she picks her up) Yeah, this is part of what I love. Because who knew that I could get one of these (indicating Mimi) and that I could also have my studio, and that I could also get this new M17 rocket ship (group laughter), and that I could DO all these things? Who knew that I could do all these things? I didn’t know until last year. So, let me just tell you, just last year – it’s only been one year. One year. Up until then, I didn’t think I could do anything and, you know, I was in total survival mode, which I’ve been in my whole entire life, which sucks. It’s so nice to not be in that. (Chuckles) It’s so wonderful to just be free and do what you want to do and be who you want to be.

I mean, I agree with Ann: magic is in every single day. It’s everywhere. It’s all around us. It’s everywhere. It’s… I mean, I think that that studio upstairs for me is like a total example of the impossible being possible, and making something impossible happen. Because that was impossible, and it happened anyway. (Laugh) And it’s so amazing! It’s so amazing how your perception can change so dramatically.

I mean, one year ago I would have looked at this new M17 machine and I would have been like, “Wow, that’s so great. I wish I could get one of those. I’ll never be able to get one of those. That’s impossible. I would never be able to afford that.” What?? Yes, I can! (Laughs) I’m like, “Why not?” And I think people think you have to do everything at once, and that you know, like okay, if I want this machine, then I have to just go and just pay for it all at one time – no, you don’t. You don’t have to have all that money all at one time. I mean, by the time I get it, I will have paid for the whole thing, but it’s like… I don’t know. It’s just amazing!

And I was talking to them the other day – Debbie of Debbie and Phil (laughs) – I forwarded an email to her that I got from one of the places that sends me things about sewing machines and stuff like that. This particular place is a sewing machine store for long-arm machines, and they’re really expensive, and I sent it to her. I actually didn’t look at it. It just said that they were all on sale, so I sent it to her. And she sent me back this email saying, “Of course I want the most expensive one, which is now on sale for $30,000.” And I wrote her back and I said, “Oh, piece of cake!” (Group laughter) “$30,000? That’s nothing.” She was like, “What?” I’m like, “That’s only $4,000 more than the M17. Who cares?” (Laughs) I’m like, “That’s amazing! That’s nothing!”

A year ago, I would have looked at that number and I would have choked. I would have been like, “Oh, whoa! That’s a lotta, lotta money.” It was just amazing to me to actually think, “Wow, I didn’t even flinch. It didn’t even seem like a big deal to me.” I’m like, “How’s that even possible?” My perception has changed so much that that’s not even… It’s like I don’t even know how that’s possible.

And it feels so good to not have these limitations, you know? You don’t have to be rich to not worry about money. You don’t have to have like bazillions of properties and lots of money and all kinds of stuff. If people actually looked at my bank account most of the time, they would be like, “How the hell do you do anything?” I mean, there are so many times when my bank account maybe has like, I don’t know, $78 in it. (Laughs) Or maybe $150 in it. I mean for real, it goes down that low. (Laughs) And it’s like you know, it doesn’t matter. But my bank account doesn’t have any money in it because my cookie jars have all my money. (Group laughter)

LYNDA: Your gnome cookie jars.

MARY: My gnome cookie jars have all the money. They eat the money. They love it. (Laughs) So my bank account doesn’t have a lot of money in it hardly ever, and so it’s like if people were looking at my bank account they’d be like, “You can’t afford anything.” (Laughs) But oh yes I can, because I make it work.

The thing is, is that when you’re not worried about it and when you don’t care about it, you just make bunches of it. It’s like (laughs) when you just aren’t worried about it and when you’re not thinking about it or concerned about it, you just make lots of it. And I’m like, “Oh, this is amazing!” (Chuckles)

(To John) I should charge you double, just because you said… (Group laughter) When I decided to raise my prices, he told me I should double them.

ANN: Wow.

MARY: I said no, I couldn’t do that, and so then I didn’t. But then we were going back and forth about a session, (to John) wasn’t it about?

JOHN: Which? When?

MARY: Wasn’t it about…? That’s why you said, “Don’t charge me double” for a session. Right?

JOHN: That’s right.

MARY: Yeah.

JOHN: No, because I suggested you have to double it if you want to do what you want to do.

MARY: Right. Right. Right. And then he was like, “But don’t charge me that.” (Group laughter)

But I mean it’s just… and I do have to say that going in new directions – I know this going to sound retarded and everybody’s going to be like “Well, duh” – but it really is unfamiliar. Like, for 27 years I have been making my schedule on a month-to-month basis, and I do the monthly calendar so it’s got all the little boxes, and I have something in every box. And if I don’t have something in every box, then I get nervous because I’m like, “Uh-oh, I’m not making enough money if all those boxes don’t have something in it.” And so it took me two weeks and I redid my whole schedule, and (laughs) then I had all these boxes in my calendar that didn’t have anything in it. And I was like, “Uh! There’s nothing in all these boxes! I won’t be able to pay my bills, I’m not going to be able to pay for Donnalie’s bills. Oh, this is terrible!” And then (looks at Ann) –

ANN: I’m brilliant.

MARY: She is brilliant.

ANN: It’s true.

MARY: She is brilliant. She’s like, “Just put ‘quilting’ in those boxes.” And I was like, “Ah! Brilliant!” And I did, so now there’s something in those boxes that were empty, but now they’re not empty and they have “Quilting Day” in them. I don’t actually look at what’s in the boxes; I just need to know that SOMETHING is in there. (Group laughter) So now I look at my calendar and I’m like, “Oh, I’m fine,” even though I’m actually taking days off. Well, not yet, but I will be in June. (Laughs) I’m actually going to have days off, which is such a concept. It’s like, “What?”

I have not taken days off. I tried. For a very short amount of time, I tried to take one day off a week. It never worked. I always ended up putting somebody in there, because someone would write me and I wouldn’t have any place to put them, so then I’d put them in on my supposed day off. And so then I’d be like, “Okay, never mind.” But now? No, I’m committed to this. I’m taking days off.

ANN: And you’ve already got something in the box. They won’t fit.

MARY: I know. I do have something in the box. All the boxes are full. And I took another suggestion – because I have too many clients – that I do some of them every other month, which was also brilliant. So now I have room for all of my clients, and I still can do other people that AREN’T regular clients. I can still put them in too, because I still have room. And I still can take my days off, which I will be spending upstairs in my studio.

DENISE: More quilting, less channeling.

MARY: Yes! More quilting, less channeling. Less working, more quilting. (To her dog, Mimi) And yes, that’s what we’re going to do, huh Mimi? We’re going to be upstairs doing quilting like crazy with the rocket ship. (Group laughter) It’s going to be great.

So anybody that thinks, you know, they’re depressed because they don’t have enough money for things, don’t think that. You will have. I mean, it’s just a matter of being determined and just telling yourself something until you actually believe it. Because let me tell you, last year I did not believe that I could do—

(Debbie enters) Hi! There she is! (Group chatter) Do you have the picture for her? Who has the…? Oh yeah, Ann has a picture for you of a house for sale. (Group laughter and chatter)

So I think people should just be really encouraged that you can do whatever you want to do and you can make it work – anything, it doesn’t matter. Who knew that I could turn that space upstairs, that when I first moved there it didn’t even have a floor. You couldn’t even walk through there, because it just had boards on top of the rafters. (Laughs) I mean, there was nothing up there – nothing – and now look at it. It’s beautiful and functional. (Laughs) So I mean… And it ended up costing half the amount of the house.

ANN: Wow!

MARY: So that’s a big accomplishment—

ANN: Yeah.

MARY: —to actually do that. I mean, it’s amazing. It’s really amazing. So you can come from the dregs of the world, you can come from the worst background ever – I don’t think you can come from much worse than my parents (chuckles). So it doesn’t matter where you come from, you can end up someplace just awesome and magnificent. So, there you go.

And that’s all I’ve got this time. (Group laughter) Just happiness. (Group applause)

Everybody can now listen to the dead guy. (Laughs) I’m sure he has something profound to say. He always has something profound to say. (Laughs) Now he won’t have anything profound to say.

LYNDA: You never know. (Group laughter and chatter)

(Mary’s talk ends after 18 minutes)

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